Endings are some of the most basic concepts in the world. Everything that has a beginning comes to an end. It doesn't depend upon anyone or anything, it just happens. If you start something it will end doesn't matter if you did it or not it will end regardless.
As for me today was the ending of my high school life, my graduation ceremony. I was lurking at the far corner of room with some people. Yeah, I was standing with people with my own will. You can give the credit to Hiratsuka-sensei and my second year in high school. Looking back at that year it was sure something else.
While joining the club I never thought I will be happy with its influence on me. But now I am happy it happened. It helped me grew up as a person. Now thinking back, I sure did some serious cringe stuff. Hah! Now I wanna die to ease my embarrassment. The club helped me form a better perspective on society if not good. This in turn helped me improve my societal relationships.
Speaking of relationships, there were also my club members, who were closest to me than anyone else at that time. I am using at that time because after closure of service club we all drifted apart. I knew it, we will drift apart. That is why I approached Yukinoshita with second prom. During our talk at bridge I left myself bare open to her. But I was rejected. I didn't got chance to talk with her after that. As for Yuigahama it didn't felt right to interact with her after I told her about my feelings.
But I wasn't disappointed but rather happy that I took that step, I was happy I didn't disappointed sensei. After that, in my third year I became more open and approached others. When others came to understand what type of person I was from talking with me, they welcomed me. That proved I shouldn't have judged them without making efforts from my side.
In my third year I helped student council or rather I was forced to help by my junior. I saw Yukinoshita many times during work but we didn't talk. But it was not because of awkwardness but because I was satisfied with my current situation. I knew Isshiki and Komachi wanted to rebuild the club but I decided to acknowledge our decision to close it. I refused to join them.
With prom reaching its climax, I excused myself away from my company. I needed some air. Being a loner for most of my life, I had my limits. Reaching the rooftop I sighed to relieve myself of suffocation. From stairs I had a good look on prom. Students from both schools dressed in western wear enjoying last day of their high school. Second years got a separate platform this year so they can express their gratitude to graduates. There was emotion everywhere some were sad some were happy. It was a bittersweet image but had a certain charm of itself.
Burning one of last moments as a high school in my head I pushed the door and took a deep breath. As colorful the prom was the night sky was holding its beauty against it. The cluster of stars shining like tiny gems in deepest part ocean gave a feeling of otherworldliness. Without moon it still was mesmerizing to look.
Admiring the view, a smile formed on my face.
MY YOUTH WAS WRONG AS I EXPECTED