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AN: This chapter is edging into high T to M territory, if that's not your cup of tea... then I'm not sure why you're reading this story, lol. Seriously though, there's a fair amount of plot in here but it's mostly smut, smut, smut.
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Chapter 12
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During the camping trip with the Warblers, they'd brought a large double wide cot and air mattress so they could share it and the sleeping bags inside the tent only those two boys would be occupying. It was a full week of it and Kurt had been unsure how he'd fair with a week long camping trip, his family had always packed it in after a weekend, usually all but Burt miserable with the situation.
Now Finn and Burt went on hunting trips that required camping and foraging and portaging and Kurt politely refused their invite on the weekends they went and both had talked about a week long trip, maybe longer if they could swing it. Carole didn't say anything but she looked pleased that she didn't have to go with her new husband and son. They invited Puck along too sometimes. Sam came home for a weekend just to join them too but he declined doing so again.
Kurt's current camping trip location was entirely comfortable and they all got on fabulously, all taking turns to cook and do the dishes and it was actually usually Kurt doing that stuff while other attended to the fires and set up of the camp site and break down. If they were cooking over the fire then someone else took over the cooking.
At night the makeshift bed was actually quite comfortable and he got to snuggle with Blaine the whole time. It was cooler at night than during the day and he loved being pressed up against his own personal furnace, who had wanted to shuck off all of his clothes and covers but hold Kurt close regardless of the heat. He usually got his wish though as Kurt had the covers tightly wrapped around him and Blaine only laid on the bottom sleeping bag in his boxers and undershirt.
They went a lot further than they ever had that camping trip on the third night there and repeated it nightly since.
The third night, they were eating marshmallows and s'mores, whether on their own or as a pie and Blaine got some of it on his cheek and Kurt licked it clean and the two of them shared a look and breath caught in Blaine's chest as he understood what Kurt was promising. To everyone else, it was just a really cute couplely thing to do. They had been feeding each other marshmallows and s'mores and helping each other make them when logistics made more sense than trying to do it on their own. Blaine even made Kurt most of his, browning those marshmallows perfectly while Kurt burnt the ones he made on purpose because that's the way Blaine liked his and then Kurt could 'give' Blaine his messed up ones because he didn't want them himself.
He wanted to pull Kurt into the tent with him then and there with that kiss/lick but he waited until the group started to disband. They'd heard Nick and Jeff going at it in their tent every night so far, the walls and distance only offered a little bit of privacy but it was enough to offer the illusion. They hadn't heard anything from either Wes or David's tents and Wes and David both had their girlfriends with them, but maybe they were just quieter.
Kurt and Blaine discussed what they wanted to do while they were in the privacy of their tent, their voices hushed so no one could hear them. Clothes were going to come off completely first and if at any point it got too much for either of them, they would stop. Hands and mouths would be able to explore all external ground.
They always had a clean bucket of water in the tent so they could get the dirt off their feet and skin from being outside so much and so the bed wouldn't get dirty, especially when they came back from a shower. They agreed that this time, they could clean each other. It was all part of their foreplay and another way to explore each other sooner.
They weren't quite to the point where they could do the same movements against each other without clothes as they'd been ok with clothes on but it was definitely another step towards being with each other completely and in every way.
Blaine was overly eager and excited, he pulled all his clothes off the second they agreed to the plan and Kurt was with him in speed, up until it came to that last barrier. He hesitated, he had never stood naked in front of anyone in his birthday suit.. not even a doctor, not since he was a little boy. As a little boy, he hadn't felt the need to go naked through the neighborhood or around the house, he'd preferred the layers, taking a shower was about the only time he was truly naked. Even when they'd taken pictures of all his bruises at the hospital, he'd had his trunks on and had only lifted or pulled down an edge so they could get a picture. There was only one on his butt cheek at that time from where he'd landed against a locker, so there hadn't been a need to be bare, his underwear had allowed them to get the rest of the bruises on his legs easily, also from other lockers or when he was beat up by the guys, he still hadn't been completely naked, he'd still been allowed to wear his short boxer briefs – his trunks.
Blaine had started reaching out for Kurt and then noticed the sudden hesitancy and he flipped the bed covers so it was open to the sheets below that they'd sleep in, he crawled on just his knees towards Kurt on the now protected bed and he reached out both hands for Kurt to take on his own and Kurt looked at them and took them and joined Blaine in the middle of the bed, both kneeling but in different extents of nakedness. Blaine had no trouble stripping down until his was bare-assed and out and proud for Kurt's eyes to look at and his eyes did keep slipping down to what he'd agreed to seeing and touching, had suggested it himself. Blaine's eyes sought his though, and embarrassed Kurt had avoided it for a little bit of time but Blaine had managed to capture them eventually and they were both sitting back on their heels.
"Is it too much?" Blaine asked gently, only holding Kurt's hands, willing to put his own boxers back on and maybe amending what they had agreed to. They hadn't even touched each other through clothes, this was a big step. They'd been down to just boxers before but they hadn't touched not even through jeans.
He debated about grabbing an item off the floor and covering himself up just to make Kurt more comfortable, he didn't care that he was the only one visible right now.
Kurt took in a deep steadying breath. "It isn't that- you don't have to cover yourself up, I like looking at it- you're amazing." His eyes slid down Blaine's body again, completely unbroken now from a single strip of fabric and his tan skin extended all the way from the top of his head to his toes to the tip of him.
Blaine blushed slightly in pleasure at the compliment, he had never gone this far with another boy, hadn't even gotten passed the top layer of clothing with them but with Kurt it was so easy for him, felt so right and he didn't even hesitate to strip if he could. He'd grown up with boys though, he had a brother and he played sports and it was totally normal for boys to be naked in a locker room together and not fear the others' reactions or retribution. Blaine was also not ashamed of his body in the slightest, he was fit and in good shape and came in a tight package. He wasn't small there, not at all and Kurt swallowed hard, imagining trying to fit him into his mouth. Blaine had been average sized in most things and this was just a little bit bigger than average, not that he'd seen for himself, just what the other boys had talked about in his vicinity, not knowing he could hear or was listening. But in this, he had listened, had listened hard, trying to learn what to expect without seeking it out himself.
Kurt never spent any time looking at himself, never touched himself while Blaine had. He was a little afraid of what he did not feeling as good and Blaine preferring his own hand to Kurt. Kurt didn't know what to expect or how he'd react to being touched either. That touch months ago didn't count, they'd been in the throes of passion and Blaine had wanted it to be equitable between the two of them. He hadn't touched Kurt since.
"Wh-What if you don't like what you see?" Kurt finally blurted out.
Blaine shook his head and took Kurt's face into his hands and held his gaze and Kurt's eyes didn't drift anywhere while their eyes locked and Blaine said this part incredibly slowly and carefully. "You could have the smallest thing I've ever seen, or oddest shaped or angled or colored, even worse than what I've seen on the internet, and if you go deep enough into searches, you find some really particular and peculiar things and it wouldn't matter. I love you, I haven't spent all this time with you just to get into your pants and once I do, I'm not going anywhere. We could never even look at each other's stuff or do anything with it and I'd still be the happiest person on the planet because I'm with you. You are everything to me Kurt, sex would be nice some day but it's not what will push me away or keep me with you. I'm with you because I love the person you are, because I love you. You could be horrible at everything, to everyone and I think I would still love you more than I know what to do with. Thankfully you're not so I don't have to hear about it from everyone else every day but even then they wouldn't be able to convince me otherwise."
Kurt had seen those relationships too where you wondered why they stayed with each other for so long because they just seemed so mismatched and one always seemed far better of a person than the other. He was glad he and Blaine didn't fit into that category in the slightest.
Kurt was reassured by the love and devotion Blaine's outpouring had convinced him of. He knew he and Blaine loved each other but every day he was figuring out exactly what that meant, on both sides. Every day he learned exactly what the feelings meant and he just fell deeper and deeper in love with him. "You're so kind and patient. I don't think anyone else would have put up with my hangups for so long."
"Kurt, we're both young and inexperienced, anyone with a decent soul would be both of those things. This is different though, I'm able to wait, to not expect more from you because I love you."
"Kindness and patience are just expressions of love, they're part of it." Kurt comforted because he didn't know why Blaine was testy over his word choice and Blaine came forward and kissed him, careful no other parts of their body touched except their hands and mouth. He didn't want to tell Kurt that he sounded like his brother, that was not a being he wanted to introduce into this scene.
"Those terms will never even touch the love I have for you or what I'm willing to do for you." Blaine said as he pulled back and Kurt looked at him a little shyly and slid his hands from Blaine's and he wasn't sure what Kurt was going to do next, he just mourned the loss of the feel of his hands in his.
Kurt slid off of the bed and tugged his briefs down over his hips and legs and kicked them off and Blaine's throat swelled up in a sudden flash of desire that had robbed him of voice and air. Kurt's hands trembled and started to slide in front of him, thinking that Blaine had only thought he could handle what he saw but in truth had failed at that and was disgusted.
Blaine was across the bed in a flash and he pulled Kurt's hands to his chest, familiar territory and he tried to breath through his closed throat. "You're gorgeous. I- I just wasn't prepared for how much I wanted to put my mouth on you, it had hit me like a train to my chest and I was just marveling in your beauty."
Kurt's fingers curled into Blaine's chest, they both had very little hair on their entire body and he bowed his head. "How are you so at ease with all of this? How can you always say the right things, be so free to strip and be completely exposed to each other?"
Blaine dipped his head to kiss Kurt on the back of his. His mouth started moving down the side of Kurt's head, kissing his ear then his neck. "I spent a lot of time on the internet before I met you and tried to date other boys. I wasn't coming into this relationship completely new to all of this. We have different backgrounds. Come, do something to me nobody else has and watch how I react. I don't know what to expect either or how I will react..." He was enticing Kurt and Kurt looked up at him through his lashes with slightly gray eyes this time. In truth there was so much that another boy had never done to him, another person.
"Oh? What's that?" Kurt pressed closer to Blaine and while they brushed, it wasn't strictly opposed to what they had agreed to, if Blaine grabbed Kurt's hips right now and rubbed harder against him, that would be, this was just bound to happen if they faced each other and kissed or held each other close.
"Well that, certainly." Blaine said in a tight voice, if he wasn't careful he'd come long before he was even touched by those delicate long fingered hands or that wicked mouth or that delectable warmth beyond those lips. He spasmed against Kurt and winced but didn't apologize because Kurt didn't pull away. "Kurt-"
"Maybe we can add that to the list of things that are ok, actually." Kurt said quickly and then Blaine's hands didn't even wait for Kurt to change his mind before they found his hips and repeated an action that both of them had partaken in before, much more than a handful of times.
They didn't get to their best laid plans as they were too eager to rub against each other and kiss as they did it, hands exploring every inch they could reach, new and familiar ground alike. They came hard and quick and together and they laid on top of their bed but not in it. There was a bit of a mess there now.
Blaine groaned and laid his head on Kurt's. "That was far too quick."
Kurt laughed and kissed Blaine's face, his lips finding whatever area they could. "That was perfect and so us. We have all night and the rest of the week to go slower."
"As long as you're ok with it." Blaine was thrilled no matter what, as long as Kurt was fine.
"Much more than ok." His mouth started descending along Blaine's body and he tried to grab Kurt back up but he let Kurt explore as he pleased. He noticed Kurt's sexy butt was uncovered and was up in the air as his mouth kept going lower. "Are you ok with this?" Kurt asked, pulling him from his daydream about that butt.
"Much more than ok." He repeated Kurt's own words and there was a smile on his lips and Blaine could feel it as it continued pressing it's way down his abdomen. He thought he was going to need a small break but he sprung back to life when Kurt's chin butted up against him and he winced as it jabbed him in the throat. Other than a small cough, Kurt seemed undisturbed by Blaine's reaction, in fact, probably incredibly pleased by it. He kissed the length of it, going up the spine on the underside until he reached the tip and he pressed a kiss to the tip of it too. "Are you-" Blaine didn't get to finish his question as Kurt did and he blushed and flushed in equal measures watching his tip disappear into his boyfriend's mouth and then keep disappearing deeper and deeper, taking more of him in. Kurt didn't even get a chance to do anything else, the sight alone, so many of his night dreams and day dreams coming true and being even better than he could imagine, he thrust the remaining distance into Kurt's mouth and came undone.
"Oh god, Kurt." He said when he came back to himself. "Are you-"
"I'm fine, stop asking that. I'll tell you if I'm not." Kurt's voice was a bit horse from the thrust and subsequent unloading but seemed otherwise fine. "Are you ok?" Kurt had never seen his boyfriend that lovely rosy color before.
"Just overwhelmed in my love for you and so incredibly turned on and pleased and I can't even begin to describe it. I wasn't expecting you to be that bold, it surprised me and was so very sexy at the same time." His fingers slid through Kurt's hair, he hadn't moved away from his lower half and Kurt didn't even then. Instead his mouth went back to Blaine and took him back into his mouth and licked and sucked him clean and then licked up whatever else might have leaked out. Blaine's fingers flexed in Kurt's hair on their own, he hoped it wasn't a painful grip, he had no control of himself right now. He was already ready for a third round or nearly so and Kurt had been the one doing all the work. Kurt kissed his way back up to Blaine's mouth, stopping briefly over his heart and making another heart-shaped hickey there and then back to his neck and was slow to move up from there but when he did, Blaine could taste himself in Kurt's mouth, his salty skin on Kurt's lips and he got another thrill from it.
It was real, it was true, Kurt had actually touched him down there, no, more than that, had taken him into his mouth. It still seemed like a dream to Blaine, it was so unreal to him but he loved every moment of it. Blaine didn't know if Kurt would be expecting the same thing in response, god, he really wanted to, but he was also enjoying Kurt's mouth on his so much that he didn't want to break away from that to kiss his way down Kurt's beautiful body. He was touched by the heart-shaped hickey that he made reappear, that was surprisingly important to him. Kurt's mark on him, the truth of what they both felt for the other.
Instead of breaking his mouth away, one hand remained gripped in Kurt's hair, keeping his head on level with Blaine's and his other hand slid down Kurt's body. He really wanted to grip Kurt's ass but there was something more important to do first. He slid his fingers along it slowly, creeping toward it, waiting for Kurt to pull away or stop him with some kind of motion or sound but he only pressed his hips forward and so Blaine became a little more confident with his path. His fingers brushed over Kurt who jerked with being touched but not in a bad way, on a turned on way and his fingers brushed lightly over the length of him, along his head, back down again, running against all parts of his purely male anatomy. Then his touch became firmer and then more of his hand was touching Kurt at once and he slowly added more and more of his hand until the entire thing surrounded Kurt and then with a bit more pressure and then he started moving his hand up and down, again and again and Kurt moaned against his mouth, his sounds become more frantic the more Blaine did, until Kurt's hips were thrusting uncontrollably and it was no longer Blaine moving his hand but Kurt moving within it in erratic thrusts. His head tipping back as he let out a long and deep moan of pleasure.
Even after he unloaded himself, Kurt's hips still spasmed and slowly came to a stop with smaller and smaller thrusts until he was calm again. Even then he didn't open his eyes or move, just worked on his breathing. His eyes opened and looked at Blaine with such love and passion that Blaine wondered how often he could stop breathing before it killed him or caused other organ failure because Kurt stole his breath away constantly.
Their heads came together and they kissed again, hungrily, never able to be fully sated with the other, always wanting more and would always get more on and on in an endless cycle and they'd both gladly go on that ride.
Air was needed eventually, they could also only dehydrate the other so much before their other type of thirst needed to be quenched. They didn't leave each other's side though, they sat touching, they moved as one, they curled up into each other and drank water and eventually they realized they had to clean up their mess before it settled in and became impossible to fully get out. They cleaned each other up first and then the mess on the bed.
Then they looked at each other and grinned, on the same wavelength in this and they donned their robes and grabbed their towels and shower caddies and shower shoes and headed to the bathroom to get themselves fully cleaned up. They shared the shower and hands and mouths found each other again as they attempted to get the other one cleaner but ended up just making things worse and they worked on it a second time. By the third attempt in the shower that night, the water was getting colder and they were actually finally clean. Clean from dirt, themselves and each other, but they would never be totally clean of the other, nor did they want to be.
They slipped back into their tent and shucked off the robes and slid into bed, neither wearing a stitch of clothing, they hadn't even pulled on boxers to go or brought them with to wear on the way back. For what they knew they were going to do, it wasn't needed.
That night, Blaine got all of his wishes he'd ever wished for – the man of his dreams doing what he only dreamt he would do and now was sleeping in his arms, flesh to flesh, Blaine completely naked and uncovered while Kurt was wrapped in the blanket but where he touched Blaine, was also completely bare. Blaine might not be able to see Kurt's body anymore but his hand was under the covers wrapped around the other man and could feel him that way and against him and he could remember. In his mind's eye he could still see Kurt in his full glory and he slept with a smile, this man was with him and only him and all his and he was all Kurt's.
He woke up with a painful erection but Kurt's hand was on him before his body could deal with it on it's own or have to take care of it with his own hand and that shocked and surprised him in a very good way as he'd almost forgotten what they'd done all night long last night. Kurt took care of the problem in short order, those smooth, long fingers just had to curl around him and Blaine was ready to explode. "Fair is fair." He commented, sneaking under the blankets and sliding down Kurt's body to seek his own out and his mouth closed over him and he barely started when Kurt was finishing. He came up pouting. "We need to work on our stamina."
"I think-" Kurt gasped as they brushed against each other not fully done but he was still working on getting his breathing back. "Our stamina is not the problem, we're just too darn attracted to each other that we keep bouncing back quickly but unable to hold out for long."
"Ok, so maybe they're both stamina related, just different kinds?" Blaine's mouth was doing wicked things to Kurt's senses as he kissed the spot below Kurt's ear on his neck.
"The ND boys said that they imagined terrible things so they don't come, can cool off when they get too heated when making out with their girlfriends."
"I don't want to do that, I don't want to cool off." Blaine complained as his wet mouth and tongue moved along Kurt's neck, his tongue was drawing circles as his mouth sucked enough to cause Kurt to pant and gasp but not enough to make bruises. "Especially now that you and I have finally had sex."
The word was what both of them knew it to be and he expected Kurt to blush at such a blatant word choice but he didn't, only pressed harder into Blaine and he was a little disappointed not to get a blush out of him. "Me either, stop or cool off, I mean. This is too good."
"Say the word." Blaine coaxed and Kurt did blush slightly then. "Say it."
"Sex. I've had sex with my most amazing beautiful, gorgeous boyfriend." Kurt practically shouted it but was well aware of their surroundings and who could overhear them and would tease Kurt mercilessly until he blushed beat red about it, with that sole goal all of them would join in.
There didn't have to be penetration involved with either of them to be sex, they had been having it for awhile but now it was something they couldn't deny any longer, they had helped each other get there, had their mouths and hands on each other and drank the other's release. For them it was sex, they'd gone all the way.
There may have been another step they could take, another boundary they could enter, but neither even found it necessary, this was well more than enough and it was beautiful. A lot of straight couples didn't even take that step or even some of what they'd done over the night.
"How do you feel about it?" Blaine pressed him to answer as he pressed kisses along Kurt's jaw.
Kurt growled and flipped them over so Blaine was under him and the bed moved with them, he'd forgotten it was an air mattress for a minute and he giggled at the rocking motion and then his desires swarmed him again and he was the one kissing Blaine's neck, pressing kisses along his jaw and along the side of his face. "I feel amazing, I think we should have done this a long time ago. I think it was perfect, you're perfect. I think it will always be perfect between us." Kurt pressed his mouth against Blaine's and Blaine wrapped his hands around Kurt's back, holding him against him. "And for you, oh experienced one?" Kurt asked teasing him with his words and little nips against his lips and tongue.
"As far as I know, nothing could be more perfect. Should I go experience others and come back and report to you?"
"Not on your life. Why should I be the only one with only you to compare things to?"
"I don't need comparison." Blaine vowed. "I know nothing will ever measure up to you and to seek out another experience would be foolish because I will have ruined what we have and will never ever get anything anywhere close enough to try and convince myself otherwise. I'm only glad for the experiences I had so I could make things easier for you, so I didn't push too fast and too hard but I wish on the same breath that I had never even dated another guy even in name only and waited for you because they were just a waste of time and put us on unequal footing. I want us to be equals in everything."
Kurt kissed his cheeks and rubbed his nose with Blaine's. "We are equals, we will always be equals and I don't hold those relationships against you. It was before we met, it's water under the bridge and I regret teasing you about it, you just always talk about how you weren't as shy about this stuff as I was, am. I don't think I'll ever be fully free to just spout off about sex." A tiny bit of pink tinged his ears but otherwise he didn't blush with saying the words. "That one isn't so hard, sex." He said it again to prove he could. "It's the clinical term."
Blaine didn't stop him from thinking that even though he still saw the slight rose color rise in his boyfriend's face at the word. "Boyfriend."
"Hmm?" Kurt answered bemused, not sure why he was calling him by his title now nor why he was trying to get his attention when he already had it.
"Boyfriend is such an incomplete word for how I feel about you, what we have." Blaine ran his fingers along Kurt's hairline.
"What do you want to do about it?" Kurt asked turning his head to press a kiss onto his palm.
"I'm your man. You're my love." My soulmate, my other half, the other half of my soul and now lover. So many more expressions scratched the surface to how Blaine was feeling about Kurt.
"So I am." Kurt agreed. "But I'm also your man, you're my love." Kurt trailed his fingers down Blaine's face. "There does have to be a word that describes what we have a lot better, doesn't there? How about Mine? Or my heart? The best of me?"
"That last one isn't true, you're the best of you and the best of me."
Kurt shook his head. "You never give yourself enough credit." While Kurt lacked on the sex and physical intimacy side of things, Blaine lacked in self-confidence in this relationship, seeing himself as viable option, worthy of Kurt and anyone he chose to love. He wasn't lacking in the emotion side of things, just his own self-worth. "I'm going to tell you something my dad said to me when he gave me and Finn the sex talk – you have worth, you are worthy of love and all the best things life has to offer. Don't ever forget that you matter."
Blaine stared up into Kurt's amazing blue-green-gray eyes and felt his words to be the truth from him, and while usually it was Blaine bolstering Kurt's confidence in the bedroom area of things, it was Kurt's turn and he hadn't realized how much he'd needed it. He had his own hang ups with love and sex too, he realized. "Thank you." He said genuinely touched and moved by how much this man loved him and saw the worth and value in him too and wanted him to know it. He felt it now, he knew it now and he'd never forget it.
"I think we should get up and clean things up. Thankfully they have a laundry on site." Kurt knew the mess needed to be dealt with in short order and hopefully no one else was awake yet this early. Blaine had a tendency to get up well before many people even went to bed.
The water they had in the tent was good enough to cleaning each other up, the sticky saltiness of their skin and the other sticky salty substances too. They dressed each other and found their hands slipping to touch and they had to remind themselves they had a plan in action and needed to deal with it.
They gathered the sheets and sleeping bags up into a neat pile so it wouldn't get over anything else up and Blaine opened the tent door and they both stood there as a round of cheers went up their campsite from the three other couples that were all standing around, waiting for them to come out. Nobody had breathed a word or made a sound to let them know they were there. Although to be fair, they were pretty wrapped up in each other.
Nick was cat-calling and whooping and it was Blaine who turned bright red. Kurt had just taken a startled step back into the safety of the tent so he was hidden but if they could have seen him, he was the reddest he'd ever been. "About damn time." Jeff tossed at them and they both turned redder.
"Shut up." Blaine wanted to hide too and thought about it and just zipped the tent back up again and knocked the blankets from Kurt's arms and pulled him to him to kiss him again. Kurt went willingly and the cheers from outside didn't stop but they stopped caring about it.
They eventually reemerged and only Wes was there tending to the fire. "It's so hot out, why have the fire burn all day?" Blaine grumbled but Kurt was over it warming his hands up. "How are you so cold?" He asked surprised, after everything- surely – but Kurt just shrugged. He wasn't wearing nearly as many layers as normal and he was wearing short sleeves and tight light weight jeans and tan combat boots.
"Must have been all that activity warmed me up so much that now that I've cooled down, I'm cold again." His eyes flashed over Blaine with a warm mix of gray and blue. "My heater left my side."
"Hmm..." Blaine tugged him close and slid Kurt's hand under his shirt so they rested against his skin. "Better?"
Kurt's fingers curled into the skin. "Much better."
"Get a room you two – oh wait – no, we wanted you guys to come out, didn't we?" Wes shook his head at the two. "The others were wondering what we'd do today. They headed to the shooting range knowing that wasn't any of our thing until you guys came out of your little love nest and joined the rest of us." Neither even blushed at the comment this time.
'Camping' was a vague term to apply to what they did. Yes they all slept in tents but they had electricity and other activities to keep them busy during the day other than fishing or hunting or forging. Blaine had spent the first day in the pool while Kurt had kept himself fully covered up and in the shade and kept lathering on sun lotion every 15 minutes.
There was also regular golfing and mini-golfing and a driving range at the golf course. A mini-car driving range. Bicycles they could borrow, golf carts they could drive around. Playground and an inflatable pillow that the kids and some of the adults in the campground jumped on. There was an indoor pool too and an arcade and a bar and restaurant if they wanted to just eat there and snack options abounded through the campground. It was very classy and upscale compared to what Kurt had been expecting. Not quite as classy or upscale as he'd come to expect with these boys, but maybe they liked to 'rough' it sometimes too. Kurt was actually glad though that they hadn't roughed it more, he was not the outdoorsy type and this was perfect. He supposed they could have also gone the way of 'glamping' and this wasn't that and it wasn't 'cabining' either.
"We're going to wash a few things." Blaine explained as Kurt went back to the tent to pull out the 'few things'.
"You know condoms would help with that." Wes suggested helpfully and Blaine turned pink, Kurt just pretended he didn't hear or understand as he wandered away to go take care of laundry. "Although you're both walking pretty well, so I'm not sure if condoms would make as big of a difference... What did you two do all night and this morning?" Wes and the others thought for sure they'd had sex.
"NYB." Blaine pulled out one of his favorite expressions from Santana and the rest of the ND. "None of Your Business." Then he turned and hurried after Kurt. They did have sex, it was just different for two guys than it was for Wes and his girlfriend. He wouldn't have said that if he'd seen how difficult it was for them to walk last night to the showers once they'd decided to try and get as clean as they could.
The rest of the day they were fielding comments like that though. "So, who's on top?" Nick asked, really unsure who it would be.
"Do you guys take turns?" David asked and then blushed himself for even asking and much less wanting to actually know other than out of curiosity.
"They must." Jeff agreed.
"Or they somehow make it happen where they can get each other off at the same time without one being the 'bottom' or the 'top'." Nick wiggled his eyebrows. "It's easier when there's four of us, we can make a chain."
Kurt let out a little sound of shock and buried his face in his hands at the thought Nick had just planted in it. Blaine rubbed his back comfortingly. "Shut up." He repeated his words from earlier. Kurt and him hadn't confirmed whether or not they'd had sex with them but this was the first time they'd been caught making those kinds of noises which would lead people to believe they did. They did, as much as they were going to at any rate right now, maybe ever and nobody else needed to be part of it if they were both extremely happy and pleased with where they were.
"Or you could do the linked oral sex." Jeff added and the sound of distress got worse from Kurt.
Blaine was pretty red too. "Shut up."
Nobody had heard Blaine quite that angry before.
"Is that really all you two have done? God it sounded like you two were orgasming like crazy in there." Nick spoke before he remembered he shouldn't and Blaine tossed himself across the space at him and the two wrestled, Blaine didn't use fists, knowing if he did, they would probably do more than bruise.
"I said shut your fucking mouth. What Kurt and I do is none of your business nor should you continue to harass us about it."
"What? You know you want a foursome!" Nick laughed and giggled as they wrestled. "This is just proving it to me! You can't keep your hands off of me or Kurt. That's ok, as long as I get to touch him too!" Nick let out a loud oomp though as Blaine did elbow him in the solar plexus at that comment.
"Nobody touches Kurt!" Blaine hissed down at the boy who was no longer quite as cheerful underneath him, he even stopped wrestling with Blaine and just looked up at him.
"Ok, ok, I'm sorry, geezus!" Nick held up his hands in self defense. "I will stop and I won't do it again. I won't suggest taking Kurt in a threesome again- stop, stop, I'm sorry! I'm done, that was the last one." Blaine was growling down at Nick as if he was a territorial dog, waiting for Nick to make the wrong move so he could attack. Nick laid there completely exposed to attack, breathing heavy and looking at Blaine with new eyes. "I am sorry."
"Blaine, buddy, you know Nick, you know he was just joking." Jeff was pulling on Blaine's arm, trying to move him back, he was less than pleased at his boyfriend getting even remotely hurt but he had to admit that Blaine had given fair warning and had been on edge since meeting Kurt and it had only gotten worse as time went on.
It had eased up for awhile and he was the calm, relaxed and charming Blaine he had used to be there sometime between Karofsky getting jail time and Nationals but then once Kurt made the decision to go back to McKinley, some of that edginess came back. This summer he'd returned to that Blaine during that interlude again. It wasn't that the Blaine before Kurt was better though, not even remotely, he'd been sad and lonely and he thought he'd hide it well, it was seen in his eyes. The only time he was happy in the slightest had been when he'd been singing and he covered up the unhappiness with oozing charm and kindness.
He hadn't been happy otherwise, not like he'd been since meeting Kurt, there was now joy in every step and breath. Yet there was also just a thread of fear that had been exposed and brought to the surface with Kurt's arrival in his life. It had always been there but worse now that he had someone to lose and it was only quiet when Kurt was around but varying degrees in intensity when he was out of sight/town.
Blaine pushed himself off the ground and off of Nick and looked back at the group, an apology forming on his own lips when he realized that Kurt was gone. He swore and went first to the tent but the taller boy wasn't there. "Did anyone see which direction he went?"
Nobody had, they'd all been preoccupied with Blaine's actions and they all cursed Nick and his mouth as they split up looking for Kurt, they'd text the others if they found him and call Blaine. Blaine was the first to find Kurt after all and he sent off a quick group text, his message already composed while he looked for Kurt and all he had to do was push the button.
Kurt was breathing hard, as if he'd ran and hadn't stopped running until Blaine had seen him. "Kurt?" Blaine asked tentatively, hands raised and open and empty as he stepped closer and Kurt jerked and moved a foot back into the treeline.
He searched Blaine's face and tried to relax. "Blaine – you, you looked like you were ready to tear his head off."
"I'm sorry I scared you." Blaine crept forward another step and Kurt didn't run, or stumble back, that was good.
"I didn't know you could get that angry."
"When it's someone harassing you, yeah, I can." Blaine wasn't going to apologize for that. Kurt knew he was protective of him and he had the capabilities to do so. He would do it again in a heart beat if it was something threatening Kurt. Granted, Nick had only been joking but had gone too far. Kurt had only been embarrassed and not actually hurt but just the thought of Nick putting his hands on Kurt whether Kurt wanted it or not – which by his behavior – he had not, had just flipped a switch in Blaine. He'd try very hard not to do that again.
"He- he's a friend." Kurt was trembling. "He would never have hurt me."
"Maybe not, but even friends can hurt us." Blaine said carefully, it was a gamble to say it because it meant that Kurt might take it that Blaine could hurt one of them or Kurt himself, but he'd kill himself before he hurt Kurt. He had only lightly tapped Nick, enough to make him stop, but there wouldn't even be a mark on him from that elbow. It was just a wake up tap. "Did I really frighten you that badly?"
Kurt held his gaze and shook his head, coming to that realization himself. "No, not you. I know you were controlled in your movements, I've seen you hurt someone on purpose and even then you refrained from hurting him more. Someone who deserved to be hurt. I knew you weren't going to hurt Nick." He hadn't even been that outwardly angry during that brief interaction with Karfosky at the coffee shop or at the school. He'd been more concerned with keeping Kurt calm and feeling protected and safe rather than appear frightening to the other person. But there had been steel in his voice then too, making sure Karofsky had known exactly what he was capable of even before he touched him the first time and the second time Karofsky was well aware that it was only the tip of the iceberg of what Blaine was capable of and so hadn't pushed when he was so close. He'd only felt brave enough to attack Kurt when Blaine had been too far away to do anything. He hadn't expected Finn to come to Kurt's defense instead either time.
Kurt wiped away at the tears streaming down his face. "I'm sorry I reacted the way I did. I probably scared you. I scared myself actually. I ended up here and I wasn't sure how I got here." He waved his hand at the tree line.
"Why did you?" Blaine wasn't criticizing, he was just genuinely interested in his answer.
"I... I don't know, something about the situation had me flashing back to that... that night with the car and..." Blaine had heard enough and was already close enough to Kurt that he could pull him in and held him close. Kurt cried and cried hard. He hadn't cried the entire time since he woke up in the hospital, well not more than frustrated tears or tears from the pain, but he'd hidden most of those from people if he could. This was the first time he sobbed, sobbed out his fears and pain and unfairness of it all. He felt terrible about getting Finn involved who'd also suffered at Karofsky's hands and the others' and he hadn't needed to get hurt. He sobbed because he was glad that Finn came to his defense, he had never expected it before they became 'brothers', never thought anyone ever would and in truth he had all these amazing friends who would put themselves in harms way for him. He didn't want anyone to ever get hurt again because of him.
He wanted to be there for others and he sobbed because of the whole Karofsky situation in general, how he'd managed to keep Kurt from his friends, had pushed him out in the first place and while Kurt had clawed his way back and faced his fears, they kept coming and attacking him. He thought he was over it, he did, he hadn't been confronted with violence since, even Puck and Finn had only skirmished a little bit but nothing where one was on the ground, they'd both respected Kurt's trauma and Finn's too and so they hadn't done it.
He sobbed because he was leaving Blaine and the rest of those boys and he wouldn't be able to see them as much. He sobbed because he didn't want to leave them but he also wanted to go back to his old school. He just dissolved into Blaine's arms and he went with him to the ground and just rocked him and let him get it all out. There was a lot to unpack and Blaine had known it was all just hiding under the surface but Kurt had been so calm and cheerful and sassy like he'd always been and so Blaine didn't push, didn't want to set this off, not unless Kurt needed it, not unless there was some indicator that Kurt really wasn't ok. He had been, he really had been but he'd only managed to push this just too far down where he'd convinced himself of that too.
"Think maybe you might need to talk to a psychologist?" Blaine asked but Kurt shook his head adamantly no. "Ok, that's fine. I'm here, I've got you, you're safe and sound and healthy. There's no one threatening you anymore. There's nothing to be scared of anymore. I'm not going anywhere, I'm going to be with you every weekend and we'll talk during the week and maybe sometimes I'll pop over for a random mid-week sleep over."
Kurt laughed a little at that, knowing how well those worked in the past. "Ok." Kurt was feeling a little better. "And you can stay all week while dad is in D.C." He had another full week there this summer and Blaine had taken time off of work and Finn had to cover his shifts, so he could do precisely that. During the school year he'd definitely do it, he'd make that drive every morning and every day after practice, wouldn't whisper a single thing against it because he wouldn't even think it, because he would be right where he wanted to be, where he belonged. He'd only regret the days where he couldn't.
"You won't miss the boys, they're a pain in the butt and you'll probably see far more of them than you want anyway." Blaine stroked back Kurt's hair. "I am sorry for spooking you. That is never my intention."
"I know. I just – it's hard to watch someone get jumped, is all." Kurt shook his head ruefully and ran a hand through his hair, disrupting it more than Blaine had ever seen it and part of it was his fault.
"I've pounced on you before- was that-" Blaine couldn't even finish his sentence and Kurt shook his head negatively.
"No, I always knew your intention, your eyes gave it away before you even moved toward me and I wanted it. It's always been different with you, when you do things. I'm sorry I reacted this way today. I didn't even get a chance to think or understand or talk myself down, I just ran."
Blaine wasn't entirely against that reaction to a fight, especially if it meant that Kurt would get away to safety. He just didn't like that Kurt's mind turned off and he just ran blindly. They'd work on it, he wouldn't put Kurt in any type of situation where he would need to run but work on that reaction of blind running. Kurt should always have a plan, an idea of where he was going, especially in areas he didn't really know, so he didn't slide down a cliff side or get lost in deep woods or get hit by a car. Blaine settled his mouth over Kurt's for a firm and reassuring kiss for both of them.
They hadn't talked any more about self-defense classes. Maybe they should revisit that idea.
Kurt looped his arms around Blaine's neck and shoulders and kissed him back. They both got to their feet and with his arm still around Blaine's shoulders, they headed back with Blaine's arm wrapped around his waist.
There was an awkward round of apologizes from everyone and then Nick said something outrageous but not about Kurt and they all cracked up and started laughing and things were all good between them again. The girls weren't quite so ready to forget but since the friends were over it, they looked at each other and shrugged and didn't bring it up again, not with each other, the others there in the open or their boyfriends ever again. If it was something the boys wanted to talk about in the future, then they'd discuss it. It was swept over said fictional cliff and it no longer mattered to any of them. Except Kurt running off blindly, that was something that Blaine would hang on to for quite some time until he could be sure that Kurt would be safe if the situation ever arose and not do that again in quite the same way.
That night, Blaine was sleeping in his boxers again and Kurt in his pajamas but Kurt was splayed out over Blaine without a care in the world with his head on Blaine's chest and arm and leg wrapped tightly around Blaine. Blaine drew circles along Kurt's back, they were both exhausted from the last 24 hours but Blaine couldn't sleep. Then when his eyes closed on their own, he was brought back to his imaging of the situation at that gas station, Kurt getting hurt and the moment their backs were turned to deal with Finn, him running and running and getting hit by a car but didn't stop running, and then he got lost and was hurt and was really hurt and nobody was able to find him until it was far too late. He woke up in a cold sweat with his eyes wide open but Kurt wasn't disturbed so must not have shouted out in his sleep or moved. He drew their covers over both of them for a change and pulled Kurt even closer, his hand on his back and could feel his heartbeat against his hand. This man was so slight that he could even feel his heartbeat though his back. It reassured him though, that and his calm even breaths that Kurt was alive and well and healthy and he repeated that words he'd said to Kurt to calm him down were on a loop in his brain; as a mantra, and let his eyes close again. Between the reassuring thoughts and Kurt's breathing and heartbeat, Blaine fell back asleep again, this time with more pleasant dreams.
Maybe they weren't dreams as he felt those lips and hands on his body as he roused enough to know that it was his corporal form and not just his imagination and memory that was feeling them. The hands were only on his chest and the lips on his face, not his mouth but trying to tease him awake. He smiled at the efforts because they worked.
Hands sought each other a bit more insistently, a bit more firmly, in a little less innocent areas.
And afterward, Kurt made a comment about how he should have brought a lot more sheets. Blaine laughed and taught him they could reuse the same ones as long as they didn't get out of bed between.
The rest of the week was smooth, peaceful, exciting and happy, all the drama of the day before firmly put out of their minds and they just enjoyed their time together as four couples and all the amenities the place had to offer. Kurt did go swimming but he only went into the pool indoors which was fine by Blaine because there was a half wall between the two so he could swim under it and be in with Kurt or out in the sun.
They even went fishing in the little lake the resort owned and Jeff and Nick 'accidentally' knocked them both in before jumping in themselves. Kurt was furious and tried to get out right away but Blaine stopped him by pulling him back into his arms and kissing him. Kurt's legs went around Blaine's waist and he held him up in the lake and they made out much to the disgust of the couple that were trying to get them to join them in a water fight.
They succeeded, just not when they were expecting it. Blaine and Kurt had two big buckets filled with water and poured them over Nick and Jeff while they were sitting around the fire some time later and completely soaked the two who then had to go change and find some towels to sit on so they didn't just get themselves wet again. Except that didn't happen because when they went in to change, they decided to just stay in and appreciate each other.
"Keep it down in there!" David shook their tent which only caused the boys to get louder and the whole group laughed, even if Kurt was a little pinker than he was five minutes ago. He'd gotten a little burnt today again, despite his best efforts.
The pink went away in the morning but his freckles were out in full force again and he had nothing he could do to hide them but Blaine had been so turned on by them again and sought out where else on his body the freckles decided to come out.
They played mini-golf with the other couples and talked and laughed and just thoroughly enjoyed their time together. Nick bought Kurt one of those old hats that had a band that went around your head and then went straight up and then an umbrella came out from it in bright beach ball colors. Blaine thought for sure Kurt would have harangued Nick for such an atrocious gift but to his surprise, Kurt's dislike of the sun won out over wearing something so cheesy and thanked Nick for such a thoughtful gift. Yet he somehow made it work and not seem so cheesy. Blaine wished that he'd thought of it.
That night, Blaine sat on their bed with Kurt on his lap with his legs around his waist and they made out and ground against each other in a different position than normal. Blaine would have swapped positions with him but he was a lot heavier than Kurt and Kurt didn't mind being on top. They tipped back when neither could handle their actions anymore and Blaine fell onto his back, taking Kurt with him and they stayed like that for awhile before Kurt extracted his legs and laid on Blaine's chest and in his arms, his lips kissing Blaine's chest.
This time Blaine wrapped his legs around Kurt and pulled him tight, letting him know that if Kurt was ready for another round, Blaine was too. Kurt didn't need his guidance, neither did and started a rhythm against him that had him panting and begging and praying and moaning all at the same time. The whole time he held Kurt's gaze as they both reached that point and then went over the edge. Next time he'd hold out long enough to fully enjoy watching Kurt come and the faces he made, but when he came at the same time was unable to see anything but stars.
That next day, Nick suggested mixing up the couples and Blaine sent him a death glare but he rolled his eyes as Blaine, he'd learned his lesson and was already latched onto David's arm and sent him a smug look back. Blaine didn't know what his ploy was but he was left with David's girlfriend as Kurt was claimed by Wes and Wes' girlfriend was standing with Jeff, he seemed a little awkward about being so close to a girl but she was smiling at him, totally at ease. They were all friends now after spending so much time together camping and Blaine had met Wes' girlfriend a few times.
"Now what?" Blaine asked now that they were all paired up differently.
"Now we go tandem biking!" Everyone groaned at Nick's idea. "What? I already paid for them."
They did it for the hour that Nick paid for, it would have been better had they stayed in their typical arrangements but it was nice too, they got to know each other better without their other half of the couple nearby. While Nick had practically mauled Kurt in the classroom over the year and Jeff was sometimes right behind him, he never did it in Blaine's presence. He couldn't do that while Blaine was present camping either.
That's where Kurt's friends different, Rachel, Tina, Santana, and Brittany wouldn't have hesitated to sit on Kurt's lap while Blaine was there or sit on Blaine's actually either. Puck would have snagged Kurt and pulled him over to hang with him, Finn and Sam even if Kurt's arm was practically detached from the socket because his hand was still in Blaine's but the rest of his body was across the room. Puck had pushed Blaine out of his seat once to occupy it himself at a party and Blaine almost murdered him then if it hadn't been Kurt's friend or if the other seat on Kurt's other side hadn't been unoccupied. Blaine was pretty sure Quinn had been sitting there at one point.
He'd shared a look with Quinn who only smiled in response, not answering him one way or the other. She had gone to the other side of the room to talk to Mercedes.
Finn wasn't quite as rude and even after their conversation months ago and Finn's apology about treating him so poorly, he would still drop his arm around Kurt's shoulders when he saw Blaine approaching and settle into his spot, not intending to move to allow Blaine access to his own boyfriend. He would pretend that he didn't even notice that he did it. At least he didn't shove Blaine aside to have close proximity with Kurt. Kurt only noticed it sometimes, not every time and he'd chided Puck for pushing Blaine away. Puck had only shrugged it off in return, he didn't care and Kurt's scolding lost steam as Blaine's fingers found his and he didn't remember what he was saying. Puck had scowled at Blaine because of that, he'd liked Kurt scolding him, liked to spar verbally with him even if Puck didn't say much in return.
Blaine shook his head, Puck was so weird. A great guy to have in your corner when he was, but weird. He didn't get where he was coming from half the time and had no idea how Kurt and him had ever become friends or crossed that divide. Blaine knew that he wouldn't be able to even if he tried but Kurt just had that way about him, he made friends with people you thought would be lifelong enemies. Puck's obsession over Lauren was probably the sanest thing about him, the fact that she called herself by the name that people created to make fun of her only added to how good she was for Puck.
Blaine liked that relationship and wished it would have lasted, it had Puck in a tailspin and couldn't just convince her to give it up. Lauren had been able to hold her own, protected Puck too and had helped him out when Glee needed a replacement member when Kurt had to leave. Maybe he'd get tired of Quinn again and go back to her.
They consciously made an effort to mix up their groups then, spread further apart from each other but it only lasted for about another hour before they were all right up against their love again. It was too hard, this trip was about friendship and for them all to be away from prying eyes of adults and so it was for all a mini-honeymoon/vacation type of thing without any of them being married, obviously, and they were doing things together as a big group, they just had trouble keeping their hands off of the other half of their couple. They were all teenagers and in love and lust with their partner. If anyone expected anything differently, they were disillusion.
"Hey." Blaine whispered in Kurt's ear as they walked back up to the campsite and Kurt turned toward him with a dopey smile and wondered what he was up to. Blaine jumped up onto the hood of his rental SUV and beckoned Kurt closer.
"Your poor car- you could scratch it." Kurt ran his hand over the hood, it was also red and flashy but big enough to carry all their stuff.
"I didn't know you were that into cars." Blaine teased, drawing him closer to his warmth.
"I believe in treating all of your objects with care and affection, not as if they're worthless objects that can easily be replaced."
"That's a very good way to be and anything you give me, I will hold onto with both hands and a death grip." Anything his parents gave him on the other hand was worthless and not remotely sentimental, but neither went into that right then. "That includes you." He tugged Kurt even closer so his legs were wrapped around the taller boy and for a change he had to bend down to kiss Kurt. Kurt leaned into him and titled his head up and back for a better angle in that kiss. "Am I forgiven for sitting on the car that's not even mine?"
"Even more reason to treat it with respect." Kurt said offhandedly and Blaine shook his head no.
"I treat what's mine with the utmost respect, always, no matter what it does or doesn't do, it just always has it. Everything else has to earn it and can lose it and has to work twice as hard to earn it back." Blaine told him fiercely and Kurt looked at him oddly. "You know I'm talking about you, right? You will always have my respect, and I'll always treat you with respect, no matter what."
"Because I'm yours?"
"Because your mine and I'm yours." Blaine didn't expect to hear that dedication back or even know if Kurt felt the same way about treating his stuff with respect but Blaine didn't care, he had said his piece and now Kurt knew it too. "I love you."
"I love you too and ditto." He was talking about the conversation and didn't repeat every word but Blaine understood and kissed him again.
It was their last night and Blaine and Kurt made the most of it, they didn't know when they'd be able to do any of this again, definitely not all night long. They may be able to sneak off and get in a quickie or a shower together or an hour or so together but unlikely to be able to reclaim this for a long while. They slipped off to the showers again and felt freer to make all the noises they'd been holding back for the sake of the others not hearing them as much.
It was different in the shower too, they were far slipper and their grips kept slipping, their mouths slid to an unintended part but it was fun and sexy and so, so hot.
"Do you – um..." Kurt didn't know how to say it. "Go the rest of the way?"
Blaine braced back against the shower as the water ran down both of their bodies. "Do you?" This was not in the heat of the moment, they were both cooler now than they had been but both were easy to arouse.
"I- um, we could try it."
Blaine hardly believed his ears. This was not a conversation he ever expected to be having and so soon after they already notched up their relationship to the status they had. "Is this coming from you or from Nick's insensitive comments?"
"From me. I was just thinking how easy it would be to slid it in with how slippery we were. I thought maybe... well I heard it hurt for guys too and this might make it hurt less. When's the next time we're going to be in a shower this big?"
Blaine held his gaze, he was already hard, this conversation had made him hurt so much, wanting a release again. He could see that Kurt was ready to go again. "Which would you prefer?" He already knew and he was so ready for it.
"Being the one to- stick it in." Kurt didn't disappoint him. "Is that something you'd be ok with?"
"God YES, Kurt!" Blaine held himself still with his back against the wall, he just wanted to turn around and bend over and let Kurt experiment with trying it.
"Then... maybe... you could do it as well afterward?" Kurt was so hesitant but he was asking for what he wanted and Blaine had no problems with satisfying either of those desires, he was ready and willing to go.
This was such a dirty act and Kurt wasn't one who was open to being dirty but he wanted to do this. This was also a wonderful and intimate and pure act of love, putting oneself in such a vulnerable position and trusting the other not to hurt them and being the one who could hurt the other and knowing they wouldn't.
"I- I am going to go use the restroom and will be right back, ok?" He wanted to make this as clean for Kurt as possible and easy for both of them. Kurt nodded and Blaine kissed him hard and deep and tried to run to the bathroom but it was a little awkward when he was so hard.
He tried to empty himself out as much as possible and then cleaned it as best that he could and washed his hands well and then returned to Kurt. It may have been pointless to be so careful since they were going to try this in the shower but he didn't want anything to make Kurt hesitate. He came back in and gathered Kurt close and kissed him hard and passionately again but he didn't bruise his porcelain skinned boyfriend, he'd never do that outside of a very deliberate hickey.
His hand came to his chest and rested over the one that was still there and would have faded somewhat had Kurt not made sure that it was refreshed nightly. It was Kurt's heart over his, that's how he viewed it and that was Kurt's intention, their hearts were merged, linked together forever. He pulled Kurt's hands from his side and rested them on his body. "Go right ahead and do what you want."
Kurt kissed him back and gently turned him around and his hands skated over his back and kissed it too, he hadn't kissed Blaine's back much before, and almost got distracted doing so now until Blaine moaned. "You're torturing me, your touch is going to make me come and I want to wait... wait until-" Kurt was well aware of what Blaine wanted to wait for.
"Ok, ok, you don't need to beg." Kurt soothed and ran his hands down Blaine's back and touched his butt, massaging the muscles there and Blaine groaned and moaned in pleasure and he bent forward, giving Kurt all the access he could ever need. He rested his forearms against the wall in front of him. "Don't be shy, you can go as fast as you'd like." Blaine wanted him thrust deep in him now. He didn't care if it hurt or not. But Kurt wouldn't do that, he closed his eyes as he did something he never thought he'd do in a million years, he put his finger in, slowly and it was just the tip but Blaine spasmed around him with a deep throaty moan of pleasure. Kurt pushed forward just a bit more and Blaine consciously tried to relax to let him have more access.
Kurt for his part had no idea what he was doing. He just knew what the boys talked about when it was a girl's first time and how they were so tight and it would hurt anyway but how it would hurt less with a little relaxation and slowly widening them up rather than just a quick insertion. Puck had plenty of experience with that and Finn wasn't even annoyed that one of those girls was Quinn anymore. Finn had mentioned that even when a girl was experienced, it was important to go slow at first, like he had with Santana. Puck had said that sometimes after a girl was experienced it was fun to go quick and fast and dirty if both were into it at the time. He was also talking about Santana.
Kurt hadn't wanted to hear it at the time and it wasn't the same with boys, he knew that but this was the first time either of them was doing this and he didn't know what to expect. Blaine had watched the videos and Kurt had refused to do the same, even after all of this, even after they went all the way with sex, he doubted that he would desire to watch those videos.
He knew some people found a benefit out of it, swore that it only made their partner sexier in their eyes. But Kurt felt like it was a betrayal of some sort, like they needed an external prompt when he couldn't imagine ever needing that; not with Blaine. And he was never going to have sex with anyone else, and if it ever came to that point, it wouldn't be the same, it wouldn't be as good or as easy or have the same meaning behind it. People would probably laugh at him if they knew he thought it was easy with Blaine especially as he'd held out for so long, had gone so slow, but he'd needed that. It was never about Blaine the slowness, it was about himself and growing up and becoming more comfortable with himself and the idea of sex in general and sex in specific when it came to him actually doing it.
He didn't even like people touching him on the shoulder before Blaine, now they were doing this. He thought that was remarkable progress in the short time they'd been together. He still didn't like anyone else touching him, not really; only Blaine, always Blaine. He was glad that he could bring so much pleasure to Blaine as well. Being able to return him for the favor of comfortable touch, more than that, being turned on with a touch, wanting much much more with a touch... that was a gift that Blaine would never fully realize he'd given to Kurt.
He slid his finger in and out a few times before slowly sticking a second one in and doing the same treatment and he got up to three fingers when Blaine started breathing heavy and Kurt saw that Blaine was unable to hold back anymore and released which loosened the muscle around Kurt's fingers too. "Don't stop. I know what I did, but for the love of god, Kurt, please don't stop." Kurt wouldn't ever refuse him his requests when he sounded like that. He kept going with those three fingers and he knew that Blaine was responding down below as well as in pleasure to what Kurt was doing with his fingers where they were, he brushed up against a pleasure zone in Blaine and he mewled in pleasure and Kurt did it again.
"I need you inside me, please, now." Blaine begged and Kurt slid his fingers out and didn't look at them but gripped Blaine's hip and aligned himself with Blaine and pressed in so slowly, if Blaine found it too much he'd back out. He didn't, he jerked back, wanting more of Kurt inside of him sooner, faster, harder. Kurt made sure that Blaine didn't get it that way, he didn't want him to hurt himself being too eager.
Soon he was sheathed tightly within Blaine and he wrapped his arms around Blaine loosely and held his chest to Blaine's back, he didn't touch him below, he just let the man under him adjust to Kurt being so far inside of him, stretching him more than his fingers had. Blaine wiggled, wanting more, wanting him to move and Kurt rewarded him by licking up his spine near where his head was and Blaine bent back toward Kurt with a shocked moan. "That was so sexy!" Blaine had moved their bodies so Kurt was unexpectedly in a different position inside of him, stretching him again and Blaine wiggled again, wanting to take control and slam back into Kurt and get the release he was so desperate for but he let Kurt keep control of the situation.
Kurt bent him back over slightly, giving them a little bit of space and started to move out slowly but only went a little ways before pushing back in again, he did that a few times before moving out further and pushing in just as deep as he started again. He continued that pattern until he was almost all the way out and then would push slowly all the way back in and then repeat. Slowly he picked up tempo and would change the depth he pulled out and the depth he pushed back in, not always all the way in.
Blaine was fully hard again and then they both found another release. They both laid against that wall in front of Blaine, panting hard. Kurt kissed Blaine's shoulder. "I'm sorry, I was going to- I should have- pulled out."
"No, no, it's ok, I.. liked that you didn't." Blaine reached behind him and searched for Kurt's hand. "I kind of feel bad that I've gotten off way more than you."
"It's not a competition." Kurt commented, really not bothered by it.
"I know that." Kurt pulled out of him then and Blaine turned and gathered him close and they stayed under the spray. "Do you still want-?"
Kurt looked up at Blaine and really looked at his face. "You're spent."
"I'm sure I could muster up-" but Kurt shook his head. "Why not?"
"I want it, sure but I don't want you to have to gather yourself up to do it. I want you to be fully into it." Kurt was still a little uncomfortably hard. "Maybe though, you could teach me how to masturbate?"
Blaine laughed in surprise, definitely not expecting that and kissed him again. "You do know that you do a great job with your hands on me, right? You just do the same thing to yourself, it's easier actually because you know what you like the second you do it, though it's not as nice as someone else doing it, someone who makes you hot and bothered." Blaine dropped to his knees and finished Kurt off again with his hand and mouth. It hadn't taken him long, just like he predicted because Blaine did things to him that he couldn't do to himself. "I would have taught you but why do so when you have me right here?"
Neither were hard any more but that probably wouldn't last too long now that they had gone as far as they had, knowing the pleasure was just around the corner with every stroke or touch from the other male. They were going to have a harder time keeping themselves under control and not give themselves away to others, especially Kurt's family.
They undeniably had sex now by anyone's terms or standards. "How are you feeling?" Kurt asked as he watched Blaine walk a little awkwardly on the way back to their tent.
"Really good actually." Blaine admitted. "I just wish I could have done the same for you."
"We'll have the opportunity." Kurt promised.
"How are you doing?" Blaine asked as they slipped into bed and he pulled Kurt tightly to him, wrapping his legs around Kurt's this time as they settled into a sleeping position. Kurt was on his back while Blaine was on his side facing him, wrapped around him.
Kurt ran his hand over Blaine's shoulder and upper arm. "Would you accept me describing my feelings as odd without being upset by it?"
"Not upset." Blaine answered honestly, he'd felt odd too but complete. He felt like an adult now and yet he knew he still had so much more time before the rest of the world truly viewed him that way too. The more they did it, the easier it would be and the less strange it would be to both of them. Just like everything else they'd done together, it got more common place to the point they didn't even notice they were doing it until someone brought it to their attention but couldn't imagine not doing it, just those little actions, like holding hands or brushing their fingers over a body part near them in a mindless pattern or kissing hello or when they had to part. "I hope that it wasn't a bad odd though."
"No, not bad." Kurt reassured. "Good, very good, just not something I ever thought about doing." Kurt sighed and laid his head down and looked at the top of the tent. "I am a clean freak and I just willingly put not only my member into one of the dirtiest places I could (not a comment on how clean you are), but my fingers too."
"Not as bad as Miss Pillsbury, though, right?" Blaine teased, he'd heard the stories from all of the ND and had met her too briefly, she was definitely OCD with her cleanliness, Kurt's was much more manageable.
"No, not as bad as her." Kurt agreed. "I just feel strange doing that."
"And if I had been a girl and you were straight, would that hole be any easier to tackle?" They both giggled at what Blaine said. "I mean-"
"Oh I know what you meant, I just don't know the answer. That hole is designed for it, it is meant to procreate and I'm not straight. So I just don't feel qualified to answer that, because if I were straight, would I be so obsessed with cleanliness and an orderly appearance? I don't know."
"If it bothers you, you don't have to do it again." Blaine didn't have quite the same problem with being dirty in that way with Kurt as Kurt did the other way around.
"No, I...that's not it. I'll want to do it again." Kurt closed his eyes. "It just seems weird to me that the same item that's used to expel waste is also what causes us so much pleasure and can allow us to create new life. Different function but same anatomy part." Kurt ran his fingers up to Blaine's head. "I'm thinking too much about the wrong part of it, I'm sorry. It was pleasurable and I will want to do it again, if you want me to."
Blaine turned his head and kissed Kurt on his shoulder and settled back in. "Let me get a chance and then we'll talk about who does what."
Kurt smiled in pleasure, glad he hadn't hurt Blaine's feelings with his random thoughts. "I'll take you up on that. I didn't hurt you at all, did I?" He hadn't seen any blood but he didn't know if there would be with two guys, it didn't mean that there still wasn't any pain.
"Only pleasure, no pain." He reassured Kurt. "You were very gentle and made sure it wouldn't."
Kurt was spent and he wanted to talk to Blaine more but he fell asleep with thoughts running through his head and Blaine looked up at Kurt and saw the blue eyes closed and snuggled in and followed Kurt quickly into the dream world.
The next morning, Blaine woke up to a kiss on his lips. "Happy Birthday, Blaine."
"Is it really?" Blaine hadn't realized the camping trip was going to coincide with his birthday and he was pretty sure Kurt forgot too until this moment. The others did not though as they presented him with gifts and cake. It was the first birthday Blaine had with Kurt. "I've got your birthday present at home." Kurt whispered and Blaine was surprised that he had remembered ahead of time and on the day of. Kurt's gift was a set of cufflinks that he could wear with his school uniform without breaking the dress code and nobody would give him a hard time about lack of uniformity since they were in the shape of warbler birds.