Chapter 11: Heart Attack

"HELLO EVERYONE, this is the last song for Colorado" The fans booed knowing it was the end of the concert. I had Morgan put on a head worn mic on me. The crowd cheered as I walked center stage again.

"This song is called Heart Attack" I nodded my head towards the drummer.

Puttin' my defenses up
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack

I didn't think I would fall in love when I moved to Forks, but I did. I'm so happy I did but I was also hesitant knowing Edward could've used me for fame. Image my surprise when literally no one had any idea who I was. I was so happy about that.
I walked forward closer to the fans singing louder and with a lot of emotion.

Never put my love out on the line
Never said "Yes" to the right guy
Never had trouble getting what I want
But when it comes to you, I'm never good enough

I know if I would let him, Edward would buy me anything I desire if I ask him to. I never dated in phoenix for the very same reason that people can use me. I didn't want to fall in love with anyone in until I said yes to going out with Edward.

When I don't care
I can play 'em like a Ken doll
Won't wash my hair
Then make 'em bounce like a basketball

I found it amusing how I flirted with Jacob to get information on the tribal legends. I know it was wrong of me that I played Jacob but I had to. Without me flirting with Jacob I wouldn't have fallen in love with Edward.

But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels
Yes, you make me so nervous
That I just can't hold your hand

Every time Me and Edward go out, I act like a girl wanting to paint my nails and do my hair nice. He always makes me feel special.

You make me glow
But I cover up
Won't let it show
So I'm

Every time I meet someone new, I would always want to cover the real me. This is why I always hated singing because I turned into someone I didn't like.
Puttin' my defenses up
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack
I think I'd have a heart attack
I think I'd have a heart attack

Never break a sweat for the other guys
When you come around, I get paralyzed
And every time I try to be myself
It comes out wrong like a cry for help
I walked near the drummer spinning and bending slightly as I sing the loudly. At one point it felt like I was screaming the words to my song. It's never fair that I grew up to quickly due to my mother taking advantage of my fame. It felt like she never loved me, she just loved what I did.
It's just not fair
Pain's more trouble than love is worth
I gasp for air
It feels so good, but you know it hurts

But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear perfume for you
Make me so nervous
That I just can't hold your hand

You make me glow
But I cover up
Won't let it show
So I'm

Puttin' my defenses up
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack
I think I'd have a heart attack
I think I'd have a heart attack

The feelings got lost in my lungs
They're burning, I'd rather be numb
And there's no one else to blame (no one else)
So scared I take off and I run
I'm flying too close to the sun
And I burst into flames
I love Edward with all that I am. I'm just scared he will abandon me again just because I don't compare to other vampires. I feel all this emotion it feels like I want to burst in flames and scream so loud that my voice goes numb.
You make me glow
But I cover up
Won't let it show
So I'm

Puttin' my defenses up
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack
I think I'd have a heart attack (heart attack)
I think I'd have a heart attack (-tack)
Oh, I think I'd have a heart attack
I think I'd have a heart attack

"Thank you so much see you soon Colorado!" I yelled out to my fans. I bowed briefly and walked towards Edward and the Cullen's.

"Next up New York" Christy said while running around getting everything ready.

"You were great sweetie" Esme said hugging me while Carlisle kissed my forehead before leaving to help move the equipment.

"Great show sis" Jazz said from behind Alice whom was bouncing in excitement. "I can tell New York will be a blast" Alice spoke softly. Alice danced off to help Christy pack all the wardrobe and makeup.

"Belly-bear that was awesome!" Emmett exclaimed while giving me a bear hug. I giggled and hugged him as tightly as my human arms can go.

Rose hugged me and said great show while smiling and she went to help Alice and Christy. Emmett went to help get the heavy equipment.

Edward hugged me from behind and we both walked to the dressing room to get my purse and other bags.

"You were great love; I love you so much" He said kissing my cheek.

Soon we were all on the buses heading to New York It will be around twenty hours or so to get there, but knowing how Carlisle drives we'll be there in sooner.

Soon we were on the bus talking.

"Where are we going to go after this?" Emmett asked from beside Rose.

"I think Christy said something about going California" I said from the small table where me and Jazz where currently playing Chess. Edward was beside me while Alice was beside Jasper.

"We won't be able to go with you, will we?" Questioned Edward while wrapping his arms around my waist.

"No" I said defeated. "I think we're going to go back to forks for a small break and then I leave the finish the tour and record my last album" I said softly.

"Is there another way we can still go with you?" Esme asked me and Alice whom was looking in the future.

"We can probably stay for the concert but not for her Album recording since she will be recording it in daylight" Edward repeated from Alice vision.

I yawned and went to one of the beds on the bus. "That's okay we'll go to forks and I will go to California alone" I said sleepily.

"Goodnight Bella" Everyone said.