Looking Forward to Time Alone with You
I had glanced at the clock and realised that I hadn't called Elle yet. Time had gotten away from me. I know she'll understand but I already felt bad about cutting our last call short because I had promised to go out with the guys and forgotten about it until they burst into my room.
"Hey you." Great, now I really feel bad. Elle had clearly been waiting for me to call given the speed she answered.
"Hey um I'm sorry. Some of the guys were over here studying, that's why I didn't call sooner." Now it sounds like I'm just making up excuses. It had been an impromptu study session though. It still sounded like an excuse.
"No worries. I'm glad you're making friends out there. And in two more sleeps I get to come and see you and meet all of them." There's something in the way Elle says this that makes me think that there's more to this visit than seeing me and visiting colleges. I just can't put my finger on what it is.
"Yeah. But I mean we don't have to spend the entire weekend with them." I had plans that mainly involved just Elle and I. Although I do want Elle to meet Chloe. I had never really understood Elle's friendship with my brother until I met Chloe. In fact, I had been jealous of all the time Lee got to spend with Elle especially when we were keeping our relationship a secret. I still had my moments when I resented Lee getting so much of Elle's attention and I got the impression so did Lee's girlfriend. But I know it's nothing more than friendship. It's almost like Lee has a sister. I guess it had taken me so long to see that's all it was because I had never seen Elle as a little sister.
"No. No I want to get to know them." Ok, that's a little too eager. What am I missing? I'm not ready to say good bye to Elle so we go through what we're going to do when Elle gets here. There are places I want to show her but also places she wants to visit while she's here. Then there are also the college visits. We can do this. Hopefully she'll get into Harvard and we won't have to squeeze time together into a weekend. Also I still get the feeling I have to sell Elle on Harvard.
I wonder if she's mentioned to Lee that she's applying to Harvard. I know he has his heart set on them both going to Berkley like our Mothers had, but surely he would understand that Elle needs to apply to a number of colleges. Sure I hope that she gets into Harvard for selfish reasons, but I also want Elle to go to the college that best suits her and not just to be Lee's security blanket. Time will tell which one of us gets to have Elle close by.