The Untouchable Stryker

by Kara2211

Lexa has had a very hard life. She doesn't know who her parents are or where she is really from. All she knows is she is different and wants to get out of Afghanistan. She is forced to fight for Ahmed's group when her school was bombed. That's where she met Ash, the person she thought was the love of her life but then she meets Clarke.

34. Chapter 34: Lexa

Chapter 33: Lexa

By the time Clarke and I made it home last night, she was exhausted and in pain. Dr. Norman said that she would be sore for a couple of days and that the stitches would dissolve independently. She also provided Clarke with the emergency contraceptive and pain medication, telling her to take it easy for a couple of days.

I tried to talk Clarke into staying home tomorrow instead of going to work, but she said that she already had to take time off to go to the fights with me, so she really couldn't. She also said that work would keep her mind off of everything that had happened.

I didn't want to push her too hard, so I let it go with the condition that she would let me know if she needed to talk. She promised to talk to me and said that she had made an appointment with the rape crisis counselor. So I started getting the couch ready for me to sleep on when she asks, "Do you think…uh…um would you mind sleeping with me tonight?"

"Um…sure if that is what you need. I will do anything; all you have to do is ask." So I go over to the bed and pull down the covers and get in, laying on my back on the right side of the bed. She crawls in next to me and asks if I will hold her, so I open up my arms, and she lays her head on my chest. I'm not sure what to do with my hand, so I just begin to rub her back. It doesn't take long for her to fall asleep. But, even though she sleeps, I don't think it is restful sleep. She tosses and turns all night talking in her sleep. A couple of times, even waking up screaming, Stop! When this happens, I wrap her in a hug and whisper into her ear until she calms down, falling back to sleep.

I don't really sleep, but my alarm goes off at five like usual. I start to ease my way out of bed, but Clarke tightens her grip and mumbles, "Please don't go."

I kiss her forehead, "Ya Amar, I have to train, and don't you have to get ready for work? I know you didn't get much sleep. Are you sure you don't want to call in and just stay here and relax?"

"No, I really need to go to work. What time is it?"

"It's five AM. Do you want breakfast?"

"Shit, I have to get ready for work." She starts to sit up but winces in pain.

"Are you okay? Can I do anything?"

"I'll be fine. I'm just sore. Shit! I need to go to the pharmacy and get Plan B since the paramedics didn't have any emergency contraceptives on the ambulance. How about I get a shower and meet you upstairs for breakfast before I head to work."

"Sweetie, Dr. Norman had you take the emergency contraceptive last night when she came by, remember? But what is a Plan B?"

"Oh, good! Um…it's a pill to make sure I don't get pregnant since Finn didn't bother to use protection. I don't want to…well, I don't want to have his kid. But if you are sure that I took the emergency contraceptive last night, I don't need to worry about Plan B."

"Oh, yeah, you took it last night. Please remember if you need to talk, I'm here. Now go get a shower, and I will see you upstairs." I lean in and kiss her on the cheek.

When she comes up for breakfast, I can tell she is in pain, and it kills me that I can't do anything about it. "Clarke, please stay home today so that you can take a pain pill and rest. I can see that you are in pain, and being on your feet all day isn't going to help that."

"It's not that bad, I promise. Besides, I really can't afford to take any more time off right now. I'm almost finished with my residency, and soon it will be so busy that I won't have time for anything else. So, it's good that I already have a mini-vacation planned with the fights."

After Clarke left for work, Jose and I worked out for about an hour before Ash got here for the second part of my training. Once we were finished, Ash said she needed to talk to me. Ash finally told me about her and Callie. It feels surprisingly good to get it out into the open. I mean, I basically knew something was up already, but I was giving her time to tell me. Maybe Clarke will see that Ash is no longer a threat to her and will give me a chance. I send a group text to the guys about getting together tomorrow after my morning training session to have some fun with the water toys.

Then I send another text to O, Jose, and Reed, asking them to meet me at the fire pit for drinks in about twenty minutes. After that, it's down to the spa for a cryo session before getting a shower. Even though I am glad to know where I stand with Ash, letting go isn't painless. I know she will always be there for me, but what we had in the desert was life-changing, and I will never forget it.

Lauren's people have finally finished with all the changes to my room and the rest of the boat. I have to admit, it's pretty awesome. I can't wait to show Asher his room tomorrow. I just hope Callie doesn't get mad about it. I had it decked out in UFC gear and posters, a loft bed put that holds a kid-sized heavy bag under it, along with a speed bag. It looks like his own little gym. I haven't even shown Ash yet.

When O and the guys get there, I have the shot glasses and tequila ready. Octavia says, "What's wrong? Why are we day drinking?"

I laugh, "Why does something have to be wrong for us to day drink?"

Jose says, "Well, you don't normally day drink, especially since you are training for the fight next week."

"Fine, you got me. Ash finally told me about her and Callie being together. Before you say anything, I'm fine and knew it was coming. It just…well, it still hurts some even though I agree that what we had is over."

O says, "I know it sucks, but now maybe Clarke will see she has nothing to worry about."

"Exactly, that's why I invited everyone over tomorrow. Ash will bring Asher and Callie so, I thought if we had more people over, it wouldn't be as awkward for Callie. Then Clarke could see that Ash and Callie are together."

Reed shakes his head, "You must really like this girl if you are willing to be around Callie and Ash together. I mean, I would think that it would be painful to see her with Callie after what you two once had."

"Well, we are all going to have to get used to being around one another at some point. I realize that what Ash and I had was more than likely due to what we went through together. We will always be a part of one another's life, just not like we had thought we would. We're friends and will always be there for each other no matter what."

Octavia says, "I'll drink to that. But, hey, why don't we go to that Mexican place you like so much, then text everyone to meet up at the Dragon's Den tonight?"

"Sure, that sounds good."

I decided to go out and have fun tonight and not think about anything other than having fun. I want to dance and drink and just let loose for a change. These last couple of weeks have been intense with training and the awkwardness between Ash and me and Clarke and me. Then with everything that happened last night, I just hope that Clarke will feel like coming out. So tonight, I'm just going to see what happens.

The Dragon's Den is packed as usual, which is fine with me. I walk in and grab what has become our table in the corner. I like it because I can see everyone come and go. I go ahead and order a bottle of Patron and have a few shots while I wait on everyone else to arrive. O is already on the dance floor with a hot redhead. I don't have to wait long until Jess and Angie arrive. They are usually the first to come and are always ready for shots. It's funny how well Jess and I get along, considering she's Callie's younger sister, but we do. After a few more shots, I feel relatively relaxed and decide to head out and join O.

About an hour later, I'm feeling terrific, and the crew is all here, well except for Finn, but I'm glad he isn't here, and he better have enough sense not to show up, especially with the restraining order. I'm happy Clarke decided to come out, even though I can tell she is still in some pain. She also had some good news to share. She's off for the next few days to go to the fight and things which makes me extremely happy. Hopefully, she will spend some of her free time with just me. Finally, there is a break in the music, and someone comes over the microphone and says that karaoke will be starting soon.

I let out a groan. Ever since that first night that I sang here, I'm expected to sing every time I'm here. I have to admit, though, it was kind of fun once I was up there. I follow Jessie up to sign up, and O comes up behind me and says, "Yep, we are definitely doing it after we were such a hit last time."

I jokingly say, "I don't think so. I'm not that drunk." Even though I've already signed up and also told Jessie that I would sing with her.

O laughs, "Well, we can fix that easily enough. Bartender a round of fireball, please."

We take a few fireball shots and a couple of yager bombs while listening to people murder one song after another. While I'm waiting on my turn to sing, I have a few drinks while I sit there and watch everyone on the dance floor. They all seem so happy with their partners, and I realize that's what I want. I don't like the one-night stands, I want something more, and I want it with Clarke. So I decide I want to let Clarke know how I feel by singing to her. Now that I have finally cleared the air with Ash, I want to let Clarke see that I am all in whenever she is ready. I want her to know that I choose her, not because Ash went back to Callie but because she changed everything for me when I kissed her. So I ask O to help me pick out a song.

When it's Jess's turn, she grabs me, pulling me up to the stage with her. When we get up there, she tells the DJ Crave by Thomas Rhett. She looks at me and says, "You take the lead, and I will sing back up." The song begins, and I sing, looking at Clarke. Every time we have to say goodbye/I'm counting down until we say hello/Every touch is like the strongest drug/I don't know how much longer I can go/I never had something that I can't walk away from/But, girl, my self-control's so paralyzed/When it comes to you, no, I ain't got no patience/There's something 'bout you girl I just can't fight/Jess comes in, You're like that cigarette/That shot of 100 proof/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving you/That feeling when we kiss/The way your body moves/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving you/Craving you/All the in-between is killing me/You know I come unglued from missing you/Sunset eyes, no, I don't have to try
Because you know exactly what to do. Jess comes in for the chorus, I never had something that I can't walk away from (walk away from)/But, girl, my self-control's so paralyzed/When it comes to you, no, I ain't got no patience (I ain't got no patience)/There's something 'bout you I just can't fight/You're like that cigarette/That shot of 100 proof/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving/That feeling when we kiss/The way your body moves/No matter how much I get
I'm always craving you/Craving you/(I'm always craving you)/Craving you/Craving you/Every time we have to say goodbye/I'm counting down until we say hello/Every touch is like the strongest drug/I don't know how much longer I can go/(Yeah, yeah, yeah)/You're like that cigarette/That shot of 100 proof/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving/That feeling when we kiss/The way your body moves/No matter how much I get/I'm always craving you, yeah
Craving you/Craving you(I'm craving you baby)/Clarke I'm craving you/I'm craving you babe

As soon as that song is over, Octavia comes running up on stage with a shot of tequila for me, telling the DJ to play Way to Pretty for Prison by Miranda Lambert. I laugh, downing the shot, and start to sing. They don't have rhinestone ball and chains/Lunch trays don't come with Chardonnay/The bars there ain't got boys to buy us drinks, I add which is ok, we don't like them anyway/We'd stick out like two bottled blondes/I must admit it don't sound fun/For fifteen girls to have to share one sink. O comes in to help with the chorus, He cheated, he's a villain/And you know I'd help you kill him/But you're way too pretty for prison/Hard time ain't our kind of living
And I don't want to talk about/The way those jumpsuits wash us out/We're way too pretty for prison/ Here it comes back to me and I change the words a little, I can put Antifreeze with his Gatorade/Arsenic in his lemonade/Takes just one snip to bleed his brakes/But we ain't gonna do it/(She ain't gonna do it)/But I might just do it/Yeah, we've been watching too much TV/You ain't Thelma, I ain't Louise/But if we ask 'em they'd both agree/We should put him through it/(Don't put him through it)/I think I will put him through it. O comes in again, He cheated, he's a villain
So let's hire somebody to kill him/'Cause we're way too pretty for prison/Yeah, hard time ain't our kind of living/And I don't want to talk about/The way those jumpsuits wash us out/We're way too pretty for prison/La de da da da/(La de da da da)/La de da da da/(La de da da da)/La de da da/La de da da/La de da da da/Well, the state won't pay for lash extensions/No Sun Tan City, not to mention/That lack of waxing situation/Oh oh. We run the chorus one last time, and then we're done.

We walk back to the table laughing, and Clarke looks at me and smiles. I grab another shot and then sit down beside her. Octavia says, "Would you really do it if you could get away with it?"

I laugh, giving them my trademark smirk, "In a heartbeat, even if I didn't get away with it. I've been in one prison or another my whole life, so I'm quite sure I would survive, and it would be worth it to know that he couldn't hurt anyone ever again."

Clarke leans in, whispering, "I would never want you to go to prison for me, but it's nice to know that you would." Then she kisses me on the cheek.

Jess speaks up, "I feel like the rest of us are missing out on part of the conversation. What's so funny about that song?"

Clarke turns pink and says, "Really, Jess. Why don't you think about it for a while and see if you can figure it out?" O, Clarke, and I die laughing, while Jess has a look of utter confusion on her face.

When it's my turn, I lean in kiss Clarke on the cheek, "This is for you, babe." Then take the microphone and start to sing I can't fight this feeling by REO Speed wagon. I look at Clarke, beginning to sing…Oh, I can't fight this feeling any longer/And yet, I'm still afraid to let it flow/What started out as friendship, has grown stronger/I only wish I had the strength to let it show/I tell myself that I can hold out forever/I said there is no reason for my fear/'Cause I feel so secure when we're together/You give my life direction/You make everything so clear. Finally,I add, "I want you, Clarke, and no one else."

Octavia joins me for the chorus: And even as I wander, I'm keeping you in sight/You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter's night/And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might/And I can't fight this feeling anymore/I've forgotten about Ash and what I thought I wanted what I started fighting for is no more/It's time to bring this ship into the shore and show you how I feel/And throw away the oars, forever/Cause I can't fight my feelings for you anymore/I've forgotten what I started fighting for/And if I have to crawl upon the floor/Come crashing through your door/Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore

I sing the second verse: My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you/I've been running round in circles in my mind since we kissed/And it always seems that I'm following you, girl/'Cause you take me to the places that, alone, I'd never find

Again, O joins me for the chorus. When we get to the part about, I can't fight this feeling anymore, I step off the stage and start to walk towards Clarke. She starts looking around, and then I take a few quick steps and slide across the floor as I sing if I have to crawl upon the floor/Come crashing through your door. Finally, I come to a stop at her feet, standing up, taking her hand, and finishing strong with, Baby, I can't fight my feelings anymore.

When I finish, the place erupts into cheers. O looks at me with a huge smile, but I can only see Clarke. When I finally find my voice, I say, "What can I do to prove to you that I am over Ash and ready to move on?" Everyone is staring at us, but I don't care. I need to know. Her cheeks are red at this point, and I think that she is about to run. Instead, to my surprise, she pulls me in, kissing me deeply. Everyone starts clapping. When I pull away, I look into her beautiful emerald eyes and ask, "Does this mean…." I don't get to finish my sentence because Finn grabs Clarke from behind, pulling her away from me. I'm stunned for a minute and just stand there until I snap out of it, realizing what is happening. I ball up my fist and head toward Finn. I can't believe the asshole is here.

Clarke pushes him away, "Finn, how are you even out of jail right now? You know you aren't supposed to be near me. Now leave before I call the cops."

He says, "You knew that my dad would get me out of jail, so I don't know why you are so surprised. Now let's go."

He grabs her by the arm and starts to pull her. She pushes him, "I'm not going anywhere with you. Leave me alone."

He says, "Bullshit, you will do as you are told like always!" Then he raises his hand like he is about to hit her. I grab him from behind as Clarke kicks him hard in the nuts, and I let him go to slump onto the floor, holding himself. I dial Officer Allison's number telling her what just happened, and she tells me to tell the bouncer to keep him until she can get here.

Finn is still lying on the floor when Officer Allison gets here. I think at some point, he must have passed out because when she checks, he's unconscious. When she rolls him over, I notice that he has pissed himself and has what looks like blood on his pants. She calls for an ambulance when they arrive a few minutes later and take him to the hospital. Officer Allison takes everyone's statement and then heads out.

Once she was gone, I look at Clarke and ask her if she is okay. She just nods yes. The next person up starts singing, and it seems like everyone is going back to what they were doing. I look at O and say, "I think that I am going to call it a night and head home. Clarke, would you like to come to stay with me tonight just to make sure he doesn't try anything stupid? That is if he gets out of the hospital tonight. Remind me not to let you kick me."

She looks at me and says, "Haha, very funny. Yes, I think that would be a good idea. I'm sorry that Finn ruined your…well, your romantic gesture. It was really amazing, and you have an incredible voice."

I can feel my cheeks heat up as the rest of the group circles around, and everyone starts telling me how great I sing and how romantic my singing to Clarke was. Then they switch to how they can't believe Finn made such a scene after he was the one that was caught cheating. I just shake my head and say, "I can, he never liked me, and he's pissed because it was me that caught him. I guess he thought that out of everyone Clarke wouldn't believe me."

Sammy spoke up, "I'd seen him out with other women before, but I could never catch him doing anything incriminating enough to warrant bringing it up to Clarke. He was pretty careful about going places that none of us ever went. So I had my suspicions but nothing concrete. I'm sorry I didn't say anything sooner, Clarke, but I wanted to be sure first."

Clarke replies, "It's okay. I had my suspicions too. I just didn't want to believe it. Hell, I almost didn't believe it when Lexa told me even though she had pictures. Anyway, I'm sorry that he ruined our night out. Well, I guess I will see everyone tomorrow at Lexa's for some fun in the sun."

The ride back to the docks was quiet. I could tell Clarke was upset, and I wanted to give her time to process everything. As we walked to the Untouchable, she grabs my hand, stopping me. Once we stop, she looks me in the eyes, saying, "Thank you."

I was confused, so I ask, "For what?"

"Well, being so patient for one but…also for that amazing song you sang. I can't believe you did that. What made you do it?"

"You're welcome. I was sitting there watching all the couples and how happy they were, and I just wanted to do something to let you know how I feel about you, and well…it just sorta happened. As far as being patient, I feel like you're worth the wait. Just know that I am here when you are ready. You can trust me, you know, that, right?"

She looked at the ground, then up at me, nodding, "But what if…what if I'm never ready? I never thought that I'd want to be with a woman. I always assumed that I would marry Finn and end up, I don't know. When I met you, it was…I was, uh…When I met you, I was scared to death of the way you made me feel. Then when we kissed, it only scared me more. I tried to push you away by being cold and mean, but you just seemed to shrug it off, never holding it against me. I mean…well, I'm scared, and…um…I've never been with anyone but Finn, until you came along, had never even thought of being with a woman. What if…what if I don't like it or I don't know what to do? And…well, with everything that has happened, why would you even still want to be with me."

I lean in and kiss her on the cheek, "Ya Amar, don't worry about any of those things. I'm not going anywhere, and I don't want you to feel pressured or uncomfortable. You let me know what you want and need, and I will be there, and if at some point you realize it's not for you…well, we will figure it out. But, yes, I still want to be with you. There isn't anything that he can do to make me not want to be with you. Understand?"

"Thank you."

When we get to my room, I grab her a pair of sweats and a t-shirt to sleep in. While she changes, I get the couch set up for me with a blanket and pillow. It is already around one a.m., and I am ready to crash, especially since I have an early morning training session. So, I am lying on the couch when she comes out of the bathroom.

She comes out and looks at me lying on the couch and says, "You know you don't have to sleep on the couch."

I say sleepily, "Huh? I want you to have the bed. I am fine here on the couch."

She laughs, "No, silly. I mean, we can share the bed…but just for sleeping like last night."

"No, it is okay. I don't mind sleeping here. I don't want you to feel pressured to sleep with me just because I sang you a song."

"You know, you can really be an idiot sometimes. I am saying that I would really like it if you would please sleep with me again tonight. You know, in case I have more bad dreams. Plus, I would really like to wake up beside you."

"What…oooh okay. I can do that for sure. Is it okay to snuggle or…"

She chuckles at me. "Of course, silly. I would love to snuggle with you."

We spent the night in each other's arms, sleeping. It was the best night's sleep since the night I last spent with Ash. There were only a couple of times I could hear her grunting in pain when she would turn over, but she didn't have any nightmares. Unfortunately, five a.m. came too quickly. I wake up early, lying on my side, and Clarke is all wrapped up around my body, hugging me from behind softly, snoring in my ear. In her sleep, she has molded herself against my back. The crazy thing about it is how comfortable and at ease, I feel in Clarke's embrace. It was just so damned perfect. Our two bodies fit as if they have been custom-made for each other. Clarke has a single arm draped around my neck, and I was clutching onto her left hand.

Clarke was sleeping so peacefully that I wished I could just lay here and watch her sleep, but if I didn't get upstairs to train, Ash would come looking for me. So, I carefully extracted myself from her embrace and got up. I left her a note letting her know that I would be upstairs training and laid it along with a rose on my pillow.

Clarke

When I wake up, there is a sweet note and a rose on the pillow beside me once again. I could really get used to this, but I would really rather wake up and find Lexa still beside me. It's crazy how well I slept last night in her arms. I have never felt so safe and loved. I still can't believe she sang me that fantastic song last night and even changed some of the words for me. I just wish Finn hadn't ruined the moment.

I wish I weren't terrified of starting a relationship with her. She really is an amazing woman. I just can't wrap my head around being attracted to another woman and how does it even work. I mean, there are just so many things that I have questions about, but she said we would work everything out. I wish I could just get out of my head! When I'm with her, everything seems so…I don't know perfect…safe. It feels like I'm the only person in the world in her eyes when we're with each other. I really wish mom were here to help me sort everything out. Ugh, I head to the shower and try and relax some before I go upstairs. I really want to watch Lexa train for a little bit before I head home.

When I get upstairs, Ash is there with O, Jose, and Lexa, and I feel…I don't know what I feel. We had such a great time last night, and I loved being in her arms, but here Ash is, and it makes me wonder if she is truly over her. When Lexa sees me, she smiles and waves before coming over. Then, when she gets to me, she leans in like she is going to kiss my cheek, but I step away for some stupid reason.

The hurt in her eyes was almost too much for me, and I feel tears building. She asks me if I'm okay and asks me to stay for breakfast, but I brush her off and say that I need to get home. I use the excuse that I need to get my swimsuit. I know I hurt her, and I have no idea why except that I'm scared that she still loves Ash even though she says otherwise. Even though she is hurt, she says, "Hold on and let me go with you, just in case Finn…."

I interrupt her and say, "Thanks, but I just need some space. I'll be fine." Then I just walk away. What the hell is wrong with me?