"Someday. Someday I'm going to be good enough. Someday I'm going to be worthy of it," Lena muttered to herself. This was the pep talk she gave herself whenever she felt like giving up. Her life had been hard, but there was a fire in her that refused to die, and no matter how rough it got, Lena wanted nothing more than to prove herself. She wanted to prove herself as being worthy and good. She wanted to prove that she deserved every blessing she had. She wanted to feel like she was good enough to stand beside the people she loved and call herself as equal to them.

And this fire had burned within her heart for as long as she could remember. The only thing that ever changed was who she was trying to prove her worth to. The very first people were her adopted family, the Luthors. She'd wanted nothing more than to fit in and deserve the family name. Her entire life was built around chasing their approval, waiting for the day she would truly feel like one of them. But that day never came.

Then her next goal was to become the admiration of her peers. During her time in boarding school, she was always looking for new ways to shock and amaze people because she still held out the hope of one day doing something so spectacular that everyone would love and remember her forever. Her name would go down in history as heroic, and she would finally deserve to call these people her friends and equals.

But that goal failed too, in part because of her brother. Even though he used to be the one whose praise she craved the most desperately, life took him down a dark and twisted path that left her so disgusted by the entire Luthor family that it soon became her goal to prove to everyone else that she was not like her adoptive family. The irony was not lost on her at all. After spending decades chasing the family name and wishing for the day when she would feel like a true Luthor, she was now going to go in reverse and spend the rest of her life trying to disown that evil name.

But even though she was now going in reverse, the core of her mission still remained the same: prove herself worthy and finally feel like she had a place where she belonged. It was the whole reason she took over her brother's company after he was arrested. She wanted to make that once-evil company into a force for good. And it was the whole reason she'd moved to National City. Because she knew Supergirl lived there and, in her mind's eye, there was no greater honor and success than getting into Supergirl's good graces.

"If I could just team up with her, prove myself to her, then I would finally be able to be a good and worthy person!" she reasoned with herself, and that was all she needed to encourage her to pack her bags and move to National City. And sure enough, she managed to meet that goal. Not long after moving in, she wound up working alongside the legendary Girl of Steel, but the quest did not end there. Instead, it was only just beginning. Lena still had a lot left to do in order to get Supergirl to like her! Already, a million plans were surging through her mind!

But, oh, poor Lena Luthor, always searching, never satisfied. Even though she'd accomplished so many things, there were still always people she felt the burning need to impress. There was always at least one person she felt unworthy of. No matter how far she came, she always considered herself presently unworthy and would thusly push herself to her very limits just to overcome this perceived barrier. She always felt like she was on the outside looking in. Did the poor woman never realize that this sense of needing to prove herself was only in her head? She already deserved all the good things she had, her mind was just refusing to let her believe it…

"Ms. Luthor!" Supergirl's voice cut through Lena's thoughts and the Luthor almost jumped up out of her seat in surprise.

"Supergirl!" she gasped, sounding like a giddy little schoolgirl with a crush. "I- I- wasn't expecting to see you here, at L-Corp, this late at night! Is… is everything alright?" trying hard to contain her stupid grin, Lena gave the Girl of Steel a polite nod.

"I just wanted to check on you to see if you were alright from that dreadful attack earlier," the Kryptonian replied as she flew into Lena's office.

For a couple seconds, all Lena could do was stare up at her in awe. Seeing Supergirl right there in front of her was every woman's dream! But even after Lena managed to comprehend what Supergirl had said to her, it still took her a moment to formulate a reply. For half a second, she'd forgotten the helicopter hijacking and all she could think was, what attack? All that she could think about in that moment was Supergirl. It just made her feel so giddy that Supergirl cared enough to check up on her. It made her feel embarrassed, but in a wonderful way! Supergirl really knew how to make people feel special, didn't she?

But at last, Lena managed to pull herself together and offer a calm, collected response.

"Yes, I am, thank you very much for asking. It's nice of you to check up on me, and I really appreciate all your help earlier," Lena inwardly congratulated herself for being able to speak so eloquently, because heaven knew her head and heart were racing a million miles an hour. But somehow, they managed to go even faster when Supergirl's heroic countenance softened into a much sweeter, softer, gentler smile of warmth.

"Good, I'm glad," she said, and even her tone managed to get gentler. Lena was sure she was going to swoon right then and there!

But luckily, she didn't, and she was successfully able to carry on a conversation with her secret fangirl crush for another 15 minutes or so before Supergirl finally flew home. Lena watched her go unhappily, but she was still over the moon, not just because Supergirl had come to visit her, but because she'd been able to successfully carry on a conversation with the mighty Girl of Steel without losing her nerve.

"Oh Supergirl, you're just so wonderful! How I wish I could be more like you… But never fear! Someday, I swear I will be! I swear I will be more like you, and then you'll finally be able to see me as a friend and equal. Someone you can trust and rely on. And someone I can be confident in saying deserves to stand by your side! I swear it!"

And in the months to come, as Lena continued to work her way into Supergirl's good graces, she found herself beginning to ally with all the other members of Supergirl's team. The Superfriends, as they affectionately called themselves. Although Lena never asked, it soon became her greatest wish to one day receive the honor of being allowed to call herself a Superfriend too.

"Someday… Someday…" she told herself, trying to reign herself in. "Someday I will be good enough to stand alongside my heroes. Someday I will deserve to call myself a Superfriend. And Supergirl? I swear I'll be with you someday."

AN: Set in 2x01, I just wanted to write Lena secretly pining to be a Superfriend and feeling like she has to earn that honor before she can claim it even though she's already more than worthy enough.