Stardust Chapter 1, an avengers fanfic

…Stardust...

Author's note/Warning: This is a Yaoi story as in male x male. The pairing is Steve Rogers X Tony Stark. If it offends you, you might want to turn back now. For those that don't mind that, I hope you enjoy the story. All reviews are appreciated.

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Chapter 1

He never knew what love and heartbreak was…

That was until he saw him

…

There was not much that he remembered from his birth/creation, the only thing he remembered was the feeling of his atoms being pulled and then squeezed tightly together followed by a huge exploding, as a cloud of dust from various colors surrounded him, the first time he opened his eyes… or well what equalize as his eyes because he was a… soul, spirit whatever the hell he was… anyway, the first time he opens his eyes, he ends up gasping at what he saw, because in front of him was the most beautiful sight… the universe… later that day (He learned later it was a year in his time) he met another star, she, he knows she was a she, he knows that just like he knows he was a… well, he… that star looked at him and then took him under her wing/cloud/rings? But she cared for him and taught him many things, about his origin and how once he was a soul that roamed the realms until his death and rebirth as a star, and what a star she said 'A star that can create passages between the universe.' he was special she always reminds him of that even if he wasn't a normal star like her and like the rest, she also goes by the name Saraious, but he always gets tired by trying to say the name right, so in the end, he started calling her by 'Sara' he doesn't know from where that name came from, it was a short version of her name sure, but he knows that for him it was special, and he can't think of anyone deserving that name other than her, which made Sara proud and except being called by that name, by him only.

She also taught him what she knows about the nine-realms of Yggdrasil, about Niflheim, the mist world, and its rivers and forests. Muspelheim, land of lava and death that Surtr was imprisoned in, and how Ragnarok will be upon them if he was freed. He learned about Asgard, home of the Gods, and how their supreme ruler 'Odin' lives there. Midgard, home of the humans whose lives were just a blink of an eye to every being in the universe, how they were so far behind in intelligence and technology like the other nine. Jotunheim, the home of the giants that nearly destroyed the realms with their wars that never seemed to end. Vanaheim, the land of sorcery and magic, and how Odin's wife and their queen Frigga was from that realm. Alfheim, the land of the light elves the beautiful angels as everyone in the nine calls them. Svartalfheim, the home of the dwarves. Helheim, the land of the dead.

At that time, he met a lot of stars, interesting ones too, how they always fly in the sky in their Astral Forms, which Sara taught him how to do, which was fun, to be honest. So with that, he spent the first five hundred years of his life with Sarah and the other stars, playing and flying in their Astral Forms enjoying themselves and looks at what happened in the nine realms, writing its history down, steering away from Muspelheim most of the times, and gazing at the beauty that was their world, though, Sara made sure that he never let his eyes steer to Midgard, something about that realm causing nothing but pain and heartache, he never asked Sara about that, and she never told him why, so he let it drop.

it was when he reached his five hundred years, and that day Sara let him fly in the realms in his Astral Form alone, something about finally being old enough, and that day he spent it playing and enjoying himself to the fullest and being old enough, he decided to see Midgard, he was old by then, an adult, even with Sara's warning, curiosity made him daring.

And he could only gaze at Midgard with amazement in his eyes; the realm was beautiful… its forests, rivers, mountains, people, the things they created, and he strained his ears to hear about some of their knowledge, it was breathtaking and he couldn't stop gazing at it, it was then that he saw him! The most beautiful being his eyes ever fell on.

The person was sitting near one of the rivers staring at the sky, with a pen in his hand and stacks of papers in the other writing something in them every few minutes, and he wondered to himself what the man was gazing at, so he floats toward the man and looked down on him hoping to see what he was writing, and he was answered by that when the man raised his head saying. "My, what a beautiful night for a beautiful star…" He didn't know why he flushed when he heard the man say that, he could have said that to anyone or any star not him, but when he flushed he shined brightly which made the man below him smile.

It was then that he knew the man meant him…

It should have been one-time-only, but that didn't stop him from looking at Midgard every chance he had hoping to see the man once more, Sara seemed to have caught on what he was doing and why, and the older star only looked at him with sadness and some sort of understanding. "Just be careful, darling, do not get too attached or you will get your heart broken." That was her words to him and he could only nod at that with a small smile.

Luck seemed to be on his side when he saw the man once more, he was older than the last time he saw him, instead of being a young man in his prime, he was clearly old, old enough to have children and for them to be out of his house, that was the first time the star was shocked because it was then that he realized how fleeting Midgardian's lives were.

After that he spent all the time he has watching Midgard, learning everything he can about the man, he learned that his name was Anton, and the place he lived in was Greece, it was strange place Anton's Greece, it was a brutal place, but at the same time it was beautiful, he learned that Anton was what they called an inventor and a philosopher, that people always whisper when he passed them calling him crazy, it was probably why he didn't have any wife or children… why he was always alone…

That made him determined, and he always made sure to shine brightly when Anton was looking at the sky, mainly to inform him that he was not alone… no one deserves to be alone. So shining he did, and Anton seemed to have the knack of knowing where he was, sometimes he will find another spot to shine in and Anton will know that it was him! The old man will just turn to him with a smile and laughter hidden in his eyes. "Hello there little star, I found you." Anton will greet him like this every time he saw him, playing his games even when he couldn't see him, only his light.

He doesn't know when did the name 'Little star' turned into 'My star' but the first time Anton called him by that, he remembered shining so brightly that Anton smiled happily like he knew! Like he knew that the star understands him and was listening to him, it made him so happy, and he couldn't imagine living in a world without Anton in… it was then that he knew…

He was in love…

It shocked him, after all, why would a star love a mortal, a mortal that was going to die between now and his next breath, a mortal who was nothing but a speck of dust in his long life. Loving a human, a mortal, it was hard, because days and years passed by, and Anton grow older and older, until his black hair as night turned white, until his blue as ocean eyes became dull, until his pale lovely skin became wrinkled… and he… he was a star, he didn't age, he will live billions of years, while Anton may have a year or two left in him, and then he will pass to Helheim or Valhalla while he will still be here, alone... shining.

He should have listened to Sara when she told him not to get attached…

The day that Anton left this world, was like any other day, it was so funny thinking about it, he remembered that he saw Anton walk with the help of a stick (Because he couldn't walk straight anymore so Anton start using sticks to help to go from place to place) until he reached their place… he wondered when Anton's place near the river became theirs… he watches as Anton sat on the ground grunting a little at that and then looked up at the sky to smile as he saw the star shine.

"Hello there, my star, I hope I did not keep you waiting." Anton said in his gruff voice, which only made him shake his head and smile sadly at the older man, Anton couldn't walk fast anymore, couldn't jump or run, he can only walk slowly that he now reach the age of 90, the older man always talks to him, which made the star shine at the thought of Anton thinking of him as a family to share his secrets with him. "I am sorry, little star, I do not think that I could talk today, will you be so kind as to let these old bones rest under your light for a little while?" Anton said before sighing a little lying on the dirty ground. The star could only smile sadly at the man, knowing what's going on before the mortal did

That night, he shines brightly which made Anton look at him with a huge smile, he shines brightly, even as Anton closed his eyes, breathes hitching in his old chest, and he shines… until Anton stopped breathing completely, and when morning came and Anton's apprentice finally found his cold body…

This was the first time he discovered what heartbreak felt like…

He doesn't know how many years that passed since Anton had died and gone to Valhalla, but he knows that they were too many now, he stopped shining brightly like how he used to before meeting Anton, instead, his shining was always dull, which made his sisters and brothers worry about him, but he always wave their concern, after all, how could he tell them? Tell them that he was in love with a mortal, and do stars fall in love even? He thinks not, he was sure that he will shine until he dies billions and billions of years later and form a black hole, another passage in space for explorers to go through to see another part of the universe.

It was strange how the time passes in a blink of an eye after Anton died; he had a hard time looking at Midgard, looking away every time he passed the realm of mortals, but the few times he dared to gaze at the realm of his beloved he was baffled by them, especially by the way they started counting time in a strange way, it left him wondering why would they start counting their times from the beginning from the number 1 when they have been clearly living over 50,000 years, but mortal were strange like this, they were not like Asgardians where magic and science live together side-by-side and the history of the worlds' written in their archives.

As time passed, the pain of losing Anton had reduced to a dull ache, and he was grateful for that because it finally gave him the chance to move on, as much as it hurt him too, he wanted to move on and stop pinning after a dead mortal, but the heart wants what it wants, it was ironical how much that sentence was true, and it was funny that it was said by Anton.

The second time he met Anton, his breath left him…

It was one of the rare times that he dared to gaze at Midgard, and this time he made sure not to look at Greece as he floats in his astral, he was having fun looking at the humans and their lives, that was until his eyes fell on Anton… it was not Anton per se, but it was him at the same time, reincarnation was a thing, it happened, though the only people reincarnated were those that will serve a great purpose in the universe.

He remembered gazing at the boy with shock, the small boy was no older than ten, and his heart starts pounding in his chest like it was about to claw out of his chest, the boy was not like Anton, but he was Anton, his aura said so, instead of the blue eyes Anton had, the boy's orbs were brown as was his hair, and his skin was tan, he should leave him, he knows that he should look the other way and never gaze at the boy again, ignoring him, but he couldn't this was Anton, his beloved.

So he did what he did in the past, he learned about the boy, the All-Tongue helped him to understand the boy's language, he learned that Anton goes by the name Tonton, he was the son of the tribe's chieftain, the place now Anton lives in… he should call him Tonton, it's not fair hanging on someone who was long dead, even if he was reincarnated… will be called north Germany years later.

Tonton was so different from Anton; it was like day and night, where Anton was born in Greece when it marked the height of Greek civilization in all of its aspects. Tonton was the next chieftain to his tribe, he was smart that much was true, but he was a hunter, he lived from the earth he walked on, he knows what nature wants and what he wants from it, he was not that much of an inventor or philosopher, his only concern was his tribe and family and providing enough food and protection to them.

Tonton was bright, and he had his whole life in front of him, ready to take the world by storm, but what broke his heart was that Tonton was betrayed by the closest person to him, and was killed for it, the boy was no older than fifteen summers when he was killed by his uncle, it was cruel, it was heartless, and Tonton's head was put on a stake to the whole tribe to see, as the people cried and wailed for the boy and for the dark fate waiting for them.

He spent that day crying because as much as Anton's death hurts him, his beloved at least lived a full life, he lived, grow old, and died from old age… but Tonton, his Tonton died young, he died so young, not even growing past fifteen summers in humans years, he was still a child who didn't know what the world was going to offer him.

"I was foolish like you once." Sara said to him three days later after Tonton's death, and it caused him to turn and look at the woman in her astral form, the woman was beautiful with her golden hair that was curled, reaching her back, her pale luminous skin, and her blue eyes, wearing a long black gown which only success to show her beauty, Sara and him shared so many similarities, that the other stars thought they were one star that split in half. "Falling in love with a mortal, I was foolish to think that there will ever be something between the two of us, mortals… their lives are just a second in our long lives." Sara said as she floats to him letting her hand run through his shoulder-length blond hair.

"What did you do? After their death…" The star said, really wanting to know what Sara did to make the pain go away, to force herself of not thinking about the mortal every second of every time, the star really wanted to know, how she managed to shine so brightly when the only time he could shine was when he was able to see his mortal's face.

"I forced myself to fall out of love." Sara ends up saying after a while which made him give a mocking smile knowing that this was nearly impossible. "It hurt, yes, it may seem impossible, but it is possible, you just need time, time to heal, and that could only happen if you stop gazing at Midgard, set your sight on something higher that won't perish, you won't gain the same heartbreak." Sara said gently as she turns his face to Asgard, kissing his forehead before she floats away. It made him laugh, at how easily she said those words, it made him angry and sad and so many other things, but the thing is he couldn't, wouldn't!

He returns his gaze to Midgard…

The third time Anton was reincarnated… he was a woman… and he saw her Renaissance period, it was beautiful and sad at the same time. Her name was Antonette, she was beautiful, Gods how beautiful she was, so full of life and hope, she used to look at the sky just like how Anton used to and she will smile when she saw him shine like she knew he was watching over her, the day she called him her 'Lucky star' he nearly cried, because he can see traces of Anton in her.

Antonette was beautiful with her curled black hair, and her teal eyes, with her milky skin, she was smart, as smart as his Anton and liked to study everything new that her hands fell on, but unfortunately, that was not what her parents want for her, her father was the lowest of the low, that only cared about getting into the high-class, so he forced her to marry a complete stranger, she was young, a child, only thirteen, younger than Tonton when he died, but her father may have killed her with his betrayal.

Antonette husband was a monster, and this was a light word coming from his mouth, the man deserves to rot in Helheim for all eternity for what he did to his beloved, he hurt her so much, used her so much, made her cry, humiliated her, locked her up in a tower, like she was a prisoner, and she was a prisoner in her own house, she spent her days trying to act like the perfect wife, as for her nights, Antonette will always look at the sky from her window in her room when her husband force himself upon her and left her alone, she will always look at the stars and her eyes will fall on him with a sad smile. "When can I finally be with you, darling?" She would ask and he will close his eyes at that wondering when her words will be true.

At night Antonette will tell him stories from her imagination, she will whisper how he came to her and saved her from her mad husband, how he will take her away from all the pain and how they will fly in the skis together forever, how he will never hurt her, how she loved him. "Sir Steven… that will be your name from now on, such a beautiful and noble name..." Antonette said one night out of blue, and he stopped breathing for a second.

For more than two thousand years, ever since he was created, not once did he choose a name, and why would he when he has all the time in the world? Sara chooses her name Saraious after three thousand years of her creation, and then she changes it because he always loved calling her by Sara, simple and short. But Antonette just gave him a name, a name that will be a reminder to him when she was going to leave him alone in this world when she passed, and it will hurt when he will hold into that name, it will break him day after day for all eternity, but for Antonette, for his beautiful darling, he would, he would carry the name and be Steven even if it hurt, as long as his beautiful beloved will smile.

The day his beloved had taken her life, she was eighteen, after three miscarriages, and enough abuse, his beloved couldn't handle it, he remembers her standing on the windowsill wearing her nightgown as she looked at the sky calling his name over and over again, she was smiling as she took another step and another, and Steven as much as he didn't want to watch, he couldn't take his eyes away, he couldn't let his beloved do this alone… Anton, Tonton, and Antonette, how much can Steven handle before his light is forever dimmed?

The day Antonette died, was the day Thor son of Odin was born the heir of Asgard and the nine realms, that day all the stars were looking at Asgard, waiting with patience to hear the heir's wails, that day every star in the universe turned to Asgard with happiness, only Steven, his eyes never strayed from Midgard as he saw his beloved body hit the ground and for her neck to break, but what made a shiver shake him in his astral and real form was something different completely, because on the plan Titan one of Saturn moons, he hears a child's wail, as his mother was about to kill him but was stopped by her husband…

She should have been fast…

The years after that start running one after the other, and Steven was so tired, after the heir to Asgard was born, a lot of things changed in the nine realms, but it was now known among the stars, that he 'Steven' had rejected Thor son of Odin as his king by refusing to look at his birth, news like this travel fast, especially in the magical realms, so now Steven was called crazy, his sisters and brothers refused to be seen dead with him, after all, why would a sane star look at Midgard the land of pitiful mortals, when they have Asgard the Realm of Gods?

Everyone left him alone after that, the only being who stayed by his side was Sara, and Steven was grateful for her, for understanding, for accepting, for trying to help Steven even when Steven had refused her help, but in the end, he accepts it, he accepts her help in forgetting, because if there was one thing that was known Steven was cracking.

After Antonette came Tova from Russia, a loving father of three, he loved his children so much, Tova died saving his youngest from falling into an iced lake, he died frozen to death… after Tova came Tonja from India, and it was kind of a funny thing because in that life Anton was born as a tiger, Tonja was one of the Maharajah's favorite pets, Steven had to stop himself from growling in disgust and pain every time he remembered how they killed Tonja to get his bones for witchcraft, so much for being favorite… after Tonja came Antonio from Italy, the man owned a beaker and was proud of his food, he was happily running the place with his sister who was expecting a son on the way… After Antonio there was Anthony from Britain who was never happy because he was forced to hide who he was, forced to hide that he was in love with his stable boy, and was never in love with his fiancé… after that, there was Andon from France, who was able to live with his male lover peacefully in the countryside… and then there were so many others that Steven lost count, but he knew their names and stories by heart.

Day after day his heart broke, and he couldn't handle it anymore, because he knew one more heartbreak and his light will be gone forever, so with that, he went to Sara wanting this all to be over, not wanting to remember anymore, not wanting to fell the heartache anymore, and he was grateful to Sara because she helped him, she helped and in the next century and a half he never gazes at that retched Midgard anymore, and the heartbreak becomes a dull ache, and his love for his Anton become an irritation and anger mixed with little hate, because why wasn't Anton born as a star? It would have been easier if he was born as a star or a God from Asgard or any other realm, because then Steven wouldn't have been forced to see him die again, and again, and again…

In that century that Steven spent recovering, he visited the nine realms and enjoyed himself ignoring the stars who spit at him when he floats after he rejects the rule of Thor son of Odin, but what Thor the son of Odin did after his coronation which was stopped by the Jotunn, made people and beings alike scared, made them concern, because how will the nine thrive when they have such a foolish prince as a king that wanted war? Suddenly Steven rejection made sense to everyone in the nine, so now instead of being spate at every time he was with someone, he was looked at with desperation and hope, the stars actually believed he was capable of seeing the future, a foolish notion he made sure to inform everyone of, because why would a star be able to see the future when the only thing they do is shine and write the history down? Steven always ignored the other stars that follow him to be their guide, weren't they only a few days ago whispered behind his back and spate at him for what he did a thousand years ago?

The fight with Loki though, was disastrous, for every star in the universe watch what took a place and wrote it down, and when Loki feel into the abyss of the space, Steven could feel the stars around him sigh in relief for finally getting rid of the boy, and he was a boy who was no older than six hundred years, still a teen, but Steven was not like the other stars, he couldn't, wouldn't allow such foolishness to happen especially when he knows what the rejection and neglect can do to someone, not after he suffers the same as Loki son of Odin suffered, and he also refuse to let someone waste their life especially when Thanos the mad titan was going around the universe destroying everything in his path and collecting his 'Sons and Daughters' to help him win his retched war, with that Steven flow toward Loki who was falling and falling and looking at the abyss with pain and fear in his eyes, and Steven thanked his luck that Loki was a creature of magic because if he wasn't then he wouldn't have been able to take hold of the God while he was in his astral form, for he was nothing but a spirit, a ghost.

"You saved me…" Loki had said slowly after he was put down on the ground of one of the near inhabitant planets that Steven could find. "Why?" Loki asked after he straightened himself which made Steven look at him with a mocking smile enjoying the anger and self-conscious that flashed on the man's face.

"Because this is the only way for you to redeem yourself, right what wrong you did, I know you are a better person and maybe it is time for you to act like it. Besides, Thanos would have got his hands on you if I did not." Steven said as he looked at his elegant clothes and robes that were in red, white, and blue colors, he looked at Loki after that to see the God looking at him with a shock and disbelieve.

"You are a star…" Loki let his breath rushed out of him at the realization that a star saved him a celestial being older than the time that never involved themselves in the affairs of mortals and immortals alike, beings that write the history since the beginning of time, ones that can grant immortality 'Whoever possessed a star's heart shall be granted immortality' his mother used to say, the last person to possess a star heart was six thousand years ago, shooting a star out of the sky and ribbing it's heart, for such treason and disrespect he was killed brutally, after that, Odin collected all ancient scribes of how to summon stars and burned them in Muspelheim's fires. "Oh Ancient one, thank you for your generosity, I am forever in your debt." Loki said bowing a little, after all, it was an honor to have a star look upon you and guide you, let alone save you, and Loki knows that he will forever be indebted to the star until he deemed that he paid the debt.

"You can pay your debt to me by abandoning your hate, you nearly fried the universe with your stupid plan, next time, please throw a tantrum like a normal brat." Steve said with an eye roll as he starts floating planning to return to his real body and maybe sleep for the next thousand years, it really bothered him that it will take four years for him to reach his real body, the perk of astral travel. "Farewell Loki son of Odin." Steve said nodding his head a little before he shoots off into the space planning to return to his body, he may even bother Sara before that about going on an adventure to Jotunheim to see what happened to their planet and help in any way they can.

Everything was good, Steven was flying alone in the space brooding in peace like what he had been doing for nearly two thousand years and a half ever since he met Anton, and he was not ashamed of admitting that he was brooding, after all, he was known for being the broodiest star out there, 'Salty' Sarah always says. It was maybe two years in his travel that he turned his head when he saw something fly toward him at lightning speed shining ominously, Steven's eyes widen at that as he tried to avoid whatever this was, only for it to track him down no matter where he went, he shouted in pain and surprise as whatever the hell that was slammed into his chest, he shrieked as something wrapped around his neck and was pulling him down, and like a weight being placed on him he was falling, the last thing he remembered was slamming into something when he fell, causing both of them to crash into the ground…

Great… It was his only thought before everything became dark…

Yeah, another story, I know, I know, I rock!

I hate me too for publishing another story when I already have eleven others that need my focus

Star Steven! I am sure you know the reason for that reference ;P

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