A/N I'VE CHANGED SOME THINGS HERE SO PLEASE RE-READ THIS CHAPTER. Thank you!

Guidelines:

"Talking"

'Thoughts'

'Natsume Talking on the phone and Voicemail'

'Mikan's letter.'

DISCLAIMER: My FIRST and LAST disclaimer. I DO NOT OWN GAKUEN ALICE. too bad.

REVISED: 06/29/2020
(I MAY STILL HAVE ERRORS AND WRONG GRAMMARS BUT PLEASE CONTINUE TO BARE WITH ME.)

MIKAN

"You only have a month left, Mrs. Hyuuga." My doctor said as he looked at me, grimly.

My eyes grew wide as I heard the news. "What?!I followed your instructions and did exactly what you've told me." I exclaimed.

The doctor shook his head. "Everything? If that's the case, why is it that your condition worsened? Are you pushing yourself to your limits again, Hyuuga-san?"

"..." I didn't replied and looked at the ground as if that was the best thing to view as of the moment.

The doctor sighed. "I'm sorry. There's nothing left for me to do. I advise you to be admitted here this week."

I continued to say silent. My doctor shook his head. "Since this matter has worsened, I think it's best to call Mr. -"

My eyes widen in horror. I immediately cut him off and fell on my knees and begged. "No please! Don't do it , Subaru nii-san!" Tears flowed down my cheeks as I pleaded to my doctor.

"But Hyuuga-san-!" He exclaimed.

I bowed my head as I continued to cry. "Please.." It came out like a whisper but I was sure Subaru heard it perfectly fine. He pinched the bridge of his nose.

"Fine. Under one condition. You must admit to the hospital by tomorrow so we can monitor you."

"But-!" I was about to protest, but Subaru glared at me.

"No buts."

I mustered every energy that I had left and gave Subaru my famous puppy eyes expression.

"Ugh! Not this again!" Subaru exclaimed as he fought the urge to say "yes" to me. Not long, Subaru sighed and ruffled my hair. Then, he looked at me, dead serious.

"Fine, One more day. But the day after tomorrow... I want you here at 9 am sharp, got it?"

My face gleamed and hugged Subaru-nii tightly. "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!"

"Can't - ugh- breath-!"

I laughed. "Opps! Sorry." I grinned at him, sheepishly. I looked at the clock and my eyes widen in shock. I stood and bowed down.

"Thank you again for helping me, Subaru nii-san. I need to go now, my husband will be coming home any minute! I don't want him to think that I was kidnap or something." I joked.

Subaru couldn't help but look at me, concerned. He shook his head. "Mikan-san please don't push yourself too hard. Please."

I rolled my eyes. "Oh stop being a worrywart! I promise that I won't push myself. Happy?"

This time, Subaru was the one who rolled his eyes. "Now I know why my sister's always worri-."

He was cut off by me again. "Ops! I'm sorry, Subaru nii-san. But I really need to go. Ja ne."

Without waiting for a reply, I went out of the clinic. As my bright and warm facade slowly crumbles away.

5:07 pm

'Whoops! I almost came home late. Phew! It's a good thing he always come home at 5:-."

"Where the hell were you, woman?!"

I sighed inwardly. 'Spoke too soon.'

I forced a smile and looked at my husband. "I went to the grocery." I held up the grocery bag and stuffs (which I bought before going to Subaru's clinic), and silently prayed. 'Please be bought by it! Please be bought by it!'

"Tch. Whatever." Natsume simply replied as he walked away and went to the living room. I sighed. Relief washed over me.

'Thank kami. He bought it.'

I went inside, closed the door, and immediately arranged the groceries in the kitchen. I peeked slightly at the living room, and saw Natsume was watching the television. I bitterly smiled as I looked at his back.

"Oi woman!" I heard Natsume say, not bothering to look at me. I winced at how cold his tone was. I inhaled and tried to muster the sweetest voice I can make.

"Yes, hon?" I sweetly (which was forced) replied.

"Make me food." He demanded. I closed my eyes and felt tears were brimming at the corner of my eyes. I gulp to fought back the tears that wished to fall down.

'Where did my loving husband go?' I quickly dismissed the thought and started preparing my husband's food. I bitterly recall all the memories that both of us have shared during this time. When I was done, I looked at Natsume who suddenly closed the tv. I observed him stand up and talk on the phone.

I felt a stab on my chest. Clearly, I knew Natsume had a mistress. I acted like I was clueless, because I was holding to that thin rope between me and Natsume. I still believe that my sweet and loving husband will return to me. I'm willing to forget everything about his mistress if that will happen. That's how stupid Mikan Sakura-Hyuuga is. That's how I love Natsume so much. To the point, that I won't complain, stop, break up, or divorce with him.

I took the plate with Natsume's food in it and went to the living room. As I approached the living room, I could clearly hear the things that he say. I quickly crouched down and hid behind the sofa. Thankfully, I was so petite (due to my sickness) I was able to hide without being noticed. I stayed silent and listened to my husband's conversation.

'Hey, babe!' My husband exclaimed. I winced. I could feel how excited he was.

'Yes, I missed you too.' My husband's voice so sweet and loving.

'Oh THAT. Well, she's making me dinner right now. She's so stupid and too easy to manipulate. I'm becoming tired to this endless charade.' I felt a pang on my chest and an arrow went straight to my heart.

'Don't worry, hun. It's not like I loved her or anything.' he reassured the person on the phone. I could feel how tender and loving he was. I felt envy to the woman that he was talking to.

It took everything of me to fight back the tears that were forming in my eyes. Even though it pains me, I continued to listen to my husband's conversation.

'Oh, tomorrow? Yup! I'm free... Really? Sure, that would be great!'

My eyes widen and silently pleaded. 'No please! Not tomorrow! Anything, but tomorrow!'

'Wait. A week? It'll be difficult to make an excuse to that ugly woman... But don't worry, I'll try to make out a plan.'

I couldn't help but tightened my jaw. To be honest, right now I'm at my lowest point. Ever since Natsume had an affair with this woman, I've become so insecured that it took a toll to my body. And thanks to what he said, I've lost all the confidence that I have with myself.

'Ok. Meet you up at 7. Bye. Love you.' The conversation ended. I heard him sighed.

"Oi woman! Where's the goddamn food?! What's taking you so long?" Natsume said, demandingly.

It took me a lot of effort to not cry, punch, and scream at Natsume. I peeked over the sofa and thankfully his back was facing me, I quickly stood up and forced myself to smile.

"Sorry it took me some time. Here you go."

Natsume faced me and quickly took the plate from my hands. He didn't bother to thanked me and simply took the remote, turned on the tv , then sat at the sofa once again.

I stood perfectly still as I observed him eat and watch. He ignored my presence. I was feeling hurt, hurt, and hurt. It was too much. It was like I was a nuisance that wasn't suppose to be there. That wasn't suppose to be beside him.

I gulped and slowly approached him. I innocently asked. "Hon, who were you talking to?"

Without batting an eyelash, he replied. "None of your concern."

I sighed and closed my eyes as I suppress any feelings of lashing him out.

"Of course." I smiled bitterly.

I was about to go, when Natsume stopped me. It was an understatement if I didn't feel joy when he did that.

"I'll be going to a business trip tomorrow.." Natsume trailed off.

I felt the stab in my chest once more. Not only was I hurt, but also betrayed. 'Liar. Liar. LIAR!' I mentally chanted on my head.

"..And I wanted you to-." Natsume started.

I couldn't help but get my hopes up. Maybe he wants to take me. Maybe he changed his mind. Maybe he still cares and love me afterall. Different thoughts of "Maybe" flooded my mind. But silly me, didn't get anything near from what I was expecting.

"Take care of the house while I'm gone. No sleeping at anyone's house. Not even at Imai's, got it? I'll be leaving tomorrow." He noncholantly said.

I felt my eyes darkened. I quickly closed my eyes in order to calm myself. Without thinking, I hugged Natsume. The both of us were shocked with my little stunt. It was so sudden, but I couldn't help it. I was desperate. For his love, attention, care, and time. I feel him stiffened.

"What the-!" He was cut off when he felt the hot tears damping his shirt.

"Please Natsume." I pleaded, my voice cracked a little.

"What are you-?"

"Stay! Just for tomorrow. Please! That'll be enough. Only tomorrow's enough... Stay with me... please.." I pleaded as I trailed off. I was weeping. My vision was blurry but I could clearly see Natsume's jaw tightened. He softly pushed me away.

"No." He firmly said.

Despite his disapproval, I tried to forced my way to hug him once more. Seems he saw what I was trying to do, he tried to push me away.

"Damn it, woman!" He frustratedly exclaimed. Thus, accidently pushing me hard against the wall. Seems like he was taken aback at his actions because I saw his eyes widen in shock.

I coughed. I quickly covered my mouth anfoked at my hand. When I saw blood, I instinctively hid my hand.

'Seems that he didn't noticed, thank God.' I thought.

"I-" He started but I cut him off when I laughed at him bitterly.

"I guess she's more important than me, huh?" I bitterly nudged. My eyes were now covered by my bangs and slowly stood up.

"You talked about me as if I was some kind of THING. A nuisance. I didn't know that I was that worthless, and that I was nothing to you. " I dabbed at his chest. Natsume remained silent, stunned. Tears were flowing down on my face again. I could see how pale he was.

I raised my hand up, Natsume closed his eyes as if anticipating a slap. I inwardly chuckled when I saw his surprised expression when I caressed his cheek. I was hurt, betrayed, and insecured but in the end, nothing can change the fact that I love and yearn for this man.

I leaned in and briefly kissed him on the lips. I smiled at him before removing my hand from his face. It seems that he was still in a shocked state.

"I love you, ok? Please remember that. Enjoy your trip tomorrow." Without waiting for a reply, I turned away from and quickly headed for the door.

"Wait!" I heard Natsume say. I didn't dare to look at him as I continued my way out.

"Mikan your han-!" I hear him shout but I cut him off.

"I'll be going somewhere, hon. Please don't wait up for me." I casually said as I walked out of the house.

I quickly run fast and hid behind an alley in case Natsume follows me. As if the gods were answering my prayer, I saw Natsume ran past me. Assuming that he is looking for me. I chuckled bitterly as I let the tears fall down. I roughly wiped it away, but it was useless.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. Before walked away from the alley, from my house, and from Natsume.

1 hr later...

"Is Subaru Imai inside the clinic?" I said as I looked down on the floor. My eyes were covered by my bangs.

"Yes, and do you have an appointment?" The nurse said.

"No, but-" Before I could continue someone cut me off.

"Mikan?" I looked up upon hearing my name, and saw Subaru-nii. I couldn't help but tear up again and hugged Subaru. It seems that he's new to this since he was patting me rather, er, awkwardly.

When I recovered, Subaru quickly dragged me to his office and closed the door none to gently. "Start." He said. I sighed and started telling my story. Nodding and humming was Subaru's response.

".. So the reason why you don't want your husband to know is because of that?"

I nodded, sadly. "Yes. I've always wanted him to be happy. At first I thought I can do it, but it seems that I failed. How so you say? He wouldn't have a mistress if I didn't failed him as a wife." I couldn't help but tear up again.

"But why didn't you tell your friends about this?"

I sneezed from a tissue that Subaru gave me while I was crying awhile ago. "If I don't want my husband to worry, then I also don't want my friends to worry. They all have their own problems. Telling them what's my problem will also be their problem. I don't want to become a burden because of me."

"Mikan, you're not a burden to your-" I cut him off when I held a hand signalling him to stop.

"It's my choice, Subaru nii-san. Please don't tell them until I pass away. Not even Hotaru. It's my one and only wish before I can rest in peace."

Subaru looked down, grimly. I held his hand and smiled gently. "Don't worry about me...Oh! I forgot to tell you. Seems that I don't need another day. I think I'll just be confined here by tomorrow."

Subaru was shocked but at the same time weary. "What happened?"

I shook my head. I left out about Natsume going out with his mistress tomorrow. I gulped nervously.

"How about your friends? Why don't you spend your last day with them?" Subaru asked.

I smiled as if that was the best idea that Subaru said. I jumped and hugged Subaru causing him to blush faintly. "You're right! I was so caught up with Natsume that I forgot that I should also hang out with my friends! How silly of me." I looked at the time. My eyes widen in realization.

'Oh no! It was already this late?! Why didn't I noticed?' I mentally exclaimed. I stood and bowed. "Thank you again, Subaru-nii. Well then, I'll see you again the day after tomorrow! Ja ne!" I exclaimed and rushed out of the clinic.

"That bestfriend of my sister is really.." Subaru trailed off and shook his head.

I opened the door gently and scanned the dark room. Everything that happened awhile ago flashed as I grimly thought about it. I sighed. I closed the door and looked at the kitchen.

Empty. I looked at the living room. Empty. I sighed. 'What do you expect, Mikan? Him waiting for you? As if!' I shook my head.

I slowly went upstairs and went into our bedroom. I opened the lights and dimmed it a little. I noticed the packed bags and luggage in front of our closet. I felt sadness wash over me.

'Seems he like he's still going.'

I changed into my night gown and slowly walked to our bed. I gently sat down and observed the sleeping Natsume. He looked so handsome and peaceful. I can't help but be mesmerized at the sight. I brushed away his hair.

"I miss you, Natsume." I whispered.

A tear fell on Natsume's cheek. I realized that I was already crying. I quickly wiped away my tears and kissed Natsume on the forehead before lying down beside him. I was about to fall asleep when I felt Natsume shift.

"Mikan?" I heard Natsume say. I didn't bother to look at him, and continued to lullaby myself to sleep.

Without another word, I felt another person's heat behind my back. I couldn't help but feel warm at this sudden closeness. I felt his arm sneakily hugged me. I felt electrified at the sudden touch.

'It has been a while.' I thought.

I was ecstatic. If only there was a way to freeze this moment. A peaceful night together with a love one, lying down without a care for others. Solely having themselves to rely on. I truly wished for it to remain as is. Forever.

"I'm sorry." He whispered. It was small and soft but I heard it perfectly fine. If I have the strength and energy to cry I would do so but I haven't and I wouldn't.

We slept together while cuddling.

'This is gonna be a long night.' I thought.

Morning came. I woke up and groaned. I look beside me and disappointment washed over me.

'He still left.' I sighed and both of my cheeks as mean to cheer me up.

'No Mikan! Stay positive. You still have your friends.' I looked up with pure determination and readied my plans. I took my phone from my purse and dialed the first person whom I can think of: Hotaru.

Calling: Hotaru 'Blackmailing Queen' Imai.

H: Hello Hotaru Imai speaking.

M: Hotaru! It's me, Mikan. I was wondering-.

H: I'm busy.

M: But-!

Someone in the background: Ms. Imai, everything's ready.

H: Gotta go, Mikan. Bye.

M: Wait Hota-

Call ended.

I sighed. I looked at the window, sadly. I closed my eyes for a brief second and smiled. 'I still have Permy, Anna and Nonoko to ask!'

Calling: Sumire 'Permy' Shouda.

S: What the hell do you want, Sakura?

M: I just wanted to ask you if you want to-

S: If you're gonna ask me if I want to come with you for shopping then my answers, no.

M: But-!

S: I don't have time for this kind of things. I have a business to take care off.

M: But can't you just-!

S: No means NO, Mikan. Gotta go. Bye.

M: Wait Sumi-!

Call ended.

I clutched my phone tightly. What's with people being busy now a days? It's only Monday for goodnes sake! I started calling Anna next.

Calling: Anna 'Banana' Umenomiya.

A: WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT?

M: I just wanted to-

A: IF YOU'RE A CLIENT OR SOMETHING I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS SHIT!

M: Anna it's me, Mikan!

A: Mikan? I'm sorry, honey. I was just so caught up of some things here in the bake shop.

M: It's ok. I just wanted to ask-

A: What do you want, Akiko! WHAT!? Hello, Mikan? I'm sorry but something happened at the bakeshop I'm sorry gonna call you again later. Ja ne.

M: Anna-!

Call ended.

I pinched the bridge of my nose. I silently prayed that atleast.. Atleast Nonoko will be free or vacant this day!

Calling: Nonoko 'Loco' Ogasawara.

N: Hello this is Nonoko speaking.

M: Nonoko! It's me! Mikan.

N: Mikan-chan! How are you?

M: I'm fine thank you.

N: Why did you called?

M: I just wanted to ask if-

I heard something exploded from the backgroud. I slightly jumped from the shock.

Someone at the background: Nonoko-saan! I kind of need your help over here.

N: Mikan I'm sorry but-!

M: No no! It's okay. Hope everything's alright.

N: I'm sorry. I promise I'll call you later. Sorry again, Mikan-chan.

Call ended.

I sighed and looked at the window, sadly. 'I guess it's not really my day, huh?' I laughed bitterly.

'Well, I guess it's time for me to pack my stuff.'

3:00 pm - Hospital.

Right now, I'm standing in front of the Hospital with a luggage on my right hand and bag at my left. I sighed.

'Looks like I'll spend the rest of my month camping in the hospital. Bummer.' I pouted and headed inside.

Meanwhile (Normal POV)...

Voicemail # 1 (Natsume)

'Oi woman! Why the hell aren't you picking up your damn phone?'

Voicemail # 2 (Hotaru)

'Oi baka. I've been calling since this morning. Why aren't you picking up your phone?'

Voicemail # 3 (Sumire)

'Mikan, darling, I know your mad at me for talking that way but please pick up your phone. I've been calling for you like ages.'

Voicemail # 4 (Anna)

'Mikan? Are you there? I'm sorry about my attitude awhile ago. Would you forgive me? Please answer your phone.

Voicemail # 5 (Nonoko)

'Mikan! I've resolved the problem here. What did you want to talk about again? You're not picking up your phone and I'm worried.

Voicemail # 6 (Natsume)

'Damn it, woman! Where the hell are you?!'

Voicemail # 7 (Natsume)

'Mikan.. I'm sorry. If your not picking up because of what happened. Please pick it up.'

Voicemail # 8 (Natsume)

'Mikan.. Please pick it up. I'm worried and that's the truth pleasse. I just need to hear your voice.'

Voicemail # 9 (Hotaru)

'Oi baka. I contacted the girls and it seems you contacted them too. We're on our way there so make sure you explain to us what happened... We're worried, Mikan.'

Voicemail # 10 (Natsume)

'I love you... Please say something..'

~End of voicemail.~

"Mikan?"

I looked behind me and saw Subaru-nii. "Subaru-nii! Good afternoon."

"What are you doing here? I thought you're with your friends?"

"I-" I started but was cut off when someone called Subaru-nii.

'Speaking of cellphone... OHMYGOSH! I forgot mine at home! Silly me! It seems that's the best for all of us. Atleast they won't track me.'

"Mikan? What about her?" I heard what Subaru-nii said and looked at him as my eyes widen. I made a gesture not to tell where I was. Thankfully, Subaru-nii understood what I meant and said:

"Nope. Haven't seen her. I'll call you immediately when I get in contact with Mikan. Gotta go. I have a patient to tend to. Bye." Then their conversation ended.

Subaru-nii sighed. "You've got a lot of explaining to do." He tapped his foot impatiently at me.

I laughed nervously. "Well not here of course! Lead the way to my room, Subaru-nii!"

A month has passed. A month of no one knowing where I was, a month of pure loneliness. As each day passes, I could feel my body get weaker and weaker.

On my first day here, I felt really healthy and alive. As my duration of staying here progresses, there were immediate changes in my body. First, whenever I move too quickly I feel dizzy immediately. Then, I had a hard time breathing whenever I run or walk briskly. The drastic change of my body occurred during the third week of my stay here.

I couldn't feel my legs and I couldn't do the things that I could usually do. Only my upper body was functional. Which was why I made letters to everyone. To Hotaru, Anna, Sumire, Nonoko, their boyfriends which is Natsume's old gang. ( Ruka, Kitsuneme, Koko, and Yuu.), and last but not the least Natsume.

I asked Subaru-nii to refrain from telling my friends as to where I was until I could pass, which he complied. It was indeed lonely, but I thought that it would be best for them not to see the state that I'm in. It was very painful to fight everyday alone, but I was thankful for Subaru-nii and the staff that were taking care of me.

Despite that, I did wished that Subaru-nii will broke our promise and tell them. I hope they'll come rushing here as soon as they heard the news. I also wished Natsume will be the first one to come here. I want to see his face even for the last time.

I noticed I was already crying as I said those things in my mind. 'I don't want to die.' I kept chanting in my mind. But I know it's useless. It's already happening. I can't unwind the past. I took a deep breath and calmed down. I smiled as I look at my window. I heard children laughing. Some out there might die and some may not but even so they did everything that they wanted to do. I realized, even though I'm leaving earth earlier doesn't mean I didn't enjoyed my life. I was actually grateful and thankful for everything. I slowly reached out to window.

Dear Natsume,

Thank you for everything. I enjoyed every second, every minute of us being together. Thank you for staying with me through thick and thin. I'm sorry for leaving you early. I'm sorry I failed you. I failed you as a wife, as your soulmate, as a lover, and as your bestfriend. About your mistress.. You don't have to hide it anymore. I knew it from the very start you acted strange. I acted clueless because I was hoping - hoping for us to be together again. But it seems, It's too late for us to be like that. Please. Please do take care of her like how you took care of me.

I slowly felt my eyes get heavier and felt my hand fall. I heard a door opening.

"Mikan-chan? Mikan-chan! Please wake up! Doctor! Doctor! Patient Mikan Hyuuga is-" A nurse shouted but I wasn't able to decipher the next words she said.

Natsume, promise me that you will love her like how you loved me. Please move on and forget about me. But I guess knowing you, somewhere in your heart I knew you can't. Guess it's just a hunch but I knew you won't. So how about this? Let go. Just let me go and live a normal life. Remember me if you want, but love somebody the way I love you. Love somebody who will cherish you and will sacrifice for you.

"MIKKAAANNN!" someone screamed, it sounds familiar but I couldn't distinguish who it was.

Natsume, last but not the least. Even if I die. Even if I'm not here on earth anymore. I promise you, my love for you will last forever. I love you since our grade school days. It may sound cliche, but it's true. I was so happy when you asked me to be your girlfriend. I was overwhelmed when you asked me to marry you. And I was overjoyed when we both said I do. Thank you, Natsume. I will always love you.

"Mikan! Please! Please wake up. Please!" Someone pleaded.

Sayonara.

TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNGGGGGGGG

(06/26/2020) GOSH! I've finally had the time to revise this. I'm really thankful for all the people who've supported my works. Because of your constant support, I've finally finished the chapter 2 of this fanfic. I really hope ya'll love it. It's kinda serious and may be too long for you but please do bare with it 'till the end.

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