He let a single tear roll down his cheek as he watched Praimfiya consume the earth. She was gone. Clarke was dead. Bellamy wiped his eyes. He wanted to scream. He wanted breakdown. He wanted to have her back with him. He would give anything to go back down and to save her, but it was too late. She was gone, and by now, the earth was consumed by fire and radiation just as the sun.
He reminded himself of the five years until he could return to Earth. It seemed so far away from now. Five years until Clarke's death would no longer be for nothing. Five years until he saw his sister again. May we meet again, he thought. He rested his fist against the thick glass window.
He questioned the meaning of the phrase. It was a sentence that gave people a sense of hope to one day be reunited with their friends, families, loved ones. He looked at it as false hope. He'd never see Clarke again. Not unless he was dead, and there were life after death.
He felt a hand rest on his shoulder.
"She saved us again," Raven said. She stood next to Bellamy and stared at the fiery earth below. "I know how you felt about her, and you can't blame yourself like I blamed her for Finn's death. I regret ever trying to hate her for killing him."
"I left her behind, Reyes," Bellamy sniffed as his nose ran and his eyes watered. "She trusted me. I- I didn't protect her- not like I should've."
"It's not your fault, Bellamy. If she could go back in time, you know she'd do it again. If it meant saving everyone, especially you, she would. She was protecting you because she knew you could take us back down and lead us." She rubbed his arm and hugged him. "Now, she's trusting you to pull through and take us back in five years. She really loved you. Anyone could see that."
Five years. That really seemed so far away to him. He didn't want to think about the future. It was a future without Clarke, and it wasn't there without her. She was dead. His world was shattered. There was no future.
"What is it the Grounders say?" Raven asked looking up at Bellamy.
"Yu gonplei ste odon, Clarke kom Skaikru," Echo said as she walked up. Monty, Harper, John, and Emori silently followed.
Bellamy fixed his eyes back on the earth. He let another tear roll down his cheek. "Yu gonplei ste odon." He said. The others repeated.
"I couldn't thank her enough for the countless times she's saved my life," Harper said.
"All of our lives," Monty added as he placed his arm around Harper. She placed her head on his shoulder.
"She was brave and relentless- dedicated to saving her people," Echo stated.
"Forgiving," Murphy joked. "I can't tell how many second chances she gave me."
"She was stubborn," Bellamy said. A faint smile crept across his lips as he recalled all the times he and Clarke bickered when they first came down to Earth. He couldn't stand being around her, but now he would give anything just to know if she had miraculously survived. He recalled the times they looked to each other for the opposite's advice and approval; the times they comforted each other after Mount Weather. He remembered the moment he realized he loved her and all of the moments that he almost told her.
"She and Dad put up with all one hundred of us and all our crap," Monty said smiling. The five Skaikru let out a small teary-eyed laugh. Bellamy had almost forgotten that they had once called them that.
They all stood and stared at the earth before them. Each silently mourned the loss of their friend, leader, and savior. Each silently vowed to never forget her and who she was.
"She was Clarke," Raven said.