What Kind Of Fool

by tiggerblu

What do you do when life as you know it ends and your world comes crashing down? You rebuild and move on. Blaine and Kurt broke up their senior year, can they find their way back to each other. And somehow make it work A/U. ***** I Don't Own Glee Or Any Songs In My Story**** Eventual Klaine

1. Chapter 1

Authors Note: Ok, I got the idea for this book driving around

in my car one weekend. I had the Warblers cd in. Because yes, it is still in my car, and yes I do still listen to it lol. Well anyway, the second to the last song came on "What Kind Of Fool" and I had to write this. I thought it would make a perfect story. It is mostly from Blaine's POV. I hope you like it. I do not own glee or any of the songs used in my story. Thanks for reading.

Chapter 1 The Transfers

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Blaine wasn't ready, how could he ever be ready for this. He had seen Kurt every day since he transferred from McKinley to Dalton, and every night once he had he became a boarder. He was going back, moving back home. He had tried to convince him to stay, but all Kurt would say was that since Karofsky wasn't at McKinley anymore there was really no reason not to go back. He couldn't justify making his parents continue to pay for private school tuition.

Blaine so wanted to be selfish and say what about me am I not reason enough, but he knew that Kurt wasn't really happy at Dalton. He missed his friends, his family. Blaine figures for Kurt it would be easier to miss just him, than miss everyone else. So Blaine is supportive, he smiles and acts like he is ok. While inside he is dying.

While Kurt is getting all his stuff moved and ready for his transfer, Blaine meets with the Warbler counsel, they work on a song for Kurt. They had all wanted to tell him goodbye. Today was Kurt's last day here; he would be officially transferred at 12 noon Monday. Blaine had worked with Mercedes to make sure that Kurt would be outside at 12:15.

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Blaine and The Warblers showed up right at 12:15 Monday afternoon and walked to the outside commons area, where Mercedes had said Kurt would be waiting. They all walked down the stairs in a line led by Blaine. "Kurt, Dalton is really going to miss you, I am sad to see you go but we all know this is something that you really want, I will still have you on the weekends, but these guys won't so we came to say goodbye". Wes and David started the harmonies with the remaining Warblers coming down the stairs creating the classic Warbler formation and joining in on the song.

I walked across an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand

I felt the earth beneath my feet

Sat by the river and it made me complete

Watching Kurt's face light up in surprise, Blaine knows it was the right decision. Kurt had been there when Blaine had serenaded Jeremiah, who meant nothing to Blaine, how, could he not do the same thing for Kurt who meant the world.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

With every word, Blaine feels like he dies just a little inside. He knows he isn't losing Kurt, but it wouldn't be the same. Now there time would be relegated to weekends only again, for at least 3 months until school got out.

They finish the song, and Kurt goes up to them and one by one he tells everyone goodbye saving Blaine for last. "I'm never saying goodbye to you" Kurt whispers in Blaine's ear as he hugs him, maybe a few minutes longer than he had hugged everyone else. But this was Blaine, his Blaine. And in that moment he didn't really care who saw that hug.

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Somehow they made it through the rest of the school year, with Blaine waking up early Saturday morning and heading to Lima. He spends the weekend at the Hummel house and then heads back on Sunday night. They do everything they can in the two days they have together. They go to movies, eat out, or just spend the weekend just cuddling on the couch. That is Blaine's favorite way to spend the weekend, just Kurt and him, snuggled together. Not trying to hide who they are, what they mean to each other, not looking both ways before kissing in case someone was looking.

At the beginning of Blaine's junior year of high school, after only the first week, he knows that there is no way he will be able to go a whole year without Kurt, three months had been hard enough. It also didn't help that Kurt kept reminding him of his promise to think about transferring to McKinley. They had spent almost every day of the summer together, with Blaine falling more and more in love with Kurt every day. With only the first week down, which had felt like a month, he knew there was no way this was going to work.

He met Kurt at the Lima Bean after school on Monday; Blaine had texted Kurt during his lunch break to see if he could be there. It was the second week of the school year only one million more to go. He had just seen Kurt yesterday, but today had been long and hard, and he just needed to see him. So even though he had to drive two hours to only get to spend an hour with Kurt, it was worth it, an hour was an hour.

He went home that day knowing what he needed to do. He manages to convince his parents to let him transfer to McKinley, until Kurt's graduation. He had also thought about next year, when he would be stuck at McKinley after Kurt and everyone else he knew graduated, and moved on. At least now he could see him every weekend, if Kurt follows through with his decision he made last year, he would be going to New York.

If going a week without seeing Kurt had been bad, how would a full year be, until he could graduate himself and move? At least last year he got to be with him every weekend, once Kurt goes to New York how long will he have to go before he can see him again. He decided once he transferred that he would try to test out of his junior year course curriculum, and take senior classes this year so he would be eligible to graduate with everyone else.

He should be graduating with Kurt anyway; he was actually of few months older than him. He had been held back a grade after the Sadie Hawkins dance when he and his friend had been beaten up so bad for being gay, he had ended up in the hospital, and then rehab. His grades had been fine but he had missed too many days to be able to make it up. Home schooling at the time hadn't been an option so, when he was discharged from rehab, he went home for a month and then he was transferred and repeated his sophomore year at Dalton. The bad thing was, he could have tested out and not had to retake that whole year at any time, but until Kurt came along he hadn't really felt the need

Blaine talked to Principle Figgins when his parents took him to get registered at McKinley; he agreed to allow Blaine try to test out. Blaine took the test that day, and because classes where so much harder, and more advanced at Dalton he had no problem passing his junior year classes with what would have been an A average, so he eligible to skip all eleventh grade classes, except junior AP English, and that was because Principal Figgins said the school board wouldn't allow it. He had to take that one junior class, but the rest of his classes would be twelfth grade level and he would be set to graduate at the end of this year with Kurt.

Blaine's parents weren't really happy with the transfer, they like the idea of Dalton being a safe environment for Blaine; he had flourished there like he never had at Carson his last school. They also didn't like the idea of him driving back and forth in his old car. It was fine when he was just going from home to Dalton, but for such long trips everyday they wanted him to have a reliable car. So when he goes out to leave for is first day at McKinley he finds a brand new ford mustang convertible. It is shiny black with red interior and he falls in love.

Blaine hadn't told Kurt yet, that they would be graduating together; it was going to be a surprise. He even managed to get in his second English class in by exchanging his free period for English. But that also meant instead of having a class in school where he could get all his studying and home work done he had to do it after school but it was so worth it he thought, if and when Kurt went to New York he would be able to go too.

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Kurt didn't know how Blaine managed to get into so many of his senior level classes but didn't really care. Blaine, his Blaine was at McKinley, and he just loved that he was here. He loved that he got to see him almost all day they had 4 classes together. Last year at Dalton they only had one, since Blaine had only been a sophomore and Kurt a junior. But he did still miss the nights they got to spend together.

Usually at night all the Warblers would gather in the commons area of Alexander hall and Blaine and Kurt would cuddle watching movies with them or try to above the jokes and raunchy comments that were shouted at them over the movie usually by Jeff until curfew separated them to their own dorms.

He had missed Blaine the last 3 months of school last year. He hasn't quite figured out what they were going to do next year when he left for New York and Blaine would still be here for another year. He knows they will figure something out though. The bad thing is that out of their group Blaine is the only junior, everyone will be graduating this year but him.

He wondered if Blaine would transfer back to Dalton or stay at McKinley, when everyone he knows is gone. But either way, once Blaine graduates he will be with him in New York. He just wishes that Blaine was going with him sooner. The last 3 months of last year had been rough. He knows that Blaine hadn't really understand him leaving, but he just couldn't keep going there knowing how much it cost his dad and Carol, when the main issue with him going to McKinley was no longer an issue. He can't imagine his life without Blaine for a whole year, but somehow they will make this work. They just had too. Blaine had become his person. The person he loved the person he needed to always be in his life.

He knows they will be able to Skype every night, and they can call, text and email each other but it won't be the same, you can't cuddle over Skype, or hug through email. He is hoping that every other weekend Blaine might be able to come and see him in New York, his parents might even allow him to use their corporate plane. Either way he knows that they will be able to figure something out, he knows he will not be able to go a full year without seeing Blaine. That was completely outside of the realm of possibility.

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It takes Blaine a while to get used to how glee at McKinley works. At Dalton there was structure, there were votes, at McKinley everyone just stood up and said what they wanted to say. By the end of the first month at Dalton set list's are already set for sectionals, but from what Kurt said the set list at McKinley generally went out the week before.

Blaine also couldn't figure Finn out, they had gotten along fine since he started dating Kurt, but now it seems he has a problem with him. He would make funny faces when he didn't think Blaine was looking, making comments about everything he said, trying to start arguments to belittle him.

But other than these few things he really enjoys McKinley, and after an adjustment period he felt like he fit in. He liked the glee club once he got used to how things flowed there. He loves Santana's snark and Brittany's cute comments. But he especially enjoys being with Kurt. The weird thing was that out of everyone, Santana and him actually become close friends, she was the only one who knew that Blaine would be graduating with them, and constantly talked about how she could hardly wait to see porcelains face when he found out.

oOoOo

They had the first argument as a couple shortly after Blaine transferred. He had been given the roll of Tony in Westside story. He had tried out to be officer Krupke, because he knew that Kurt was trying out for Tony and didn't want take anything away from him. After his audition he was asked to try out for Tony. He talked to Kurt first and he agreed that Blaine would be the perfect Tony, so he did it.

That wasn't when the trouble started though it was after he went to Dalton to invite his friends to the plays opening night, he met a new Warbler, that had just transferred there this year. Sebastian was everything that Blaine would have, at one point gone for, he was confident secure in himself, really cute and not afraid to let people know he was gay.

They exchanged numbers and started talking and texting a lot, but as soon as he realized that Sebastian wanted more than friendship, he let him know that he wasn't available that he had a boyfriend that he cared deeply about.

"I don't care, if you don't Blaine, it's not like you are engaged or anything, what will it hurt if you go out with me once, that way you will know if what you feel for him is real" Sebastian asked him one day. He had met him at the Lima Bean after school, he had texted Blaine and had asked him to meet him there. Blaine hadn't really realized until that day what Sebastian really wanted.

Blaine didn't realize that Kurt had walked up behind him and heard the whole conversation, and waited to see what Blaine would say before letting him know he was there. Kurt's heart sped up. He wouldn't stand back and lose Blaine to a meerkat looking creep, without a fight, but he needed to know where he stood. He had always wondered in the back corners of his mind, in the places where his insecurities hid why Blaine was with him. He was gorgeous, sweet, attentive and generous to a fault, he loved with his whole heart and wasn't afraid to let someone know they were loved. He could have anybody and yet he had chosen Kurt.

"Sebastian, what you are saying is flattering, but I don't need to go out with someone else to know what I have with Kurt. He is the best person I have ever known, I love him deeply and would never do anything that might mess up what the two of us have. It wouldn't be worth it to me. I could never do something that could potentially damage what I have with him, he is great."

Kurt couldn't help but grin Blaine really did love him as much as he loved Blaine, he had known it, but guesses he needed that acknowledgement. "Who is great" he said finally ready to let Blaine know that he is there. Both boys look up at the same time in surprise Blaine feeling a little bit guilty about not telling Kurt that he was meeting Sebastian today, he doesn't know why he didn't he had always talked to Kurt about Sebastian, had even let Kurt look at every text message he had ever gotten.

"You of course" Blaine was finally able to talk wondering just how much of the conversation Kurt had heard, so he knows just how much damage control he was going to need to do.

Standing up he grabbed a chair for Kurt so he could sit with them and introduces Kurt to Sebastian. "This is my boyfriend Kurt, that I was just talking about" he said

"Ahhh so HE is the one that is so "great" Sebastian said in a tone that set Blaine off, not liking the way he was looking at Kurt, like somehow who wasn't worthy to be in his presence. Kurt was ten times better that Sebastian could ever hope of being.

"Yes, this is him" Blaine said looking at Kurt with a sweet smile, all the love he felt shining through his eyes, wondering how anyone could look at Kurt and not see what he saw. He was amazing.

For whatever reason Kurt decides that they need to except Sebastian's offer of going to Scandals that night, he said he could get them some fake id's and he did. Blaine had a beer and was feeling good, he kissed Kurt and pulled him into a hug, before walking out onto the dance floor Sebastian and started dancing, feeling good and relaxed. Not a care in the world, yes he knew Sebastian was dancing a little closer than he should let him, but Blaine was having fun, and they were just dancing.

He was on the dance floor with Sebastian for maybe ten minutes before Kurt comes up and starts dancing with him, close, rubbing on him. Blaine doesn't know if it is the alcohol, or Kurt being so close or the combination of the both, but he is hard. He reaches out and grabs Kurt's hips pulling him close that way he can feel just what he is doing to him. Kurt always had this effect on him, he normally was able to control it, but tonight he needed Kurt bad. He felt like he might explode from it.

"Let's go outside" Blaine whispers seductively in Kurt's ear, when he nods his head yes Blaine grabs his hand and starts pulling him through the crowd. He had to get them out of there he needed to be alone with Kurt. When they get to the car Blaine pushes him gently against it and then dives in for a kiss, getting harder by the minute. He is kissing Kurt with more need than he ever has, he had only ever kissed Kurt sweetly, never showing the passion he felt for him because he knew that Kurt liked romance more than anything else, and normally he was fine with that. Blaine liked romance too. He loved just holding Kurt's hand, or cuddling with him, wanting to wait until Kurt was ready before pushing for anything more.

But tonight felt different, the way Kurt was dancing with him was different, grinding his hips into Blaine's was different. It was like he set him on fire, and he would burn if he couldn't get closer. So here they were, in the parking lot of Scandals and Blaine can't get enough, his kisses turn a little rough, sliding his mouth over Kurt's fast, slipping his tongue in his mouth so that he can taste him. He has always been addicted to the taste of Kurt pushing his hips into him, needing him more than he ever has, letting his perfect control around Kurt slip for the first time, and loving it. Normally he took care of his own "problem" when Kurt would leave after one of their make out sessions. Sometimes wondering how Kurt could not be as effected as he was. But tonight he just needed Kurt.

"Blaine stop" he heard Kurt say and felt him pushing on him, pushing him back

"Kurt please baby, I need you so bad" he said trying to pull him back into a kiss

"Blaine stop" he says and this time Blaine listens he pulls back

"Why baby, you know I love you, and I need you so bad right now"

"Do you think I want our first time to be after you spent most of the night dancing with someone else" Kurt all but screamed at Blaine, mad. Yes he needed Blaine too, and it would be so easy to say yes, but he would be damned if the first time they are intimate is in the back seat of a car in the parking lot of a bar. No not gonna happen.

"Fine Kurt, forgive me for trying to be spontaneous and have a little fun" Blaine says before turning around and walking away

"Where are you going" he heard Kurt say

"Home Kurt, I am going to walk home" and he did.

By the time he got there he felt stupid, and upset and unfortunately sober so he knew what he had just done. He had known how Kurt felt about intimacies, they weren't there yet, and to do that in a parking lot…. Kurt was worth so much more than that. He deserved romance their first time, candles, music, and a bed. Now he just has to figure out how to fix it. Hoping he hadn't just pushed Kurt to far this time. Not really knowing why his control had slipped so bad this time. He was always able to control his needs, he had never gone that far with Kurt before.

At school the next day Blaine is glad that this is one of the days when he and Kurt don't have any classes together. This happened once a week, were their classes didn't line up. On every other day they are in at least 4, and if not then they have lunch period together. This was lunch period and instead of being in the cafeteria with Kurt he was hiding in the library until he can figure out what to say, how to fix this, how to grovel enough, how to apologize for pushing things way to far last night.

Blaine was trying to study for an English test he has today, but his mind just keeps wondering back to Kurt, what they were going to do. How he was going to fix it

"Blaine, can we talk" he heard Kurt ask looking up seeing that he was actually sitting beside him and he had missed it so into his own thoughts.

"Of course" Blaine says a little hesitant,

"I'm sorry" he heard Kurt say, looking at him he sees tears in his eyes

"Kurt baby, you don't have anything to be sorry for, I am the one who needs to apologize to you. I was so out of line with you last night. I don't want to ever push you to do something you aren't ready for. And I know you aren't ready, and even if you were that wasn't the place for us to have our first time, I was stupid and I am sorry, will you please forgive me" Blaine said feeling tears gather in his eyes thinking about how he acted.

"That's the thing Blaine, I think I am ready, and have been for a while, I wanted you so bad last night I really did, but I just didn't want it to be there"

"Kurt, are you sure baby, I don't want you to do it just because I want too, I need you to be ready before we take that step together."

"I'm sure Blaine, I really am. I was wondering if your parents were going to be home tonight, maybe we can go to your house."

Blaine just nods his head yes "they will be out of town for the next two days, Kurt are you really sure" he asks again giving Kurt time to change his mind if he wanted to

"No, I'm sure" Kurt said a little nervous but he knows deep down that Blaine will be gentle, he has no doubt on that.

They finish out the rest of the school day, both getting nervous as the end of the day comes closer. After final bell they go into glee club together, sit in the back whispering. When it is time to leave Blaine hold his hand out for Kurt and they walk out of school hand in hand.

Blaine stops at the drug store to buy some things he never has had to before. This would be the first time for both of them and Blaine was nervous. He quickly goes in and gets what he thinks they will need and then drives to his house with Kurt following behind him.

They were both very nervous, but together, it was amazing and perfect and everything they could have both ever dreamed of, because it was them, how could it be anything but…

oOoOo

They started having problems again around the time Mr. Shue decided to have everyone do a Whitney Houston song, to celebrate her life shortly after her death. Kurt and Rachel had decided when they graduated they would both be going to NYADA in New York, and had applied. They were waiting to see if they would make it to finalist so they could audition to get accepted in the dramatic arts department.

Blaine was very supportive of both of them and was happy for Kurt, he also secretly applied for NYADA himself, not for dramatics but for the musical theory department. Kurt went on and on about what the two of them could do once Blaine got to New York next year and if he made it to NYADA. Kurt just knew he was going to make it but was worried about Blaine not getting in, this hurt Blaine a little because in his heart he had no doubt Kurt would make it apparently Kurt didn't have that kind of faith in him.

After a while, it had gotten to where the only thing Kurt wanted to talk about, or seem interested in was NYADA. They used to have long conversations about "them" what they would do after college graduation, where they would go, what they would do together. But, here lately, it seems like Kurt can't wait to leave. It makes Blaine feel like Kurt is just biding his time, until he can not only leave Lima, but Blaine as well, almost like Kurt was putting up with him until he can find something or someone better.

Blaine is at his locker before glee, getting out the books he needs to take home with him, he has a lot of studying he needs to do today, when he looks up just in time to see Kurt walking up to him with that smile on his face, that Blaine loves. It always has a way to make his heart beat just a little bit faster. He wonders if he can convince Kurt to go out for a little while today after school so they could spend some quiet time together. It has been a while.

"Hey, I need to go to between the sheets after school today to look for sheet music, do you think you can come with me? I need to find something for the assignment for Mr. Shue, and while I am there I might look through the music for something to do for my NYADA audition if I ever get it" Kurt sighs leaning back on Blaine's locker

Well, there went that idea Blaine quietly sighs already disappointed.

"I would like to, but you know we have family dinner on Wednesday. I was kind of hoping you would want to come with me, Mom told me I could invite you, we could always do the music store tomorrow." Blaine said looking at Kurt hoping that he might decide to be with him instead, and they could both go looking for sheet music together.

"I wish I could but I really need to pin down what song to do for the assignment, and if I am going to be ready for this audition, so I can get to New York, I need to find just the right song to sing, why don't you call your Mom and see if you can skip tonight and get together with them tomorrow instead, then you can go with me tonight." Kurt asked

Blaine just looked at him; once again New York came before him, or them. Blaine didn't technically have to go home tonight. He knew that his parents were actually out of town, he had planned on asking Kurt out to dinner and then maybe some quiet time just the two of them but Kurt once again puts NYADA before them, their relationship, maybe he should have said something but he is a little hurt. How many times had he asked Kurt out on a date on Friday night only to be told no because it was family night. Well, Wednesday was family night at the Anderson's because that was usually a slow night for his parents where they didn't have to be anywhere.

Instead of saying "We can just go together tomorrow" Blaine was supposed to just drop everything, and go. It almost felt like New York was the most important thing to Kurt. Blaine was just hurt at the thought that Kurt could so easily walk away from "them" their relationship as if it meant nothing.

oOoOo

By the next day Blaine was feeling better about everything, he had had a long talk with his cousin Andi last night she had reminded Blaine that this was the biggest thing to happen in Kurt's life. "Of course he was excited about going to New York, following his dream, that doesn't mean that he wouldn't miss you Blaine, it is just right now everything is still new for him". She reminded Blaine how he was when he was getting ready to go to Dalton that, that was all he talked about it.

"If someone mentioned something like so and so had good oranges you would say oh they have oranges at Dalton too, try to cut him a little slack just because he is excited to go, doesn't mean he is excited to leave you."

"I know I am being stupid, I really do, it is just scary you know, I don't want to lose him " Blaine said

"I know it's hard, but he is going to need some adjustment time" she said "This is going to be his first time he will be living out side of Lima, New York seems like this magical fix everything place, talk to him Blaine, explain how you feel. If you don't tell him how you feel he can't fix it, he can't fix what he doesn't know is wrong.

"I know, I have a bad habit of just bottling everything up, I'll talk to him, I don't mind him talking about New York, or NYADA I really don't, but I am just worried when he gets there he is going to forget about me" Blaine finally admits, knowing just how petty that sounds.

When Blaine gets home he calls Santana, she has known Kurt longer than he has and just needs her feedback too. "Whatsup gel-o shot" she answers on the second ring, he talks to her about everything going on in his mind, and how he was feeling.

"Do you think he is just in such a big hurry to go to New York, or to get away from me" Blaine finally asks, not really sure if he wants the answer, but knows he needs it.

"Blaine no, I have known Kurt a long time, when he met you last year, he changed, he let his personality out more, almost like you helped free him. He loves you, and I know he is going to miss you, or would if you weren't going with him".

"Don't doubt him until he gives you a reason to doubt, he is just really excited to go. You should have seen how him and Berry were last year when we went to New York. Right now everything is magical about that place, he feels like he will be able to be himself finally instead of hiding who he is, no one really knows the real Kurt except for the people he cares about, and the person on the top of that list is you" she says smiling "Just talk to him"

The next day after those conversations, he started feeling better, he stopped pulling away from Kurt, because he knows he has, maybe not intentionally but still. He tried to be more patient and understanding. They had a good day, they managed to sneak into one of the empty class rooms on the way to lunch and Blaine was able to kiss Kurt, something he had wanted to do all day, slowly running his hands down Kurt's side down to his ass, pulling him closer, deepening the kiss. "I love you" Blaine said in between kisses.

"I love you too, have I told you just how much I am glad you are here." Kurt answered back kissing Blaine again. He had missed the closeness they always shared at Dalton, things had seemed different since Blaine got here, and hopefully they could get back on track.

"I am glad to be here too, I love being able to spend more time with you, and being able to do this" Blaine said before pulling Kurt back to him and diving in for another kiss, sucking on Kurt's bottom lip and then whispering in his ear, "I need you so bad right now" they finally step apart to allow themselves time to cool off, all they need is to be caught doing what Blaine wants to do to Kurt in a school class room, once they get themselves under control they go to the lunch room and sit maybe a little closer together than usual.

After lunch they managed to grab the back table in Chem. Class it allows them to have a little bit more privacy because of the way the table sat, Blaine was still having problems keeping his hands to himself, he forced himself to only hold Kurt's hand through most of the class occasionally allowing himself to rub his hand up Kurt's thigh, loving the sharp intake of breath he hears from Kurt, but then he has to wiggle in his seat when the next thing he knows Kurt reaches out to squeeze his knee, and then move his hand up and gently squeeze something else. Blaine almost comes up out of his seat and has to cough to cover up the moan coming from his mouth.

"Mr. Anderson do you need to go and get a drink" Ms Nelson says stopping her lecture to look at him.

"No I am fine, but thank you, I'll just take a cough drop" he hears a soft giggle beside him and shoots Kurt an evil look, because Kurt knows there is no way he could stand up right now without everyone seeing what condition he is in. "You are in so much trouble" Blaine whispers trying to adjust himself, he was now hard all over again.

"Bring it on" Kurt says with a grin bouncing out of his chair when the bell rings laughing at Blaine when he stands just a little slower, enjoying the fact that he could do that to him that he could turn him on with just a touch.

"Hey, what do you think about maybe going out tonight after glee? Maybe dinner and a movie" Blaine says he has missed being alone with Kurt, and he knew they needed to have a conversation.

"That would be great" Kurt said reaching out to squeeze Blaine's hand quickly. What do you want to see" asks Blaine

"Does it really matter, it's not like we will actually watch it right" Kurt says raising his eye brows

Blaine just smiles and laughs, "you do so have a point" he says looking around to make sure no one is watching he places a quick kiss on Kurt's cheek. "I love you"

"I love you too" Kurt answers back before separating and heading in opposite directions.

They don't have any more classes together for the rest of the day, so the next time he sees Kurt is when he walks in to the choir room. First thing Blaine notices is instead of Kurt sitting where they can sit together as usual, he is in a chair beside Sam. Blaine looks at Santana who raises her shoulders slowly so only Blaine notices, and raises her eyebrows as if to say "I don't Know"

Since Santana and Brittany are sitting together, Blaine sits beside Mercedes. He just figures Kurt has something he wanted to talk to Sam about, and since they would be together tonight they didn't necessarily have to sit together, even though Blaine always preferred that they did.

Brittany was the first to do her assignment that Mr. Shue had given them and she had everyone laughing. She had decided on Whitney's song "Dance With Somebody" and she pulls people out of their seat and makes them dance with her, everyone seems to be enjoying it except, Blaine notices, Kurt, who seems to be more interested in his phone than Brittany's performance, keeping it in his hand which is unusual, and he keeps looking down at it.

When Santana and Rachel get up to sing "So Emotional" for their part of the assignment Kurt pays no attention at all. He is too busy smiling and laughing at his phone and from what Blaine can tell texting someone, occasionally showing something to Sam. Blaine wonders when they became such good friend. He doesn't know why, but he has a bad feeling about the whole thing.

After glee Kurt is acting normal again, Blaine begins to think he was just misunderstanding, jumping conclusions about things that weren't there. "Hey, I have a question for you" Kurt says walking up to Blaine. "Dad and Carol won't be home tonight because dad has some fund raiser in DC do you want to come over instead of going out, that way we can spend some time alone together."

"I'd love that" says Blaine, the thought of alone time with Kurt even if was just to have some cuddle time, making him happy. He could really use that especially after the day he had had.

They head to Kurt's house and straight to his room; they barely make it in, before Kurt is all over him. Blaine loves it. They make love slow and easy, well as slow and easy as Kurt would allow it. After Kurt got his release, Blaine shortly follows buried deep inside of him, leaning down to kiss his sweet lips. Blaine would be happy to spend the rest of the night just laying there

They kissed and messed around for a little while longer, then decided to take a shower, Blaine still wasn't ready to let Kurt go, so the shower lasted longer than normal because all Blaine wanted to do was hold Kurt, kissing him, rubbing up and down his body, gently pushing him into the shower wall to get just a little closer to him, he can't seem to get close enough to shake the rest of the angst and worry he had felt during glee class away. He needed Kurt to show him everything was still ok with them. More than just the frantic lovemaking they had shared.

Once they were dried off and dressed again, Kurt went down stairs to get them some drinks and snacks for when they are watching the movie. Kurt had no more walked out of the room when Blaine started hearing back to back text messages, buzz, buzz, buzz coming from Kurt's phone.

Blaine ignored it as long as he could but then the doubts from today's glee club meeting returned and he did something he never would have normally done, he looked in Kurt's phone, and what he sees shocks him. Kurt has been sexting someone named Chandler for the last few days, and then Blaine wonders if the franticness of their lovemaking earlier was because of him or Chandler. Blaine didn't really like that thought at all.

When Kurt walks back in the room Blaine is still holding Kurt's phone looking at it with sad eyes, "Who is Chandler" he says looking at Kurt, still hoping that this isn't real.

"Why are you going through my phone"

"I'm not going through your phone, it's just that it keeps buzzing because someone named Chandler won't stop texting you". Blaine reads off a few of the texts, and Kurt asks for his phone back.

Kurt looks at Blaine like he is crazy, "Why are you getting so upset, this is just texting"

"This is cheating Kurt" he says still looking at Kurt

"I'm not cheating I promise it is just texting, he pays attention to me, makes me feel good" Kurt said

"So I don't do that, I don't make you feel good Kurt" Blaine said feeling more and more hurt by the minute. "I transferred schools to be with you, so you would know how much you mean to me, how much I love you, that doesn't make you feel good"

"I didn't mean it like that Blaine, this is just texting I swear that is all it is" Kurt said

"No Kurt it's not just texting, if you looked through my phone and you saw something like that, say from Sebastian, would you think that was just texting" Blaine asked

"That is different Blaine because you now how I feel about Sebastian, he wants you, he wants to take you away from me, texting Chandler was fun, being flirted with was flattering, when was the last time you complimented me, or said I was special".

"If you are upset by something I do, or don't do, talk to me Kurt, tell me your unhappy but don't cheat on me because this" Blaine says holding Kurt's phone so he can see it "is cheating"

"Damn it Blaine, why are you being difficult UUUGGGGG THIS ISNT CHEATING, I'm sorry your upset, but everything is ok" Kurt says once again like Blaine's feeling mean nothing before snatching his phone out of Blaine's hand

"You are wrong Kurt, you are so very wrong" Blaine says turning around and walking out Kurt's bedroom door barely able to hold himself together, not sure how he managed to make it out the front door before breaking down.

He goes home and calls Santana and tells her everything "Was I wrong in the way I was feeling, if you read those messages in Brittany's phone would you think it was a form of cheating. Remember how crazy he got when I was texting with Sebastian, and that was all pg13 and never once tried to hide them, as a matter of fact I let him read them"

"I know Blaine, I don't know what to tell you, I saw how he was acting, maybe he was just concerned that you guys weren't spending as much time together as you did at Dalton, not that that is an excuse, but maybe like he said it just made him feel good having someone else to talk to."

"San, you know I can't spend as much time with him as I did at Dalton, even though I would rather spend every minute of every day with him, I have a two hour drive to school and back every day, since I am taking my second English class instead of having free period I have to study at home. I try to do some first thing in the morning, but the bulk has to be done after school. Especially if I want to keep my grades up enough to even get into NYADA, I have cut all my extracurricular down to just glee already"

"Blaine you might have to just bite the bullet and tell him about graduation, to make him understand"

"I'll think about it, oh well guess I need to get some studying done, hope he likes my song tomorrow" Blaine says before hanging up the phone.

The next day at glee even after his talk with Santana he is still a little angry and hurt. So he changes the song he was going to sing. His first choice had been "All the Man That I Need" because that was what Kurt was to him, but instead decided on "It's Not Right But It's Okay" which is almost exactly the words Kurt had said the night before "I'm sorry your upset, but it's ok" almost like Blaine was stupid for feeling what he felt.

He had already handed the band the music for the song he would be doing "This song is for everyone that has ever been cheated on" the music starts.

Friday night you and your boys went out to eat
Then they hung out
But you came home around three

"I didn't cheat on you" Kurt says with a loud sigh

Yes you did
If six of y'all went out
Then four of you were really cheap
Cause only two of you had dinner
I found your credit card receipt

Kurt looked at him like HE was the one in the wrong, which just upset Blaine even more.

It's not right
But it's okay
I'm gonna make it anyway
Pack your bags up and leave
Don't you dare come running back to me
It's not right
But it's okay
I'm gonna make it anyway
Close the door behind you
Leave your key
I'd rather be alone
Than unhappy

At this point Kurt looks at him like he is crazy

Blaine finishes the song, and then turns around and walks toward the door without looking back, just before getting there he heard Santana say "SNAP" how things had gotten like this he didn't know, how they gotten to this point he didn't understand. Blaine heard Kurt calling him, trying to get his attention, but keeps walking because if he stops to talk he will say something he knows he will regret. He needs time to cool off before facing Kurt again.

He goes to his car and heads home, thankful that his parents are away again. He really didn't want to face them right now. He felt beyond stupid, and hurt, and just wanted to crawl into his bed, cover his head, and just forget.

Blaine had been home for two hours when he heard the doorbell ring. He went to answer it knowing who it would be, when he saw Kurt he let him in.

"Blaine, I am so, so, so sorry. I was stupid, Please forgive me, and I'm not sure why I did it. I love you" Kurt said crying

"I love you too Kurt, but that really hurt, I would never do that to you" Blaine whispered

"I know, and I don't have an excuse and I blamed you, and I was the one in the wrong, please don't be mad at me.

"Kurt I'm not mad, like I said I am hurt, and I don't know what is going on with us, when we were at Dalton we were so much closer" Blaine looks at Kurt for a minute and can't stand him crying. "Come here" he says softly, opening his arms for Kurt to walk into, hugging him tight. "Kurt, I love you please, if something upsets you, if I do something wrong, please come to me and let me know. If I don't know there is a problem, I can't fix it. I need you to talk to me please".

"Can we go sit down and talk now" Kurt asks wiping his eyes

Blaine reaches out and takes Kurt's hand and guides him to the living room, they sit on the couch facing each other.

"Blaine you aren't doing anything wrong, I promise, I think it was just me, I don't know what is going on, but the closer it gets to graduation, the closer it gets to me having to live without you. When I met Chandler it was just nice having someone who really didn't know me, listen to me, that is how the texting started, then we started joking, and then into what you read. I messaged him and asked him not to text me again."

"Kurt I would never ask you not to be friends with someone, you know that."

"I know but being friends with him wasn't worth the potential of losing you, I can't lose you Blaine"

Blaine pulls Kurt to him and holds on to him tight. They both needed this "I love you so much" Blaine whispers in Kurt's ear, rubbing his hand up and down Kurt's back soothingly. "We are going to be ok; we just have to learn to talk to each other."

"I love you too Blaine," Kurt said snuggled into Blaine's side feeling better.

"Ok" Blaine says a little hesitantly "I actually have something I need to talk to you about. I am not trying to hurt you or make you think that I am not 100% proud of you, proud of what you want to do, ready to support you always. But here lately all we ever talk about is you going to New York, how awesome NYADA is going to. Please don't take this the wrong way. I am happy to talk to you about that, but we used to talk about us, what we are going to do after graduation, we talked about OUR future, where we wanted to live, where we wanted to go. We always talked about us, I am not saying that I don't want to talk about other things, I do but… here lately it feels like you can't wait to get away from me"

"I sometimes wonder that maybe I am smothering you, do you wish now that I had stayed at Dalton, so you could spend your senior year with your friends and not have to worry about me" Blaine asked looking down at his hands, not wanting to look at Kurt's face to see what his answer might be.

"Blaine no, I am so happy that you are here, the last 3 months of school last year were hell. I missed you so much, and I just wished you were here with me. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like you were in my way, or that I am not so very happy that you are here. "I'm also sorry that I made you feel like you weren't important in my life. I swear, I don't want to be away from you, remember I said last year I was never going to tell you good bye. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like I was pushing you away. New York and NYADA are going to be fun and great, but nothing like they will be when you get there. I promise you will be missed every day.

They stayed there just hugging each other, both still feeling just a little insecure, needing the warmth and the love that they got from each other. Both feeling like they had almost lost the most important thing in their life. They stay just holding each other until they notice it is getting dark outside and Kurt needs to head home. Blaine walks him to his car, pulling him back into a hug, and placing a gentle kiss on Kurt's lips. "I love you so much. Call me when you get home ok"

"I will, love you too" Kurt says placing another kiss on Blaine's mouth before getting in the car and backing out of the driveway.

Blaine walks into the house feeling so much better. They were going to be ok.

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