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Hey Readers, This story will feature magic and immortality, If you don't like those types of the stories then please click off now
The next chapter of Magical Secrets is also out so feel free to read that if you want :)
This story is another timeline of what happens right before the events of Magical Secrets- So Amanda and Olivia are arguing and then this story is what happens after that. You do not need to read Magical Secrets to understand this story!
I liked New York
The cool breeze in the winter and the warm summers.
The green leaves in the spring that turned to an ashy red in the fall. Jogs in the early morning before the sun had risen above the sky scrapers. Cinnamon scones from my favorite bakery that left a sticky mess on my hands A cup teaming hot coffee almost every hour to power through the day. But that's not the real reason I like New York.
My friends or my family are what make New York my home and all though I may have broken their trust, it's still the place I wish I could live forever. Alas things can never be so simple for me.
I new I'd have to leave New York soon to reinvent myself elsewhere so no one would suspect my immortality. I'm not completely immortal however humans can't kill me. The only people who can ever kill me would be my family members but they are locked up so I don't have to worry.
I could've spent longer in Atlanta but after what Patton did, I decided to cut my life there short and move up to New York before I'd have to redo my life.
I was jogging up over the bridge to work today, my last day.
I checked my clock and read the time to myself "8:47", Just enough time for my last cinnamon scone and steaming coffee.
"Order For Amanda Rollins" my barista shouted knocking me out of my day dream
I stumbled up to the counter to grab my things and prayed I wouldn't be late.
Olivia POV:
Something was off with Rollins.
When I first met her she was a vibrant cheerful person but now she's just less optimistic. I wondered If my coldness was the reason she was like this.
Flash back
"Amanda Rollins" a cheerful eager voice appeared behind me
"Ah transfer from Dallas?" I answered her not trying to start too much of a conversation
"Well Atlanta" she stumbled "You like Distasio for this?" she questioned slipping back into work mode
"He was there" I annoyingly smirked back while walking into Cragen's office
End of Flashback
She obviously knew who I was as tons of my cases have been studied by other detectives but I was so upset over my partners betrayal. I couldn't even think about his name without tears coming to my eyes. I've healed from it now but I still feel cold around her.
I guess I like it when things stay the same but Amanda is the complete opposite of that. Heck she moved from Atalanta to New York and started a new life there and I got upset that things had changed. I suppose that if I accepted Amanda as part of the team it meant moving on from Elliot but just doing that felt life such a huge and painful task. I only let go of him when I cleaned out his desk and removed the last of him from my life.
Just that however didn't explain why she could never trust any of us.
Fin was her partner and always had her back, just like Elliot always had mine but she still couldn't ask him for help.
I wish I hadn't crushed her back then, maybe she'd be happier now and maybe,
She could've come to me
Amanda POV:
I ran into the Squad room at 9:00 am right on the dot
"Damn Manda, your right on time" Fin smiled at me
Fin is the one I'll miss most. He has been the most loyal person I've ever met and even when I betrayed the squad. He was still there for me.
"I had to stop and get breakfast" I shot back just as Olivia exited her office
"Amanda can we talk?" Olivia sternly asked
"Um sure" I timidly responded while leaving my seat. Carisi wished me good luck and I fearfully entered the office
"Please take a seat Amanda" Olivia suggested. While her question seemed like a suggestion I knew that if I would ever make it out of her office I should just sit down. After all it would probably be my last time in her office. I noticed several photos on Olivia's desk next to her name plate which blasted Lieutenant in my face.
I had always dreamed of progressing my way up to being a lieutenant and since I moved up the ranks quickly in Atlanta I thought I'd actually have time but since I cause the whole mess with IAB I don't think that will ever happen.
"Amanda is there anything going on?" Olivia's voice pulled me back to reality
"No why would you think anythings wrong?" I questioned suspiciously
"Your not quite as vibrant as you used to be and your loosing your passion" Olivia said using her "victim" voice
I hated that voice, the same voice that broken women spilled their lives out to. The same voice that people cried to while hugging Olivia.
But I wasn't like them.
"I've just been tired lately" I responded, while that wasn't completely a lie, I didn't need very much sleep anyways
"You'd come to me or Fin if you needed anything right?" Olivia leaned closer to me
"Yeah of course!" I smiled back at her
"Ok" Olivia nodded her head not looking quite convinced "We caught a case and you can go interview the vic with Carisi"
"Perfect"
I shot up out of the chair in Olivia's office leaving my Lieutenant behind.
"Carisi lets go!" I shouted as he got up to follow me to the car
Carisi POV:
I saw Amanda go into the Lieutenants office and I worried what had happened this time.
While I loved Amanda, she's never been very open about her past and I've day dreamed about her opening up and telling me about herself. I wondered if perhaps her past was uninteresting or if something really bad had happened that she just wanted to forget. I shuddered at the thought.
"Carisi lets go!" Amanda yelled
Fin had told me there was a victim but Liv was waiting to talk to Amanda before sending us out.
Not wanting to keep Amanda waiting, I grabbed my jacket and left the room.
Amanda POV Several Hours Later:
Her name was Ellie Frazer
She had been raped in the hotel bathroom by a billionaire and there was very little evidence. Not very exciting for my last case but I was just enjoying the thrill of being at a crime scene.
The billionaire had a hardcore defense team but Barba was still going to prosecute.
I beamed that another women was hopefully going to get justice.
I decided to walk home my last day as Amanda Rollins. I wished I could stay Amanda Rollins forever but it was becoming quite noticeable that unlike the other members of my team, I wasn't ageing normally. I could also use my mind to see what the victims had gone through in order to find evidence others would over step. But that just made me appear more suspicious
I decided I would write a letter to my squad just to make my "death" look more like a suicide
Dear Olivia, Sonny and Finn
This letter is just for you guys and only you guys
Thank you for giving me a home in New York, I enjoyed the sunny days outside and the donuts you would bring for breakfast
I also loved bringing justice for all of the victims that have walked through are doors.
I hope you will all continue doing your job without me because you guys have changed the lives of so many people including my own.
This life was nice and I'll miss it and I'll miss you
I'll see you again. I promise
Amanda Rollins
Maybe if I chose to shape shift into a new person I might meet my old squad members again but I'd never be able to tell them who I am...
Tears formed in my eyes as I realized that was the last time I'd every sign my name as Amanda Rollins
With a wave of my hand a fake, dead version of me laid on my cold, tile bathroom floor
I held out my palm and sliced the surface of my skin. I winced and held my hand out over my gun to drop some fresh blood on it. I needed it to appear like I had shot myself.
With my use of magic it would look as though I had shot myself dead but I had to make sure it was convincing.
With tears rolling down my cheek, I pulled out my phone a texted Olivia that I needed her to come over.
I used my magic to open a portal and return to my home leaving Amanda Rollins in New York
A/N
So Olivia is about to find out that Amanda is dead and Amanda just returned home...
I haven't decided if I'll continue this story so feel free to leave a review letting me know what you think!