Ok, this is based on the second installment of Kingdom Hearts! I tried making it based on the first but the ideas that came into my head were too dark and it would be horrible to imagine Sora in that kind of manner. Anywho please Enjoy! R&R and make sure to enjoy this every step of the way! So I won't do any POV changes since this entire story is basically on my OC's struggles. This might be a short series since the game is sooooo long! I'm going to play 2.5 once the game comes out so it might inspire me to keep going. I'm not making it bloody like all those other fanfics. *shivers* Who puts blood and R-rated stuff for a game like this?
'I've been having these weird dreams lately...
most of the time I wonder... if any of if was real...
Is this my reality...?'
I ~ Separate Hearts
Standing by the sea shores of Destiny Island was a girl, her back turned from the world as her long blue hair sways from side to side in rhythm with the breezy wind. As she continued to stares out at the vast ocean two men in black cloaks walks up from behind her back a few feet away from where she stood, both watching the girl as she just stood there in the same manner as a statue.
"Is she ready?" one of the speaks up as he gazes at the girl under his hood.
The taller one looks down at him then back at the girl. "As long as her other still dwells by his side we should be fine."
Twilight Town...
"I'll bring him back Kairax, that's a promise."
Axel's words still echoed in my thoughts as I sat down in the usual spot on top of the clock tower of twilight town. Alone by myself and eating my (only) favorite ice-cream, I bring my knees close to my chest as I watch the usual sunset, which hung over the ever so peaceful town. Although I appreciate his concerns, Axel's promise felt like nothing but empty words to me. I know the orders Xemnas had given Axel was to retrieve Roxas, but deep down, I knew there was a catch. There's no way it could be that simpple. Even if he intended to bring him back before the orders, the problem was, if Roxas refused to back with Axel then he'll be forced to get rid of him.
I kept telling myself that Axel will bring him back, that I should remain hopeful and think Roxas will oblige to his best friend's request on returning.
"And yet... I still have this weird feeling inside my chest..." I mutter as I place a hand over where my fragmented heart should be.
My name is Kairax, also known as no. XV. I'm part of a group of special nobodies called Organization XIII, whose main goal is to regain the hearts we all individually lost. Similar to my two friends, I also happen to also be a nobody that can wield a keyblade, but there is something different about me compared to the others. And it not just because I can wield a keyblade. Xemnas had learned the moment he found me that I had a heart fragment inside of me. Which meant I have the ability to feel unlike all of the rest who are forced to pretend they have feelings like a normal person with a heart.
Even though I've retained only a fragment of my other self's heart, there's a small list of issues that came with it. One of them being is that I cannot go through Dark Corridors as everyone else can. My heart fragment is fragile so it's difficult for me to travel to other worlds. At first, I started out as a simple headache. Eventually, it caused me to collapse and rendered me unconscious for several hours. It's unknown whether it's strong enough to fight off the darkness or can be easily taken by the negative energy.
"The only way I can travel is a secret, Roxas and I-" I stop myself the moment the familiar name slipped out of my lips. Roxas, a former member of the organization, is the reason why I've been continually visiting this fake version of Twilight Town. This world, this clock tower, despite being a replica, it all began here. Where Roxas and I first established out friendship, which later blossomed into something more. Though it was meant to be impossible for nobodies like me and Roxas, as cliche it may sound, somehow gained the ability that none of us had expected to happen.
Love.
That's right. I thought at first it would forever remain one-sided. With a piece of a heart inside of me, for me to be the only supposed person that could feel, whereas no other nobody couldn't, was believed to be special. To get the chance to feel even if my heart isn't whole made me be deemed by everyone in the organization as an important asset to the organization, but I hated it. I hated being the only nobody to feel. As the days went by, the more I got a grasp of my feelings, it became harder to interact with my fellow nobodies. I knew they were simply behaving based on memory, it made me start to question various things.
I began wonder if the relations I had with some of them were genuine. I questioned if Axel and Xion genuinely thought of me as a friend, and I questioned if the way Roxas acted around me was simply me misinterpreting his actions. There were times I wondered if it was right to harbor such romantic thoughts towards him, that is until a certain fateful day.
++Day 201++
The World That Never Was...
I could barely see my surroundings. I could hardly hear what was going on around me. As the rain continued to pour down, I swung my keyblade at each heartless. The strikes started out as precise, but as the fighting continued, I found myself using both hands and swinging my arm as if they were made of lead. I fought back with all of my might against the numerous heartless which surrounds me. As I was fighting, I noticed that each time I destroyed one, another appears in its place. Realizing this, I was reduced to blocking every attack that was thrown at me. For an unknown period of time, I have been fighting against the sudden swarm since my arrival in this world.
The normal ant-like heartless weren't a problem for me to handle. It's the numbers I have to deal with, and the worst part is, this is my first ever solo mission since I first joined the organization. To think, the entire time I've been dealing with these heartless, with every mission I've been sent on I had someone with me. Helping me handle the heartless, while also teaching me various methods on how to deal with them.
Now I'm all alone...
"AAAAHHH!" I howl in pain as a heartless sends me flying back. My back violently slams again a nearby wall, followed by the back of my head a second later, nearly rendering me unconscious from the sudden impact. With my vision blurred and my entire body aching, I lean against the wall as support and tried to maintain my grip on Redemption (that's the name of the keyblade) as I held it towards approaching heartless. Many of them were slowly marching towards me, I hadn't realized how weak I was until I attempted to raise my keyblade higher. When I tried, my entire arm went limp, causing me to nearly drop my keyblade slowly started to feel heavier the longer I held it up in the air.
'Is this it...?' I thought as I weakly drop to my knees. Unable to grasp the handle any longer, my fingers slip from the handle, allowing it to fall and drop to the ground beside me. I ended up sliding into a sitting position and tried to move away as the heartless close in on me. 'So I guess I won't be able to live up to my promise... Good-bye... Roxas...' I close my eyes and prepared myself for what's to come.
Though drowned with the sounds of heavy rainfall, I could hear the heartless drawing closer. When I partially open my eyes, I saw one out of a dozen lunge towards me, its long claws inches away from my face. I close them again, accepting my fate and awaited to be greeted by eternal darkness. But it never came. Instead, sounds of running footsteps approached me; and what happened next shocked me.
"KAIRAX!" I heard his voice call out.
When my eyes snapped open, he had just destroyed a heartless. Drenched from head to toe was Roxas, breathing heavily from running for god knows how long. He threw his head over his shoulder and heatedly glares at the surrounding heartless. Letting out an uncharacteristic cry, he mindlessly runs to attack the heartless. I helplessly watch as he fends off the heartless in my place, hitting each and every one of them as they continue their useless attempts on reaching me. When they were all finally gone, Roxas runs to my slides to my side.
He yells as he looks at me with worried eyes, "Kairax! Just hold on I have a potion here!" As he shuffles through his cloak pockets for a potion, I couldn't help reach up to his face, caressing it as I warmly gaze up at him. Roxas freezes at my sudden contact.
"Have you always had such pretty eyes...?" I ask him deliriously, my vision slowly starting to become hazier by the minute. I fought as much as possible to stay awake. My thoughts were trying to get me back in the right state of mind. 'That's enough! Don't say anything else!'
Nevertheless, I continued speaking my most inner and private thoughts. "You know it would be funny if I die here... Like all of those lesser nobodies... our comrades... I sometimes hate being the only nobody to actually feel while everyone else I know in the organization can't... Because there's something that I've always felt towards you, Roxas..."
'No! Shut up! Please! It's better to stay as friends than get rejected by him!' my thoughts pleads, desperately to snap me out of it. Just indirectly mentioning my feelings towards Roxas scares me, fearing that if I were to confess my feelings would be inevitably disregarded. I knew since the day I realized my feelings towards him that I would face instant rejection. Hence why I've tried so hard to hit it.
"I have always-"
"Loved you," he finishes before I could.
For a second, I thought it was me that said it. To my surprise, instead of it being the other way around, it was actually Roxas who had confessed. "You... love me?" I tentatively ask after comprehending his words.
I was back to my regular self, and my vision was much clearer. I didn't understand how I regained most of my strength until I looked down on the torn portion of my gloved hand. The potion that I was meant to drink had spilled onto my hand. So it is true. No matter how it's given; you can either drink it or have it spilled right onto you. I didn't have much time to contemplate this sd I felt a hand touch my cheek. My eyes automatically return to Roxas, who was staring back at me with an expression I've never seen before. Roxas places a hand over mine as it remained on his cheek
"Nobodies aren't meant to feel. We have no hearts. You are the only nobody that's suppose to have the ability to feel... And yet, I can't stop thinking about you...!"
As corny as that line sounded, it was still enough to make my chest thump. Embarrassed, I tried to cover my face with my hands but he grabs and holds them on both sides of my head, preventing me from concealing my red-tinted cheeks. An unfamiliar sly grin crosses his usual calm features, causing me to feel even more embarrassed.
"No matter what I do, Kairax, you are the only one that's been on my mind since you joined the organization," he admits. "I thought it was just because you felt so familiar to me, but the more I got closer to you, the more I couldn't help myself except wanting to protect you. No matter what, I wanted you by my side as much as possible. When you left on this solo mission of yours and never came back after an entire week... I almost went crazy!"
When rubs my cheek his gloved hand, with the way he spoke, it almost appeared as if he was going to cry. "That's when I came to realize that I had the ability to feel, to feel love, and the reason I can feel is because of you, Kairax."
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Ever since Roxas had left the organization, I was left broken and confused. No one would answer my questions, so I had to figure out how to consult with myself about this sudden emergence of new emotions. And every single time I went past his room, my chest would start aching at the mere memory of him. I tried my best to forget about him, but what's happening to me is probably what Roxas had to go through when I didn't come back from that mission. The difference is, he chose to leave, and I'm not certain if he'll come back. I should know, I witnessed everything leading up to his capture.
++Day 315++
I watch from afar as Roxas fought against someone who wore the same black cloak we wear. It was most likely the fake Xemnas has been searching for, the one who Xion told me, before she disappeared, had fought against. I was about to jump in and save Roxas until a hand grabs my wrist, forcing me to watch as the fight comes to its conclusion. The stranger takes his blindfold and transforms into someone, a man that sent a sudden wave of pain in my head the moment the darkness clears and allowed me to see his face.
"You can't stop it..."
Summoning my keyblade, I twirl around and attempt to whoever it was that who was preventing me from saving Roxas. But just as I was about to hit, I stop at the last minute and froze the second I made eye contact. I couldn't believe who I was staring at, and judging from her small smile, she had expected my confusion. The person I was gapping at was... Me? We look so much alike, except she has blue hair and appeared like a much younger version than me.
"Hold on... are you... Me?" I attempted to reach out to her but drew my arm back when I heard a loud sound behind my back.
I spun around to see Roxas on the ground, lying face front and appeared to be unconscious. The stranger with his back turned from the boy, pulling his hood on as another appears and looks down at Roxas. The hooded man suddenly looks up. Lightning lit the permanently dark sky, and in that short moment, the light illuminated everything around me. Just enough for me to see the face of the man under the hood. I could still remember what he said, a name which I've only heard once since I was created.
"Akari...?"
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++Present++
Suddenly, a weird resolution came to me. If Roxas had a reason to leave the organization, to leave me behind, then there has to be a very good reason why he had to leave like that. There has to be a reason why he looked at me the way he did when we fought. If that's the case, that means I'll be the one to rescue him. I stood up and discard my ice cream, standing at the edge of where I was previously sitting on, and looked ahead at the vast sky above Twilight Town.
"Roxas... Ever since Xion disappeared- No, I have to focus," I slowly began to take off my cloak, "you've always done things alone. I want to help you, Roxas..." When I finally got the cloak off of my, I held it in my arms close to my chest and readied myself to let go of it.
"This world isn't real... I know that! But I will find you no matter what," I vowed as I released the black cloak. I watched as it floats downwards to the ground and digitized itself into nothing but codes. In this virtual world, things that aren't meant to be inside will be erased from existence and can never be retrieved again, just like those who reside here.
"Are you kidding me? I could've taken Seifer out with just one punch!" I hear a boy laugh.
"Yeah sure Hayner, one punch is all that's needed to get you hanging by your underwear on the Twilight clock tower."
"Shut up Pence!"
"That is what happened last time."
"Not you too Roxas!"
"Boys don't fight! C'mon we have to hurry before the ice cream melts!" a girl chimes.
Before I had the chance to escape from view, I was caught red-handed when a group of 4 teens, who appeared around my age, turned a corner and spotted me at the edge of where I stood. One of them was the last person I wanted to see, especially after making a vow related to him minutes ago. Hopefully, none of them caught sight of my cloak and saw how it suddenly vanished into thin air. When my eyes finally fell on Roxas, I found myself locked into his gaze. I found myself unable to turn away as he intently stares back at me.
I just stare back at him with a blank stare before slowly leaning to the side. Even though I knew I wasn't going to die, none of them knew that and began to yell, trying desperately to stop me. Seeing how close I was to falling over before their eyes, I watch as the three boys try to run and catch me. I knew they wouldn't reach me in time so I simply close my eyes, allowing gravity to . But to my surprise, Roxas suddenly came to my side, grabs and pulls me back before my entire body could fall off the tower. I just stood there, staring at him in bewilderment as Roxas tries to catch his breath.
He yells, "What do you think you're doing!? You can't just leave me now that I get to see you again!"
I had to do a double-take before realizing what he had just said. "Y-You remember me...?" I ask, smiling as I watch him with hopeful eyes.
"Uh... Actually I've seen you in my dreams," he admits, though seemed unsure of himself when he said it.
This wasn't what I wanted to hear. Disappointed, I forcefully take my arm back much to his confusion. Blinking my upcoming tears away, I take in a
"So I'm a dream... and they're not..." I point to the direction of where the trio was. He looks over his shoulder and is shocked to see that his friends had suddenly disappeared into nothing but thin air. He just around and starts fruitlessly looking for them.
"Hayner!? Pence!? Olette!?" he calls out to them individually.
"She was right... No matter what I do," I pause as I take a sharp step back, "you won't remember us... Even after making such a stupid promise to me..."
I take another step back when Roxas tried to reach out to me again, but this caused me to lose my footing on the ledge beside me, causing me to slip to the side. I thought I was going to fall peacefully but then Roxas, being as stubborn as ever, grabs my hand, stopping me from falling. I found myself hanging from my doom as the boy above me tries his best to keep his hold on me. "Stop! You can't-" With the strength, I had in my arms, I lift myself to press my lips onto Roxas'.
Ironic how our first kiss would turn out this way. We hid our relationship from the organization for so long that we barely had the chance to even share our first kiss after our initial confession. As Roxas' eyes widen from my sudden kiss, I took this chance to let go and let myself slip out of his grasp. A blinding white light envelopes my body as I fell down further from the top of the tower. I almost regretted letting go when I finally heard him call out my name.
"KAIRAX!"
Castle Oblivion...
The moment I open my eyes, I was shocked to see that I ended up in the worst place possible, Castle Oblivion. I've had constant nightmares about this place, and whenever they occur, I would receive visions of a girl with blue hair sleeping inside a white capsule. Beside her is another capsule but this time with a boy inside. Whose face I never got a chance to see because every time his face is about to be revealed, I abruptly wake up and find myself reduced to tears..
'Go inside...'
I jump and summoned my keyblade, looking around my surroundings to check if there was any enemies nearby. "Show yourself!" I demand, preparing to attack.
'Go inside... you'll find the answers you're looking for...'
For some odd reason, I felt like I recognize this voice. Then it hit me. "Xion!? Is that you!?"
'You can't be kept in the dark any longer... step inside... and you'll see the truth...'
Automatically, I de-summon my keyblade and ran towards the giant doors, hoping to see my missing friend. The moment I swung the doors open, I stop in place and scanned the white room for any signs of my friend. I was crestfallen when I saw there was no one in sight. A wave of sadness struck me. I shook my head and ball my hand into a tight fist
I shout, "No... she has to be here! I just know it! Maybe she can help me save Roxas!" With hope of seeing Xion again filling up my chest, I ran to the other side of the room to continue entering the large castle. Then out of nowhere I felt a huge throb in my chest.
"AAAHHHH!" I collapsed onto my knees and clutched my chest tightly as the pain continued to increase by the minute. Images and new emotions were coming in at me all at once, and the last thing I could see before passing out was a tall dark figure appearing from a Dark Corridor walking up towards me.
'I'm sorry Kairax...I wish I could explain everything to you... but in your sleep you'll know... everything...'
"Wait! Xion! Where are you!?" I desperately call out.
Where Nothing Gathers...
"You have defied me for the last time Kairax," two Dusk Nobodies appeared by my side, "so as punishment you shall be locked in your room until you are ordered to leave. If you weren't the only keyblade user left in the organization you would've long been turned into a dusk." I stood in the center of the meeting room obediently, glaring up at Xemnas as he looks back down at me with the same look I was giving him.
"What are you planning to do with Roxas once you get him back? And where's Xion!?" I began to angrily demand for answers. Much to my horror, most of the other members look at one another with mirrored confused eyes. None of them appeared to know who I was talking about.
Saix coldly answers me, "We do not know who you are talking about, XIV." I step back in shock at the number he just called me.
"Number... XIV..?" I slowly repeat, staring up at him in disbelief. Without getting the chance to react, I was carried away by the two dusks after they appear on sides and start to carry me back into my room. Without fighting back, I fell into despair as the reality of my situation began to sink in. I didn't want to believe it. Xion, my best friend, she does exist. I didn't make her up.
My Room...
When I was dropped to the floor, I got up as fast as my legs could move and tried to run towards my door. But right when I was a few inches from the handle, someone appears from behind and grabs me by my hood, forcefully tugs me away. My back slams against the person just as the doors were closed and locked from the otherwise. Before I even got the chance to react, I felt them grab my wrist and spun me around to face them. I gasp upon making direct eye contact with a familiar pair of green eyes.
"What are you trying to do Kairax!?" Axel exclaims. I flinch and nervously bring a hand close to my chest after he lets go. "I told you I was going to get Roxas, didn't I? If Xemnas catches you outside again, I can't protect you anymore! So stay put until I come back with him, got it memorized?" I look down at the ground in shame as he continues, "Roxas was the reason they didn't think once on taking advantage of your heart fragment. Now that your protector's gone, who knows what they
I quietly ask, "Why am I number XIV...?"
"That has always been your number Kairax," he said, sounding as it if was obvious.
"But I'm not a true member, am I...?"
"Now where'd you hear that from!?" Axel exclaims. The fact he didn't deny it just confirms it.
"I can't tell you, Axel. Not when you can even remember her!"
"That's because I don't even know who she is!" he yells, causing me to flinch." There was never a Xion in the organization! That person never even existed, to begin with!"
Frustrated, I yell at the top of my lungs, "That person is your best friend!"
Axel suddenly grabs my shoulder and firmly tells me, "YOU are my best friend! The same goes for Roxas! Akari, I know that you haven't been sleeping since Roxas left." This caused me to avert my eyes to my feet. He lets out a tired sigh. "Just please... stay here until I get back. I also brought you another coat for you as well."
I lift my head when I felt him let go and watch as leaves through a dark corridor. I had lost the will to stand and collapsed onto my knees. All of the energy that was left in me disappears in that instant, and soon, I found myself staring at the door with expressionless eyes. Now that I'm under house arrest, what can I do? Axel has a point, I can't deny it. With Roxas gone, I have no one to keep me safe from what Xemnas originally planned to do. I brought my knees close to my chest and hugged them. "Xion... I know you were trying to show me something... but what is it..? Can someone please stop keeping me in the dark...?"
I didn't even want to try to wear my new coat, after finally being in that room for the second time I now realized one thing once I took a good look at all the throne seats that circled around me. I was never truly a member of the organization, probably just like Xion by the looks of it. "Looks like Namine didn't tell you enough." I lift my head up and see a boy wearing the organization cloak leaning against the wall.
"Riku...!?" I slap a hand over my mouth in shock.
He laughs at my reaction, "Even as a nobody you can still tell if it's me... Akari."
I threw the nearest object at him, yelling, "My name is Kairax! I don't know how I know you... but stay back!" To even further shock me, the boy dodges and takes his hood off to reveal his long silver hair, but he kept a black blindfold on. And yet even without that, I still somehow knew who he was.
"Thought you wanted to leave?" he asks me.
I look away in shame as I muttered, "It's not my fault I got caught..." As we stayed in place quietly I was soon remembering things through Xion's memories and somehow... a small bit of my past. Tears run down my face when I saw a memory of Xion's death through Roxas' eyes then also a short memory of how I lost my heart.
::Memory::
"Kairi! Donald! Goofy! Get out of here not while you still have the chance!" I order them as I knock back a few more heartless. Every time I take some out, more would appear and I was forced to continue fighting them off.
"But what about you!?" Donald asks me as he too hits back another heartless. I look over at the group with one last smile before lunging myself at the swarm, slashing each and every one of them with my Star Keyblade, the hearts flying up in the air as I continue to do so.
"I need you guys to protect Sora! I'll handle it from here!" I cry out and slash another Shadow heartless.
"We aren't leaving without you! Sora wouldn't want this-" I interrupt Kairi, "It doesn't matter! People keep telling me that it's the Keyblade chosen's job to protect the Purest of all Hearts... but I've had enough of that! I'll protect him- even if it means losins my heart in the process!"
A giant neo-shadow appeared in front of me, causing all the lesser heartless to leave and disappear at its presence. "Go... NOW!" With one last glance, the others ran off with Kairi holding Sora's heartless in her arms. I could have sworn I saw the heartless reaching out to me. "You think you can fight in that kind of state?" I was shocked to see Riku floating above me. No, he's not the Riku I know he's Ansem.
"Your heart is weak! You can barely even focus without thinking of his," Ansem, Seeker of Darkness, mocks as he floats down to my level and grins evilly at me.
"I will protect those I love...! Give us back our Riku!" I yell, taking out the neo-shadows with one hit and lunge at Ansem with my keyblade up in the air. Right when my keyblade could touch the top of his head, he makes a hand swipe motion and I find myself flying backwards at the sudden invisible force, forcing me to pull my keyblade back and use it to shield myself.
. . . . . . . .
I ran in the direction where the others were and saw they were swarmed by hundred of heartless, any variety that none of them can take- not without Sora there to help them. I jumped about their head and slashed at an upcoming heartless that appeared right beside Kairi. "Akari!" everyone exclaims in joy as they watch me fend off the heartless."Don't worrySora! I'll be the one to protect you this time!" I hear Kairi cry out behind my back. I heard a short scream not long after. I was about to turn around only for a hand to pierce me from behind (Me: In a portal like manner okay! No blood!), slowly looking down out my chest to see a white crystal heart and pulled out from behind.
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I (Kairaix) stood there as I watch a group of four running on the beach, two boys racing ahead and two girls run after them laughing. All four I somehow know by heart.
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"You haven't changed Riku," I blurt out much to his surprise. "How much do you remember?" he urges one. "Not much... but I now know what happened to her and also who I was in the past... but I'm still Kairax no matter what! I may be not as strong as my self, but I'm not weak just because I have a heart shard inside me! I hate that everyone I've known my whole life have been keeping in the dark...! I want to do something... to save them," I turn my gaze back to Riku, but I was surprised that he was no longer there anymore.
"Good." I fall over to the side when Riku suddenly appears standing beside me. He smirks at my reaction. "Then that means I won't have to force you into coming with me." Riku extends a hand at me much to me confusion. "You want to see him again, don't you?" My eyes widen as I quickly understood what he meant.
I gulp, "Are you... going to take me back to where Roxas is?" It was only a one way trip thanks to Namine, but I was only there for a short period of time so I can decide what I was going to do now that I know where he was. I took his hand, saying, "Take me back! Please Riku!"
He seemed please to hear this, and not long after I said that I was suddenly wrapped around in darkness for the first time.
Fake Twilight Town...
I gasp for air after the darkness finally unwrapped itself around us. "Sorry... it was the only way I could bring you here without getting caught," he apologizes and puts his hood back on. "It's fine...!" I reassure him as I finally got some breath back. When I saw he was about to take his leave, I felt the need to get this off my chest. Something tells me that 'Akari'has been wanting to say this for a long time, and I can understand why.
"Akari doesn't hate you for what you did!" I declare, stunning the older boy enough to stop him in his tracks. "More like... she misses you. She wants to thank you for all that you've done for Sora up until now."
Riku just stood in place for a few moments then continues to walk off.
Silently, I place a hand over where my heart should be. I quietly mutter, "Thank you... Riku..."
++Day 314++
"Roxas!" I ran up to his side right before he was about to turn a corner. I grabbed his hand and ask, "Roxas what's going on? Axel has been telling me these weird things that you're leaving the organization! Is it true!?"
I was afraid of what his answer might be, if it was true he was leaving or... or...
"It's true," Roxas answers, not bothering to look at me. I nearly fell on my knees from shock.
"Why...? Roxas, please tell me... You've been acting weird ever since Xion disappeared...!" I desperately cry. I grip onto his hand tighter, afraid for the first time in my life on letting him go. I've been afraid before during countless missions, but to lose someone precious to me is much more than I can bear.
He turns around to face me without warning. "How do you know her!?" I was surprised at the sudden tone Roxas was using. It was as if he didn't expect me to say Xion's name at all.
I tilt my head and clarified, "She's our best friend, right? It has always been the four of us; you, me, Axel, and Xion."
They've always been keeping me in the dark and I hate it, even Roxas knows this. Suddenly, he forcefully tugs my hand away and summons his keyblade. "Rox...as...?" His hand slips from mine as I slowly back away and I stare down at the keyblade with wide eyes.
"People with hearts really are naïve... especially for one with a single heart shard," Roxas says darkly as he aims his blade directly at my heart.
"Huh?" Before I could react, Roxas suddenly charges towards me for the attack. I was barely able to summon my keyblade and block his attack in time. I slide back and got into my battle stance.
"Roxas, what are you doing!?"
"The organization is after me." I blocked another attack. "And since you're still with them that means you're my enemy." Every time he tried to hit me, I would always be able to block and jump away from him before he could try to make a second blow. I know his fighting style *whack*, I know his tactics *whack*, I remembered his abilities and limits by heart *whack*...And yet for some reason *clang*... I don't know what he's thinking anymore.
I stumble back as my keyblade is knocked out of my hand. I didn't have the chance to see just how far it was flown as Roxas had his aimed directly where my heart should be. I could only hear a clanging sound in the distance as it hits the ground a few feet away from where we were. Too far for me to reach. Tripping on my own feet, I fall to the ground as Roxas slowly approaches me.
"The only reason why I accepted your feelings for me." He lifts his weapon towards my face and continues, "was so that I won't damage the fragment inside you. It's fragile. Just like you. Nobodies can't feel, that means I can't as well." I felt a sharp pang in my chest as I continued to listen to his voice, which was completely void of emotion.
All I could do it recollect the times we spent together. His smile, the light in his eyes whenever he looks my way, I don't know if he truly meant the things he said to me. The reason I had gone against Xemnas' orders was because a part of me knew something was off about Roxas' departure. I knew the consequences, yet I still chose to chase after him. And I did. But not in the way I was expecting. I choked as I felt the strong urge to cry.
I've always hated this feeling, and after catching me crying for the first time, Roxas promised he'd make sure I would never have to again. Yet here I am, crying, and he's the reason I feel this way.
"So the only reason why you said you loved me... was for the sake of the organization? Is that it? So they can use me!?" I cry out.
"..." I hated how he was just watching me with those emotionless eyes. I hate that I can feel. I hate that I... fell for Roxas. I've had enough of this!
"Get rid of me then," I blurt out. For the first time, he flinches. "You said I'm your enemy... That means the only way you can keep them from tracking is... is to get rid of me," I said as I grab the handle of his weapon and pulled it closer to my heart.
"I'm sick and tired of the lies... I'm sick of these stupid secrets everyone's been hiding from me! And most of all... I am so tired of having to live through all of this! Just take me out! That'll satisfy you, right?" I found myself smiling. Why? Even I don't know. Maybe this was my way to show that I had finally snapped. "One enemy less to worry about..." I hiccup in between my sobs as I force myself to stare back into his blue eyes. "If you're so bent on betraying the organization, then I shall gladly let you at least take one out. It'd be pointless to waste so much energy on someone that's given up."
Closing my eyes, I readied myself for the end to come. This pain can finally go away, I no longer have a reason to remain existing. The reason I continued to exist despite learning what I truly am is because of Roxas, he gave me a reason to look forward to tomorrow. Wherever this fragment goes, whether it's reborn or lost with wherever the rest of the pieces are, I no longer care. I just want to rest. And I can achieve that if I let him end everything, right here, right now. Just as I was about to force him to do it, he suddenly de-summons Kingdom Key. Surprised, my eyes snap open and I found myself being pulled into a bone-crushing hug.
"I can't do it... I just can't..." he mutters into my ear as he pulls me closer. As Roxas held me, I felt his body begin to tremble. Then there was something else. Some wetness on my shoulder. Before I could say anything, I felt my eyelids suddenly heavy and my body was completely drained of its energy. With my eyes closed, I felt my body being moved around until I was laying in his arms. Struggling to open them again, I sleepily gaze up at him as he cradles me in his arms. A teardrop hits my cheek, which is soon followed by another
He stares down at me in anguish as he apologizes, "I'm sorry Kairax... I didn't mean to hurt you..."
(A/N: I don't remember if they have this spell in the second game XD I just love this spell so much in BBS.)
++Present++
I walked into town at found myself in front of the train station. At the corner of my eye, I saw a group making their way to the station from my left, and I noticed right then and there Roxas was among the group. I quickly hid as best as I could inside the nearby tunnel, waiting nervously as I prayed that no one had caught sight of me and won't find me. I took a small peek, watching as they all happily enter together.
"I will save you, Roxas... I swear..."
'I want to see him again...
and yet... I'm scared... Some of these memories are fuzzy...
And there are those what are... just too sad to remember...
++To Be Continued++
Hey ladies~! And guys... This Haru Kazeyuki (or Haru Kaze if you guys still remember me from of her MA chapters. And yes I exist for those that don't believe her.). I'm here to tell you that The Mercury Alchemist and Winds of hope will be postponed for a while. She's still in the hospital and she won't be able to post anything in her current condition. She asked me to post this for her since she's worried about how you guys waited for a while on any updates on her fanfics. She was able to put up one-shots for you guys but recently it's been hard for her to focus on the screen properly without ignoring the pain she's going through. I helped her make this since she loves Kingdom Hearts so much and is excited about the 3rd game. (Don't get me started on how much she cried at the trailer!)
She constantly told me not to make any more typos as I did in the past when helping her. XD Alright, she just wants you to know she's happy for all the support you've all given her and hopes to recover soon from her hospital stay. It seems that there's been a problem regarding milk tea, so you can kinda say a ton of people has been going through some sort of food poisoning. She's been trying to bring this to life for ages so I hope you like this. She made this when she was 9 years old and has decided to bring it back up.