Reupdated 20200518
I came back to correct some mistakes.
To my old readers:
It's been a hard decision to make, but here we are. I feel utterly terrible to abandon my other stories and delete all of them from ffn. But I've realized that I'm getting nowhere writing all of them at the same time. I'm not saying it's a mistake or something. I mean, I find that I haven't thought through the outlines of them, and to simply write along would spoil the beginning.
I can tell you that I've spent a few hours to prepare this, and I will, I promise, finish this story as quickly as I can, before I move on to others.
I'll never ever give up any of them.
If you are seeing this tale for the first time:
This is originally inspired by the famous Phantom of the Opera. I love the idea of a ghost-human relationship. In this story, I make the ghost Severus's horcrux. I should say that whether Severus has a horcrux of his own or not, it was all in his past, and he is a good man, at least for now.
I know it can be a bit cruel to let Severus murder, but, I think, the spell called Sectumsempra wasn't too kind, right? It could mean to kill. And if Severus hadn't done something like murder before, Dumbledore wouldn't ask him to spare Draco and kill him, right?
So, if you are not ready for that, please prepare yourself to turn away from some scenes in this story, it could be disturbing.
Ah, for other warnings I should mention before we start this ride:
RapeViolence: Yeah, it's harsh. This is a dark story, and what can I say? It's rated M for a reason.
Teacher/student relationship: Honestly, if you are reading Severus/Hermione fanfics, you are expecting this, aren't you? Still, if the idea makes you gag, be free to go.
MPREG maybe involved here, haven't decided.
Betrayal: It can be a warning here. When I was thinking about the outline, I realized that it was so very unfair that there was no spy working for the Dark Lord in the order that would do serious harm to the order in my story. We can use a little betrayal, can't we? I can't say now who the particular person is, but mind you, it's someone close to Harry.
Homosexual relationship: What am I getting my self into…*Sigh* I prefer there to be some gays, it is how the world is, isn't it?
Ghost/human relationship [Which is also named Horcrux/Human relationship: Did you guys click the title and come into here to look for a story like this? :P
Multi: Is that really multi? I'm not quite sure. Hermione will fall in love with two Sev, but she will get rid of the horcrux one day. And she will only…be with one of them.
Major character death: OH MY GOD! You haven't heard that this story is a tragedy? Come on. Grab some tissue and smile the little heart-broken smile, with tears running down your cheeks.
I want to make some readers of this story cry for our couple!
Sev dead? That's perfectly fine with me. I love tragedy!
Out of character and ignoring the canon: It's a fanfic for crying out loud.
And there is one more thing, English is not my first language, I will make a lot of mistakes in further chapters. I know. Please forgive me. If you are kind enough to point some of them out for me, I'll be extremely grateful.
I may or may not use some French in this story, because I love French. Sadly, French isn't my first language as well. So I'll keep it to words, or simple sentences, in case I'll make more mistakes.
But, if you can bear with me and be a beta for this story, please contact me. I'll be so absolutely happy to get any help for this story. Currently, there is no beta, so all mistakes in prologue is mine.
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Oh, and this is supposed to be a long story. If I have calculated correctly, it should be over 100,000 words.
Disclaimer for the whole story: I do not own Harry Potter. J.K. Rowling does. How I envy her! This story is a fanfiction that is only written to entertain me and realize my dream on writing something of our favorite couple Hermione/Severus. (Okay, maybe not favorite for some of you, but you must feel something towards these two, otherwise you won't be here at all.) I'm not making money out of this, for god's sake, I even have to pay for the electricity to keep my laptop working.
I may or may not have some original characters in this story, but if there will be, then they are mine, Things that are different from Rowling's are mine.
I'm not interested in writing a disclaimer for every chapter of this, so this is one for all.
Hopefully, I'll update every Monday, and some Thursdays or the weekends. That's not a promise, I'm not sure when I'll be back to school. To be back to school may mean I don't have time for this. And, I'm planning to make other chapters longer than Prologue.
Finally, we can get a glimpse of this tale. Welcome to the latest and the best version of Amour.
Amour
Prologue
It was a starry night with a half-moon on the sky. Gentle breeze blew apart the curtains, moonlight pooled through them, casting shadows on the wooden floor.
It was quite a lovely bedroom in the eyes of a bookworm, for there were bookshelves up to the ceiling loaded with books. There was also a lamp in the corner of the room, under the dim light of which a sofa could be seen. Given enough of light, it would be an ideal place to read.
On the other end of the room, there was a bed, with white covers over it. One could make out a lump in the middle of it.
It was a girl with bushy hair. She was tossing and turning on the mattress, her chest heaving up and down rapidly.
She was having one of those dreams.
It was completely dark in her dream that nothing was visible. She turned around, trying to find some differences in the darkness. It couldn't all be the same. It must have a light somewhere, only she hadn't known of it, yet.
She was afraid of dark. Something or someone could be lurking in the dark and about to attack her at any second. Dark makes her feel unsecure.
She hoped that this dark was one of those that appeared before the man did. The raven-haired man with sharp onyx eyes.
It was still unraveled why she would have these disturbing dreams. Why she would have access to other people's life, or to their memory. She could be penetrating into someone else's mind or someone else could do that and present these scenes before her. What would their purpose be then?
She didn't have a connect with Voldemort like Harry did, or did she? These dreams and the mind magic behind them could mean that she was risking all the order members' lives. Sure, she knew little of the order and its secret, there was so little she could offer to Voldemort, but the little bit could mean them harm.
She should have prepared herself for the danger, sent warnings to the order, and tried to stop having these dreams. But she wasn't a natural occlumens, and she hadn't got her hands on that particular branch of magic yet. After all, it would still be useless if she has known how to keep Voldemort out of her mind, as she couldn't perform the magic with the trace on her that could alert the ministry in any minute.
She remembered the trial Harry had stood last summer, and she didn't intend to go through that herself.
Of course, those were excuses, as her dreams had begun since she was a little girl when she didn't even believe in the existence of the magical world. She should have had plenty of time to fix this problem over the years of her study in Hogwarts. But she just let herself keep these stupid dreams.
Because of her stupid girlish wishes.
The ball in their fourth year let her know that Ron and Harry didn't see her as a girl. On the contrary, she was, and she had some sense that normal girls had. Like dreaming about a man that would make her willing to be married with.
Maybe it is caused by what designed in those prince and princess romantic stories, who knows?
How romantic would it be if the man she was having dreams of could turn up someday, and be together with her?
Like a dream comes true.
She was startled when a set of footsteps got closer and closer to her. In front of her eyes, she could make out a figure in black.
She sighed in relief. She had thought he wasn't coming after leaving her in dark for such a long time, but he did, and she was grateful of that. He saved her from the dark, once again. Though there was a small voice in her mind saying that perhaps he was the man who created the darkness.
Black robes covered him from feet to neck, with a part of it billowing after him. Under the black robe was his pale skin, ill-looking, which had made her worry for a long time. The man assured her that it was nothing, barely the cause of lack of sunshine.
He could be someone working indoors.
She greeted him with an eagerness in her voice that she herself hadn't detected: "Angel of music."
Angel of music, as if he was the very phantom in the opera. It was a nickname that she wasn't sure whether he would agree to be called at, but he hadn't protested it yet.
Or he didn't know its origin.
He inclined his head, taking her hand in his, kissing it so softly and lightly like it was treasured.
It made her giggle in the beginning, now that she had been accustomed to this, it made a slight blush turn up on her cheeks. She doubted it was partly the reason why she felt it was old-fashioned and fluttering.
She flinched at the touch and feel sorry for the loss of it.
"Potions today?" She inquired, seeing a cauldron on the stand.
She hadn't noticed the surroundings, or else she would know they were already there for a while before the man greeted her.
"Of course." The man didn't prefer to say a lot, and she knew there was nothing to question about, really. The only thing the man ever taught her was potions, what else was she expecting?
She bit down into her lip, condemning herself for making a fool of herself. The desire to impress him and to talk a little more with him.
"Replenishing Potion, that I already know." She quirked her right eyebrow, just like the man did sometimes. Since their lesson began in her first year, she was always ahead of the school curriculum, though the man had her promised never to tell anyone of these private tutoring and to hide her true ability in lessons.
And, the man should have known she could brew it because he taught her himself two years ago.
"It can be useful in war." He replied simply, sitting down at the chair at the left end of her stand, putting a hand under his chin to support his head and gave her an expectant look.
She could feel her cheeks heating up.
"Begin." He tilted his head to indicate the tools on the stand and took out a scroll of parchment and a quill.
"Oh, right, I…" She caught herself before it was too late. There was really nothing to say.
She started with chopping and cutting the ingredients while stealing a glance at the man from time to time.
Broad daylight came in through the window, making the man look less pale and more alive. His fingers clutched the quill in his hand, his brows slightly furrowed, concentrating.
His features were not the most handsome she had laid her eyes on but he was indeed attracting in her eyes. And he knew a lot things, enough to be a potions master, she admired him for that.
Till the end of her brewing, he had remained silent.
While she was pouring the potions into the bottle, he pushed his notes over to her: "Again, brew according to these steps."
She looked through the steps, making sure she had remembered them clearly enough to take down notes after the dream, and nodded her head. Brewed the potion for another time.
It was always like this. She was so amazed every time the man could innovate something, even though this time her first-time brewing had already been improved by him. He must have found somewhere to improve before this lesson and had to make sure for the last time by seeing her first brew.
Okay, she admitted she would be more willing to have it the easy way the first time. But it was in her dream, he was a free tutor, who was she to complain?
She reminded herself that she should have felt she owed him something and did nothing to irritate him or send him away. That was why she controlled her temper in their every confrontation.
The man could get on her nerves when he drawled out his comments, like Professor Snape did sometimes.
"Time to go. Have a nice day, my lady." The man placed a kiss on her temple as a goodbye and disappeared in front of her eyes, along with the ambience.
The corner of her mouth curled up at the end of another sweet dream.
The new term started a month after. Along with the new term was the start of another year of Quidditch for the boys. They were projecting for winning a House Cup this year, and that was an ambition.
Harry and Ron had been devoting hours to their Quidditch practice. Now that Harry was the captain of the Gryffindor Quidditch team, he became another Wood. He became ardent in practices and tried numerous times to catch a snitch in the pitch. Ron remained the keeper of the team, which certainly made him more determined than ever with the Quidditch competition.
It was fortunate that Professor Umbridge wasn't here anymore, and Professor Snape hadn't paid attention to this, or he simply didn't care about it anymore. She could fanthom the idea of Professor Snape banning them to Quidditch, the Slytherin wizard could borrow that from Professor Umbridge, definitely.
Apart from that, rumor had it that the bat in the dungeons had lost another chance to be their DADA professor. From the man's sour expression upon seeing Professor Lupin occupied the vacant chair that belonged to the DADA professor at the teacher's table, there maybe some truth in said rumor.
Now as there was a war outside the school, they felt that they should have a proper DADA professor. Dumbledore sent them a list of names together with the letter they usually got before school. The students nominated Professor Lupin for the task. Though a number of Slytherins still have a grudge against him being a werewolf and all.
She gathered that Remus was the best professor they'd had so far and probably the safest and most appropriate professor the order could find. Moody was out of the question now that the old man had worn himself out being a tutor for order members secretly under Dumbledore's order. The old headmaster found it necessary for the members to learn more about combating and defense and even offense. He wasn't that young anymore, and he was a bit jumpy when there was really nothing happened.
"Constant vigilance." As the former auror liked to say, but the saying could unnerve people. There was no use in unnerving people now. Students had enough stress with war, exams and other things.
The news of Professor Lupin's coming back had Harry exhilarated and bouncing on the balls of his feet for a whole hour. Hermione herself welcomed the professor warmly, as the man had gained her trust in her third year and had protected the three of them on numerous occasions.
Also, she sensed Harry would have a hard time this year due to the upcoming war, with Professor Lupin being here, he could get more comfort and love. Remus was a close friend to Harry's father, one of the marauders, and he would act like a father figure for him, if nothing more.
There first DADA class was on a Sunny Monday.
"As some of you may remember, I'm a werewolf. When I first came back to Hogwarts to teach, I was afraid to face that side of myself. I was afraid that you might find out and look at me like looking at some disgusting, nasty creature. However, in the end of that year, I learnt that there was no use of hiding at all. If I am terrified of myself, who can lend me a hand? It was a hard lesson to learn to cooperate with my wolf self but, good news, I've managed it! Today, I'm standing in front of you, claiming that I'm a werewolf, no longer hiding away from it. And I thank you all for nominating me as your DADA professor. I'll try my best to not let you down. For those of you who are still horrified of my condition, I suggest you learn well this lesson I'm going to teach you. Defense against werewolves."
His statements ended with applauses from awed students, among them Harry Potter and Ron Weasley cheered and shouting at the top of their lungs:" Brilliant!"
Hermione Granger was hauled off to the Quidditch pitch by Harry and Ron on a Saturday morning. Autumn in Scotland could be fairly cold, even if she was wearing gloves and a scarf and one of her thicker robes.
She was holding a book in her hand, but she was already getting bored. What was point in sitting here? She could picture sitting in her usual position in the library, a vantage point. It would not be chilly there. She hated coldness.
She sneezed a few times, pulling out some tissue from her pocket, musing and completely ignoring a Bludger coming her way.
Someone called out to her, she thought, but the voice was muffled by the wind. She would like to go back to her book and to neglect it.
She hadn't anticipated being attacked on the Quidditch pitch at all.