POV Jellal:

That strange feeling came again.

I can barely react in any way, and then their screams next to me: Macbeth and Sho. They carry me like I'm drunk, and I'm not.

Erza and Nika follow us. Both worried about what happened to me.

(I don't even know how it happened. Is it because of the emotions? The edge of mental endurance? Possible. I took too much on myself for the cost of my instability. I am also concerned about Erik. Magic Council, could get him at any time...I don't want to experience anything anymore. I've had enough. I just want to fall asleep now. )

...

"I live here, come on!" Nika shouted at them

"Jellal, hold on a little longer." Macbeth held me tight

"I still don't understand what's wrong with him?" Sho grabbed his head

"He ..." Erza couldn't say a word

" What?..."

"He's sick. Seriously sick."

"Erza ... Don't cry." Nika hugged her

"Is it ... Is it because of the trauma?" Sho looked down

" Unfortunately but yes." Macbeth said

Sho froze at that moment. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see a tear leak out of him.

He didn't have to worry about it that much, because it doesn't apply to him.

...

I feel that is wrong.

I hear the rain, I hear it, but I can't move.

I can't open my mouth, why ?! Not that! It does not! I am begging you no! Not now.

I am shaking but there is nothing I can do. I don't know if I'm here or not. It was not me! That's not my reaction! He's taking over, but why?

Siegrain ... Please. Don't come out. Don't take over this front now.

...

- The fun is over. He left me in the inner world and stood up

I want to explain a little bit what's going on here.

Although for me, this is also a completely new situation, because I only know my disorders for almost a year.

The inner world is where communication takes place between me and Siegrain. Nobody knows about it, except me and him. Apparently a very small percentage of people with the same problem as me have this. It is only 2 or 3% depending on the case.

Dissociation is not really a disease in itself, but even a defense mechanism against harm. The ugly comparison is to "hiding in your own safety bubble"

The worst thing is when you don't remember anything and have you have no idea what you have done? How? When? Where? What the fuck?

You can't even control these actions, they happen suddenly and then they disappear too. It cannot be recorded or registered in any way. This is impossible.

At least I have a lot of trouble with it, and in my present state, I just watch from inside my mind when NOT ME, now walking around my sister's apartment and looking at my future wife!

...

"Hello hello my dear ladies. " Goooosh how pathetic he is

"Jellal, are you okay?"

"Just delicious, my Scarlet."

"Oh shit." I have a smart fiancée for real

"Damn. I should be more discreet."

"Erza? ..." Nika was shocked

"Be gentle. Don't hurt him."

"So you are the dear Siegrain I heard about?"

"That's right, sister."

"Can you not talk to me like that?"

" Is it bothering you?"

"Somewhat"

" Okay. I'm sorry"

"Why did you imprison Jellal?" Nika doesn't understand it yet. I don't blame her. I do not understand myself

"No ... Khm. Nika, it's not like that." Good thing Erza is around.

"Jellal, he's just scared. He can't function normally after confessing the truth to the whole Kingdom of Fiore. He's suspended."

"I'm so sorry"

"Jellal asks you to give him the coordinates of the Witches"

"Is he asking or you?" She is smart

"Ehhhh ... We are asking you."

"I don't trust you too much. If Jellal really needs this information, I'll wait until he is well."

Siegrain, at this point, was trying to get out of the apartment by himself. In a way, Erza and Nika stopped ME in a different context, lest I do stupid things.

...

I came back. Kind of, but I don't know anything at all. Everything like a fog. Semi-conscious ... I can move my arms and legs, but still I don't say anything. Sitting in this inner room with red walls is not as bad as getting out of it. This is like waking up from a nightmare for me. I partially know what I have been doing, but still not much.

...

"Jellal, if you can hear us, please nod your head" As Nika said so I was able to do.

"How good, it's better now."

"Not really, Erza."

"What do you mean by that?"

"I am extremely sorry, but you must return to Magnolia by yourself"

" Excuse me?!"

"Don't get mad. Jellal on two fronts, he could hurt himself. I'll take care of him because I don't want to endanger you or him!"

"I care about him ... He's important to me." Erza is crying because of me again.

"I know. You radiate tremendous energy, Flame Aries Woman."

"Where did you ...?

"Jellal told me when is your birthday."

"Oh...I see."

"Don't worry. He will be safe here and will come back when he has the strength."

"Ok I agree..."

Erza left at 10 am. The train is due in about 45 minutes. I saw her regret when she said goodbye to me. We are going to be temporarily separated.

However, it is better for me to stay with my younger sister than to have me locked up in the Closed Psychiatric Ward for a year.

I couldn't take that anymore.

Tired, sweaty, hungry. These are my feelings today.

My sister prepared a bath for me, but with her forethought, she made it clear that I could not be left alone in this bathroom.

Her White Ball of Fur was to guard me.

What the fuck has it got to have a dog present when I wash myself.

I can't picture it, but in this tub I felt like I was in heaven. The scent of lavender is soothing and the mint is great for cooling. That's good, the heat is terrible outside. My thoughts are pleasantly aroused, can this be meditation? Full relaxation and calm breaths, that's what I needed ... Head back, hand to face. Eyes closed and heart rate slow ... Visualization of the best possible future.

...

After leaving the bathroom, I took the clean clothes out of my bag, and the ones I was wearing the day before, I simply washed in my hands and hung them on the balcony.

Meanwhile, Nika was doing some ritual over the poured tea. She put the mixture on several medium-sized ice cubes. Then she twirled the wooden spoon a little. She grabbed the strainer and poured the drink into two square glasses.

While we were eating breakfast, she suddenly got up from the kitchen table and went to her room.

When she returned, she handed me an old map and a compass. She told me it was time for me to meet the Witches and know the story of my birth.

...

I decided to go to the forest.

There was a magical power on the path.

It wasn't something like lacrima, something else entirely: As if the forest itself was a Witch or some kind of Deity.

After traveling the first kilometer, I heard the noise of a brook near a small section of the river, but where did this water come from? I have no idea.

Wait ... Where do I get these sudden thoughts from? Why do I feel like I was here once? ... This stone. I think I remember something ...

... Jellal, be careful! Don't run so fast or you'll fall into the water...

... Hahahahaha it's fun ...

... I understand you enjoy nature, but ...

... Mommy, there is a monster!...

... My sunshine. This is not a monster, just a frog. ...

... The frog won't hurt me? ...

... Of course not...

... Mommy, can I run in the water? ...

... Ummm okay, but stay close to the shore. ...

... Okay, mommy! ...

So I was already here as a child. The witches must remember me, but why don't I remember them? I don't understand again.

- Damn it! Fine. My shoe is broken. What the fuck am I supposed to do now ?! O... Khm, yes. This idea will be crazy, but I don't see any other option.

I took them off and ran down the brook. I felt total freedom, I wanted to scream with happiness.

This forest and everything around it was wonderful. I think that I could live with Erza like this, build our beautiful future without pain, right in the forest.

Far from the city noise, chaos and heavy missions. This is what I want to create and when I regain my power, I will strive for it.

...

I reached on my bare feet all the way to a wooden and brick house. Walking silently onto the porch, I knocked on the copper door handle.

A short, dark-skinned woman opened it for me.

"Excuse me. Is the Witches Coven here?"

"...Oh Gods! Child of the Stars, Jellal Fernandes. It's really you! This nice witch hugged me tightly

"Yemaya? Did something happen? ..." Another Coven member, probably knew me

"Do you really know who I am?

"Jellal, our coven was your second home" Yemaya began to cry

I was shocked by a photo. I was on it and the date indicated I was about 3 years old here. It is possible that a coven was responsible for my initial upbringing. It was the same with my sister, but her case was a very different matter.

I heard someone walking hard on the rotten floor. He was an elegantly dressed man, not much shorter than me. Black curly hair and mesmerizing blue eyes. It turned out to be their High Priest.

"Hello, nephew." Now that baffled me

" What?..."

"I am Nishad. Your uncle. Your mother's brother."

"Oh shit! ... sorry"

"I felt you would react like that. Don't worry, I'll tell you everything in a moment. "

We sat in the lounge.

Nishad and the rest of Coven told me what kind of person my mother was. She served several kingdoms around the world. Her wisdom was shown at every turn. The Wolf Lady who, unfortunately, met a soldier of the Bosco Army. He didn't let her do much when she married him. Armand was a dry and spoiled man. It was imperative for him to be successful in the army. Funnily enough, before he ended up in uniform, he was a thief from another continent. Right where the Alvarez Empire was.

Had it not been for Tetyana Nedjić's good heart, he would have died in one of the battles. She signed a peace treaty with two hostile states. Of course, my father still held a grudge against her.

When my mother got pregnant, my father left her because the next order from the army was more important.

"Tetyana learned a terrible thing about her pregnancy" Nishad sounded pretty desperate

" Tell me."

"When she was four months pregnancy, they told her that you could either be born dead or she could miscarry at any moment."

"My heart will break."

"Jellal, your mom went out of her way to prevent this from happening. She gave her soul to give you a chance to exist.

"She went crazy. Nothing stopped her, not even the fact that she was cursing herself. How much blood she shed for this spell to work. She cried during the ritual, pleading with evil forces to save you. She then gave you a name. The part of the mark under your brow is your initial. " Yemaya touched my heart more

"Mom ... predict my future? "

"And yours and your sister's. She wrote everything down in her Book of Shadows." Nishad replied

"Haven't read it yet."

"You absolutely have to do it. This is one of the steps to unlocking your magical power, and maybe even deepening it. Remember to take care of yourself too ... The psyche also matters."

"We can help you as well. We'll be happy to teach you something new." Yemaya is seriously a lovely "aunt"

" Thank you. I'll take advantage of it. "

...

It's time for me to go back to Magnolia. They packed a few things for me in my bag, so I couldn't move.

I would also like to add that my shoes were screwed up.

One of the Witches threw a vial of purple liquid, creating smoke around me, and suddenly, without knowing, I found myself at the Crocus train station.

I'm not into it. Magic is magic.

Conductor and passengers' faces: Priceless

I looked weird without shoes, I don't give a shit about it.

I'll buy a new one tomorrow.

...

It was already sunset.

I got off the train in Magnolia and someone was waiting for me.

"Yo, Jellal!" It was Natsu

"Hi Natsu. What are you doing here?"

"Erza asked me to pick you up."

"Nice of you."

"Why don't you have shoes?"

"Don't ask anything."

"Alright. Let's go "

" Mhm"

"Do you have any plan to fix your life?"

" O..."

"I'm just asking! Don't stress!" Natsu waved his arms.

"Yeah. I'm enrolling in a Line of Psychological Therapies."

" I will keep my fingers crossed."

"I know. You are one of the people who give me support. I will never forget an event for you."

"What?"

"You broke ... that place. You saved everyone's lives, including me."

" Hihihihi."

"I admire your joy in life. You have to teach me this. "

" No problem"

" Thanks."

Today has shown me a lot. How much can I change, what I can forget about, what to remember well.

I would love to regain my lost happiness.

The End

A/N: I'm sorry to be around for so long, but I needed a break due to health problems.

lost himself for a while to his childhood flashbacks, hence the appearance of Siegrain. However, he did nothing, he is harmless. He only pretends to be "scary"

2. Yes. Jellal was only 3 years old in his memory of his mother. The witch coven has about 10 people, so I did not mention all of them because I lacked ideas, sorry.

3. Headcanon: Tetyana had a vision in her third month of pregnancy when she saw the Dragon over the Kingdom of Fiore. That dragon was Irene Belserion. Then Erza was born. However, it had nothing to do with destiny.

4. Jellal will not know her date of birth until Chapter 12. Then he will set off on a long journey to the source of his magic.

5.I won't write about his parents anymore because it's a very long and complicated story. This is all I can say, it was not a love marriage.

That's it

I hope that you liked it.

I wish you the best in life.

WistieTheJellyFox.