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Previously on Invisible Fear - "Then just answer me one question Corey." Roderick's back was turned to me so I couldn't quite make out what he was doing but shivers of fear continued to run down my spine as I could only imagine what new forms of torture he could possibly inflict on me.
"Why did you leave me?" Roderick's question caught me of guard but I tried to keep my composure to not show him anymore weakness then I had already.
"I-I just wanted a fresh start." I heard myself mutter aloud which I immediately regretted. "Beacon Hills High was the only school in the area and I thought it would be better then going to Davenport." I heard Roderick let out a soft chuckle and terror raced through my body making my blood run as cold as ice.
"You know you always were a bad liar Corey." Roderick said his eyes darkening as he took notice of the obvious fear etched on my face that I was desperately trying to hide.
"Maybe this will be able tp help you see things much more clearly, so you can see how we belong together." Roderick replied as the next thing I felt was a surge of electricity running through my body forcing me to scream out in agony as flashes of the Ghost Riders shot through my mind.
Followed by visions of my father molesting my six year body from behind me while I was lying naked on top of my twin sister, tears streaming down her face as she screamed begging our father to stop hurting us.
I continued to scream in pain as the electricity continued to course through my body growing stronger and stronger as visions of Mason and the rest of the pack now shot through my brain but something felt off. It had seemed that each one of them had now forgotten about me just like what had happened when I was taken by the Ghost Riders.
I knew deep within my heart that there was no way this could possibly be true, but then again why hadn't they shown up to help save me? Was it possible Mason had told them about the fact that I had almost killed him and now the entire pack thought I wasn't worth saving?
No. Don't think like Corey. I tried to force myself to think and believe it wasn't true but the visions wouldn't stop coming forcing tears to start filling up in my eyes and roll down my cheeks despite my attempt to stop them from flowing. They'll come for you. Just hold on a little longer.
NOW...
Chapter 7 - I Am Not Okay
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high
So they never even make a sound
It's a mask it's a lie
It's the only home I've ever known
'Cause being who I really am
Has only left me more alone
The physical pain was unbearable and soon my body began to go numb as the mental pain began to take over my weary brain forcing me to see horrible visions and hallucinations. My vision blurred from tears still running down my cheeks but I didn't feel it. One by one I saw visions of Scott, Liam, Hayden, Malia, Lydia, Stiles, Theo, Tracey, Donovan, Josh, and even Mason all with smiles on their faces as though everything in Beacon Hills was back to normal.
"So what do you guys want to do after school?" I heard Liam ask as he nodded over to Mason who replied, "Why don't we go to the club and just drink till our hearts content?"
"So you can puke your guts out all over my jeep?" Stiles asked rolling his eyes with a slight laugh. "I don't think so you guys should have seen Scott the last time he and I got drunk."
"Don't even remind me." Scott said. "I got grounded by my mom after she found out for an entire week."
Everyone around the table laughed and I felt a pang of emotion tear through me as though I was being ripped apart. They've all forgotten about me. I thought miserably. Even Mason.
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'm not okay
"No one cares about you Corey." Came the sound of Roderick's voice near my ear despite the jolts of electricity still passing through me.
"I'm the only one who matters to you. I'm the one who's always been there for you. See, if your so called friends even cared about you, don't you think they would've already came looking for you?"
Every part of me wanted to scream at him. Scream at him to tell him to shut up. Tell him he had no idea what he was talking about, but after seeing those images and hearing their voices, I wasn't one hundred percent sure what was real and what was nothing but a hallucination.
I felt the vibrations of the electricity stop momentarily as Roderick's eyes stared down at me as a fresh round of tears welled in my eyes and threatened to spill over.
Deep green piercing right through me with a gaze of pure arrogance. A sadistic smile crossed his face as he noticed the look of desolation in my eyes realizing he had broken me.
"Now we can finally be together again Corey." He said softly as he planted a kiss on my forehead. "Just you and me against the world."
I didn't respond and all I felt at that moment was nothing but a constant sense of anguish as Roderick helped pull me up to a sitting position and all I could do was collapse into his chest in deep dejection. Thoughts of Mason and the others swirled around inside my head. Was it true? Had they really abandoned me? Was I nothing but a loss cause?
I wish I had a scar
Had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof
That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
My life's invisible abuse
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't wanna be alive
Just then another overwhelming sense began to take over me causing my stomach to turn as nothing but a sea of blood began to seize my mind. Panicking I pushed myself off of Roderick feeling a wave of nausea overtake me as I squeezed my eyes shut to try and stop the images but to no avail. It was all I could think about in that moment and time. Nothing but blood and how much my mouth began to water at the thought of it and how much I began to thirst for it.
"Wh-what's happening to me?" I stammered fearfully as my breathing began to quicken along with the increased pounding of my heart rate.
"Calm down Corey." Roderick said gently taking ahold of my arm trying to soothe me but at that moment all I began to focus on was the feeling of Roderick's flesh in my mouth. Feeling the sweet coppery taste of his blood flow down my throat.
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I started to feel my body begin to shift and change as the image of Mason shot through my mind and the feeling of terror I felt when I thought I had killed him.
No! No! No! I screamed inside my head. Not again!
I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell
But what if it kills me
If I keep it to myself
To myself
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
I am not okay
I am not okay
I'm never safe
It's not a phase
If I finally break
Would you still stay?
Thick grey leathery skin began to take it's place over my body, my teeth then began to sharpen in length and a monstrous growl escaped from my throat as nothing but a haze of red began to fill my vision as I stared at Roderick who didn't seem fazed at all by what was happening to me. He wasn't scared in any way almost as if he had expected this would happen.
Another growl tore from my throat as nothing but just the outline of him shone through the red haze as though I had X-ray vision. Roderick's pulsing veins full of blood pulled me toward him despite my will to keep whatever was happening to me quiet.
I was about to engorge myself on Roderick when the sound of someone howling made me snap my head in annoyance as I howled back toward the source of the noise and my gaze fell upon Scott and the rest of the pack but it was too late. No one could save me now as I growled and tore into Roderick's flesh and began to feel his hot blood run down my throat quenching my thirst.
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
TOO BE CONTINUED...Is this the end for Corey? Will Scott and the others be able to save him from himself or has the monster within him really won out? What about Roderick? do you think this is the end for him too? Only time will tell...Hope you all enjoyed reading and are looking for me as Chapter 8 will be up as soon as I can get it :)