As Henry walked back out with some oreos, Blair looked back to Chuck.

"I'm sorry I kissed you"

"I'm not" he said moving to her hand trailing under her chin she closed her eyes as a stray tear fell.

Feeling his breathe against her lips as their noses pressed together she opened her eyes.

Catching her eyes with his she bit down on her bottom lip before he moved in lips softly pressing against hers.

She moved in quick and aggressively biting down onto his lip briefly before slipping her tongue in to meet his.

Before long she took a step back as she was pressed against the kitchen counter.

His left thigh meeting the inside of hers, she suddenly felt his package pressed against her.

Pulling at his light brown tie she ripped it off him as he picked her up and put her on the kitchen counter again.

As his hand trailed up her thigh he removed her thong with the tips of his fingers as she began to unbutton his tweed waistcoat.

Kissing aggressively she started to pull at his jacket, before he pulled it off himself and his waistcoat.

Running her hands through his hair he began to kiss the nape of her neck

Before sliding two fingers into her he smiled against her mouth feeling how wet she was for him already.

"now" she begged as she purred into his ear before smashing her lips against his again.

Moving her hands down to relieve the pressure from inside his trousers, she moved herself to the edge as she hoovered him above her entrance before he happily obliged.

Before long they had collapsed next to one another in a sweaty heap.

Looking into his eyes she felt this overwhelming wave of emotion, swallowing and titling her head slightly she panted "It was the perfect way to say goodbye" as she placed her hand on his chest.

Feeling herself on the brink of tears "Just because we can't be together, doesn't mean I don't love you"

"I could never love anyone else but you" he said rolling over to meet her gaze properly, eyes filling up "You are the first, the last and the only women I have ever loved"

"Chuck" she begged him from torturing himself.

"Mrs Bass, Mrs Bass..." she heard as her eyes suddenly opened to the bright light above her.

Reliving the last time she saw him. She told her head to wipe that from memory, refusing to believe that had happened, he just left she told herself.

"Mrs Bass?!" the voice said firmly.

"Sorry" Blair said lifting her head up.

"We are all done"

"They look lovely, thank you" she commented on her perfectly manicured feet.

*1 week later*

"You okay? I've brought you some toast"

"Thanks" Serena managed to utter as she flushed the toilet before she sat back against the bath.

"You've got the day off"

"Again? People will start asking questions"

"Let them, you're both more important to me" he said moving down and kissing her forehead.

"I love you"

"I love you too"

"Have you spoken to Chuck? How is he from there meeting last week?"

"Surprisingly okay, which is worrying I think he's hoping Blair will come round"

"He signed the divorce papers Nate?"

"Yeah because Blair asked him too, she wanted the divorce?"

"I don't think she does" Serena said, "Blair was honestly inconsolable on the phone"

"I just don't think I could ever imagine them not together?"

"Same, especially with Henry too" Nate just nodded.

"I have to go, I'll come see you on my lunch break and check how you're both doing. Just rest" he smiled kissing her cheek and leaving.

"Mommy?"

"Mrs Blair?" Dorota asked.

"Mommy we made you breakfast"

"You did?" Blair said sitting up in bed, "we did it to cheer you up"

"Thanks baby" Blair kissed Henry as he placed the tray of pancakes on her lap.

"Come we got your pancakes to eat haven't we?" Dorota said and Henry nodded "Yeah with choc chips" he said running off excited as Dorota smiled and shut the door behind her.

Covering her face in her hands she let out a huge sigh, her head was all over the place.

Her and Chuck were now in the process of getting a divorce but truthfully? She didn't want it, she didn't want one, she stupidly and probably naïvely still loved him regardless of all the heartbreak she felt she thought to herself.

There was no going back now though right? He was more than willing to give her what she wanted and let her go.

She hadn't slept. She couldn't. she was missing without him beside her, rolling over to his side of the bed she held her hand out where he would be.

She was ashamed of what happened yesterday.

Knocking on his bedroom door she put the bottle of wine on the floor and stood to the side.

Opening the door Chuck looked before glancing down at the bottle of wine as Blair appears.

""I thought we could both do with a drink"

"A drink?"

"A drink, to the old days, to the way things used to be"

As his eyes flicked from one eye to another he was trying so desperately to try and read her? Not really sure what this meant.

"Sure" Chuck said following her out to the bar to get them some wine glasses.

Pouring them both they both sat down on the couch as he passed her a glass.

Sitting there in silence for a few minutes he looked at her "sorry, I'm a little confused"

"I just wanted for us to have a drink"

"Is that the only reason?"

"I can't forget what's happened, the fact you're having a baby with someone that isn't me" Chuck just nodded as he ran his tongue over his lips "I know. It breaks my heart everyday that I'm not with you"

"Chuck"

"It's true, when I pick up Henry I hope and pray to see you, even just for a second. Then when I'm with him, I see you"

"He does look like us" she admitted taking a sip of wine.

"It amazes me that he's us, half you half me, he's perfect"

"He is, he loves you" she smiled as Chuck took a sip of his wine.

"I love him. Since my father passed aside from you, he's the lightest thing that ever came into my life"

"I, I should probably go" she started as she finished off her wine. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have come here" she stumbled, trying to hurry to the elevator.

Chuck just looked on confused as she practically jumped into the elevator before tapping wildly for it to close and go down.

After a long warm bath, she goes through her wardrobe picking out a beautiful nude Gucci dress, trying it on it was unbearably tight that even her poor boobs were sore from the pressure.

Taking it off she didn't dare step on the scales but couldn't help it as she tried to not repeat the number that stared back at her.

Putting on another dress she looked at herself in the mirror, still slightly figure hugging she thought as she heard Henry shout "Daddy"

"Hey buddy, ready to go?"

Opening up the bedroom door there he stood with Henry in his arms "Morning Dorota, we'll be back by four"

"No problem Mr Chuck, got toys in bag"

"Thank you" he said putting Henry down and finally looking up catching Blair in his side vision.

Looking at her, he felt like time froze slightly as his mouth slowly started to part.

"Ready to go Daddy?" Henry asked as Chuck looked back down, "Sure, go get your bag" smiling he looked over to Blair as his smile faded.

"Got it," Henry said as he walked over to him, bag over his shoulder.

"Bye Mommy" Henry waved as he walked off towards the elevator "Bye" she smiled and waved back as she watched them both walk away.

Knocking on the door, she waited before hearing him call her into his office "Come in"

"Blair?"

"Hey Nate"

"Blair what are you doing here?"

"I was looking for Serena?"

"She's off today"

"Is she?" Blair looked confused, "that's strange, why hasn't she messaged me asking to go shopping or for brunch"

"Just feeling under the weather"

"Everything okay?"

"Yeah just a little food poisoning"

"I'll go check on her, see if she needs anything"

"She might be resting"

"That's okay" Blair said turning around and walking off.

Nate starts typing and sending a quick message to Serena to warn her, before getting back to work.

"S?" she said as gently as she could.

"Blair?"

"It's me, are you okay? Nate said you had food poisoning"

"Yeah, feeling a little better but I haven't slept much, I'm so tired" Serena said as Blair moved over towards her.

"I'm fine B I promise, Nate has made sure I've got everything" Blair just sighed as she laid on the bed beside her.

"Are you okay?"

"Its over, once and for all. But I'm going to be strong. It just still doesn't feel right without him"

"Are you sure this is what you want?"

Blair sat here for a moment really considering it "No, but he's left me with no choice"

"There is always a choice" Serena said turning to look at her as she rested on her side.

"If I never laid eyes, on him then I wouldn't have fallen in love and he wouldn't have fallen in love and that may have made two more lonely people in this world. Though a lot less, pain."

"I guess you have to weigh up if the pain is worth more than you both being lonely in this world"

"How do I know if it is?"

"Only you know and can answer that Blair. I cant answer it for you" Throwing her head back she just gazed at the ceiling.

Feeling Serena rub her arm she looked over to her and smiled a little, hearing her phone ring she moves over and goes into her bag "Hello?" she said sitting up.

"Oh hi, yes sorry. Yeah I'm free to talk" throwing her feet over the bed she perched on the edge.

"Okay, yes. I'm sorry?" her voice changed

"You, you wrote what? You demanded, are you joking?" her voice seemed to change into a panic.

"No that is not what I want, he wont agree to it and he shouldn't either. How dare you, yes I want that changed. What do you mean? Don't ring me back until you fix it, or I try too" she spat angrily as she slammed her phone onto the bed.

"What's happened is everything ok?" Serena said through gritted teeth, worried about her response.

"No they've demanded I have full custody of Henry. This is going to destroy him."

"Will it find out today?"

"No tomorrow morning when it gets sent to him"

"Okay, so calm down before you go anywhere, last thing you want to do is worry yourself and make the situation worse"

"You're right"

"Okay so sleep on it tonight and then go see him tomorrow morning, with a fresh head and a clear mind"

"When did you get so smart?"

"Must have matured" Serena laughed.

"If you say so"

"Hey" Serena shot back as Blair laughed.

"Your right, I need a plan" she said moving over into her bad and grabbing out a notepad and pen.

"Okay so" she said starting to write down, shaking her pen she tried to scribble put the pen wasn't working.

"S, do you"

"Top draw, next to the fridge in the kitchen"

"Thanks" she said getting up and going off to into the kitchen.

Rummaging through the draw she finds one, checks if it's working and shuts the draw.

Walking off she hears her stomach grumble so goes into the fridge and picks up a jar of pickles and takes them with her back to the room.

Sitting down she opens the jar and takes out a pickle and starts eating it as she starts writing out a plan.

Looking over Serena gets a huge stench of pickle as her eyes widen and she shoots off into the bathroom before vomiting.

"You okay S? Let me come and hold your hair back?"

"Its" she vomits before trying to continue, "okay, just the smell of food is turning my stomach" she manages to finish before throwing up again.

"Oh god I'm sorry, I just had a real craving for some pickle. Not sure why? I haven't had any in years. I'm putting it back in the fridge now for you" Blair said walking out of the room.

"Thank you" she said exhausted as she flushed the toilet and walked back into the bedroom.

Sitting down, Nate calls her "Hey"

"Hey how you feeling?"

"Not great but" she said looking to see if she was coming back "It'll be worth it in the end" she smiled.

"It will" he smiled back, "look I cant come see you on my lunch, I also probably wont be coming home"

"Why what's wrong?"

"Chuck has just called me, hes really torn up, upset and angry"

"Blair?" she whispered having another glance.

"Yeah, how did you know?"

Serena sighed, "How did he find out?"

"That she's demanding fully custody of Henry?"

"Yeah"

"You know Chuck, pays people to find out what he wants. She's taking Henry off him?"

"It wasn't her idea, but we are both concerned how he'd take the news"

"He's not taken it well, he's already drinking"

"We are really worried about him"

"Me too, especially with everything going on with Katie too"

"Is he close to finding anything out?"

"Be in the next week or so he reckons"

I know, I know.. been a long long time (again)

Making up by posting two chapters for you.

Also anyone caught any of the new GG? I actually watched it all and ain't bad.

No Chuck and Blair but still pretty good!