I do not own Supergirl or any of its characters. I simply made this as I felt a traumatic event would be enough to help shake Brainy's cold exterior front and help our favorite hero couple find one another again. This starts two months post break-up. It is also my first fan-fic ever so please be honest but nice, and thank you!
Chapter 1
Nia feels numb, she isn't sure how else to describe it. She has lost her soul mate. She has spent every day at least once and maybe twice crying her eyes out. Brainy was acting cold, heartless, and as though she never really mattered to him at all. It hurt so much to think Brainy could act this way towards her or anyone else. But she seemed to be the main target of disdain for Brainy as of late. She feels her mind is playing tricks on her, because sometimes, she feels watched, as though she catches a glimpse of Brainy in a crowded room or out her window, but as quick as that feeling comes it is gone. Nia knows she must let Brainy go, but she doesn't want to break her promise. She promised him when he first removed his inhibitors, that no matter who he became, she would love him regardless. But with this love came turmoil and pain because her Brainy was gone. Or was he ever really her Brainy? Or was this like when a person drinks too much and the truth comes out? Is the uninhibited Brainy just the true Brainy and she just a drunken or inhibited mistake? At this thought an unmeaning sob escapes Nia's lips, and the pain is back ten times worse, and Nia breathes deep trying to push it down and lock it away. This too was how her Brainy handled trauma, she gets it now, because being numb is so much easier than this pain. Nia realizes nearly an hour has passed since she has returned home from work and she has yet to move from her spot on the couch staring at a black television screen. Nia glances at the clock, as it glares an angry 8:30pm in a red digital frame. She knew it had to be close because she had stayed over at work, diving into her work to become lost and maintain her numb feeling. She missed dinner and only had a banana for lunch and many cups of coffee. Nia knew she should eat some dinner, but she hadn't been shopping in a while. Since her and Brainy were no longer together, even food lacked its usual luster for her. Brainy would come by once a month to drop off the rent and his half of utilities under the door for his portion, as he says this is his duty until Nia finds a roommate again. Nia had finally told him last month through Jonn that she found one, it was a lie, but she couldn't take any more envelopes of cash from him. It hurt, like she meant so little to him, but here is some cash to dry your tears. Kara had invited her to come over tonight for a game night. But she couldn't do it. Seeing Alex and Kelly together, then Kara and William, was just too much. She was happy for them she truly was, and she knew her decision to stay home was selfishly motivated.
But seeing them all happy and in love just made her face her true feelings, made the numbness disappear and she didn't want to bring their mood all down with hers. Jonn had been so sweet to her, all her friends had, as nobody seem to know why Brainy broke up with Nia, even she didn't. Nia wondered that now he was uninhibited if maybe, her being trans was an issue, maybe he realized he never really loved her, or maybe she was just never good enough for Brainy. Nia smiles at the thought because Brainy is amazing, he is brilliant, and good, so if he was treating her so differently now, maybe the problem was always her. Nia stood up because she couldn't take her thoughts any longer, and she needed a distraction, Nia looked in her room at her costume and decided she would go out on patrol tonight, it would be the distraction she needed at least until she was exhausted enough to sleep dreamlessly. She couldn't stand her vivid like dreams most nights, reliving the breakup over and over, or a new one she been having with Brainy hooked up to all these strings like some sort of puppet, it made no sense. But Nia thinks the strings are a symbol to his connections to the big brain now, since his inhibitors are gone.
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