Disclaimer: I do not own any of the original plot or characters! Also I do not own this story, I merely translated it for my friend Lyana of Silarys (link to her page and original story will be on my profile).

Summary: When I think back to what happened, today it seems more like some trashy fantasy novel than reality. A girl falling in love with a vampire who first tries to kill her, then lies to her and finally cheats on her with another girl. Turns out said girl is a doppelganger and supposed to be sacrificed in some ritual. Oh and on top of that she discovers that she is actually a werewolf. I know it sounds like some Twilight inspired bullshit but it really happened. My name is Nathalie Lockwood and this is my story.

Dear Diary…
Is that how you are supposed to do it? Well, whatever.
Where to begin?

My name is Nathalie Lockwood, actually Nathalie Zoey Lockwood. But my Mom is the only one to call me by my second name, which I am thankful for. Most of my friends just call me Alie, probably because my full name is too long, but that is fine with me.

I am seventeen years old and (shocker) still live with my parents. My father is the major of our hometown Mystic Falls, a boring small town somewhere in Virginia. That's why you could say I am rich (what else do you call someone living in a huge mansion and has no limit to her credit card?), but I hate being branded as a spoiled brat because that simply isn't me. At least that is what I like to think. My twin brother is much worse than I could ever be. Maybe it's just puberty but he has good chances of becoming macho-asshole of the year. On top of that he decided that his "little sister" (by ten fucking minutes!) needs 24/7 surveillance and mercy on whichever guy tries to make a pass at me and doesn't live up to my brother's standards. How do I put this… He "rearranged" more than one face in the process…

I still love Tyler… somehow. Even when I sometimes have to ask myself why exactly. Probably because of some genetic urge to love your family no matter what. Apart from my brother there are of course a few other very important people in my life.

One being my friend Caroline (even if she isn't the easiest person from time to time), then there is Bonnie (who likes to go on about her imaginary witch powers) and of course my best friend Elena. We have known each other since birth but I think she is my soulmate of some sort. I can talk to her about literally everything and we never had any secrets or were holding back anything. She is currently having a tough time since she lost her parents in a car crash a few months back. She hasn't had it easy since then, same as her aunt Jenna (who know has custody over her and her brother Jeremy).

Yeah, Jeremy… It has been complicated between him and I even before the accident. He has been kind of into me since forever and before the crash I used to have some feelings for him as well. But it wasn't enough to base a relationship upon and I always had the feeling there was more for me when being with him. I still agreed on having a couple of dates and it was fun, but since the accident Jeremy drifted into some self-destructing emo-phase. He just wears black now, nails painted black and he recently started on drugs…

And that was a major turn down for me. Of course I tried my best being there for him and Elena but I don't feel comfortable around him anymore. Elena keeps telling me he still has feelings for me, but the way he is acting right now just isn't right for a relationship.

That almost sounded poetic… Maybe I should consider becoming a writer after all… not. Damn it… I just wish I had some normal problems for once. On the other hand there is this one normal problem in my life: school. Today being the worst day of the year. First day of school after summer break. And the day promised to be just as annoying as ever if God didn't finally answer my prayers and for once something exciting happens in this town. That would be something!

o-0-o

I let out a long sigh and closed the small book to stuff it back into the bag resting in my lap.

"What were you doing?" Tyler sat next to me in the driver seat and gave me a sideway glance. That we had to share a car, despite having the money for another one, was thanks to my parent's stinginess and the fact that they didn't trust me to drive on my own.

"Writing in my diary…" I responded and rubbed at my eyes. As usually I hadn't slept that much and was still trying to stay awake.

"Since when do you have a diary?" Tyler frowned and seemed irritated.

"Since five minutes ago." And since Elena told me that it might be good for me to write down my thoughts.

"Your old hobby didn't do it anymore?" Even when my brother was joking I could still here the small hint of hope in his voice and had to bite back a laugh. My mother had, God knows why, put me into singing lessons and I had taken a liking to it ever since. I mostly practiced in my room and tried keeping the volume down, because I don't think I was really any good at it. My brother's room was right next to mine so he had to put up with me being a pain in his ass. Even if he never complained, same as my friend Caroline. She was the only one apart from Ty allowed to listen to me singing. We often met since she shared my passion for singing but apart from me she wasn't shy of getting in front of an audience. I on the other hand was way too self-conscious to do so.

"Earth to Nathalie!" I looked at Tyler confused when he pulled me from my thoughts.

"What?!"

"I asked if you found something new to spend your time on…" He rolled his eyes while repeating his question and this time I burst into laughter. He should be used to me spacing out from time to time by now, still it was one of the things that really got him annoyed when I didn't answer anymore.

"Sorry Tyler, I haven't." I answered with a smirk still on my lips and he let out a frustrated sigh while pulling into the parking lot. I looked up surprised, I hadn't realized that we were already at school.

"Time to part, little sister." He loosened his seatbelt and grabbed his bag from the backseat while grinning at me staring daggers at him. "Try to be nice"

I let out a huff as we got out of the car. He knew exactly I hated him for treating me like a little girl, especially since we were only minutes apart.

"I'll wait for you after lessons so don't waste your time with the druggies again." I told him while throwing the door shut and left for the school yard without giving him another glance.

"Call me if anything comes up!" I couldn't help the smile when he called after me. He could be an asshole but he always came through for me when I was in trouble. Even with his current taste disorder called Vicky Donovan. She was what you would call the school's own drug queen, a thousand times worse than Jeremy and definitely not a person my brother should waste any time on. He probably only saw her as ass and tits on legs anyways rather than her more than questionable character. Shaking my head I made my way through the crowd of students and inside the building to go and find my friends since I didn't spot any of them out in the yard.

They probably were inside already. As if sensing my thoughts my phone started vibrating in my pocket. With a sigh I pulled it out and looked on the display while making my way through the glass doors.

Elena, 7:47 am

Waiting at the lockers :)

So there she was hiding. I was going to text her back when I ran face first into someone, sending my phone flying in the process.

"Oh for fuck sake! Can't you watch where you're going?!" I started cursing and stared daggers at the person in front of me, only now realizing I had walked straight into Jeremy.

"Alie?" He looked at me as if he had just recognized who I was. "Hey… What are you doing here?" I raised my eyebrows at his question and bent down to pick my phone which gladly had survived the fall.

"I go to school here, same as last year and the year before that." I put my hands on my hips and looked at him sceptically. Was he on drugs again? Because I had no other explanation for his question.

"I know that… I… I just mean… well…" He started stuttering and looked at the ground in embarrassment which was actually kind of cute.

"You were saying?"

"I was looking for you." He gave me a little smile that showed he was glad that I decided to help him a little to get out of this awkward situation.

"Here I am. So what's up?"

"I wanted to ask if we could maybe meet this evening… Maybe at the Grill or somewhere like that?" He looked hopefully at me with his big brown puppy dog eyes. Looking at him I felt my heart ache, I had tried to avoid him as much as I could over the course of the summer, hoping he maybe would get over his little crush. Apparently that had been wishful thinking.

"Jeremy I am sorry but I am meeting with your sister and the others at the Grill today." It wasn't even a lie, we had decided to get together yesterday. Still I was glad for this way out. Don't get me wrong, Jeremy was really sweet if he decided to be. Well if he did and if he didn't he returned to being the boy I didn't want to have anything to do with… A drug addicted wannabe rebel, moody most of the time and not caring if he got expelled from school. I knew he had a tough time dealing, still he wasn't even willing to let Elena and me try to help him. And I just couldn't and didn't want to be with someone like that. He was on his best way to hit the bottom. Hard.

"So what do you say Alie?" Jeremy's question ripped me from my thoughts again and I looked at him caught a little off guard.

"Ahh… why not?" My answer was more of a question than anything else and I hoped he didn't ask me anything of importance. When his eyes lit up I realized my mistake.

"Great! I'll meet you at eight at the Grill. That should give you and my sister enough time to do whatever." Well, shit. I really should have paid attention. I forced myself to smile and simply nodded which he took as his clue to give me a brief hug. Before I could do anything about it he threw in a little peck to my cheek as well. He gave me another smile before quickly disappearing, while I stood there touching my cheek in confusion. It felt weird, so weird I didn't really know if it was good or bad yet. Why couldn't my body decide how to feel about him already?

With a sigh I shook my head in order to rid my mind of those thoughts and made my way through the crowded hallways to go and find Elena at the lockers. My best friend was currently being crushed to death by Caroline hugging her tight. Bonny stood a little to the side and gave me one of her "typical" looks as soon as she caught sight of me. I returned her glance and joined the three of them.

"'How is she? Is she good?'" Caroline had let go of Elena and was now asking Bonnie about her what had me rolling my eyes in annoyance. One thing about Caroline I hated was her tendency to ask other people instead of the person concerned.

"'Caroline, I'm right here. And I'm fine. Thank you.'" Apparently Elena was thinking the same thing as I and waved her hand in front of our friend.

"'Really?'" The blonde didn't seem convinced and Elena nodded.

"'Yes. Much better.'" She put more emphasis behind her words but Bonnie and I were still not convinced that she really was. After all who was just fine after losing their parents just three months ago? Caroline seemed as unconvinced as the rest of us and pulled her into another hug.

"'Oh, you poor thing.'" I bit back a laugh at my best friend trying not to roll her eyes.

"'Ok Caroline…" Caroline apparently got the hint and let go of the brunette and smiled at her. A little over exaggerating, weren't we?

"'See you guys later?'" She asked and made for the classrooms after Elena told her yes. At that she finally recognized me and gave me a brief hug as well before rushing off. I raised my eyebrows and faced Bonnie and Elena.

"There you are." Both of them smiled at me.

"Yeah. Sorry I ran into your little brother but apparently you had it worse." I crossed my arms in front of me and grinned at her. She held her hands up in defence.

"'No comment.'" I nodded still grinning and Bonnie just shook her head.

"What did Jer want?" Elena asked as we made our way through the hallway.

"Well… Maybe I accidentally agreed on meeting him at the Grill this evening… After having dinner with the three of you of course!"

"You accidentally agreed?" Bonnie was amused and Elena shook her head with a grin.

"Zoey, Zoey… Where was your head again?" I cast the brunette a menacing look.

"Oh shut it, will you." I mumbled and pocked her in the side which made her grin even wider. She knew I hated being called by my second name as well as she knew I tended to zone out from time to time with the effect of finding myself in situations just like the one with her brother now.

"Okay, I'm sorry." She apologized after meeting my eyes. "But on the upside. You got a date!"

"Yeah. I just don't see the upside here." I wasn't really convinced this was all that good.

"Come on, give Jeremy a chance!" I tried to supress a groan. Here we go again. I didn't get why Elena was so hell-bent on getting me to date her brother.

"He already had more than five chances…" Before Elena could respond she was cut short by Bonnie.

"'Hold up. Who is this?'" I followed her gaze to the open door of the secretary's office to a tall boy who was facing away from us and talked to the secretary. He was wearing an old-fashioned leather jacket, washed out denim jeans and had short dark blond hair. More I couldn't make out from where I was standing.

"'All I see is back.'" Elena shrugged her shoulders.

"'It's a hot back.'"

"And some hot ass…" I completed Bonnie's comment and all three of us started giggling.

"He has to be new." Elena mused while we kept staring at the stranger's back. Very subtle of course.

"'I'm sensing Seattle, and he plays the guitar.'" Bonnie stated with narrowed eyes. Elena and I burst out laughing the same second.

"'You're really going to run this whole psychic thing into the ground, huh?'"

"'Pretty much.'" Bonnie nodded at Elena.

"You could try and get his name since you are such a great medium…" I joked and taking it serious Bonnie narrowed her eyes again, focusing on the guy. Chuckling I shook my head in disbelief. I wasn't sure yet if I should take this whole witchcraft thing serious or if she was just pretending and good at reading people. On one hand she sometimes knew things that were impossible for her to find out, on the other hand that was some crazy stupid shit. After all this was reality and not Harry Potter or any other fantasy.

"'I'll be right back.'" Suddenly Elena started for the restrooms where I could make out Jeremy disappearing. Not again. Apparently I had been right earlier about the drugs.

"Come on, let's get going Bonnie." I touched her elbow since she was still staring at the new guy, who chose this moment to turn around and walk out of the office. Okay he was looking pretty okay but I was more into dark-haired guys so I wasn't all that excited. Mr. Nameless passed by us, making his way through the crowd, of course drawing every girl's attention onto himself.

"Okay, enough with eye-fucking the new guy. Let's go!" I tugged at Bonnie's arm with a little more force than before since she gave no reaction. That seemed to do the trick and got her back to reality.

"Yeah, yeah. Don't sweat it." She mumbled and I smiled a little at that.

"What? That's the first new guy to this school who is actually worth being stared at. So let me!" She pouted and I couldn't help smirking at her attempt at faking to be sulky.

"Whatever. Let's go, we have history first period. I don't want to get 'tannered' five minutes into the day." I put the word in quotation marks with my fingers. Mr. Tanner was our teacher for history class and famous for picking on anyone who didn't know the answers right away. On top of that he was coaching the school's football team, the Timberwolves.

We reached the classroom 2 minutes before class started and almost all seats were already taken. Among the familiar faces I could make out Matt and waved at him. He was Elena's best friend, former boyfriend and little brother to drug-queen Vicky. Elena had ditched him after the accident and even after month Matt was still suffering from the break-up. Poor guy. Still deep in my thoughts I slid into my usual seat next to Bonnie.

Right on time with the bell Elena made it into class, quickly followed by the new guy. Since Elena's face had the colour of a ripe tomato, I assumed she had already made his acquaintance. And probably not all that willingly. I looked at her questioningly and she just shook her head no. I smiled inwardly as Mr. Tanner entered and started the lesson.