Karamatsu was relieved that at least Ichimatsu hadn't insisted on holding his hand. Ichimatsu had a bag slung over his shoulder, the contents of which Karamatsu feared he'd soon find out. They weren't walking quickly, nor slowly. Just their regular pace. He wished they'd walk faster and get this over with. He wished they'd walk slower to delay as long as possible.
Eventually and all too soon, they arrived at a hotel that he didn't bother checking the name of. He was glad there was no one at the counter, and merely an automated system on a screen. Ichimatsu put in the coupons and selected a room, taking the key it dispensed. It was on the first floor, but beyond that he didn't care what the room number was.
Approaching the door that must've been theirs, Ichimatsu used the key and opened the door. The two entered, and Ichimatsu pulled Karamatsu to the bathroom.
"Go ahead and take a shower, get yourself clean. I took one before we left. I have to run an errand, be back soon." On his way out, he left the bag on the bed. He shut the door behind him, leaving Karamatsu alone.
He let out a breath he'd been holding, quickly shutting the bathroom door behind him, locking it before he realized it. Trying to keep his breathing even, turned on the water. He stripped down while it warmed up, then stepped inside.
He proceeded to shower as normal, then remembered what Ichimatsu said. 'Get yourself clean'. Did he mean...? Karamatsu felt his eyes water. He knew from the moment he saw the coupons what his position in this encounter would be. Ichimatsu was far too aggressive to bottom. He just prayed he go easy on him. His first time would already be miserable, but he didn't want physical agony in addition to that.
So, biting his lip in discomfort the whole time, he did as he was told.
When he figured he'd cleaned himself well enough, he stepped out of the shower and dried off, grabbing one of the supplied bathrobes. His brother had seen him naked countless times but never in this context.
Opening the door, he had no idea what to expect. Would he be thrown down the second he stepped out, ravaged with no more preparation than what he'd just done? Would Ichimatsu take his time and pamper him, shower him with praises and promises to make him feel good? The latter sounded better, honestly.
Despite his desire to get this done as quickly and painlessly as possible, he still wished he could just... maybe make himself believe, just until they finished, that he was with someone he loved in that way. He had no one in mind, though, so in the end he'd just have to accept. He was getting fucked by his own brother, whom he did not love this way.
After all, he couldn't exactly back out now, could he?
He exited the bathroom to find the room still empty. Just himself.
Himself and the bag that was left behind.
Curiosity got the better of him. He grabbed the bag by the bottom, spilling its contents. He paled at what he saw.
Handcuffs, ankle cuffs, a cock ring, multiple dildos, a blindfold, nipple clamps, many more things and things he couldn't even put a name to.
Ichimatsu had brought all this. ALL OF THIS. To use on him. For their first time?
How much of a sadist was his little brother? Fear clawed at his chest, his lungs wouldn't function, he couldn't do this, he couldn't, he couldn't, he couldn't-
He tore off the bathrobe and threw on his regular clothes, throwing on his jeans so fast he was afraid he'd break the zipper. He nearly put his hoodie on backwards, and almost put his shoes on the wrong feet.
He couldn't go through with his, he knew Ichimatsu would be at the very least disappointed when he returned to find Karamatsu gone and he'd apologize profusely later. Maybe they could have a quick talk about boundaries, or maybe, maybe Ichimatsu would break up with him!
His mind was jumbled as he tripped in his haste to get out of there, he slammed the door behind him and dashed to the entrance.
The second he got outside, he tried to catch his breath in the cool night air. Shaking legs began to lead him back home, but he didn't even make it past the alley when-