A/N: Just a random little drabbly thing.
"Hey Kens, you want me to grab you anything for lunch?" Nell asked, stopping in front of Kensi's desk.
"No, I'm good," Kensi said distractedly as she filled out a milage report. "Thanks."
Nell hesitated for a moment and then pulled a chair up, leaning forward.
"Are you ok?"
"Yeah, of course. Why wouldn't I be?"
"I don't know. You just seem a little down recently," she said with a shrug.
"I'm fine," Kensi repeated, forcing a smile.
"Ok, that right there is the definition of not fine. C'mon spill." To prove that she was serious, she grabbed the papers from Kensi's hand. "You know I won't go away until you do."
Sighing Kensi pushed back from her desk, her shoulders hunching. She'd been trying so hard to appear normal, but apparently she hadn't been too convincing.
"I'm worried about Deeks," she finally told Nell, regretting saying it almost immediately. Especially when Nell's face fell in obvious concern.
"Is he ok?" she asked.
"Yes. I mean, maybe. Physically he's fine, but, um…" Kensi trailed off, shifting uncomfortably. "He's been a little distant recently."
"What do you mean by "distant"?" Nell asked, including finger quotes. "Like he dozes off during Top Model distant. Or he's never home distant?"
"The he hasn't touched me in weeks distant," Kensi said blatantly.
"Oohhhh." Nell's mouth dropped open slightly and she looked vaguely uncomfortable.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have told you that." Nell quickly grabbed her hand, waving down Kensi's apologies.
"No, don't worry about," she insisted. "What are friends for if you can't tell them extremely intimate details about your sex life?
"Ok, just to be clear, I'm not giving you any intimate details," Kensi said firmly.
"Works for me. So when you say Deeks hasn't touched you…?" She waved her hand in lieu of finishing the question.
"We haven't had sex."
"Wow."
"I'm starting to wonder if maybe‒" Kensi paused and fiddled with her sleeve, wondering if she should share the thing that worried her most. "Maybe he's losing interest in me."
"Kensi, that's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard you say!" Nell said, sounding incredulous.
"It's possible. We've been together a long time and I know that sometimes attraction and love fade." Kensi hugged her elbows, feeling incredibly insecure. She hated putting words to the thoughts that had been plaguing her recently.
"But not you and Deeks. He loves you just as much, probably more, as he ever has."
"How could you possible know that?" Kensi asked.
"Because I see how he looks at you. It's like you're the sun. When you walk into a room, his entire face lights up and that hasn't changed," Nell explained gently. Kensi tried to contain an unexpected sob at her words and Nell squeezed her hand.
"That still doesn't explain why he's been acting this way. It's not normal for us and I don't know what to do." She let out a shuddery sigh.
"Have you tried asking him?" Nell suggested. "Maybe it's something he's worried about with work."
"I was too afraid," Kensi said. She sniffed hard, swiping at her eyes. "God, I'm such an idiot.
"No, you're not," Nell said kindly. "But you should talk to Deeks." Kensi nodded.
"I will."
"Good. And remember that he loves you and he always will." She leaned over the desk to give Kensi a hug.
"Thanks, Nell." Kensi wrapped her arms around Nell's smaller frame, feeling better just for having talked about her fears.
"Anytime, Lady."