A lot had been going on in my head and I decided I was going to relax by going to the hill. Whenever I'm at the hill, it always helps clear my mind from what goes on at home.
You gotta understand, when I first moved here it was different from Chicago. I was surrounded by very odd people that came around us. 99% of them I didn't like since all they did was cause nothing but drama.
And it was worse when my Granddad and Riley had done it on their own. My Granddad getting involved with crazy women that he went on dates with and my brother always causing some trouble. So I come here where I can feel at peace.
The only time that peace will sometimes be broken is when Jazmine came up here. Today I was hoping she wouldn't come. She was the main person I was trying to get away from.
I couldn't handle seeing her around guys, whether it was fake or not. Caesar had already confirmed that he was going to try and ask out Jazmine. Knowing Jazmine she might say yes.
But then there is Austin, who Cindy tried to hook her up with. At first, I thought they were going to actually hit it off until I saw him with Makayla, Caesar's ex-girlfriend. I wasn't surprised that he could move on that quickly.
But while we were all having the get-together at Cici's Pizza, Austin had rarely shown any attention to Makayla even though that was his date. It was kinda obvious that Makayla didn't like Jazmine because she had both Caesar and Austin drooling all over her.
I don't blame her for being upset but it's her fault that she decided to date two guys that weren't going to settle down. I wouldn't be surprised if she and Austin break up.
I heard footsteps coming up the hill and I looked to see it was Jazmine that came up the hill. We both made eye contact with each other for a slight second until she quickly looked away from me.
She went and sat on the other side of the tree from me. It felt weird being near her and not hearing her talk. We haven't talked for two weeks because I've been avoiding her.
She didn't even want a ride to school. She would either call a uber or one of her friends would drop her off at home. That just let me know we weren't on speaking terms. I did get upset with her because I thought she was messing with me.
"Huey...why are you mad at me?" I heard her ask. I didn't say anything because I didn't know how to respond. "Did I do anything to upset you when you left my house?" she asked. As a matter of fact, you did make me upset, because you literally went out with Caesar after we had sex, flirt with Austin, and probably fucked with my brother.
I shook my head and closed my book. 'I'm not even fin to engage in this shit!'
I got up off the ground and started heading home. I could hear Jazmine coming downhill meaning she was following behind me.
"Why do you keep giving me the cold shoulder Freeman? Every time I try to talk to you or even say 'hi' you always ignore me. What's the deal with that. You've been mad at me ever since you left my house," she babbled.
At this point, it should be obvious. I was at my front door and I pulled out my key to unlock it. I slammed the door right dead in her face hoping she would take a hint, but instead she decided to invite herself in.
She followed me to my room where I took off my shoes and laid down on my bed. I continued reading my book and ignoring whatever she had to say to me.
All of a sudden I felt my book being taken out of my hand and being thrown across the room.
"What's your problem goddammit!" I yelled getting out of my bed. This was the first time in 6 years that I have seen Jazmine get mad and throw something.
"My problem, what's yo' damn problem? I've been trying to resolve whatever issue we got between the two of us, but you keep ignoring me," she yelled while scowling at me.
"Huey I know you don't like sharing your feelings, but can you at least tell me why you are mad at me?" she pleaded.
"You wanna know why I'm so pissed at you?" I yelled. "Yes, I do!" she crossed her arms looking me dead in the eye.
"How can a girl I had deep feelings for just play me like that," I angrily yelled letting it out. She looked taken aback when I told her that.
"What-How did I play you?" she asked looking confused as always.
"Let's see; you going out with Ceasar, flirting with Austin even though he has a girlfriend who doesn't like you, along with messing around with my brother," I exclaimed.
"Excuse what, messing around with Riley? How am I messing around with a 14-year-old who's dating my best friend?" she asked causing me to give her an odd look. Does she not know that I have seen the condoms, birth control, and Plan B?
"Don't play dumb Jazmine," I exclaimed. "You think I didn't see the condoms, the pregnancy test, and Plan B?" I rhetorically asked. "Huey please let me explain?" she pleaded. "FINE GO AHEAD AND EXPLAIN YOUR FUCKING GOD DAMN REASON FOR MESSING AROUND WITH MY BROTHER!" I yelled.
"First you gonna tap down and stop yelling at me!" she sternly said. I kinda calmed down a little because I didn't want to push it. I went and sat down on my bed and started to rapidly tap my leg.
"Huey I never messed around with Riley, Ceasar, or even Austin. Austin just randomly flirts with me, Ceasar took me on a fake date to make his ex-girlfriend jealous, and Riley had just picked me up to go get condoms, pregnancy test, and Plan B," I explained to him. she explained
"What do you need those three things for?" I immediately asked.
"I needed Plan B because when we had coitus I noticed we didn't use protection. Then the pregnancy test was just in case it didn't work and we were going to have to be sure I was pregnant or not. Last but not least, Riley had bought me the condoms for me to take home. I didn't want my parents to go through my room and find a box of condoms, so I kindly asked Riley if he could hide them away in his room," she explained.
I didn't know what to say. At the moment I felt pretty stupid for accusing her of doing these things.
"Huey, I had no idea that you had liked me, but why didn't you just come to talk to me instead of giving me the cold shoulder?" she asked with sympathy behind her tone.
She came and sat right next to me on my bed. "Jazmine I honestly don't like talking about stuff," I told her. I was never too full-on sharing my feelings. My thoughts, yes, but feelings were a no.
"Well you can't keep it contained all the time, that just makes it worse, not for you, but everybody else. We all were wondering why you were upset, so if you have something to say then say it," she said. I didn't know everybody was affected by me giving the silent treatment.
"Ok, I didn't like how you just brushed me off after having sex," I admitted. "You told me you didn't want a relationship, so I was going to respect your wishes and not catch any feelings," she reminded me.
"Yeah ok," I mumbled. It was an awkward silence between the two of us because she wasn't wrong. I did tell her I didn't want a relationship. I wasn't ready to start something new.
"Huey was I your first or did you already lose it to someone else?" she asked playing around with her fingers. She looked nervous about what my response could possibly be. I don't know why she would think I would have sex with somebody else. No girl likes me like that once they get to know me.
"Umm you were my first, I honestly didn't think about having sex with anybody because it leads to drama if something goes wrong," I truthfully told her. "
Oh, well did it mean something to you, even just a little?" she nervously asked. "I hate to say it, but yes. Jazmine, drama had just calmed down in my life ever since I moved here, and I don't want you to be involved in that drama," I said feeling a bit ashamed. I shouldn't be getting caught up in feelings and actions like this.
"I understand, but can we at least try dating? Just to get you out of your comfort zone?" she requested. Try dating?
"Jazmine-" I tried to say until she interrupted, "Look Huey, just try it for once. You're a human being and you only get to live life once, so at least try to enjoy life the best you can instead of always having these strict rules. How about I make a proposal for you?"
"A proposal?" I re-questioned. "Yes!" she excitedly answered.
"Okay, what is your proposal, Jazmine?" I asked interested. "How about until New Year we date and if you're uncomfortable with dating by then; then we can break up?" she proposed.
She had her hand out for me to shake like we were little kids. I slowly held my hand out for her to shake: "No one has to know about this right?"
"Yes, no one has to know, this can just be between me and you," she assured. I didn't want people like our friends to get involved in the relationship. "Ok, so how do I tell you that I want the relationship to keep going?" I asked making sure.
"Since everybody kisses when it hits 12 on New Years, how about a kiss for yes, and no kiss to say no," she suggested. "Alright, I'll go along with that proposal," I agreed. That seemed simple enough for me.
"Okay, bye I'm going home!" she said giving me a quick kiss on the cheek and leaving before I could say anything. This is going to be the longest two months of my life.
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