WARNING chapter contains non consensual sexual themes and lemons. Be warned and please read with caution.
My eyes go wide as I hear shouting just past the entry way of the lightwood home, a thud sounding at the door. After some more yelling and some slight scuffling the door finally flies open, a young boy who couldn't be older than 8 opening it with a wide toothy grin on his face.
"Max get out of the way that's my friend!"
I watch, my mouth slightly hanging open, as Izzy picks Max up and starts to tickle him. Little laughs burst out of the young boy as he wriggles around in his sisters arms, calling out uncle as he begs her to stop.
And the crazy thing is, she listens to him. She lets him go and turns to me, her own toothy grin present.
I can't help but feel envious to his demands being answered.
To everything stopping when he wanted them to.
It just seemed... unfair.
"Hey Clary, sorry about that but Max was really excited to meet my new friend."
She lovingly pulled him to her side, a look of pride written all over her face.
I missed the day's when he used to look at me like that all the time.
When he would listen...
"So Clary, this is my little brother Max." As she introduces him she ruffles his hair, causing him to laugh again.
He just seemed so, innocent.
It was almost a breathe of fresh air to see it.
"And Max this is my friend Clary."
He steps forward and thrusts out his hand to me, his voice ringing out clear. "Hi Clary! Would you like to see my manga book? I'm still trying to figure out how to read it but it looks cool!"
I feel a smile start to spread on my face as he speaks, the need to entertain this tiny person crawling up into my heart.
"I'd love to Max, I actually read a bunch of mangas myself so I could teach you how to if you'd like?"
I feel a little hand grab hold of mine as I finish my offer, the impossibly adorable boy pulling me away from the front door and towards what looked to be the living room.
Such a pretty house.
I wonder if it too has it's ugly secrets. From my own experience, the more beautiful the home, the uglier the secrets it holds.
Max plops down onto one of the grey couches and grabs a manga book off the coffee table, thrusting it into my face as I sit beside him. Izzy appears with a tray full of snacks and some water. I mouth 'thank you' to her as Max begins to talk.
"My parents bought this for me at the airport during our last holiday but the story line is so confusing. I've tried to read it over and over again but nothing makes sense.."
As he continues to ramble on I open up his book to the second page starting from the right hand side, quietly explaining the proper way to read it to him as he goes silent, a look of complete concentration on his face.
A look of pure innocence.
Oh innocence, does it actually still exist in this world?
And if so, why couldn't it still be mine?
Mine... that has a nice ring to it...
Mine...
"Hey Clary!"
I look up as I hear Jace's voice, his eyes gleaming as he makes his way to sit beside me on the couch.
My heart rate begins to speed up.
He's not here to see it, he's not here to see it, he's not here to see it.
Right?
He sits next to me, grabbing the manga from my hands and taking a look at it.
I inch closer to Max.
No one notices.
"Boring Izzy's new friend with your books Max? I thought that you had given up on reading this thing."
Max jumps up when Jace takes away his manga book, calling out a "HEY" as he jumps over me trying to reach his, kneeling on my legs in order to reach up slightly higher.
He was tiny and yet warm on my lap.
Such a nice warmth.
So fragile.
But then, when he finally grabbed the book from Jace, he started falling headfirst towards the floor.
I'm not sure what instinct kicks in but before I know it I had pulled him back to land on the couch, my body losing it's balance and falling to the floor. As I land I feel a weight settle on me, then suddenly all the wind is knocked out of my little body.
I gasp for breathe on the floor, my eyes closed from the pain of feeling something heavy land on top of me. When I finally open them, I immediately wish that I never had.
A pair of golden eyes are above me, staring down in worry.
Time seems to stand still for a moment as we stare at each other, his eyes looking oh so familiar, the set of his mouth..
He oddly looks just like Sebastian did when we first started dating, when he was still the man I loved.
I started to feel a little warm inside.
"I am so sorry Clary are you ok?"
I am pulled up to my feet by him as Izzy rushes to my side, fussing over me as she scolds her brothers.
"Come on guys don't break her she just got here!"
Max started to spew a string of apologies as he kneels on the couch, and I couldn't help the feeling of relief that washes over me as I see that he is ok.
"What is going on in here?"
I turn around and see Maryse standing under the archway of the living room, hands on her hips and a stern yet concerned look on her face.
"Everything is ok, just a little accident but I'm fine" I say as I look at her.
So this is the woman who was friends with my parents.
She knew them. She knew them she knew them she knew them.
And she didn't say anything to me.
"Alright then, why don't you guys come over to the table? Dinner is already set, and your father is running a little late so we can start without him."
The Lightwood siblings cheered as they made their way into the dining room, everybody blissfully unaware of the storm raging in me.
So much happening, so much to process from one night alone.
We sat around the table eating, family chatting together as I observed. I could feel the weight of the steak knife in my hand as I cut deep into my meat.
It would lovely across Maryses throat..
No, stop.
But, then I could have my revenge for her secrets, little Max could be all mine too.
Mine...
I'm jolted out when I hear a male voice calling out that they're home, a man entering the dining room with a grin on his face.
It falters when he see's me.
He pauses, looking as though he has seen a ghost.
"Jocelyn?"
I had bolted out of my chair before I knew it, hearing the shouts of the light woods behind me as I ran out of the house and down the street. I trip over my own two feet at some point, my hands and knees hitting the ground hard as I landed.
I didn't feel much of it.
Someone finally spoke the truth.
They did know my parents.
Those liars.
I could feel unwanted thoughts start to flood my brain, the question of "what would Sebastian do?" repeating itself over and over again.
The image of the steak knife I was holding gliding across Maryse's neck flashed across my mind again. Although Robert might deserve my mercy, he didn't lie to me like she did... I hate lies.
"Clary?"
The voice melts my heart when I hear how sad it is. I raise my head and look at Max, who was alone.
Did this small human chase after me?
"Are you ok? I'm sorry if my dad scared you, or if something made you uncomfortable. Please come back, Izzy is so happy to have you as her friend and I don't want her to lose you."
I reach my hand out to this young boy, grasping onto his own hand as I put on the most comforting smile I can. "I'm ok Max, thank you for coming out here. I'm sorry I ran, I was just shocked about something. Izzy isn't going to lose me I promise, none of you are." Although they might lose something if I don't keep my thoughts in check. Sebastian was really starting to get to me.
His face lit up in a grin as he bounced a little, doing his best with what little strength he has to pull me up.
"Come on then! Everyone's waiting for you to come back!"
We meet Izzy as we walk, her arms are thrown around me in obvious relief that I came back.
She would need to be saved from that liar, her and Max. I couldn't have them become like her. I couldn't let her taint their innocence.
Oh what innocence they have.
She is standing stiffly as we enter the dining room, her arms crossed as she glared at her husband.
"We are so sorry about that Clary, my husband thought that you looked like an old friend of ours which is impossible. Isn't it Robert?"
He avoided my gaze as he agreed with his wife, putting on a fake smile that I could see right through.
So he has decided to join her side.
Oh well, it's his choice to die..
My mind freezes as the thought finishes, I couldn't have possibly thought that. Could I?
No, no i couldn't. The thought was entirely too, Sebastian like.
It was just my imagination.
I would never think of actual death on someone.
Right?
The rest of the night goes on without another hiccup, Jace and Izzy dropping me off after.
They both exit their cars and walk up to my front door with me, a gasp leaving Izzy's lips as she catches sight of my hands when I pull out my house keys.
"Clary are you ok?"
I look down and see all the dried blood from the scrapes on my hand, something I didn't even notice or feel until she pointed it out.
"Oh, I didn't even notice. I fell when I ran earlier, this must've happened from that."
"Do you have a first aid kit?"
I turn my head towards Jace and nod, surprised by his question.
"I do, I can just go in and clean myself up."
Jace gently pushes me aside as he unlocks my door and enters my home, holding it open for me.
"I'll do it for you, it's the least I can do after what happened earlier."
I nervously look to Izzy then to the outside of my house, surveying its surroundings. He wasn't here, And I wouldn't be alone with him, Izzy would be right there.
I nod my head slowly, giving my consent as the three of us walk towards the downstairs bathroom where we keep our medical supplies.
Izzy leaves to get a glass of water from the kitchen.
Double shit.
Jace is gentle as he cleans my wounds, taking great care as he bandages my hands.
"Why did you run?"
I almost didn't hear his question, his voice barely above a whisper while his head is still bent towards my hands.
"Jocelyn is my mothers name, her and my father died in a car accident a few years ago. People say I look just like she did when she was my age, so when I heard him say her name, I thought..."
My voice breaks and before I know it I am swept into his embrace, so warm and so inviting.
It felt so much like the hugs Sebastian gives me when he is feeling kind.
When he actually shows his sick and twisted love for me.
Jace lets go of me, putting away all the supplies he used as Izzy comes in with a water, asking if I had any pain relief meds in here I could drink. I tell her that they're in my room and promise to take them before bed. And as I stand under my front door, watching the two of them walk towards their car after I gave Izzy a hug, I couldn't help but notice how much Jace looked like Sebastian from the back.
A lighter and kinder version.
I wave as they drive away, my form starting to shiver as my mind begins to process the day. The good, the bad, the seemingly impossible sinister part of my thoughts.
Had I really thought those thoughts while with the Lightwoods? The thoughts had felt foreign, more like they were Sebastians thoughts rather than my own.
Speak of the devil..
I grab my keys and make my way over to his car when he pulls up in front of my house, already knowing that I wouldn't be coming back tonight.
Already mentally preparing myself as he kisses the back of my hand, not looking at me as he drives to his mansion.
It's silent in his home as we make our way over to his room, a sign that no one's home again.
How wonderful.
He wraps his arms around me tightly as he pulls my back into his chest, leaning down so that his lips were against my ear.
"Were you alone with any of them?"
I kept my breathing steady as I lied, "Only Izzy and Max, her youngest brother. He's not even ten years old yet and he followed me when I ran away and tripped."
"Ran away?" He questioned as he slowly turned me around to face him, my arms automatically resting on his chest.
'Give him what he wants and he might leave you alone' my thoughts whisper as I look up at him, I didn't have the mental energy to deal with his sinister side today.
"Their father, he, he called me by my mothers name. And his bitch of a wife still had the audacity to lie about them knowing my parents, she even made him lie about it too."
I could feel my blood start to boil as I spoke, my heart starting to beat a little faster as my eyes teared up.
"And how did that make you feel my little flame?"
I took a moment before answering, questioning wether I should be honest or not. Wether I should acknowledge this new yet dark part of me that has begun to grow.
"I wanted to kill her"
I truly did...
Sebastian barks out a laugh as he pulls me in close, his face nuzzling into my hair.
His embrace felt so warm, so much warmer than Jaces.
"I am proud of your honesty my love, would you like me to take care of her?"
"No!" I back away as I answer, shaking my head. "Leave them alone Sebastian, please just leave them alone."
He assesses my face for a moment, a low laugh coming out of his lips as he walks towards me, backing me up until my back hits the wall.
"Only if you do me a little favor."
I look up into his eyes, a questioning look in my own. A favor?
I get my answer when he pushes on my shoulders hard enough to cause me to fall on my knees, his hands placing cuffs onto my own behind my back.
Oh god please no, not again. Please not again.
He stares down at me as be unbuckles his belt, his hand slowly sliding down the zipper until his pants pool around his ankles, his boxers following soon after.
"Suck."
I am immediately frightened by what I see. I had never seen a mans penis before, and while his didn't seem to be too large, it still looked intimidating to my eyes.
He roughly grabs my hair as I stare dumbly at his member, pulling my face closer to it.
"Do as I say little flame, be a good little girl for me."
I nod my head as he says this, deciding to go down the route that would end with the least troubles.
I open my mouth.
He lets go of my hair with one of his hands and hold onto his member, guiding it towards my mouth as I give it a tentative lick.
He tasted salty.
I stick my tongue out at his command and he rubs the head against it, slipping it into my mouth where I'm commanded to wrap my lips around it.
He gives a sharp hiss of pleasure as i swirl my tongue around him, sucking lightly remembering his earlier command.
His other hand finds its way back into my hair as I slowly take more of him into my mouth, stopping mid way as I gagged. I tried to pull back, but his hands gripped my hair tighter as he forced more of himself into me, tears began to pool around my eyes as I felt him push into my throat. It was starting to get hard to breathe, my hand leaving me defenseless as they rested against my back.
He stopped once he was fully in my mouth, his balls resting against my chin. I worked hard to try and breathe through my nose, looking up up at him with a pleading look in my eyes as he looked down on me. His eyes were feral, his mouth hung open with a look of obvious pleasure on his face.
He pulls himself out until just the tip is left in my mouth and I gasp, relieved to finally be able to breathe again.
"Did I tell you to stop little flame?"
He tugs my head forward slightly and I oblige, worried that he was gonna force himself down my throat again if I didn't listen.
His hands guide me as I begin to bob my head against his cock, my tongue flattening against him and my cheeks hollowing to try to create a suction as my head moved.
He began to moan as I swirl my tongue, his hands gripping my head harder, urging me to move faster. And I do, until he holds my head still and begins to thrust himself into my mouth, my gags seeming to only push him to move faster and faster until he suddenly comes to a stand still, hot liquid spilling onto my tongue as he throws his head back.
I stare up at him with wide eyes as he pulls out, his hands tilting my head back.
"Open up your mouth my flame, let me see inside that pretty little mouth.
I do as he says and stick my tongue out so that he can get a better view.
It's almost over with it's almost over with...
"Now swallow"
I do, his salty taste traveling down my throat.
"Good girl"
He uncuffs me and picks me up bridal style, carrying me over to his bed and gently laying me down on top of his sheets before climbing on top of me. His hips nestling between my legs.
"Sebastian, please no, that's enough for tonight I'm tire.."
I don't even finish my sentence, his hand grabbing onto my throat and effectively cutting me off.
"We are finished when I say we're finished understand?"
I nod my head frantically as I grab his hand over my throat, his other one savagely smacking my ass before grabbing it in a death grip.
"Now, hold on to my headboard for me angel. And whatever you do, do not let go."
The threat in his voice is clear and I follow his instructions without question. I silently sigh in relief when his hand lets go of my throat, however that doesn't last long as his hands wander down to my jeans. My body tenses as he unbuttons them and pulls them off of me, my protests dying in my throat as I remember his earlier threats.
Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I give in? maybe he would leave me alone sooner...
"AHH"
My back arches off of the bed as his lips latch on to my clit the same way they did last time, aggressively sucking as he wraps my legs around his head.
It's definitely my imagination that my legs tightened their hold around his head as he dragged his tongue up my slit.
Right?
I can't contain my moans as he continues to lap at my core, my legs starting to shake around him.
Maybe I should just turn off my mind, hide away in my mind and let him have his fun.
That thought is immediately proven to be impossible when he opens my wet folds with his fingers and thrusts his tongue into me, his other hand pinching my clit as he continues to devour my cunt.
As he continues to devour my body and mind.
I can feel my self start to climb up higher and higher as he inserts two of his fingers into me, his slow thrusting gaining speed as my moans become louder. My walls were fluttering around his fingers as they curled in me, I don't know how much longer I'm going to last like this.
Almost, almost...
I give out a whine as his mouth disappears from me, his fingers slowing down as he gives a low chuckle at my protest.
"Be a good little slut and beg for it."
I shake my head, heat rushing up to my cheeks as I think of what it would mean if I begged.
I couldn't let him have the satisfaction. I cannot let him win.
He trails his tongue between my breasts, circling it around my nipple before gently bitting down.
I stifle a moan as he sucks on my breast, his hand beginning to slowly but surely move faster within me.
"Beg" his voice growled into my ear as his hand moved harder and faster, my orgasm just out of reach.
All I needed was for him to touch my clit and I would cum, just that one little touch and I can finally reach my climax...
I couldn't take it anymore.
"PLEASE! Oh god Sebastian please please please I need you to finish me.. OH GOD SEBASTIAN"
I scream out in pleasure as his lips finally latch onto my bundle of nerves sucking hard, his fingers once again curling within me.
My legs shake as my orgasm rips through me and I throw my head back as I ride out the waves of pleasure coursing through me.
I let him win, but I'll be damned if it wasn't so satisfying.
If just this once.
It felt... good not to fight it.
Maybe, just maybe, this isn't as bad as I thought it to be...
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