A/N: This was something that popped into my head, so I ran with it. I don't own any of the characters.

Liza left the reception shortly after Diana and Enzo had left. Maggie left with Lauren and Josh and Kelsey left with Zane. Charles was talking to someone, so she basically just left without saying a word. Her head was spinning and she needed to think. Charles had proposed. This was supposed to be a happy moment but why didn't she feel happy. She loved Charles so much but she felt like the proposal just came out of nowhere. He wasn't kidding when he told her he can be impulsive when he followed his heart.

She arrived at the loft, took her heels off, put them in her bedroom and poured herself a glass of wine. She sat down on the sofa and thought about what had just happened as she drank her wine. Then moment had been perfect. He had requested their song and asked her to dance. She had been thinking about his invitation to Scotland. She almost couldn't believe what she was hearing when he said the kids shouldn't come on their honeymoon. Their honeymoon. Then it happened.

"Liza Miller, will you marry me?"

She was confused more than anything else. Mostly about her feelings for Josh. Maggie, Kelsey and Lauren all loved Josh, so she knew that getting advice on what she should do from Maggie really wasn't a good idea. She still cared for him and she still loved him but she didn't think he was really 'the one'. She meant what she said when she told Josh that she wanted to be fun Aunt Liza to Gemma and she really didn't want to raise another child through the infant and toddler stages. Charles' girls were past that and she loved them as much as she loved their father. She had bonded with them from the moment she met them. She still had a lot to work on with Pauline after what had happened but for now, Pauline and Charles still shared custody of the girls. She was so happy that Bianca had referred to her as one of her mommies. She had a lot more to consider than just Charles in her decision and that was Nicole and Bianca.

She heard a knock at the door, so she got and went to answer it. It was Charles.

"Hi."

"Hey."

"Where'd you disappear to? I could have taken you home."

"I needed to clear my head. This is just a lot for me right now. Come on in."

"Thanks."

Charles walked in and Liza shut the door.

"Can I get you anything?"

"No, thank you. I'm fine."

They both sat down.

"I take it you want an answer?"

"You can take as much time as you need."

"Here's the thing. I love you and I would love nothing more than to wake up with you every day for the rest of my life. I want to say yes but there is a lot that I need to sort out."

"Josh?"

"He's part of it. I'm really trying to move on from him but it isn't easy. When I was with him, you occupied a lot of my thoughts and now I can't get him out of my head. I feel like such a terrible person."

"I understand. Do you want to go back to him?"

"No. It's just that my feelings for him are still so strong and I need to deal with that before I can completely commit to you. I know I want to be with you but not like this. I'm sorry, Charles."

"Do you want to break up?"

"I just need some space to think things out. Take the girls to Scotland for the summer like you originally planned. It's not like we won't see each other because we will at work."

"Ok. Take as much time as you need."

"Thank you. I am sorry."

"I know you are. I told you I can be impulsive when I followed my heart. I don't know what I was thinking or if I was even thinking. I guess I just got caught up in the moment of being at Diana's wedding."

"I really started thinking about us during the ceremony. I can see myself being with you that way but not right now. You know how much I love the girls."

"I know and they love you too. I should go."

Charles stood up and Liza did as well. They kissed each other on their cheeks and then they hugged.

"Goodbye, Liza."

"Goodbye, Charles."

Charles left and headed back to Manhattan. Liza had tears running down her cheeks as soon as he walked out the door. She went to change for bed and went to take her makeup off. She crawled into bed and read her book for a while. What was supposed to have been a happy day, didn't turn out too happy for her but at least Charles seemed to be willing to give her the space she needed. She just wished she could have said the same about Josh. She shut her door and went to sleep. Charles was still very much a part of her thoughts.

Liza had already been asleep for a few hours when Maggie, Lauren and Josh arrived at the loft. They were laughing and yelling. Maggie assumed Liza was spending the night with Charles. Maggie got them a joint and they all sat around smoking it.

"Is Liza here?"

"She's probably with Charles. She should have just moved in with the guy. She's there more than she's here."

"What does she see in that guy anyway? She's kidding herself if she thinks she loves him or he loves her. I love her way more than that jerk and I intend to get her back. Her, Gemma and me would make such an awesome family. Don't you think?"

"I say go for it! Didn't I tell you that if you two were meant to be together, you'd find a way?"

"Yeah, you did!"

"You do realize that she would still see him at work."

"She can get another job someplace else."

"Really? She had a hard time getting one in the first place, which is why she had to lie."

"I just want her away from that guy. If it wasn't for him, Liza and I would probably be married right now but instead I had to see him kissing MY girlfriend. I'm not sorry I punched him at that picnic. He deserved it. I need Liza in my life. She is the only person I want to be with forever."

Little did they know was that Liza had heard them making noise and had opened her door, so she had heard every word Josh had said. Maggie saw her close the door.

"I think it's time for you two to go."

Lauren started pouting.

"Why? I thought we were rekindling."

"Another time."

"Is everything ok, Mags?"

"Yeah. I'll call you later sometime."

"Let's go."

"Ok."

Lauren and Josh left and went to their apartment.

"Oh, shit!"

Maggie went over to Liza's bedroom and knocked.

"Go away!"

"It's me."

"Are you alone?"

"Yeah, I am."

Liza unlocked the door and then opened the door. Liza's eyes were red and puffy and Maggie knew she had heard them.

"Look, I'm sorry. I assumed with were with Charles."

"Yeah, obviously. This day just keeps getting worse."

"You want some pot?"

"No!"

"It will make you feel better."

"You know, I know you don't particularly like Charles and want me to be with Josh but after what I just heard, there is no way in hell that I will ever go back to him."

"We were drunk and high."

"That's not an excuse! I need someone I can confide in and I feel like you're not that person anymore."

"You can still confide in me. Liza, did you and Charles break up?"

"No. He proposed while we were dancing at Diana and Enzo's wedding."

"What did you say?"

"For now, I said no because I'm not ready but also because of what I thought I was feeling for Josh."

"You really love this guy, don't you?"

"Yeah, Maggie, I do but I also need you to support me in whatever decisions I make in my life. I get you and Josh are friends but Charles is in my life and I want you to like him too."

"How'd he take it?"

"He seemed ok and he was willing to give me space. Unlike someone else. Josh keeps trying to tell me that he knows what I'm feeling better than I do and he knows when I'm lying especially to myself. Yet he had no idea I was lying to him before I told him that I was 40. He doesn't know Charles and I tried telling him that the night of Diana's bachelorette party."

"I admit that I haven't been the best supporter of your relationship with Charles but I promise that I will try. What are you planning to do about Josh?"

"I have to confront him about what I heard him say. I want to be friends with him but he is making it so hard because he can't let me go. I thought he had moved on from me with Clare. He told me the night before his wedding to Clare that he wanted any life with me and we spent the night together. The next morning he told me he had to put a ring between us?"

"Was there sex involved?"

"For once, no. Once I came home and the Moore scandal broke, Charles found out the truth and was pissed at me but after seeing me make a complete fool of myself with Caitlin, he realized he still wanted to be with me. I'm so tired of all the secrets and lies. I know it's Charles I want to be with. If Josh can't accept that, then there is no place for him in my life."

"I mean, for a while there, Charles did give up his position as Publisher for you."

"Yeah, he did and it made me crazy not seeing him at work every day, so I was really happy when he came back."

"What's going to happen while Charles is giving you space?"

"He's taking Nicole and Bianca to Scotland to do some Harry Potter thing and he had originally invited Caitlin and me to come along, so we could all get to know each other better. When he requested our song, from the first time we danced together in the Hamptons, he told me that he didn't think Scotland was a good idea right now. Naturally I thought it was a good idea not to go but then he said the kids shouldn't be coming on our honeymoon and then he proposed. Kelsey told him that she accepted his offer and was coming back to Millennial. Everything was happening so fast. All this happened after I had a talk with Josh at the bar. He said he showed up because he wanted an excuse to see me. He asked if I'd be ok with him using the tattoo he gave me as the one he did at the new place. At first, I was ok with it but then I decided that it was mine. Like I told him in the letter I wrote him, he was just a moment in time. I need to finally let go of my past to move forward with my future."

To be continued…

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