Chapter 1:

"Olivia they've got her."

Olivia POV:

"Captain is waiting for you in his office."

I stormed into his office, "How did they get to her?"

"Olivia I'm sorry, she was on her way out of her building."

I slam my fists on his desk, "I will find her and I will have no mercy in whoever gets in my way."

"You have almost 6 months vacation time. Take all the time you need. And call if you need anything. Fin offered to help you. He has 8 months vacation time. I told him you would talk to him."

"Thank you Captain."

I walked out of his office to find Fin, he was already waiting. "Where do we start?"

"Her apartment."

"How are we going to get in?"

"She's my best friend Fin, I have keys."

"Oh yes I forgot."

We get in my car and head over to Alex's apartment. I put my keys in the door and enter her living room.

"Her house has been tampered with."

"How can you tell?"

"Fin go look in the spare room and come back here to tell me what you see."

"Okay baby girl I'll be right back." I see him retreat towards the back of the apartment.

I noticed a small camera hidden in the vent above her tv. Fin comes back to the living room.

"Isn't that your stuff and a really nice nightstand."

"Yes, I spend a lot of time here. There's a camera in the vent above the TV. Can you grab the ladder that is behind the fridge?"

I climbed the ladder, and opened the vent to find a lipstick camera pointing outwards. I hand it down to Fin and tell him to bring it to Morales.

"We drove here together, want me to take a cab?"

"Just get me information on that camera. You can take the car. Come back to get me when you have information." I say to him as I toss him the keys.

"Alright I'll call you with the information." He leaves through the front door.

I sit down on the couch and pick up the picture, "I will find you Alex. And I won't let anything happen to you again."

I walk towards the master bedroom. I opened the door and looked into the room, it was so incredibly Alex. The soft grey of the comforter against the cool slate walls. I step into the room and turn on the lamp. I run my fingers along the black dresser, I could feel how finely crafted this piece of furniture is. I look in the closet for a bag so when I find her she'll have some of her belongings. I find a black duffle bag which I take and start filling up with some comfy clothes. I start to get emotional, I sit down on the edge of the bed. I open her night side table draw and notice a small journal, I normally wouldn't invade someone's privacy like this but incase she wrote anything down about someone. But the last page was a letter….written to me.

Dear Olivia,

I watched you come in tonight and you were upset. This is the fourth night this week you've spent at my house and it makes me so happy you feel comfortable here. I come home hoping you show up and complain about how I never lock my door. You're probably sleeping but I wanted to tell you how much it means to me that even when you are upset that you still think of me. You brought me a beautiful bottle of wine and my favorite chinese tonight. I notice you change when I come near you, like the other day in the squad room. Elliot was arguing with you and it got very heated, I thought you were going to hit him so when I placed my hand on your shoulder I thought you were going to shake it off but I felt you relax. You just smiled and left the conversation. I was meaning to ask you about that, does this mean that my feelings won't be requited. Ugh there is so much I want to tell you. I look at you and I feel safe, the night you fell asleep watching the movie I asked you to. I didn't know what was going to happen when I leaned against you while you were sleeping, but just like you always do you moved to accommodate me. You turned your body and wrapped your arm around me and pulled me close. It felt so good to be held by you, and ever since that night I've cuddled with you on the couch and you never seem to mind.

One day I will tell you how I feel, maybe while we are cuddling and you are distracted I will just let it slip it out there.

One day I'll be yours Olivia Benson.

I felt the tears come to my eyes, I wanted to find her and hold her close. I need her like my body needs oxygen. I wiped the tears from my eyes angrily as I picked up my buzzing phone.

"Benson"

"Hey Liv, it's Fin I am on my way back to you just thought I would call you with the information we pulled off the camera."

"Yea did you get something?"

"Kind of, the camera was bought in a technology store in Queens but all the images were downloaded in internet cafes around and 10 block radius within Brooklyn. I know the area pretty well if you meet me downstairs we can start canvasing the areas."

"Alright how long until you get here?"

"Like 10 minutes."

"Alright I will be ready."

I look around her room to see if there is anything else I need to grab for her, I quickly scribbled in her journal I have always loved you Alex. I walked into the bathroom and grabbed her perfume and hairbrush. I close the door behind me and go to lock up. Once I do I head towards the elevator to meet Fin downstairs.

I see my car pull up and I toss her bag into the backseat, and watch out the window as the streets and buildings pass me by.

"We will find her Liv."

"Is that a question or a statement?"

"A statement and a prayer. I know how much you love her. And we will do everything for her."

"I know."

We reach the first stop which is the Computer shop in Queens, I bust through the door and grab the employee by the collar. "I want the boss now." And I place my SIG in his gut

"Yes...y...yes ma'am" I let him down and he walks over to the main office. Fin locks the door behind us.

"I understand you wish to speak to me." He looks down to see my gun out and Fin near the door.

"Woah okay take what you want."

"We aren't here to rob, I want the footage from your security cameras from last month."

"Any date in particular?"

I look towards Fin, "July 17th"

"Okay follow me." Fin and I both re-holstered our weapons. We both stare at the screen, "None of these seem too suspicious."

"Oh wait who's this?" Fin says pointing to a tall figure in a black jacket, baseball cap, and black pants.

"Yes this man was rather peculiar. He bought a wireless receiver, DSM Cables, and a small camera with a round base."

"Please tell me he paid with a credit card."

"Yes, let me check the system."

"Thank you."

"Of course, I can tell you are the good guys because he forgot to hide his badge."

"This is about our colleague."

"Ah okay. Here's the receipt it was paid for Haider Jackson."

"Can you print me out a copy please?"

"Of course." He reaches over and snatches the paper, hands it to me and we are already on our way out the door.

I pick up my phone, "Elliot can you run this name?"

"Haider Jackson."

"He bought the camera's I found in Alex's living room. I want to know everything about this man."

"Alright call me back."

"Fin let's go to the first internet cafe and see if we can map out a location."

"Okay let's go."

After the first two trips coming up unsuccessful Elliot finally called back to tell me that Haider Jackson was clean but his nephew was a little less squeaky. Lucas Jackson was also known as a gun for hire. He lives in Manhattan so I tell Fin that is our next stop.

Elliot calls back to say Melinda got called to a crime scene and the body was matching that of Haider Jackson.

"Are we ever going to catch a break?"

"Wait El is calling back."

"Yes Elliot find something useful."

"He had a cellphone tucked in his shoe, maybe as a golden ticket but it has a gps and the last two phone calls are to a man named Sergio Martinez and he has significant ties to Velez. This has to do with the Zepata case."

"I'm going to kill him. I told her to drop that case. I told her to give it to someone else."

"I know but she never listens. She's so fucking stubborn."

"Any place on the GPS his route that seemed odd."

"Alright send me the address."

I plug in the GPS and tell Fin, "Step on it."

We pull up to an abandoned warehouse. "Let's take the front but be careful. They have no problem killing anyone that stands in their way."

"I know, let's go get your girl Liv."

We picked the lock and started at a slow pace, a body on a floor stopped me dead in my tracks. I saw a locked door, and picked the lock. I heard a scuffle across the room and I ran over there. A man had Fin in a headlock, he stomped on his foot and as he moved away I put a bullet between his eyes.

Then I hear someone behind me and as I turn I feel something pierce my skin in my left shoulder. I put two in his heart and told Fin.

"They want me here, the final nail in her coffin is they want her to watch me die." I take off my belt and handed it to Fin. "Place this around my shoulder and pull it tight, we will find Velez and Alex."

"You're fucking wonder woman."

"I'll protect her to the end of this earth."

"Let's go get your girl." Room by room we sweep the warehouse. It lead us outside to an open container.

My head starts to feel woozy, and I get a little dizzy but I know that I need to save her. We open the container to see Velez standing there with a gun to her head.

"You aren't getting out of her alive."

"It seems neither are you Detective Benson. See I told you she would come. Now you get to watch her die."

"Fin do you have a shot?"

"Not one that won't ricochet if he moves."

"Fin remember Portman set up."

"SHUT UP I WILL PUT A BULLET IN HER HEAD."

Fin released one shot and I released one as well. A bullet to the head and things start going black. "Check…..on….lex."

I hear him screaming something into the phone and then everything starts fading.

"Liv…"