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A Couple Weeks Later:
Today is the day I have been waiting for the last 3-4 years of my life, today is the day that I graduate from college with my Bachelor's Degree in Substance Abuse Counseling. I never thought I was going to make it to this point but to finally be here knowing I go on to earn my Master's Degree and get certified is a dream come true. I was 14 years old when I got addicted to drugs. I was 14, a little girl who should have been hanging out with the right friends, having normal teenage crushes instead I was sneaking out, meeting guys older than me until I fell for the wrong one that introduced me to drugs. It started off by drinking a little alcohol and I remember thinking it was cool sneaking out of the house, going to wild parties, getting drunk at 14, I was 14! It didn't stop there, I moved onto smoking cigarettes and of course you may think that cigarettes aren't that bad but truly they are as they can cause cancer and being 14 years old I had no business smoking and it only escalated into smoking weed, I remember my first high, how good it felt, how wonderful it felt and from there it only got worse. I went to pain pills to get the high and then I went to heroin, that was the ultimate high, I tried cocaine and got hooked on that. I lost a ton of weight, I became dependent on it, I would do anything, do anyone just to get my next fix, I stole money from my own sister to get high. I ran away from home with a man that I thought loved me but I was of no importance to him, just another girl he turned out on the streets, got hooked on drugs, and paid his debts. Any drug addict knows that when they hit that first blunt, take the first snort, take that first shot, their first thought isn't "I'm going to become dependent on it, I am going to become a drug addict." That's not their first thought, the first thought is how good it feels, how great it makes you feel, how it numbs you, numbs the pain and makes you forget, you don't choose to become a drug addict, you get addicted to the feeling and the high it brings then you're stealing money, fucking different guys just to get the money to pay your debts, to get your next high and it is the worst feeling in the world. I was 14 years old, I had no business caught up in that life, I got pregnant at 15 years old, and I still got high and I am grateful every day that my son has turned out to be such an amazing child, with no issues despite the things he received inside of me. I was 16 years old when I went into rehab, after nearly losing my life, it took over 90 days, moving out of Phoenix and starting a whole new life to become sober, and today I am 5 years sober and clean, I will always be a drug addict, I will always have my cravings, I will always have my triggers but I also have my vices to steer me away from making the poor choices I once made. I am a mother to a wonderful little boy, a mother to what I hope is a little girl growing inside of me and the wife to a wonderful man that loves me despite my past and who I used to be. I am a daughter of two parents that love me more than anything, that never stopped loving me despite the terrible things I did, that supported me and helped me get to the life I have now. I am a sister to some of the best brothers and sisters ever, I could have lost my sister when I stole from her but every day I was fighting for my life in the hospital she was there, she helped me get help, she supported me, my best friend, my big brother Ben has always been there for me and my little sister Sicily is watching me, looking up to me and I needed to be better for her. I am the granddaughter to a woman that loves me so much, that allowed me to live with her, helped me get on my feet, helped me become the woman I am today and I am the best friend to two of the most wonderful people in this world; Tayla and Roman, if it weren't for all these people that loved me and supported me in my hardest my roughest times I would not be here today, ready to be a college graduate. I want to help others, like they have helped me, I want to change lives like so many people have changed mine, that's who I want to be, that's who I am.
"Today is the big day," says my husband Seth Rollins as I am getting ready to walk into the arena to get my degree and graduate college. "I am so proud of you, Jordyn."
"Thank-you," I say with a smile. "I love you so much."
"I love you too," he says with a smile before he kisses my lips softly. "When I met you, you were a 16 year old kid and now you're my 21 year old wife that I love so much, it has been great to watch you grow and become this person," he says.
"Thank-you, for supporting me all these years and being my best friend."
"I will always support you, Jordyn," he says making me smile.
"Mama!" says Jonah with a smile.
"Hey, Buddy," I say with a smile. "You look so handsome," I say as I look at him in his white Ralph Lauren polo, khaki shorts, fresh white Jordans on his feet and his hair pulled up into a little man bun. He is my twin, my mini me, my saving grace. I pick him up against Seth's deep breath but it's okay, the baby is fine, I am fine. "Thank-you, Jonah, for saving my life, thank you for coming into my life and loving me the best that you can. I love you so much, I am doing this for you today, you're the reason I am here and I love you so much."
"I love you too, Mama," he says before I kiss his cheek. "I'm proud of you."
"Thanks," I say with a smile as I put him down, "well, I guess I better get ready, I'm about to be a college graduate."
"I will yell the loudest for you," says Seth making me smile. "You go do your thing."
"Thanks," I say with a smile.
I make my way into the arena holding my college graduation. I smile as I put the cap on my head before I march my way out with other college graduates. The cheers of the audience as we all march our way to our seats to the graduation march, whistles and cheers fill the air, I smile as I spot my entire family from my Nana, my parents, my son, my brother, my sisters, my husband and my best friends who have become family to us Roman and Tayla. I make my way to my seat and wait to be instructed to sit down. We take our seats after the playing of the National Anthem. The Dean gives a speech and others give speeches about the college and their time in college. I am getting ready to stand up to get my diploma when I see Seth at the end of the aisle with Jonah. "What are you doing?" I ask him.
"I know you did this for Jonah," he says, "I know you want him to march with you, and be with you as you get your Bachelor's Degree, I talked to the dean and he gave permission for Jonah to come with you."
Tears fill my eyes, Seth is right I did all of this for Jonah to give him a better life, to give him someone to look up, so that he can see if he ever makes a terrible mistake, make the wrong choices in life, it's never too late to fix those mistakes, it's never too late to change your life, I did it for him because he is everything to me and everything that I am. "Thank-you," I say with a smile. I kiss Seth's lips softly and then take Jonah's hand as we make our way to the stairs to the stage.
I wait and wait till it's my turn, "Jordyn Nevaeh Rollins," they announce and I take Jonah across the stage with me as I can hear my family cheer for me from the audience. I shake the dean's hand, pose for a picture as he hands me my degree. Jonah and I make our way off the stage and make our way back to my seat. I smile as I look at my degree in front of me, a degree I never thought I would have, but I do and I am so grateful that the people that love me never gave up on me. Once everyone has their moment to shine, we are introduced as the graduating class and we toss our caps up into the air before we march out after the ending of the ceremony. I have done many things in my life, things I'm not so proud of, things I am extremely proud of, one thing I am proud of is being a mother to my son, another thing I am proud of is changing my life to be a better person and the third thing I am proud of is never giving up and obtaining a college degree when I thought I would never be here.
After the ceremony Jonah and I meet my family outside. I run up and hug my dad first and then my mom. "We are so proud of you, Jordyn," says my mom.
"Thank-you, I couldn't have done any of this without your love."
"Way to go, Jordyn," says Ben giving me a hug. "I knew you could do it."
"Thanks," I say with a smile.
"Jordyn," says Sicily, "congratulations."
"Thank-you."
"Jordyn, I am so proud of who you are becoming and I am so proud that you got your degree," says Chelsea.
"Thank-you," I say with a smile before we share a hug.
We take a few pictures together, I get pictures with my parents, pictures with my siblings, pictures with Roman and Tayla and pictures with my husband and son before we go back to mine and Seth's house not to just celebrate my graduation but also to have a gender reveal party. I announced to my family a couple weeks ago that Seth and I were expecting. Everyone was extremely happy for us and shortly after we announced we had the blood test done on the baby and decided that we would find out the sex today after my graduation but the most important thing that came out of my blood test is that there were no abnormalities or chromosomal issues discovered and our baby is as healthy as it can be and the blessing we waited for, for 3 years.
When we get back to the house, I change into a pink t-shirt as Seth and Jonah do the same with the hope that we have a little girl. I would say the vote for our baby is pretty one sided mostly all of our guests are wearing a team girl pin and have their name under team girl or rather under the tutus and very few under the baseballs; the only ones that have their team boy pins on are Ben, my dad and Seth's brother Brandon, my sister Kaylee's soon to be husband, everyone else is pretty much team girl. "Do you have any names picked out?" asks my sister Sicily, she has become even closer to us since she moved out here to Florida for college to be a nurse. I have enjoyed her being here and she took residence in my nana's house so it makes me happy knowing my nana isn't alone.
"We have a boy name picked out and a couple girl names picked out," I say as we eat.
"Are you going to tell me the names?" she asks excitedly.
"I guess, for a boy we chose the name Josiah after Josiah of course; Josiah Seth Rollins and for a girl we have Meilani Alexandra and we have Olivia Alexandra we haven't decided what girl name to go with we love them both."
"I love the name Olivia," she says, "but I also like Meilani it's so pretty and original, where did you hear that name?"
"Jonah gave it to us about 3 years ago and it kind of always just stuck with us," I say.
"And Josiah, he would be so honored to have a nephew named after him."
"He was my best friend," I say, "I miss him."
"Me too," she says. "I know one day if I ever have a little girl, I am naming her Selena, that's always been my favorite girl name after the singer Selena, I love it so I hope my future husband agrees to the name because our daughter will be named Selena."
I laugh and say, "good luck, although I can honestly say Seth and I have pretty much the same taste, when we talked about boy names, the very first name we both suggested and said was Josiah Seth; Josiah after Josiah and Seth after Seth obviously, we also came to an agreement about Meilani Alexandra and Olivia Alexandra."
"We really do use that middle name Alexandra a lot," says Sicily, "I think that's Liberty's middle name."
"It is, it's Liberty Alexandra and Langston Alexander," I say, "I mean we all want to honor our mother in some way, I might actually go with Meilani Nichole or Olivia Nichole just to break away from Alexandra if we have a girl."
"That's because our mom is pretty bad ass," she says with a smile. "I want to be her when I grow up."
"I think we all want to be mom when we grow up," I say with a smile. "What middle name do you have for Selena?"
"Selena Noel Star," she says.
"Wow, two middle names," I say with a smile, "at least you know what you want in life."
"I do," she says, "I want to graduate college, have my nursing degree, be an oncology nurse or pediatric nurse, meet a nice man, get married and have a lot of babies with him. I want at least 5 kids."
"Nah, I'm good with 2 or 3 kids, I think Seth and I pretty much agreed on just Jonah and this baby but it's always open if we change our minds. I don't know how mom and dad did it but they did it with a lot of kids."
"I know," she says, "that's why I want a big family!"
"I'm just happy to be alive and to be blessed with a baby after everything, if God chooses to bless us in the future then he'll bless us but I am happy right now with the life and plan he has for me."
"You're amazing," says Sicily, "maybe I want to be you when I grow up."
"No, Sicily, you want to be Sicily Noel Batista, her own person, with her own life and dreams, never let anyone take those dreams from you, Sicily, while I am so grateful Seth and I are married and I don't regret it because he has been my support for the last few years but there are some men that aren't supportive, do not allow any man to come to you and change what dreams you have, make a life for yourself first, make your plans first then focus on marriage and having babies."
"Got it," she says with a smile.
After we finish eating, and entertaining our guests, it's the time we have all been waiting for, the reveal of whether we are having a girl or boy. Our guests gather around, Seth, Jonah and me as we each hold a cannon in our hands to twist open that will shoot out pink or blue powder to reveal the gender. "You ready?" asks Seth with a smile.
"I'm ready," I say with a smile.
"All right, on 3," he says, "1, 2,3!" We all twist our cannons together and at the same time they explode together revealing pink powder. "It's a girl!" he says with so much excitement and happiness.
"I'm getting a sister!" says Jonah proudly and excitedly.
"A girl!" I say with a smile, "we're having a girl!" I say to Seth before we share a soft kiss. I am beyond grateful to have a little girl, our family just feels perfect, I don't know if she will be our last but if she is it's the perfect dynamic a boy and a girl.
"I'm so happy!" says my mom, "finally a granddaughter."
"Liberty and Alexandra won't be alone anymore," says Chelsea.
"So true," I say with a smile. "A baby girl, I'm in trouble. What if she's just like me."
"You know what your Nonna told me about you," says my mom, "when you were 3 years old, we were at the beach, she looked at you and told me that you were my challenge, that you were going to be just like me and she was not wrong in any sense. You were my challenge, you were just like me when I was little, wild, carefree, but you know what you got from me, your heart, Jordyn, the ability to want to help people and love people. If this little girl is your challenge then she's your challenge but if she's just like you, she will love like you, care like you and be just like you. I am grateful for the person you have turned into and Sicily is my other challenge," she says.
"That is not even true," protests Sicily, "I was an angel."
"In your mind," says my mom making us smile, "you were a challenge, you're just like me, even now you are your mother's daughter, but you love and care like we do. You have a good heart."
"I guess," says Sicily. "Are you excited for your baby girl?" she asks me.
"Extremely," I say with a smile.
Later that night:
Seth and I are laying in our bed after the excitement of our day, I smile as I feel Seth rubbing my stomach softly, I'm starting to show just a little but not much so I have a small baby bump. "I'm going to be a girl dad," he says kissing my stomach.
"Yes, you're going to be a girl dad, I think it's perfect we have a son and a daughter. I'm grateful."
"Me too," he says as he continues to rub my stomach. "Hey beautiful girl," he says with a smile. "I'm your daddy, and I am going to love you so much. I already love you and I haven't even met you yet, you are everything we hoped for, everything we wished for. Your mommy and I are going to make sure you have the best life possible and we are going to love you forever, I hope that you look just like your mommy with her curly hair, her dark eyes, long eyelashes, perfect like her," he says making me smile, "I love you so much baby girl," he says kissing my stomach. "I'm excited, Jordyn."
"Me too," I say with a smile, "but I think we need to agree on a name for her, what do you think if instead of Alexandra for the middle name we went with Nichole?"
"I thought you wanted Alexandra in honor of your mom?" he asks.
"I did but then I realized that Athena named her daughter Alexandra after my mom, Chelsea's middle name is Alexandra, and Liberty's middle name is Alexandra, I think I want to do something different we could pay homage to my mom by giving her the middle name Nichole or we could give her the middle name Sylvia," I suggest.
"Sylvia?" he asks, "where did you get the name Sylvia?"
"That was my Nonna's name, Sylvia, what if we did Meilani Sylvia Nichole Rollins? Or does Olivia Nichole Sylvia Rollins sound better?" I ask.
"I like the change and two middle names?"
"Yes, I got the idea from Sicily, there's nothing wrong with having two middle names, so what do you think, which do you like better?"
"Well, I am pretty partial to Meilani, ever since Jonah suggested it 3 years ago, we always thought Meilani would be our daughter's name and then we thought about Olivia, I like Meilani a lot better and I do like Meilani Sylvia Nichole for her name."
"I love the name Meilani," I say, "It means heavenly flower, I like the name Meilani the most and I want to name her Meilani."
"Me too," he says with a smile, "Meilani Sylvia Nichole Rollins, what do you think about that?" he asks the baby. "I think the name Meilani will suit you well and Olivia while it is beautiful it's just too popular for me."
"Me too," I agree, "I never heard the name Meilani before, and I want to name my daughter that."
"Me too," he smiles. "I love you, Jordyn."
"I love you too," I say with a smile, "so I think Jonah and Meilani go really good together."
"Me too," he agrees as he moves up on the bed, his lips near my ears, "and I really hope she looks just like her mommy."
"I don't know, her daddy is kind of a looker himself with those dark eyes and wild hair, maybe I want her to look like you," I say with a smile.
"No matter what she's going to be perfect and beautiful," he says with a smile. "I love you."
"I love you too," I say with a smile before we share a soft, sweet kiss that leads into far more than just a kiss, it leads into a long night for us, a night of making love and we don't stop until the sun comes up the next day and Seth is on his way out of town for a couple weeks for a show overseas.
*A/N: What do you think of Seth and Jordyn having a little girl? How do you feel about Jordyn graduating? Do you agree and like the name they have chosen for their baby girl? Please review and thank-you for reading.