Hey guys! If you read the beginning of my newest sorry You are my secret now then you know the reason for my unexpected hiatus. For those who have read one of my older stories this is an improved version of one of them. But just in case i'll put at the beginning of chapter 2

Welcome to the new improved and (hopefully) better Saved me even if I don't want to be saved.

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN HARRY POTTER. NEVER HAVE NEVER WILL.

Severus pov

I couldn't take it anymore. I was so tired. What was I thinking believing that I was able to continue like this?

James Potter and Lily Evans. My enemy and my former best friend. Worst of all, two people who I was in love with. Lily, I had always loved but James was a shock. The thought of him pinning me up against the wall, kissing me to the point where I could even think straight. That was around the time Potter and his friends stopped pranking me after the incident. But knowing that he hated me with a passion I forced myself to I ignored them, hoping and assuming that maybe seeing them together wouldn't hurt as much. But then I overheard people talking about them. About how they were so happy, how they were going to get married, and live happily ever after.

That didn't shock me. Both were perfect. Lily with gorgeous scarlet red hair, flawless tan skin and mesmerizing emerald eyes. James with messy dark chocolate brown hair, tan skin, muscular, lean build and mischievous hazel eyes. Both were flawless and amazing. Powerful, smart.

Everything that I am not.

After that I realized that they get the happy ending but I get nothing but misery. But I didn't want to join the Death Eaters. I didn't want to go home to my abusive father and neglectful mother. I didn't want to be bullied, picked on, and harassed by all of the houses, including the Slytherins. I didn't want to be miserable anymore.

Which led me to the astronomy tower.

I looked out towards the night sky. I stripped myself of my outer robes to reveal black loose torn jeans and black t-shirt. The moonlight shining on my scarred arms that showed all of the abuse I suffered. The words I carved into my skin. In the messy scrawl on my right arm, were the words 'worthless freak'. On my left was the word 'half breed'. It is quite amazing how far a simple counseling charm can go.

I reached into my back pocket and pulled out a large knife I stole from potions. I pulled out the letters I had written for the people that caused me the most pain. Seven of them for seven people.

My mother, my father, Black, Lupin, Dumbledore, James and Lily. I put them down on the ground next to my stuff. I walked to the middle of the room and placed the knife to my right wrist. Slowly sliding the knife across, smiling at the blood that followed, I did the same to my other wrist. I did this two more times to each arm and cut across my chest twice. I laid on the ground, stared at the night sky and waited for me to come and claim my soul. While I waited I thought about everything that led to this moment. Thought of all the good times I had. Playing with Lily, me and mom cooking dinner together when I was younger, meeting my father's army buddies, hell, Lucius asking for help with potions. Thought of all the times I had to fight. Arguing with my father so my mum could get away, when I argued with Crabbe so I could see Lily, fending off the murders hexes from the marauders. I smiled realizing that it would be over soon. My head was getting dizzy from blood loss.

It is almost over. I'm almost free. I thought to myself. I'll never have to be miserable again. I never need to fight or be afraid. I'm almost free.

Then I heard a scream but ignored it thinking it was in my head. But then I felt a familiar warmth covering my arms. A healing spell. A set of hands filled pressing firmly against my wound, trying to slow the bleeding. I heard a familiar voice.

"Hang on Sev! it's going to be alright! James give me my bag!" Lily Evans said. I looked at my former best friend and saw, to my shock, that she was crying.

"Here. Lily if you think you can heal him, please hurry!" James Potter shouts while taking off his outer robe to rip up into makeshift bandages. Shock and disbelief ran through my body. Why were they here? Why are they saving me? Wouldn't they be happier if I died? Lily reached into her bag and pulled out what I think is a jar. I was starting to see black spots. Lily rubbed something on my arms and James forced me to drink some kind of healing potion. Slowly by, surely my arms would heal and the black spots would disappear. After about ten minutes, I knew that I was going to live. As I stood up, despite their protest, and lifted my arms to see that they were wrapped up. I looked down at my chest to see it was wrapped up in makeshift bandages too. My body began to shake. Not out of fear or pain. But out of pure anger and outrage. No, I thought, why? Why did they save me? How dare they stop me? I was snapped out of my thoughts when a pair of hands cupped my face gently. Lily turned my face towards her. Tears ran down her face steadily.

"Severus, who did this to you?" she asked, sobbing. I did not know how to respond.

"What do you mean?" I asked. "I did this to myself Evans." Green eyes went wide in realization and horror.

"Why?" She whispers, voice cracking making me flinch slightly.

"Why what?" I hissed back annoyed. I pulled myself away from her only to bump into a firm chest.

"She means why would you try to kill yourself?" James said. I jumped startled because he was quiet for a while. I stared at them for a moment. But I was slowly getting angry.

"Why did you save me?" I snarled at their shock faces "Do you enjoy it when I'm miserable? When you have a victim to torture?" I ran furious and confused. Before I could continue, James wrapped his arm around my torso and hugged me. I struggled in his arms (ignoring how good it felt to be in them) but slowly stopped as a slender set of arms joined the first set. Lily. I couldn't stop myself from breaking down and crying. I cried tears of anger, frustration, misery, sadness, and hatred. I cared for what seems like forever. James let me cry into his shirt while Lily stroked my hair. When I finally stopped crying, I pulled away from James.

"Severus" I started at the fact that he used my first name "We would never want you to die"

"Funny way of showing" I scoffed "What are you two doing here anyway?"

"We've been meaning to talk to you but they will have to wait til later" Lily said as she began to walk to the door dragging me with her, James falling after us. She led us out of the tower and down to a portrait of a woman. The woman had long silky flowing midnight black hair, an aristocratic face and purple eyes. She was wearing a long dark purple flowing dress with a v-shaped necklace, gold belt at her waist and slither to reveal a black snake. I, unfortunately, recognize her.

"Hello Severus darling" Her bell-like voice had a taunting tone.

"Hello Circe" I said calmly. James looked at me incredulously. Before we could continue our conversation, Lily interrupted by saying the password.

"Moon Prince" She said and Circe pouted, but opened up. We crawl through the passageway to reveal my room. I haven't slept in the dorms since my second year. My room was the size of the commons room with a bed sat in the middle. A door was on the right to lead to a large bathroom. My trunk sat at the foot of the bed, my desk was in the corner, and a nightstand sat on the left of my bed. Lily sat me down on the bed.

"Sev, can we please talk?" She begged. I felt the bed dip as James sat down.

I refused to meet their eyes. "There is nothing to talk about."

"You're joking right?" James snorted. "We just caught you trying to off yourself in the goddamn Astronomy tower, there are words carved in your arms, not to mention the fact that you avoid uslt haven't gotten a good night seal and a decent meal in weeks. I think we got loads to talk about."

"And since," I snarled. "When do you of all people care about my safety and well being?"

"He always cared." Lily softly whispered. "Sev, we've been meaning to talk to you for a while. When we saw you at the astronomy tower, we thought it was the perfect chance only-"

"Instead we find you bleeding to death." James interrupted, hazel eyes hard and firm. "I know that I was a complete and utter arsehole to you and let's face it Lily was much better after last year," said redhead shot a look at him over my head. "However, listen closely. We wanted to talk to you about being ours. We love you Severus Snape."

My heart stopped. They love me? Looking at them both, all I saw was kindness, love and honesty I broke down. I told them everything. From the Death Eaters to my father to being in love with them both. They looked like they had different emotions on their faces. Lily looked angry, hurt, upset and shocked while James looked pissed, amazed, sad, and shocked as well. My head hurt. After everything that happened tonight I was must have known this.

"Go to sleep Severus. We'll talk in the morning." James said, laying me down in my bed.

"Don't leave me" I mummer tired. They smiled at me before laying down next to me. With Lily on my right and James on my left, I fell into a calm dreamless sleep.

Wow. I am getting better at writing. This is almost 2k. This is the first chapter! I'm so proud of myself! Anyway make sure to review my stories please. Love yall stay safe. Buh bye