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It took a while for me to get back to my old self and for my collarbone to heal. Of course once I was strong enough to handle a scolding, I got plenty of them, one from Eden's father and one from Firth as well. Although I hated the scoldings, they did help me to realize how much everyone cared about Eden and I, and how selfish I had been. I was going to try my best to live my life to the fullest and not let discovering my past be my main goal.

One day soon after I had recovered, I was put back to work on the farm. Finally feeling strong enough to do hard work felt invigorating, and it felt good to be accomplishing something. After an exhausting day of farm work, Eden wanted to spend some time with me later in the evening. Ever since we had gone off on that adventure and returned, something had changed. Taking less time to think about what I wanted and what I could do to be happy, I realized how much I had to be thankful for instead, including Eden. I knew I had taken her for granted far too many times, and without her I really wouldn't have anyone to open up to. I found thoughts of her often wandering their way into my mind, and how much I admired her.

I really had learned a lot about myself since I had injured my collarbone. Seeing now that I thought of others now also helped me to see that I had grown much more mature.

Thinking about starting a serious life here in Craggy Dale made me think how my future would look. I couldn't picture it without Eden here beside me...

I snapped out of my deep thoughts as I came to the place where Eden wanted to meet me. There was a small pond with a tree nearby, and now that it was growing late, the moon reflected off of the water's surface. Staring at the beautiful place deep in thought, it surprised me that it took me several years of frustration, not discovering my past, and one hard hit to my shoulder to make me see Eden differently. You'd think I would learn faster...

The truth was I felt as if I needed her now. If she suddenly disappeared, I didn't know who I could count on. Yes, Firth cared for me and treated me like his own son, but I couldn't share my feelings with him the way I could with Eden. I would be so alone without her.

Barely recognizing this romantic lunatic I've become, I shook my head and took a deep breath. I wasn't ready to tell Eden all of this just yet. But I was starting to slowly figure it all out.

"Hey, boy," Eden's voice made me jump out of my thoughts again. how is your shoulder feeling after your first day hard at work again?"

Looking into her eyes, I felt a strange nervousness grow in my stomach. "It wasn't so bad, I was able to get a lot done," I answered her simply, smiling as I followed her underneath the tree.

"That's good to hear, I hope it isn't hurting you too much," she smiled back as she sat down.

"It's not. I think I'm pretty much back to my old self," I shrugged, sitting next to her.

Eden shrugged too. Was she mirroring my movements? "I wouldn't say that. You've grown a lot in these recent weeks. You've become much more aware of other's feelings and thoughts. But perhaps physically you've healed back to your old self."

I thought on her words. I supposed they must be true if I felt I had been changing too. We both looked up into the starry sky.

"You know, I've really come to appreciate seeing you change for the better..." Eden started. My heart started to pound harder. Was she going to say what I thought she was going to say? "I know how hard it's been for you, and trying to remember your past took so much time that it was difficult for you to grow as a person. Now that you've let go, you've really matured now, Boy," I felt Eden's warm hand rest on top of mine. I tried not to jump. Part of me was excited, I wanted to pick Eden up and spin her around on the moonlight. Yet part of the old me hurt terribly. I felt like something wasn't right. I loved Eden, yet I felt like this wasn't supposed to happen.

"The truth is, I don't know what I would do without you around, Boy. I always feel protected and listened to when I'm with you. I love you."

"Eden... I love you too..." I said without even thinking. Now that these feeling I had felt so familiar, I didn't know if I wanted this. Who had I felt this with before, and how could've I forgotten about her?!

Eden started moving closer to me. My heart pounded nervously. She put a hand behind my neck and stared at my lips. Everything in me wanted to enjoy this moment and kiss her, but as she started moving closer to me, something stopped me. As soon as our lips touched, I pulled away and let out a strained breath I was holding in.

"I- I'm sorry, Eden... this... this feels so familiar... I know I've felt this with someone else before," I took my hand away from her gentle touch.

The hurt and concern in her eyes only made me feel worse for pulling away. I felt as if I needed to explain myself further.

"I know I said I would stop focusing on the past, but... what if there is someone I cared about before? What if she's waiting for me...? I don't understand..." I hung my head, putting my face in my hands. "Why can't I remember her?!" My anger grew for not being able to recall any memories along with the grief of realizing I hadn't fully let go of my past.

I felt Eden put a hand on my shoulder. "Boy... it's okay. Don't feel so angry at yourself. I know how hard this has been for you, so I understand if you're not ready yet."

I looked up at her, surprised. I saw her disappointed tears. "Y- You're not... mad?"

Through Eden's tears, she smiled. "No, of course not... yes, I wish you didn't have to go through this, but I will be here for you during it... and I don't want you to feel pressured into anything if you're not ready."

"But..." I trailed off. "I'm keeping you at such a distance... I'm not being fair to you..."

"No, you're not," Eden still smiled. "I don't mind just being friends for now. If it's meant to work out between us, it will."

I felt some relief knowing Eden didn't hate me for holding back from her. I raised my hand up to hers which rested on my shoulder. I held it, and lowered it into my lap. "I do care about you a lot, Eden, I just... I need more time... I feel like my old self is at war with this new life I'm trying to start..."

"I know... I can't imagine how difficult this is for you. But I promise I will always be here to listen," Eden lifted her hand to my cheek to wipe away my tears I didn't even notice had fallen.

"Thank you, Eden... I know you will," I let my tense body rest as Eden embraced me. I knew my feelings for Eden were true, but something inside of me was afraid that loving her the same way I had loved another girl before would trigger my memories to come flooding back.

Perhaps I didn't want to know my past anymore. If I did, then maybe I would have to leave Eden... and in this moment, I never wanted that to happen.