Chapter 4
Hi everyone, a new chapter and yes it's pretty long. A lot of drama in this one because im trying to keep things interesting. I hope you enjoy!
Both Rachel and Santana go back to join their friends who came to visit them for one week. Right away when they get back to the group, all eyes were on Santana who was drying her tears and questions were being asked. Santana are you okay? Santana what's wrong? Santana what happened? Were all being asked at the same time and the Latina just put her hands out, signaling everyone to stop talking and she replied "I'll be okay, it's just that Quinn needs a break so I broke up with her. I don't want to talk about it, can we please just have a great night and enjoy your visit? Let's have some fun" The gang shrugged unsure if that was the right thing to do, but they all ended up agreeing and they went for a night out on the town.
A few days pass by and although they had visitors the roommates still had to work. Fortunately they took separate shifts so their friends were never left alone. Santana was close to her shift being over and Brittany walks in to see her while all their other friends hung out. She saw her former girlfriend clock out and headed to meet her.
"Hey Santana" The blonde said
"Oh Britt, Hey what are you doing here?" Santana replied
"I came to see if you wanted to hang out? Just you and me, just as friends?"
Santana was a bit taken back by this request but she did miss her best friend so she obliged "Um, sure yeah let me just get my stuff." Brittany was excited and had planned a fun day for both of them. They went to dinner and up to the Empire State Building which neither had ever gone to before. They walked back together to Brittany's hotel room "I had a great time Britt, thank you I really needed this" Santana stated to the blonde. "I'm glad San, would you like to come up and talk? I know you haven't vented to anyone and it's bad for you to hold everything inside" Brittany smiled at the Latina, making her nod and say yes.
Brittany opens up the hotel room door and Santana is surprised that none of her other friends are in it. "Do you think they went out to party without us?"
Brittany confused says "What do you mean?"
"I mean where Artie and the rest of the gang?" Santana asked
"Maybe in their rooms? San I got my own room, I just wanted my own space while we were here" The dancer said making Santana a bit uncomfortable knowing that they have their own private space "Oh that's cool I guess, um Britt I don't know if I feel okay with being alone with you" Brittany was handing Santana a wine glass "We were alone together all day Santana, what's the difference?" The brunette realizing things got a bit awkward drank all the liquid in the glass. Brittany laughed and walked towards the couch "Santana come sit and relax, it's just me and you nothing weird about this" The brunette grabbed the wine bottle and sat next to Brittany and just went with the flow. They talked until around 4 am drinking and just catching up.
"I miss you" Brittany says
A drunken Latina replies "Yeah, I miss you too. Thank you for today Ive been a mess" she began to cry and the blonde wiped away her friends tears. While scooting closer to Santana she states "Please stop crying San, it breaks my heart." Santana looks up and stares at Brittany "I'm sorry, I just drank too much" Brittany cupped the smaller girls face and went in for a kiss. The former cheerio pulled away slowly "um Britt stop, I can't do this."
The blonde did not let go "San please, I need you and I know you want to do this. Don't hesitate please."
"I… I'm not ready Britt" Santana was unsure if she was telling the truth as she enjoyed feeling soft lips on her own
Brittany started kissing the brunette's neck which was a big weakness for Santana "I want you San, I know you like this right now please don't fight it"
The dark haired girl was turned on at that moment and knew that this would be a big mistake but she was too drunk to care. She missed this feeling of being wanted, touched, and kissed. It could have been anyone and she would have said yes, it just happened to be her ex. Santana wasn't feeling love, she was feeling lust at the moment and her feelings for Brittany did not alter. She went for it to feel something other than sadness and heartbreak. The regret would be waiting for her in the late morning but it was without a care in that time that she slept with Brittany.
The morning came and Mike went to knock on Brittany's hotel room. The blonde and the Brunette woke up with a terrible headache.
Santana got up and noticed she was naked "What the fuck? Why don't I have clothes on?!" She pulled the blanket with her and looked for her clothes. Brittany found her top and shorts and walked over to see who was at the door. "Who is it?" Santana asked while putting on her clothes "Its Mike" The Brunette replied "Don't answer! Let me hide, they can't know I'm here!" Brittany confused let Santana hide before opening the door. "Hey Brittany, we are meeting Kurt, Rachel, and Santana for breakfast. Um are you okay? You look hungover" The blonde smiled and nodded "Yes I am but I would love to join you guys, give me 5 minutes and I'll meet you down stairs" Mike gave her a thumbs up and left the room.
"Hey Santana, looks like we are meeting you for breakfast with Rachel and Kurt. Do you just want to go downstairs with me?"
The brunette grabbed her bag and replied "No Britt, they can't see us together. This was a huge mistake, we have to pretend last night didn't happen! I have to get out of here"
The blonde looked at Santana "A mistake? Santana that was not a mistake that was me and you and getting back what we lost. I love you, I have never stopped San. I know you still love me, how can you call last night a mistake?"
Santana stopped dead in her tracks and looked directly at the blonde "Damn it Britt, you're going to make me be mean to you. This is exactly why I wasn't comfortable being alone with you last night. I don't know what you want me to say but cmon Brittany." The Latina shrugged spitting out the last sentence
"C'mon what Santana?" Brittany asked
The black haired girl shook her head side to side knowing that she was about to break the taller girls heart with her statement. "I love Quinn. I'm still so in love with her and I hate that if she finds out about this, I will hurt her. I am sorry Brittany but I shouldn't have done any of this, especially with you. I hope you know that you have a special place in my heart, I still love you and care about you it's just that I am not in love with you anymore."
"This sucks, I thought if I came we would get back together. I don't know why I thought that, I mean you broke up with her. I guess it was a wish that we would pick up where we left off."
Santana sighed "It was a wish, we are done B. I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong idea."
In that moment Brittany's phone rang and it was her friends looking for her, wiping away her tears she answers "On my way Artie… No I don't know where Santana is at." She hung up, grabbed her bag and coat and left the Latina in her hotel room without a word.
Rachel and Kurt show up to their apartment to find the third roommate finishing her breakfast.
"San, why didn't you join us? We don't have our friends around us for much longer" Rachel stated making her friend shrug "I had a rough night" Santana said while getting up to wash her dishes. "Well how rough could it be? You hung out with Brittany" Kurt laughed making the brunette stay still for a bit. "Oh my God! You slept with her!" Santana turned her head back so fast it gave her a whiplash "What are you talking about Porcelain"
Kurt kept staring at Santana "You so did, there's no other explanation. Like you had a "rough night" while spending it with Britt, you didn't come home, and you decided to skip breakfast with our friends including a certain blonde that looked rather sad but nobody noticed except me. You slept with Brittany and broke her heart because you still love Quinn, I mean obviously"
Santana was in shock because all of it was true and she could not lie to these people about what happened.
"Is that true San?" Rachel asked
"Damn it Kurt! No one needed to know this!" Santana hung her head defeated "Yes its true and I already feel terrible about it please don't rub it in. I do love Quinn I mean it hasn't even been a week and I do this, and not just with anyone. I messed up bad, and I hate myself so much right now." The taller brunette went to go sit on the couch while wiping away some tears. The other roommates went to sit next to her.
"Santana, don't beat yourself up so much. Please tell me you didn't do it with the intension of doing that?" Kurt asked
"Of course not Kurt! We just spent all day together, she invited me to the room but honestly I thought she was staying with everyone else. I went up to the room and told her I felt uncomfortable but she insisted and I should have left, I know that but I didn't and we drank like it was the last day on earth. All I remember is taking a large gulp of alcohol and waking up next to Brittany naked. I don't know what to do, do I tell Quinn? I feel like I need to tell her."
"Why would you do that? I'm shocked that I'm saying this but you are broken up right? You'll just hurt more and you will hurt Q." Kurt said
"Santana I think you should tell her, only because if she finds out from someone else it will hurt her even more than what Kurt says"
"What do you mean someone else?" Santana asked
"I mean what if Brittany tells someone and it gets to Quinn? Or what if Brittany decides to tell her? She wants you back and if she thinks that this will help she might just do it" Rachel replied
Santana looked puzzled "I don't think she would do that. Would she?"
"You thought she wasn't going to hurt you and she did. So there is a possibility Q will find out" Kurt stated changing his first opinion
"I gotta go for a walk, Ill see you all later" Santana got up and started walking to the door.
"We are all hanging out tonight Santana, our friends leave tomorrow morning. As difficult as it is please meet up with us at callbacks later on?"
Santana waved back "Ugh fine!"
The black haired girl found herself walking around central park where she found an empty bench and decided that the present is the only good time to tell the truth. She dialed her ex-girlfriends number.
"Hello?"
"Hey Quinn"
"Hey Santana, nice to hear your voice"
"Yours too, um I need to tell you something"
"Okay shoot"
"I slept with someone"
There was pure silence that made Santana panic. "It really didn't mean anything, I wasn't sure if I should tell you. I mean were broken up but I felt that I needed to tell you and Barbra and porcelain told me I should in case you heard it from somewhere else. The truth is that I hate myself so much for even doing anything at this moment, I am such an idiot and it shouldn't have happened because I still love you so much."
"I don't know what to say"
"Quinn I'm sorry"
"Who was it?"
"huh?" Santana was incredibly nervous to say the name. She was also confused as to why the green eyed girl was quick to ask this particular question.
"Santana who did you sleep with?"
"Don't be mad, it was Brittany"
"I knew it, but it's my own fault. I shouldn't have wanted a break, I made a mistake too by letting you go at the moment that your ex was in town." Quinn stated with her voice breaking "I guess I didn't worry because of how much you said you loved me but I was wrong."
The Latina couldn't hold back her tears "I do love you Q, I love you so much and I messed up big time."
"It's okay, I actually shouldn't be upset. We are not together, I don't have any right to be angry." Quinn stated "Thank you for letting me know. I have to go Santana, have a good life." The blonde hung up leaving her ex on the phone talking "No Quinn, I'm sorry I love you please" The brunette cried and put away her phone when she realized that there was no one on the other line. While crying, she texted her friends for details on their hangout later. She noticed she needed to go and meet up with her friends, but took a few more minutes to sob before leaving the park. The Latina wiped away her tears, got up and went to Callbacks.
Arriving to Callbacks she instantly finds her friends and is greeted by a familiar blonde. "Hey Santana, im so happy you came." Brittany hugged her friend.
"Santana since you are late you are singing first!" Artie yelled
Santana dumbfounded looked at her friends "Wait what? No"
"Oh Santana you have an amazing voice and we all voted so you go. You are already signed up!" Rachel stated
"Just for the record, I hate all of you!" The raven haired girl turned to walk up to the stage and looked for a song to sing. Santana starts singing and her pain was felt through the speakers.
I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowin' my pride
Standin' in front of you sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you
Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time.
She finished her song and while wiping away her tears you could hear a very loud applause and cheering for the Latina making her smile. Santana excused herself and went to the bathroom to clean herself up, while finishing up in the bathroom a smaller blue haired girl came in.
"Excuse me, you were amazing"
"Um thank you" Santana replied
"My name is Dani, what's yours?" Dani asked
"I'm Santana nice to meet you"
"Pleasure is all mine." Dani smiled at the Latina "You were so impressive, I really hope I get to run into you again." The shorter girl winked and turned to leave the bathroom. Santana was confused but also amused, this girl made her smile with her flirtatious attitude and made her feel good after a really bad day. The group said their goodbye's to each other and went to their separate ways, while walking away Brittany pulls Santana to the side.
"I just want to say that, I love you and I'm afraid I always will. I know there's not a big chance that we will be together but I will always hope for it. Goodbye Santana." They hugged without Santana saying a word and they let each other go without hesitation.