S3 Ep 15 -
Jane researched Casey's surgery and found out the serious risk he was taking. After Maura suggested she confront him about the surgery, Jane found herself at Casey's door. She took a deep breath and knocked. Her heart was pounding and she tried to keep her emotions in check. She wanted to confront him as a friend and not come off overbearing. She has a reputation of being a bit bossy at times and certainly didn't want that particular trait to show today. When he opened the door she had a hard time not feeling sorry for him. He stood there on his forearm crutches with a slight hunch to his back. His face was solemn and he did not look happy to see her.
"Jane, What are you doing here?"
Jane quickly said, "Can I talk to you?"
"It's not a good time," he replied.
"Well, there's not gonna be a better one," Jane said with a slight bite in her tone.
Casey opened the door to let her in. She walked into his apartment to see his many medications and an apartment in disarray with old food and clutter.
"It's not a pretty picture," Casey said.
"I didn't come here to embarrass you," Jane said with sympathy.
To break the uncomfortable silence Casey asked, "would you like some tea or water or something? I can't have any alcohol because of the surgery."
"Oh. Right. So you plan to go through with it?" Jane questioned.
"Yes. I am," Casey said automatically.
They both moved toward the couch to sit. Just getting to the couch Jane observed his daily difficulties.
"Maura seems to think that your spinal injury is in a place that's hard to repair," Jane spoke slowly attempting to be conversational and not accusatory.
"Yeah. Yeah it is," Casey stated matter of factly.
"And… and that whatever surgical procedure you're having is risky," Jane continued.
Casey replied again matter of factly, "it is.. very."
Jane countered with, "well like how risky? Like are you going to die risky?"
"More likely.. I'll end up a full paraplegic," Casey replied.
"Oh my god! Well then why do it? Why make things worse?," Jane said pleading in her tone.
"This catheter. I was about to put it in," Casey said pathetically and slightly irritated.
"Look I'm sorry. I'm not saying it doesn't suck. Ok. It does. Alright but it's reality and I can deal with reality," Jane tried to keep the pleading tone out of her voice and appear strong.
"Reality? I can't feel Jane." He stared into her eyes as he spoke. It broke him slightly to talk to her about it. To let her in this way about the reality of his life. "Not just here," he said as he took her hand and placed it on his thigh. "I can't make love to you. I can deal with the crutches and the catheter but I can't deal with that. I need to be able to feel you and I want to be able to give you children," he explained with that pained tone returning.
Jane's heart broke a little understanding the true reality of his condition. She reached out to touch him and stroked his face. She pulled him in and held his face in her arms. They both shed some tears. Jane realized that even if she didn't fully understand or agree with his decision it was his to make and she needed to accept it. She realized then that this was likely the last time they would spend together. She was used to saying goodbye to Casey. Every time he came back some part of her knew he would be leaving again. It seemed that she needed to accept that they were just not meant to be. Jane hugged Casey once more and made her excuses to go. As they walked to the door, her phone rang.
"I'm so sorry it's Frankie," she told him. "I better go." As she walked into the hallway she answered the phone.
Frankie yelled on the other line, "there was a building collapse in the South Bay and TJ, Tommy, and Frost were in the building when it went down."
"I'll be right there," she yelled back. She raced out of the building and to her car. Lights and sirens she was able to get to the site in less than 10 minutes. She ran through the scene which was utter chaos. Police, fire, and medical had all been deployed to the scene and they were pulling victims out of the building. She found Maura already working on patients.
"Maura! TJ, Tommy and Frost are all stuck in the building," Jane told her. Before Maura had a chance to respond, Frankie found them and updated them on the situation.
"We have been pulling bodies out of the collapse and we still haven't found them. They stopped us going back in or I'd still be looking for them Janie," Frankie said.
"Ok. Ok well we know that the contractor used recycled concrete which is why the building went down," Maura said matter of factly.
Jane quickly followed with, "That's why the maintenance man was killed. He found out about the recycled concrete and why he had the concrete samples and building documentation in his tool box." Jane got on the phone with Korsak. Korsak quickly reviewed the contractor information including investors to find who would benefit from saving money on the recycled concrete building. He also found a way in, a tunnel that went to the parking level that the boys were trapped in.
"I'm going in," Jane said.
"I'm coming with you," said Maura.
They ran through the back of the tunnel as the quaking and settling of the building continued.
"What are these?" Jane asked looking at some old barrels stored throughout the tunnel.
Maura responded in her informational tone but Jane wasn't really listening. She was focused on finding the boys quickly and without getting her and Maura killed in the process.
"Maura do you think maybe we could talk about this later?" Jane asked.
"Yes. Sorry," Maura replied.
Jane and Maura found the boys quickly using a thermal gun to find their heat signature through the concrete. After running back for a rescue team, TJ was pulled out safely first and then Frost and finally Tommy.
As everyone was getting checked out by medical, Jane was left with an overwhelming feeling of gratitude that her family was safe. She reflected on her day and her interaction with Casey. 'It's going to be ok. I have said goodbye to Casey before. I have everything I need. I have my family and I have Maura.'
Jane ended up at Maura's that night. After all the chaos and what felt like her final break up with Casey, it was nice not to be alone. Maura had a way of uplifting her mood and making her feel safe and loved. She was her best friend and if she were being honest with herself, Maura was slightly more than that. Jane knew that her feelings for Maura had changed over the last year. It started in small ways. She would admire her outfits. She would admire the way her body looked when they ran together. She had perfect abs and an amazing ass. She would watch her honey blond hair bounce while she walked, admire her gorgeous skin and runway model looks. She wouldn't ever admit it because she didn't want to cross any lines in their relationship and risk losing Maura. Plus both she and Maura exclusively dated men throughout their friendship and she had no reason to believe that Maura had any interest in her that way. She chose to keep her best friend as just that. She knew that the way they interacted with each other was overfamiliar often but it seemed like just them. It made sense and Maura never said that their long hugs or extra touches made her uncomfortable.
"Thanks for having me over tonight Maura. I just don't want to be alone right now," Jane said with more vulnerability than she intended.
"Are you kidding, after today it's nice just us. And everything with Casey. I'm sorry." If Maura was being honest, she was not sad to see Casey go. He was always in and out of Jane's life when he saw fit. Of course she felt bad about his condition and the predicament he found himself in. She definitely wouldn't advise him to have the surgery with whatever cowboy surgeon he had found to do such a risky procedure.
"Jane do you want to talk about Casey?" Maura asked politely.
"No Maura, but thank you for checking in. I would rather spend our night doing dinner and a movie and talking about anything else," Jane replied with a smile.
Maura smiled back at her friend, "that sounds perfect." At that killer signature smile Maura swooned slightly. It was nights like this that Maura loved. Just her and Jane and whatever they decided to do together. Some weeks they spent more nights together than apart. Thank god it was Friday and with any luck maybe Jane would stay the weekend. Maura got on the phone and ordered a pizza while Jane searched for a movie on Netflix.
"Maura what are all of these titles you have in your watch list? All documentaries!" Jane said exasperated. "Does all of your TV watching have to be educational?!"
Maura hung up the phone and laughed. "We can't all be addicted to action movies Jane. Also, it wouldn't hurt you to watch some educational TV now and then."
"Did you get pepperoni?" Jane asked with a pouty face.
"Of course! And mushroom for me." Maura loved their easy back and forth.
Jane put on The Bourne Identity and they got comfortable on the couch. Jane with a beer and Maura with a glass of wine. Maura only wished that she didn't have to hide what she really wanted to say to Jane. She had been keeping her true feelings for Jane a secret for about a year. Six months ago she talked to Barry about it but at the time Casey was still around. Jane seemed to be waiting for him through each deployment faithfully. Jane had no history with women either and fear of ruining their relationship kept her silent on the matter. Barry told her to wait for the right moment and just tell her, but what did he know about it really? He didn't understand the risk she was taking telling the most important person in her life something that could potentially devastate their friendship. Her anxiety over the issue was so bad sometimes that she wondered how Jane could possibly not have noticed. She was downright neurotic sometimes around her, overthinking everything.
Maura could get lost for hours thinking about interactions with Jane. Her laugh, her smile, the way she always made Maura feel safe, protected, and part of her family. If Jane only knew how Maura felt about her, how she ached for her. She dreamed of kissing her slowly and running her hands all over the athletic, tan, Italian. She had pictured every scenario of things they would do together. She wanted to have her slow drawing out every pleasure and leave her soaked screaming her name. She wanted to have her fast and furious possessing her entirely. She started to feel warm all over as her familiar daydream started to pass before her eyes…
Babe! I'm home!
I'm upstairs Jane, Maura called.
Jane sauntered upstairs after placing her gun in the safe that they kept downstairs in a hideaway kitchen cabinet. When Jane came into their bedroom, Maura was waiting for her completely naked and very proud of herself. Jane stopped at the doorway and slowly started to unbutton her shirt saying nothing. She raked her eyes over Maura from head to toes and back again. Jane gave her one of those dashing smiles as she slowly took off her pants. After removing her clothes she climbed on the bed next to her love and whispered I missed you.. I missed you too love. Their bodies molded together in their familiar and oh so sexy way. Their lips met softly at first and then with more need. Their tongues danced and their hips met in a deliciously intense way…
"Maura what are you thinking about so hard?" Jane asked staring intently at her friend. Jane noticed Maura had been acting strangely lately. She didn't know what to make of it really. She wondered if it was to do with the drama surrounding her biological mother and Cailin or a guy, maybe Ian.
"Sorry… I got lost for bit didn't I?" Maura said attempting nonchalance. She was glad the lights were low and hoped Jane couldn't see her face and chest were most definitely flushed. Her body was out of control and her breathing was heavy. "Just outside space I guess."
"It's spaced out," Jane laughed. "If you don't like the movie, we can find something else?" Jane didn't want to watch a documentary but she did want to make Maura happy.
"No. No this is good actually. I read the books, so it will be fun to see the film." Maura reassured.
"Ok. Well is there anything you want to talk about?" Jane asked genuinely. Her detective brain couldn't turn off sometimes and she knew that something has been up with Maura. She didn't necessarily want to pry but she did want to know. They do tell each other everything right..
Maura was about to answer when the doorbell rang for pizza. She hopped up off the couch quickly and grabbed her wallet. She answered the door, paid for the pizza, and got some plates. Maura calmed her breathing as she busied herself with getting dinner together. She put together a quick salad to go with their pizza and put some on Jane's plate before she could protest. They ate in companionable silence forgetting about the prior conversation and Maura's daydreams.
After the movie it was late and Jane decided to stay the night. This was always the part of the evening where Maura hoped that Jane would choose to stay in her bed rather than the guest room.
"Maura, would it be ok if I stayed with you?" Jane asked slightly embarrassed.
"Of course Jane," Maura answered. She turned her head away and smiled thanking the universe for Jane's mood.
As they climbed in bed Maura was finding it very difficult being so close to Jane. She didn't know if it was the daydream or the fact that she just broke up with Casey. She was so aroused and she couldn't seem to calm down enough to sleep. She tossed and turned a bit trying not to disturb Jane. When she heard Jane's even breathing she turned to face her. She traced Jane's gorgeous features with her eyes. 'What will you say if I tell you the truth? Could you love me back?' After another hour finally she gave into exhaustion.
Jane woke before Maura which was unusual. Although Jane did notice that Maura didn't sleep well with all the tossing and turning. 'I wonder what's bothering her? I wish she would tell me. I hate to see her so upset.' Jane knew that Maura didn't really have anyone else to tell the deep things to and Jane prided herself on being that person. She did look absolutely beautiful asleep. Her hair fanned out over her pillow and slight frame so close she could reach out and touch her. Jane watched her for several minutes until Maura stirred. She slowly opened her eyes to see Jane looking directly into hers. They just stayed that way for a minute until Jane broke the gaze and slowly got up. "I'm uh going to take a shower," She announced.
When they were both showered and dressed for the day they decided to go out for breakfast. They ended up at a popular brunch spot Tatte Bakery.
"Maura, what's going on with you lately?" Jane asked scrutinizing her gorgeous friend's face.
"I'm not sure what you mean Jane," Maura faked confusion. She has finally noticed. Now what?!
"I know that somethings up. I'm not going to let it go," Jane said with a friendly smile. "I wouldn't want you to get hives.. I'm only looking out for you here."
"Jane I," Maura started and stopped. Her face was getting hot and she knew that she was blushing.
"Ok a blushing Maura this has got to be good," Jane said teasing.
"Jane this really isn't the time or place. I do want to talk to you but can we table this for now?" Maura hoped that later wouldn't come.
"Maura you can tell me anything you know that right? We can talk about it later if you need to but don't think that you're getting out of this," Jane admonished.
It was dinner time when they were cooking together that Jane brought it up again. "Maura thanks for today, it's nice to get to spend so much time together. I've been a little worried about you though. Any chance you're ready to tell me what's going on with you?" Jane asked.
Maura thought all day about how she would answer Jane If this subject was brought up. She knew she couldn't lie to her and frankly she was tired of keeping it from her. It was exhausting to be in love with someone alone. Maura put the finishing touches on their salad as Jane plated their pasta.
"Jane I do want to talk to you but I want to make sure that I state it well," Maura said looking anywhere but in Jane's eyes. Her hands were fidgeting at her sides and she started to get visibly anxious.
"You're really starting to scare me Maura. Are you sick? Is someone dying? Are you getting back with Ian? My mind is racing here. You gotta help me out," Jane pleaded. Jane walked to Maura and wrapped her in a hug. She let the hug last a long time and took in her scent as she drew away still holding her arms. "Whatever it is Maur, it's going to be ok."
"Jane I..," Maura couldn't get it out. She pulled Jane back into a crushing embrace. "I don't know that it is or that it will be," Maura almost sobbed. She decided that there was no way she could get it out of her mouth so she decided to do the only thing she could. She drew back from the her slightly until she was looking deep into Jane's confused eyes. She glanced at her lips and brought her mouth to Jane's, breathing in her air and brushing their lips together slowly asking for permission.
The electric current that ran from Jane's lips down her spine and straight to her core was so powerful and shocking it dissolved all coherent thought. Jane crashed their lips together in a heated kiss. Maura kissed her back with everything she had. This kiss deepened further and Maura ran her hands from Jane's back to her hair pulling Jane impossibly closer. Jane was lost in the kiss and her body was set on fire. She ran her hands from Maura's arms to her face pulling her in and thoroughly tasting her mouth. She pulled Maura's body in until they were flesh against each other and the feeling was out of this world. She could feel Maura's heaving breasts through her shirt and she still didn't feel close enough. Jane moaned into the kiss and Maura whimpered pulling a leg behind Jane's back. Jane immediately grabbed Maura up off the ground while she finished wrapping her legs behind Jane. Jane started to move them from the kitchen toward the stairs never breaking the searing kiss that made her feel more alive than she could remember feeling in years. Neither of them knew how they made it to Maura's bedroom, but once they did, Jane slammed the door shut and pushed Maura against the back of it.
Jane pulled back from the kiss and Maura whimpered. "I've wanted this for so long Maura. I promise I won't stop," Jane said in Maura's ear barely above a whisper. She took no time at all to remove Maura's shirt. Immediately running her hands over perfect soft breasts while kissing her neck and then her chest.
"Jane," Maura said her name pleading for her not to stop. She felt dizzy with want and so insanely wet. She couldn't believe how much of this Jane was leading. She reached forward and unbuttoned Jane's top all while Jane was torturing her by running her hands over her nipples and teasing them driving Maura crazy. Out of frustration, Jane removed Maura's bra and Maura did the same for Jane. Jane couldn't wait any longer she grabbed Maura and wrapped her in searing kiss that was immediately intense. Their hands exploring all the places they both longed to touch. Their hips moving together in a delicious and torturous dance.
"I'm going to fall Jane," Maura exclaimed.
Jane replied, "I won't let you and she grabbed Maura up again and placed her on the bed. Maura immediately removed her own slacks and underwear in one fluid motion. Jane stood in awe over her, heart pounding in her ears and more aroused than she could ever remember being. She slowly slid her pants off as well while taking in the sight of the most beautiful woman she had ever seen. Her breasts fuller than Jane's with silky smooth skin and a few freckles on her chest. Her stomach toned and her legs lean from all of the running and yoga. She was beautifully light skinned to Jane's olive.
Maura watched Jane check her out and became a little nervous for the first time. "Jane..," she asked as a question.
"You're so incredibly beautiful Maura. I can't believe I waited so long to tell you.," Jane said in awe. In a moment, Jane lowered herself on top of Maura. They fit together so perfectly and they both moaned at the feeling. Maura's hips started to move on their own needing more and Jane's came to meet her. Jane slipped one leg between Maura's to increase the friction and Maura gasped, "God Jane you feel so good."
"You are so insanely hot Maura and so wet for me already," Jane purred. She ran her hands over Maura's breasts tugging on her nipples. She replaced her hands with her mouth on each nipple sucking and pulling them while running her hands down the length of her body down to her thighs. She kneaded her thighs pulling her hips hard into her.
Maura was a dripping pool of want and she was riding Jane's leg hard now. All she could feel, taste and see was Jane. She waited so long. It felt unreal and she couldn't contain her body and it's reaction to Jane touching her like this. "I'm so.. close Jane," Maura begged.
"Not yet Maur," Jane said. She removed her leg from between Maura's and replaced it with her hand. She slid her fingers through Maura's wet core and she cried out at the feeling. Not wanting to tease her any longer Jane entered her quickly with two fingers and Maura closed her eyes and moaned her name. Jane had never felt so connected to another person or so aroused. She was not prepared for how good it felt to be with Maura this way. She dreamed about this and the dream did not come close to the reality she was currently experiencing. She almost came at the sound of Maura saying her name like that. "You feel so good Maur. You're driving me crazy," Jane practically moaned. Jane started with slow deep thrusts that made Maura start to ride her hand. "Harder Jane… Faster," Maura panted. Jane obliged thrusting harder and faster. Suddenly the overwhelming need to taste Maura took over and she changed positions sucking on her clit as she fucked her. Maura came as soon as Janes mouth touched her clit. Maura cried out as she came and Jane continued to suck her clit as she rode out the orgasm. Jane was acutely aware that she was pulsing from the waist down but she couldn't stop staring at how beautiful the woman in her arms was. "You are incredible Maura. I love you."
Maura slowly came down from her blinding intense orgasm. She was overwhelmed by the things Jane was saying to her and the way it felt to finally be with her this way. "Come here Jane?" Jane kissed her clit before climbing up her body reigniting her body immediately in answer. Jane hovered above her and slowly kissed her passionately saying all the things in action that she had already said allowed. It was intoxicating tasting herself in the kiss. It was something so uniquely them and she knew that nothing would ever be the same. Maura was eager to reciprocate what she had just experienced. In a fluid motion she flipped their positions and topped Jane. Jane did not protest but only gave her a sly smile and a raised eye brow. Maura was absolutely predatory and had no time for games. She kissed Jane's collar bone, down her chest stopping to suck on each pert dark nipple in turn. She pulled them and flicked them with her tongue. Jane was panting now and her hips started to move on the bed. Maura continued kissing down Jane's long torso, making sure to run her tongue over each of Jane's prominent hip bones. When she got to the apex of her thighs she spread Jane's legs wide and took a swipe through her wetness with her tongue. Jane whimpered and Maura knew exactly what she needed. Maura licked and sucked and thoroughly kissed Jane until she was begging for more. Maura entered her with two fingers immediately filling and claiming her. She fucked Jane hard and fast until she was saying her name over and over.
Maura climbed up Jane's body and kissed her hard. She slowed only to touch their foreheads together. "Jane I love you. I'm in love with you. I have waited so long to tell you. I need you so much. I want this so much," Maura spilled. Jane answered with another passionate kiss. Saying nothing she ran her hands down Maura's body entering her again. Maura panted, "I want to touch you too." Jane went to her knees and Maura claimed Jane entering her as well. They came together hard with one another's name on their lips. Panting they both fell back on the bed limbs immediately intertwined and hands holding on to one another.