The castle loomed overhead. It had sat there day in and day out. Never changing. It looked just as Hannibal had remembered it from his childhood, though a little more overgrown. The plant life had slowly taken back over the carefully manicured gardens.
Hannibal stood at the fence line, unable to so much as build up the courage to touch the rusted gate that had dead and new vines of ivy growing over it to the point where Hannibal knew if he wanted to get in he would have to climb the spires. The thought made him take a small step back and glance over the fence once more, wondering just how Will had done it. He had to have met Chiyoh somehow.
He was curious how far Will had wandered. Will had said that he hadn't stepped foot into the castle, he had stayed more on the grounds where Chiyoh had been staying. Will had mentioned the wine cellar that was off the side of the house and it would be a lie if Hannibal wasn't curious as to what had become of the man that Chiyoh had killed, left in that cellar to rot with the rest of his family's homemade vintages.
For the hundredth time Hannibal glanced over his shoulder, unable to rid himself of the feeling of being watched just like on that last day here in this place. A feeling that there were eyes on him even though he had no idea where they possibly came from.
Shadows among the tree line of his property. The same trees that seemed to have hands that snatched at him and his sister as they had run through the snow in an attempt to escape.
Hannibal glanced up at his home once more before turning away from the gate and trudging through the light wisps of snow and wet leaves that were remaining as spring finally started to claw its way to the surface.
The path was as clear and sharp in his mind as it had been nearly thirty years ago. A right at this tree, a left at that one. A nick across his cheek from a snatching branch of this tree. The tug of his hand against Mischa's as she shivered from the cold of the winter. Numb with wide eyes that Hannibal thought would never be bright again, a red ribbon still tied stubbornly in her hair.
Hannibal's sure footfalls halted when he fell upon the cabin that was dilapidated with the years of disuse and being forgotten, abandoned to the elements just as the rest of his property had been.
The longer Hannibal looked at it, the more it looked like a shed than an actual cabin. Its roof was caving in and the entirety of the building was leaning so far to one side that it was bound to collapse if not now then in the exceedingly near future. The chimney had already given way, the bricks scattered in a line across the ground.
Hannibal stepped up to the door and tugged at it. The wood splintered and cracked under the weight of the walls and roof it was helping hold up, but with enough force, Hannibal finally got the door to begrudgingly open. He had to throw his shoulder into the wood in an attempt to make enough room for him to finally step through.
He had to duck beneath the frame from the angle, but a flash of a man doing the same thing from when he was younger came to his mind. Someone who was just bones now, left somewhere to rot, not even his sister's name carved into his flesh any longer. A man who Hannibal would now be taller than. Had become stronger than. If only he had been stronger all those years ago.
A lump formed in Hannibal's throat as he glanced around the empty room that had snow blanketing the ground and sunlight streaming in from the cracks in the roof and the broken windows.
A single rocking chair was tipped over in the corner, but Hannibal could still hear the way that the wood creaked as it moved, the thud of a knife as it was embedded into the armrest and pulled free again and again and again.
The fireplace was alive with crackling flames and Hannibal's stomach turned at the scent of fresh food cooking. The first meal that wasn't some sad form of hard and stale biscuits in what felt like months, though it had probably only been days.
The ashes still filled the firebox and Hannibal stepped closer at a small hint of red. He was certain that his mind was playing tricks on him, but as he reached out and brushed away shoot and charcoal that turned his fingers black, he was met with dull red ribbon. A ribbon that Hannibal swore had been burnt completely away.
His clean hand snatched at it and pulled the long ago singed ribbon from the dirt and he clasped it to his chest, his ribs wanting to concave in on themselves. The only part of Mischa left that he truly had. A part of a red ribbon that she refused to go a day without it being tied up in her blonde locks.
For the first time since he had stepped foot back in this country since leaving Will, he felt at home. As odd as it sounded and felt, he was at home. Mischa had been his home for so long and it struck him how he had never felt that breath of air the same way he did when Will was around. His body ached at the idea that maybe he would never feel that rush of calm and relief ever again now that both of the people he had loved in his life were both gone from it.
"I'm not gone," a sweet voice said in Lithuanian, causing Hannibal to turn around, eyes wide as he looked over a blonde angel who was no older than eight years old. She gave a giggle, skipping up to Hannibal, her yellow sundress dancing with her movements. She came to a halt with her small hand outstretched. "You found my ribbon, Hanni! I was looking for it."
"Mischa," Hannibal whispered, slowly lowering himself to his knees in the snow. It had been years since he had spoken to her of his own volition. His fever had been another matter entirely. He was certain that with the fever Mischa really had come to take him back home, but he was grateful she had come to understand Will enough to allow him to return to the man. This Mischa was all in his head. He knew that, but she was a welcome sight all the same. "Shall I return it to you?"
"I'd like that. You know it's my favorite!"
Hannibal gave a laugh and a weak nod, eyes dropping to the ribbon still crumpled deep in his fist. "Yes, I know." Hannibal looked back over the young girl, holding back the tears in his eyes. "I'm sorry I couldn't protect you like I should have."
"You were the best big brother I could have asked for, Hanni," Mischa excused easily just as she always had, though it did nothing to lessen Hannibal's guilt. "Can I please have my ribbon back?"
Hannibal pushed himself to his feet, disregarding the icy wetness on the knees of his pants. Instead he took Mischa's still outstretched hand in his and guided her from the place of her death, back out into the extensive forests on the estate.
They wandered about until they reached the gate once more. Chained and overgrown. Hannibal didn't have long to contemplate the movement as Mischa materialized on the other side of the gate, waiting for him to follow, stepping through the muddy field with a bit of a hop to her movements.
"Come on, Hanni!" she called back happily.
Hannibal closed his eyes tightly with a deep breath. Thirty years since he had been on the other side of that gate. He hadn't had much time to think about it then either. Not when officers were chasing him for his crimes across Paris and Florence. Not when he knew he only had a limited amount of time to see his sister once more.
Hannibal inhaled deeply, opened his eyes to find Mischa's blue eyes watching him and waiting from where she stood in a mud puddle, the hem of her yellow dress now smeared in it. He placed the ribbon carefully in one of his jacket pockets before taking some of the vines and hoisting himself up the tall spires of the gate.
His knee ached at the movements, the phantom pains of a surgery clinging to him and he knew that they would stay there. The cold was doing nothing to help, seeming to only cause the new metal in his knee to pain him more.
He swung his leg up and over the gate, but stopped as his eyes once more caught sight of the castle in the distance, tall above the tree line. It was dark and cold and looked uninviting, as if he would be cursed the moment he decided to take one step closer to it. He was about to climb back down and turn away from the estate when his sister's voice once more called to him.
"Hanni!"
"I'm coming," he assured, though making his body move was another case entirely. He swung his other leg over the gate and dropped down into the muddy field, only for his hand to be snatched up by his sister once more.
He was drug away, through trees and past the servant's quarters that were also now in disrepair and falling apart. He didn't stop moving, didn't dare stop moving, until he finally reached their family's plot. Headstone after headstone.
The last time he had seen these graves he had been eighteen and had brought Mischa's bones here to finally be laid to rest. Buried properly. But as he looked over the stone marking that was weather worn and overgrown, shame poured over him. It wasn't enough. Had never been enough. Had simply been good enough because he had to flee Europe. Had to go to America.
"You deserved better," Hannibal muttered, a hand reaching out to touch the cold stone.
"Can I have my ribbon now?" Mischa asked once more, not having either noticed or cared about what Hannibal had just uttered.
"As soon as I fix this."
"Fix what?"
"I'm going to make you a proper grave. Better than this," Hannibal announced, glancing around his surroundings at another feeling of being watched settling into his bones and making the hair on the back of his neck stand up. "Then you can have your ribbon back, Mischa. I promise."
Driving up the coast was odd to say the least. The overwhelming notion of deja vu was enough to cause Will to get dizzy and have to pull over once or twice to make sure he didn't vomit. He had never seen a single piece of this land before, never traveled this far north and yet everything had screams smeared across them.
There was an intenseness and permanent haunting as he pushed the further north, driving highways that stretched like ley-lines, everything seeming to tangle and curl back on itself like a loose thread.
The forests around him gave the impression of simply tolerating humans and that the world was one heave away from all of their homes being destroyed. The trees and mountains seemed to eat any sound and for once in his life, Will thought he finally understood why Stephen King wrote all of his stories in Maine.
Cape Elizabeth was a sweet town, with its own secrets and horrors, Will was sure. It had a decent main street business that was nestled in the remnants of a forest up against the rocky coastline. The closer to the coast Will got, the larger the houses grew and the more spread out they became.
The car finally came to a stop and Will stared out of the window at a familiar sight that pulled at the edges of his mind, though there was nothing that sparked to the forefront like he had been hoping.
The weathered paint of the lighthouse was evidence of its humble valor, how it stood resolute upon the rock to tell of dangers others couldn't see. The lighthouse was bathed in brine, pure and salty, season in and season out. Around it were the rocks both proud of the waves and submerged, sharp and jagged out to a cliff face. They were treacherous, an evil repute among sailors. Will wasn't sure he would dare his hand in the water here.
Will's brows furrowed at the deep black mess that lapped at the base of the tower and Will stepped out of the car, making his way towards the building. Hidden around a small grove of trees waited the smothering remains of a home.
The foundation and some of the wooden framing was skeletal in the light of the day, as if an artist sketched it in charcoal. The bulk of the mess had been cleaned away, but the fire that had taken place there had scarred the earth and left several of the trees with singed tattoos.
Any real steps that had once led to the lighthouse were missing now and Will trudged up the steep and rocky path to the climbing beacon whose name Will knew, but couldn't seem to accept. The name of the building would forever be The Watching Star. The name scribed on the paper folded up in Will's pocket.
The door of the lighthouse was just as weather worn as the rest of it and looked nearly untouched. The entirety of this cliff had looked untouched, save for the door handle. Will knew that the lighthouse was still active, but whether from actually having the information stored in his head or just an overwhelming amount of evidence he hadn't consciously put together yet, he wasn't sure.
The door handle held a dirtiness to it. A hand print left on it that didn't belong to any of the keepers, if Will had any guess about it. A hand print that, as odd as it sounded, he recognized. Had stared at many times in ink from prints taken of a prisoner, though he couldn't remember said prisoner. Wasn't even sure there really was a prisoner, but it felt right. Just as everything had felt sickeningly right.
Will reached out to the handle and took it in hand with a deep breath, the taste of the ocean in the inhale. He pushed the door open and stepped into the circular room. The floor was stone, but the place looked decently furnished in the small case that someone possibly wanted to live there. And live there someone had. Recently.
The phantom smell of fresh herbs and spices filled the kitchen, dining room and sitting room that made a circle around a staircase dab in the middle of the room. Will tipped his head curiously and closed the door behind him to keep out the bitter chill from the ocean.
Will cautiously stepped through the room, taking it all in slowly. There was no dust in sight. The dishes looked freshly washed and put away. In the window over the sink there were indeed several potted plants of things like rosemary and thyme and mint. But the scent of the herbs did nothing to hide the much stronger scent that was starting to wash over Will. Not forest or wine or books. Not ocean brine and winter crispness. Something sickly sweet.
He pushed the smell away for a moment more so he could fully explore the lighthouse. Everything else looked oddly normal, but it struck him how oddly normal it was when he came to the small sitting area and found a book on the cushion of a loveseat with a bookmark left in its pages.
Will's brows furrowed slightly, the idea of someone reading aloud to him fluttering across his mind, though he wasn't sure who had ever read aloud to him. It absolutely wasn't his father and it hadn't been Molly. Maybe Alana at one point. He seemed to recall something about a hospital room and a woman who raised peacocks, but that was just as distant as the rest of his memories.
Will picked up the book and looked over it curiously for a moment. It had no markings or indications of what it was. The spine and covers blank save for the black binding over it. There was nearly a warmth to the book, as if someone had just had it cracked open on their laps and was reading it. As if they had just recently set it down and left this place.
Will tipped the book open to where the bookmark was waiting and pulled what looked like an envelope from the pages. Across the front, with the same handwriting as what had adorned the origami heart was Will's name.
But that wasn't what caught his attention immediately. It was a passage marked in the book. Something simply scribbled down in the margin of the book. Will's eyes skimmed the passage.
"Do you understand, sir, do you understand what it means when you have absolutely nowhere to turn?" Marmeladov's question came suddenly into his mind "for every man must have somewhere to turn..."
And in the same handwriting that now processed his life was written,
…everyone needs a somewhere, a place he can go. There comes a time, you see, inevitably there comes a time you have to have a somewhere you can go...
"And where did you go, Hannibal?" Will asked softly, closing the book and setting it on the armrest of the loveseat. Will let himself sit on the cushion and looked over the envelope in his hand. Did he truly want to open it? His son's words had been a fighting force through the constant onslaught of deja vu. Hannibal wasn't a good man.
With a long inhale, Will went to work opening the envelope and pulling free the paper inside of it. Through the back of the paper the swirling cursive was present and Will couldn't help but recall having burned one such letter before.
Darling boy,
I miss you terribly, but this will be the last time that I write to you. The universe continues to prove that we weren't meant to be together, but I like to think we almost were.
When I left, I felt lost. I tried to look for you everywhere, but nothing has sparked the same feeling that fills me when I'm near you. I'm returning to someplace that I vowed to never return to in hopes that maybe it can repair me that I might be enough for myself and I no longer have to depend on you for everything that makes me strong.
I don't feel quite myself and I'm afraid that my writing isn't quite as poetic as it normally is, but I don't think that metaphors are quite needed between us any longer. I've grown tired of the roundabout games and wish to be straightforward with you. You deserve it after all of these years of games.
Just as I said in our marriage vows, I am committed to spending the rest of my days making yours beautiful and my leaving is the best way I feel I have to accomplish the task. I didn't want to come between you and your son. The relationship you two have is something special and strong and sincerely reminds me of my relationship with my sister. I would never dream of tearing that away from you.
I hope that your subconscious misses me as much as my consciousness misses you. But we always have a place somewhere in this world, even if it's just the rooms we share in our minds. We made that place for us and I will wait there as long as I need to be able to see you once more my love.
Hannibal Lecter
Will stared at the letter, reread it several more times before it lowered into his lap, his mind reeling with the want to remember this marriage that had been mentioned several times and the need to fix the unnaturalness of a ring missing on his finger.
A church danced somewhere in the back of his mind. Suits and guns and rings. Sirens blared across his memories, but he couldn't exactly place why. Ghostly words pushed themselves forward, bringing with them an onslaught of pain behind Will's right eyes.
He gasped, leaning forward, his palm pressing against his eyes in an attempt to lessen the pain with a bit of pressure, but only being successful in causing patterns to dance across his vision.
"I commit myself to spend the rest of my days making yours as beautiful and complete as you have made mine since the day, I met you, for you are the reflection of my very soul. A reflection of a part that I had lost many years ago and was gone until you gave it back to me. No lies, no secrets, no laws and not even death will keep me apart from you for you and I are one," an accented voice flooded through him.
"Just my son would separate us," Will grumbled, his hand rubbing the back of his neck, fingers tracing an odd scar over his skin that he finally seemed able to place. Similar markings that followed a line down his back. Bite marks from Hannibal. Claiming marks that sent a terrible shiver through the empath at the thought that he had allowed the man that much access to him when Will considered himself a rather vanilla person. He wasn't sure what other task he would have been doing to have Hannibal's teeth that close to his body.
Will inhaled deeply, the sickly sweet scent once more assaulting him like a smelling salt. He sat up fully and got to his feet, letting the letter be placed on the book as he made his way for the staircase that let upwards.
He climbed up it, the scent only growing stronger, but Will found nothing more than a bedroom on the next floor. The room was once more circled around the staircase that continued upward, but Will stepped from it, glancing around the room.
Will nearly continued upwards, almost feeling like he would be intruding on a piece of Hannibal that didn't belong to Will, but his feet led him into the room and he walked over to the bed, once more reaching out to feel at the items that were in the house.
The deep green fabric of the bedspread was soft against Will's rough fingers, a tiredness pulling at his limbs. He sat down on the bed and rested back on it, eyes closed, allowing the plushness of the mattress to drag him further down.
"Get comfortable, mon cher," an accented voice instructed softly, making Will sigh into the air.
Maybe it was the saltiness of the air or maybe Hannibal's room had always smelt of a forest. Something earthy, wild and ancient. Damp moss, rain, wet tree trunks, flowers, and needle-covered paths. A tree stump that was already creating new life, or even snow, frost, and softwood and still clinging from the office, wine and old books... Home.
Will was missing home. He was missing the phantom comfort that came from this man that he wished he knew more about, but was certain he missed Will as much as Will missed him. How did you miss someone you didn't know?
Will clutched to the bedspread, hiding his face in it in hopes that he could ignore the sweetness in favor of whatever was left of his apparition of a husband, but even the calling of forests, wine and books did nothing to deafen a scent that Will knew far too well from his line of work. He had been trying to keep a name from it, but there was absolutely no way to accomplish that task. Maybe he was just buying himself time to be ready for what he would find, what his husband had left behind.
Not a good man.
Will drug himself from the bed and forced himself back to the staircase, starting up it once again. Stair after stair until he reached the third floor that was separated just as the others had been with the continuing staircase in the middle of the room.
Will didn't need to continue upwards though. Not now that the scent had become thick and heavy in the air and he came face to face with fantastical artwork that resonated somewhere deep in his bones from crime scenes he couldn't exactly conjure back up.
It was an image that Will had seen many times in textbooks and online and in documentaries. It was an image that he had longed to see in person when he finally got around to visiting Italy just as he had always wanted to. An image that could have been compared to the original if it hadn't begun to decay.
Two men. One on the right and one of the left. The one on the right was an elderly, yet muscular man with greying hair, wearing nothing more than a light tunic which left much of his arms and legs exposed. He was outstretched and aloft, reaching out towards a much younger naked man, a lounging figure who rather lackadaisically responds to the imminent touch. The touch that would not only give the younger life, but life to all mankind, the birth of the human race.
Michelangelo's Creation of Adam, or Hannibal's reimagining of it. With a man that looked far too much like Will for Will to be entirely comfortable. Blue eyes, curly hair, fit but not muscular form. And if Will was meant to be Adam, then he could only assume the God was Hannibal.
Will's head tipped to the side as he stepped closer. Was this what Hannibal truly looked like? Godly? Was Hannibal that narcissistic that he saw himself as a god? Was Hannibal all commanding and powerful? Was he greying? Old? Strong? He had to have been to create this artwork that was being strung from the ceiling with fishing lines and lures that looked handmade.
They were handmade. Will blinked as he stepped even closer to better look at the miniature artwork embedded in the two men's skin and his mouth fell open. Those were his lures. Lures he had made. He recognized them perfectly. The red feathers in this one and the deer bones in another. One of his dog's teeth that had to be pulled on yet another.
Will groaned, a hand going to his right temple as his skull attempted to split in two. He nearly fell to the ground with the force of it, his knees buckling under him. Tears welled up in his eyes and his chest clenched up as if his ribs were concaving.
He had been put behind bars because of his lures. Because of what Hannibal had done to his lures. Will had been trapped behind bars for almost a year because of the missing girl's hair, nails, earrings and other items being tied into the lures. Pieces of dead girls that Hannibal had killed. Each one pinned on him, made to look so clearly like Will that even Will had begun to believe it.
Will blinked through the tears, trying to catch his breath as he once more took in the bodies.
"What artwork were you going to base me on Hannibal?" Will asked, stepping up behind Hannibal and wrapping his arms around Hannibal's waist and hiding his face into the back of Hannibal's sweater between the man's shoulder blades. "Was I going to be a classic like the man and woman in Florence or was I going to be an original like Isley?"
"I had pictured using you to recreate The Creation of Adam," Hannibal described. "Only your body would be fit for such a thing."
"Not as God?"
"Adam was painted with such detail it would be a shame for you not to be Adam."
The last few days have been difficult. Will is currently still in the hospital on oxygen constantly due to a severe case of smoke inhalation. I have just been released and told that I was lucky my burns weren't worse or covering a larger area. I didn't need a skin graft, but third degree burns do not concern me.
He's still on that cliff and I am unaware of how to help him return to the present at this moment in time. Maybe I can try stimulating his senses with something he recognizes.
Will set the fire on the house after he drugged my wine with his own medical supplies. Thankfully he didn't give me enough. I woke and found Will unconscious beside me, hand in mine. The heat was unbearable, thick with smoke. I dragged his body out of the house and a neighbor called for medical help.
The fire.
Will raced back to the stairs, nearly falling down the three flights in his frantic want to be outside. He flung open the creaking, old wooden door and stumbled through the rocks until he was back at the charcoal foundation.
He had set the fire. He had tampered with wiring in the electrical. He had drugged Hannibal's nightly glass of wine. He had lied with the man in the smoke and he had woken up in the hospital. Not a scratch, not a burn, just faint whispers of smoke inhalation until he was somewhere in New York, ripped away from his Watching Star.
Will watched as Hannibal slowly turned around and Will got to his feet at the sight of what looked like a bleached patch of skin that covered up half of the brand that was left behind by Mason Verger. Something raised and scared. Something Will had failed to discover when he had been exploring Hannibal's body previously.
Will reached out with a shaky hand, but stopped himself, unsure on if it was appropriate to touch or not. He didn't have permission. He was being presumptuous. Even with as much touching as Hannibal had been allowing Will, this was something different. Something deeply wounding and personal.
Hannibal waited. "You can touch it, if you would like. It doesn't hurt anymore."
The world spun and Will wanted to vomit. His head pounded, sharp and heavy under the hand that still clutched to his temple. He closed his eyes, fighting off the nausea. Trying, even through the pain, to remember how he could have arrived at this strange, dark place where nothing seemed familiar, but years of information was at his fingertips.
"There is a pressure point in your wrist; it's called the LU-7. You find it by interlocking your thumb of one hand with that of the other, the point lies on the edge of the index finger, in a depression between the sinew and the bone."
Hannibal's words rang clearly through his head like a bell. It bounced about his skull as his trembling hands followed to obey the instructions. Interlocking thumb with one hand, point lies at index. Will shoved his thumb into the small grove in his wrist that seemed to fit his finger perfectly and gave a whimper as clarity filled him.
He inhaled deeply, straightening up, tears of pain rolling down his cheeks.
"Fuck," he whispered to no one other than himself. The pain might have been gone, kept at bay by a pressure point, but the memories didn't stop. Like a broken dam, they overtook every inch of Will and he sucked in air in the hopes that he wouldn't drown in his own mind. "Fuck!"
His legs shook until his knees finally gave way and he tumbled into the rocky dirt beside the flame licked remains of their home. A home that he had been stitched up in and, though the memories were foggy at best, had grown even closer to Hannibal in.
"We were in a house in Maine. You liked it there," Hannibal's voice explained.
"Did I?" Will whispered.
"You liked to sit by the window that overlooked the coast. You could see a lighthouse from the window."
Will turned back to the lighthouse, seeming to recall in a drugged haze the spinning of the light as it warned ships during massive lightning storms. Warm drinks placed in his hands and then to his lips. Careful touches while thunder crackled through a sky that it tried to split into pieces. Soft conversations about anything and nothing all at once. Simple enough that Will didn't have to speak, simply had to nod or shake his head as he listened.
Will inhaled deeply and forced himself back to his feet and to the lighthouse so he could gather up the letter that had been left there. His hand kept a firm pressure on his wrist, too afraid to take it away when his free hand snatched up the paper from the arm of the love seat, several of the words from the page only sparking more memories to the forefront of his mind.
"From this moment I give my whole self to you," Will whispered, grateful that his voice wasn't cracking with the way that it felt like it would, "to respect you, honor you and cherish all of the life that you and I are about to create for ourselves and the family we are going to be. I promise you that I will always do my best to find my way to you," -Will hoped that Hannibal knew exactly what Will meant and the small tip of Hannibal's lips told Will he did. Will would always find him, whether his mind was on fire, being carved out with a saw or being wiped clean again and again. He would find Hannibal- "for I cannot be myself without you because you are the most beautiful and truest part of myself. I cannot live without you because I know that I can be more with you than I have ever been apart from you."
It hadn't been a lie. Not even now that Will could remember every last little horrible thing that either of them had done to the other could his vow be a lie. He was going to find Hannibal. One way or another. He just had to figure out where to look.
I'm returning to someplace that I vowed to never return to in hopes that maybe it can repair me...
Will's eyes widened as he read over the letter once more, taking in his husband's -oh, his dear husband's- writing.
Lithuania. That was where Will needed to return to, but first he needed this migraine to pass. He needed to let all of the memories finally settle back into place and gauge how he felt. Maybe he needed to read the leather notebook that Alana had given him now that he had a fresh perspective, though he was certain he could quote the entirety of it from how often he had read it before his mind caved in on itself.
He'd get a hotel, rest the next night or two and find Hannibal. Whether another death attempt waited at the end of this encounter, Will couldn't be certain, but he had promised to always find his husband and Will never broke his promises.
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