Hello everyone. I just wanted to start with telling you that I already finished some of the stories I mentioned last time. I finished for what is a human if she loses her best friend, buried deep within, the search for a family and what I did for hate. So that is four finished and seven left of those that are near their ends.

Also finished a bunch of oneshots, still working on one- but at least it's not fifteen.

"Who were you talking to?" Sasha asked when I came down to lunch. "I thought I heard you talking…"

"You're sneaky all of a sudden!"

Talking to my mum never really got me in a good move exactly. But when I felt the others watching me I knew I had to go on.

"I was on the phone."

"To whom?"

It was Scott asking, and while he was the care worker and I understood the reason he might be asking for it. That still didn't mean I wanted to give him the answer though.

"I'm not very hungry." I got up without even putting food on a plate. "I'll just go and… wait I guess. What time will May- Li be back?"

"In an hour or so. Then you'll be going so just make yourself ready to leave, all of you. You're all old enough to make sure you are…"

I didn't listen to what was being said. I left the room annd hurried back up the stairs and into my room. Where I sunk down to sit on my bed and laid a hand towards my chest when I couldn't keep myself from hyperventilating.

"It's okay" I barely whispered to myself in between breathing fitfully and heavily. "It's okay. She was only calling about the money and trying to guilt you into anything…"

I couldn't get my breathing to slow down, and neither could I help the memories that filled up my mind…

"Fagri…. Fagri… come here."

Sometimes I, without a saddle or reins or anything just went out on the meadows by the stables with my pockets filled with pieces of carrotts and apples. Hours I spent afterwards only walking back and forth and making Fagri follow me- as just a game for us to trust each other also from the ground, so that we did it better when I was on her back.

After a little while the candy would be gone, but I never failed to have pride filling up my chest when I found how easily Fagri followed me.

"Fagri…"

From walking, to running, to running faster she followed every move I made.

Well, it could be partly because she wished to have more candy.

"Good girl." I stopped and scratched her forehead. "We're best friends aren't we….."

Knowing they were ought to leave before me anyway, and come back late to get me, I looked up when I heard a car leaving the stables, a gravel road went away, and then came back and followed the side of the meadow. There were people who didn't think there should be a road and a meadow so close, but this part was only used by people going to and from the stables and every driver knew the rules there were…

That should have been one thing that kept me from doing what I did next…

As I saw dad turn and turn towards the long piece of gravel road along the side of the meadow I couldn't help but to let a smirk form on my lips.

I knew that if someone saw me riding without a helmet and told the owner I'd be in trouble. But I just couldn't care less… I was with my best friend here, the whole, long summer was in front of us and I wouldn't have to spend it anywhere else than at the stables.

"Come on Fagri." I grabbed her mane steadily with both hands and pulled myself up on her back. "We can do what we want. Can we go faster than them?" When I pressed my legs on either side of her sides I didn't have to ask twice. "Faster…"

Right next to him I was up by the street while the car was slightly after…

"COME ON GIRL." I yelled. "COME ON."

I didn't turn to watch him, but in the corner of my eye I could see the car coming up, dad hit the gas pedal and must have seen we were competing.

"COME ON GIRL. FASTER."

There was a tree, almost by the corner of the meadow- and seeing it comin closer and closer it would have to be the finish line.

Iceland ponies weren't exactly known for being the fastest. But while I felt the stronng, horse's body stretch out beneath me it felt as if we were moving a thousand miles an hour.

"WHOA!"

I reached it firsst, then turned my back against the street with a short laugh.

"We won. Good gi.."

I should have known something was ought to happen. And that was the moment when everything happened and my whole life changed.

I should have known getting on Fagri's back without a helmet…

Fagri was always of the kind of calm and patient. But when suddenly dad hit the gas again and came right towards us it stressed her… me too…

He barely missed us, but Fagri was standing on her back legs, bucking, jumping on the spot…

All of a sudden there was a loud bang, it startled me and took my concentration away from hanging onto Fagri's back.

I knew something, or someone was coming thrown towards me- both I and Fagri were hit by it…

With a huge crack inside of my head and Fagri neighing in panic suddenly everything went black…

I really shouldn't have gotten onto her back without a helmet.

Random fact

That "game" with Cameron basically walking back and forth and making Fagri follow him is something I saw on a TV show called Ponnyakuten (The pony emergency) where one guy had problems with his horse when jumping. It helped him with that "game" to make he and the horse trust each other and knowing what the other thought.