Chapter 59: Clarke
I can't believe that Lexa has never been to a movie before, although, come to think of it, I bet there are many things that she has never done before that I take for granted. Well, maybe this part of the date will be better than the last. I know she said she had fun, but I don't like confrontations, and those guys were jerks. Although after Lexa beat them and they found out who she was, they turned out to be alright.
I just wish I could figure a way out of going to dinner with mom and Niko. I really wanted to have a nice romantic dinner with my girlfriend, not have to deal with my asshole brother. Lexa is terrific, though; she doesn't seem to care what we do as long as we do it together. So I give her directions to the movie theater, and we get there just in time to get some popcorn and get a seat.
We sit in the back upper corner so that we have a good view but also some privacy. After we finish the popcorn, I snuggle into Lexa's side with my head on her shoulder. She seems to really get into the movie once I give her an overview of what it is about. I didn't think about the fact that she may have not seen the first Wonder Woman movie, which she hasn't. After the movie, Lexa was so excited it was adorable. She loved the movie and made me promise that we would see the first one soon.
We had just enough time to go back home and change before meeting my family at the restaurant. Of course, mom picked a fancy place because that's what Niko likes. Niko and Lucas had left Sabrina with Callie so that Asher and she could spend some time together before she had to go. Lexa had me pick out her clothes for her. I wore a simple form-fitting blue dress that Lexa had bought me on our shopping trip. I picked out a pair of black slacks paired with a blue long-sleeve button-up shirt and a pair of dress boots. The shirt really brought out the color of her eyes, and she looked amazing.
Once we were dressed, I said, "You look amazing, babe. Let's take my car since I know the way, and I will drive."
Her reply is, "Babe, you look awesome. Are you sure we can't just stay in and, well…let me undress you?"
I smile and say, "If you are lucky, I'll be your dessert later. But I have to warn you, my brother and I don't really get along, so it may be a tense evening."
"I think I can handle it, as long as you make it up to me tonight. I would like to know the story of why you two don't get along, though."
"I will tell you the story on the way to the restaurant."
After we are on the road, I begin the story of my brother and our falling out. "I guess you have noticed that my dad isn't around. He was killed in a bombing in a remote village in El Salvador that he and mom were working in with the organization Doctors without Borders. I was ten. Mom and I were in town shopping the day it happened. Niko was twenty-five and had just finished college. After the bombing, mom and I brought dad's body home for the funeral. The organization gave mom a couple of months off, but she was still under contract for another few years and had to go back, but after dad's death, she didn't want me to go with her anymore. We both thought Niko would look after me with help from the Jaha's, but no, he ran. Two days after the funeral, he packed up his things and said he was moving to the UK. I looked up to my brother, and when I needed him the most, he left."
I pause and glance at Lexa. She takes my hand and says, "Clarke, I'm so sorry."
I shrug and continue, "Anyway, when mom left, I stayed with the Jaha family. Wells was my age and my best friend. Wells, Finn, and I were inseparable as kids, so I stayed with the Jaha's when mom was on assignment and only heard from Niko on my birthday and holidays. He would occasionally show up for Christmas if he knew mom would be home for the holidays. After high school graduation, Wells joined the Marines and shipped out, leaving just me and Finn. A year later, on his first tour in Afghanistan, Wells was killed in an IED explosion. Even then, Niko stayed away. He never seemed to be there when I needed him. I understand there is a big age difference, but still, you would think that family would be there when you need them. Not Niko. All I had was Finn. As much as I hate him now, he was there for me then. He was good to me and was a rock when I needed it. When Wells died, his dad was devastated and was never the same, so I ended up living at home by myself. The cookout was the first time I have seen Niko since I graduated med school, and he shows up with a boyfriend and a daughter with no warning and acts like nothing is wrong. Like he didn't run from the chance to help raise me, and now he has a kid that I didn't know about."
Lexa squeezes my hand and says, "Babe, I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I'm even more sorry that I didn't know you back then so that I could have been there for you. But, I promise, I will be by your side for as long as you will let me. You say the word, and I will kick Niko's ass and his boyfriends too if need be."
I can't help but laugh, "I know you will, sweetie, but let's just try to make it through the meal so that we can go back home and have some alone time."
"Yes, ma'am, but remember, just say the word."
We pull up in front of the restaurant, and the valet opens my door. I hand him the keys and walk around to take Lexa's hand. The hostess brings us to the table where everyone is already seated and having a glass of wine. Mom gets up and hugs me and then Lexa. Lexa pulls out my chair for me, and as I take a seat, Niko says, "Nice of you to join us, baby sis."
I reach for Lexa's hand under the table to calm me before saying, "Nice to be her big brother. Sorry, we are late, but we were in the middle of something when I got the call about dinner. Nice of you to invite us at the last minute." I look at Lexa and say, "Lexa do you remember my brother Niko and his boyfriend Lucas from the cookout?"
Niko says, "Actually, Lucas and I got married a couple of months ago, so he is my husband."
"Oh, well, I guess my invitation was lost in the mail. Congratulations."
Lucas says, "Thanks, it was a spur-of-the-moment wedding, and we plan on having a bigger one and inviting family and friends probably next summer. So, Lexa, what do you do, and how do you know Clarke?"
I speak before she can, "Lexa is a UFC fighter and my girlfriend."
Niko says, "Since when did my baby sis start dating women? I thought you and Finn were engaged."
"Well, I guess that shows what you know, big bro. Finn and I have been over for a while…."
Mom speaks up, "Okay, children, let's be civil."
Lexa speaks up, "So Niko, Lucas, what do you two do for work? Where do you live? How did you meet?"
Lucas laughs, "Right now, we live in Great Britain, but we are considering moving to the US to be closer to family. I'm an Olympic wrestler for my home country of Brazil, and I met Niko while training for the last Olympic games. Niko is a personal trainer, and I hired him to help with my conditioning about five years ago, and well, here we are."
Lexa says, "Wow, too bad you all are leaving tomorrow. I could really use some help on my wrestling for my next fight. Jewel sort of took me to school when it came to the ground game last fight."
Lucas says, "Wait, you're Stryker?"
I say, "Yeah, why did you watch the fight?"
He says, "Yeah, I did, but you know Niko and his phobia of blood, so of course he doesn't like to watch."
I laugh, "Yeah, I still haven't figured out why he hates blood, considering he had doctors for parents. If you saw the fight, then you should have known that Lexa and I were dating."
Lucas says, "I guess I should have, but, in my defense, I hadn't met you before the cookout." He looks at Niko and says, "Honey, do you think that we could maybe postpone leaving for a while. I wouldn't mind helping Lexa train some."
Niko says, "I don't know. I'm not sure how mom and Clarke would feel about that, and you know that I hate staying in hotels for extended amounts of time."
Mom speaks up, "You know that you can always stay with me. I have plenty of room."
Niko says, "Mom, we have Sabrina, and you only have one extra bedroom."
Lexa leans close and whispers, "You could stay with me and let Sabrina have your room, or I could offer to let them stay on the boat, but it is up to you. I know you don't get along, but like you said earlier, a family should stick together."
I grimace but say, "Niko, if you all would like to stay awhile, I can stay with Lexa, and Sabrina can have my room."
Lucas says, "See, sweetie, problem solved."
Niko replies, "I don't want to kick baby sis out of her room."
"I really don't mind. I like staying with Lexa, but you all could stay with Lexa if you are worried about it. She has plenty of rooms."
Niko gives in and says, "Fine, we will talk it over tonight and let you know."
Mom says, "Great, it will be fun getting to know my granddaughter. Now, I do have something I want to talk to everyone about. The CIA has approached me to do a research project for them, which will require that I set up a lab. They want me to set up in DC, but I told them the only way I would even consider it was if I could set up the lab here in San Francisco."
I say, "That's great, mom! So does that mean you are finished with the war zone assignments and are finally going to stay home?"
"That is what I wanted to talk to all of you about. I'm not sure that I want to deal with the government and the CIA, especially for what they have in mind. I want to do the project but as an independent facility, which will require money. The CIA has agreed to fund the project, but I would have to buy/rent the facility and equipment, hire doctors, nurses, geneticists, and chemists. I have some money saved but getting this facility up and running will likely take all of my savings, and I wanted to get your input before I do it."
Niko says, "I don't know how I feel about that, mom. What are you going to live on if it fails? I have a family now, and I don't know if I would be able to help you if you needed it."
"Of course, you can't help out your family unless it's the one you want. We all know how you run when you are needed most. So Mom, what is the project the CIA wants you to work on?"
"Well…you know the mission Fletch is on. Julian is predicting that she is going to be bringing some children and maybe adults back that have been experimented on, and he wants to monitor them and find out the extent of the effects and so forth."
Lexa speaks up, "Abby, are you talking about the genetic mutation of DNA like we found in Afghanistan?"
"Yes, Lexa, I would be running tests and experiments to find out if these mutations cause any harm in the long run and what benefits the mutations may have. Why?"
"Well, Amelia and Ash have been helping me set up a corporation for the money that I made from the tournament, and I've been looking for investment opportunities. I want to find someone to help me develop better armor for use in war zones, as well as better weapons. But I would really like to also fund your research facility. Although I disagree with the experimentation on humans, I do want to help those that didn't have a choice in becoming guinea pigs. Besides, I could rent/buy a facility big enough to hold both departments. Abby, your department would be the medical side, and then I could have an applied science division also for the development of armor and weapons, etc."
Mom looks at Lexa, surprised, "Really? You're serious?"
Lexa smiles, "Of course, I have seen firsthand what happens when people are forced to do things they don't want to do, and I vowed to help whenever I could. I see this as a good opportunity to start helping. Besides, I have the money, and I trust you to do the right thing. I only ask that you help me find someone to help with the applied science division, and I will make you CEO of AST Enterprise."
Mom says, "Lexa, exactly how much money did you make fighting in that illegal tournament? I mean other than the yacht, of course."
Lexa says, "I'm not completely sure, but somewhere in the neighborhood of 58 million for the fights at Mickey's, which has only continued to grow with the UFC fight winnings. I ended up with $109,508,292 from that fight with the merchandising agreement I had with Dana. Plus, I have another UFC fight scheduled. Will that be enough to get both projects started?"
Mom looks at me, and I shrug. I had no idea she made that much. But, then, Niko says, "Jesus, how…what…."
I laugh, "That's right big bro, my girl is amazingly hot, sexy, intelligent, an awesome fighter, and rich."
Everyone laughs except Lexa, who is bright red. "Oh, and did I mention a war hero too, with a purple heart, presidential medal, and a couple of others."
Lexa says, "Babe, stop. I think he gets the picture. So, Abby, what do you think?"
"Well, I wasn't expecting this when I asked everyone to dinner for one. I really just wanted to get some input and ask Clarke and Niko if they would come work for me, but…."
I interrupt, "What? You want me to quit my residency and come work with you?"
"No, honey, I want you to come work for me once your residency is finished next month. Niko, I was hoping you would come help with the chemistry aspect of the research since you do have a master's degree in chemistry."
I say, "I will definitely think about it, mom. But you know I'm set to start my trauma surgery rotation next. I've already been given the only spot at the hospital, so I would feel terrible letting them down. Although, the hours have to be better than what my trauma surgeon residency will be, and I think I may want to have more time to spend with Lexa. If that's alright with her, especially if she is going to be traveling a lot fighting. I want to be able to go with her. What do you think, Cielo?"
"I think that is an amazing idea, Ya Amar. I would love to have more time with you."
"You know what? Mom, I think I will take the job. I will let the hospital know tomorrow when I go to work that once my ER residency rotation is up in a few weeks that I won't be coming back for the trauma rotation."
Mom says, "Great! Lexa, we have another appointment with Mr. Cantrell on Thursday, so we can talk to him about what needs to be done to get this up and running. Are you sure you want to do this?"
Lexa says, "Yes, ma'am, more than almost anything. While we are talking about appointments, can you go with me on Wednesday to Vegas for my UFC physical since you will be my doctor for this fight?"
"Of course! Okay then, let's toast to new beginnings."
I'm not sure what to think about what has just happened. Hell, I'm not even sure I know what just happened. Finally, I excuse myself from the table and head to the bathroom. I just need a moment to process everything.
When I make it to the bathroom, I splash cold water on my face and just stare at myself in the mirror. I can't believe that just happened. My girlfriend just said she would fund my mom's research project, which I can understand considering she has the mutated DNA, but I just said that I would give up my dream of being a trauma surgeon to help with the research. What has me the most confused is why! I'm doing it so that I can spend more time with Lexa! I mean, I will still be a doctor and helping people but just not the way I have always dreamed. The funny thing is, I actually feel good about the decision.
Lexa
After Clarke agreed to leave the hospital and work with Abby, she quickly excused herself from the table. I looked over to Abby and said, "Is she okay? Should I go check on her?"
Abby shrugs her shoulders and says, "You may want to give her a moment to process everything. I can't believe she was so quick to say yes to working with me and leaving the hospital. It has always been her dream to follow in my footsteps and become a trauma surgeon, which will take at least two more years of residency, so I'm surprised she agreed so quickly. I thought that I would have to beg her, and she still wouldn't."
"Oh, um…why shouldn't I go check on her?"
"Because she is probably trying to come to terms with why she decided to leave the hospital. Just give her a few before you go. Let her have a chance to think."
"Alright, but why do you think she agreed to work with you?"
Everyone at the table laughs at how clueless I am. Finally, Niko speaks up and says, "Because of you. I think that my baby sis has finally found something, or in this case someone, she loves more than work."
"What? What do you mean because of me? I would never ask her to give up her dream!"
Abby says, "And that is the reason she needs time to process because you didn't have to ask her to. She did it willingly because she wants to have more time to spend with you."
"I'm sorry, I have to go talk to her." I get up and head for the bathroom. I can't believe Clarke would give up on her dream for me. I don't want her to do that. I want her to do what makes her happy.
I open the bathroom door and find Clarke standing in front of the mirror, staring at herself with water droplets clinging to her face. I whisper, "Hey."
She flinches, but when she sees that it is me, she smiles, "Hey."
"Babe, are you okay?"
"I'm fine. I just needed a minute to think in quiet. I'm sorry I ran and left you at the table with them."
"Sweetie, it's fine. I can handle them. What I can't handle is you being upset and feeling the turmoil you are feeling. I don't want you to give up on being a trauma surgeon because of me. I'm not going anywhere, and we will make it work."
"Lexa, that's not why I ran! I-I…I don't know. I guess I surprised myself when I said that I was willing to leave the hospital because I wanted more time with you. I have always put my work first and never let anything get in the way of what I wanted to accomplish…."
I interrupt her, "I would never ask you to-to change that. I'm happy just knowing that you will be coming home to me. I'll take what time with you that I can get and enjoy every minute of it. You don't have to give anything up for me. In fact, after this fight, I won't take anymore. That way, I won't have to travel…."
She stops me with a quick kiss, "No, I don't want you to stop fighting. I'm not upset about leaving the hospital. I'm actually excited to get to work on the research with mom. I was just surprised at-at how easy it was to make the decision when all my life I thought that my work was going to be the one thing I had to make me happy. It was the one thing I could count on to let me just be me. Not Finn's girlfriend or wife or mother. I knew that he could never make me as happy as my work made me, and I thought that if he couldn't, then no one could. At least until I met you. You make me happy, and I want to have more time to spend with you. It-it just scares me that-that I want to be with you as much as I can. I can always go back and become a surgeon once the research project is finished if that's what I want."
"As long as you are sure and know that I would never ask you to give up anything for me."
"I know, sweetie, I know! Let's go back out there and enjoy the rest of dinner." She took my face in her hands, pulling me close until our lips met softly, slowly moving together as our tongues touch and tease. A moan rumbles from Clarke, deep and low, spurring me to deepen the kiss. My body arched uncontrollably, searching out more contact, but was denied when Clarke pulls away. Her forehead rested against mine, and we were both breathing heavily, "Not here, why don't we go say goodbye and head home. I don't have to be to the hospital until noon tomorrow."
We walk back out to the table hand in hand, everyone looks to be enjoying their conversation, but as we approach, they all look at us. Finally, Abby says, "Is everything okay, girls?"
Clarke says, "Yes, mom, I just needed a moment. Thank you for dinner and the job opportunity, but I think we're going to call it a night. Niko, Sabrina is welcome to my room. I'm going to be staying with Lexa for a while. If you all decide you would rather stay with Lexa, just let me know. She has plenty of room."
I say, "Abby, thank you for dinner, and I look forward to working with you. Niko, I hope that you decide to become a part of the research project as well. Lucas, let me know when/if you are all settled in and ready to help me train. I look forward to learning from you."
The car ride home was a quiet one. Not uncomfortable, just quiet. I had a lot to think about, and if I had to guess, so does Clarke. When we make it back to Amelia's and start to walk down the pathway to the beach, I take Clarke's hand, stopping her. She turns to look at me, and I say, "Look…I'm not asking you to change or to stop work. Your dedication and need to help others are some of my favorite things about you. I'm fine with whatever time we can carve out for one another. I just need you to be open with me. This is new to me, sometimes I feel like you're holding back, and I don't know why. That scares the shit out of me." I pause to collect my thoughts, then I smile and add, "I know we haven't known each other long, but I love that you can ramble on with fancy doctor words one moment and then shock me by taking me on a wonderfully planned date, even if it had a few hiccups. I enjoyed the hell out of it. I look forward to learning about all the different parts of Dr. Clarke Griffin because no one makes me feel the way you do."
Clarke
Lexa's heartfelt words hit me right in the chest, causing my eyes to sting. I never thought I'd hear such adoration directed toward me, and it makes me want to do everything in my power to give us a real shot. "Lexa, I promise I will try. You are the only person who has ever made me feel this way. You are the first person I have ever wanted to ditch work and spend time with. I usually prefer to bury myself in my work so that I have an excuse not to spend time with people. It may not seem like it, but I've been more open with you than anyone else. Please be patient. I'm afraid to lose myself to these feelings, but I don't want to lose you either. I feel different when I'm with you, and that scares me."
"See? Was that so hard to express?" Lexa asks, chuckling lightly as she took my hand and pulled it to her lips for a light kiss.
"A little," I say with a half-hearted laugh. "I guess sometimes my mind takes a while to catch up with my heart. It's going to take some practice, but I AM working on it." I reach my free hand and take Lexa's.
Looking down at our joined hands, the moon's rays lite up Lexa's eyes as she glances up through her long lashes as she says, "That's all I ask."
We walked the rest of the way to the beach in comfortable silence, and once we're back on the boat, we go straight to our room. As soon as the door shut behind us, I pulled Lexa's hand up to my lips, lightly kissing the palm and then brushing my nose across the soft skin along the inside of her wrist, inhaling a light mandarin musk scent before leaving a tender kiss. The happy sigh I receive in response ignites something inside, driving me wild, daring me to take what I so desperately want.
Bringing Lexa's index finger into my mouth, I suck it softly before moving to the next and then the one after that until I'd gotten my fill. Loving the soft whimpers and moans I was drawing from the woman who was pressing increasingly tighter against me, I dragged Lexa's hand down to my right breast and squeezed. Damn it, they are still sensitive, and I flinch. This causes Lexa to try and pull away, but I hold her hand in place. "I'm fine, their just sensitive, so be gentle."
Soon my eyes roll back, awash in the sensation of nimble fingers gently working their magic as they move on their own accord. I have denied myself for too long since the first fantastic night we had. Exhausted from fighting my desires, tonight, I'm going to give myself over entirely and let the chips fall where they may.
A combined gasp accompanies the slow rocking of Lexa's hips against my thigh, silently working us both into a frenzy. Releasing Lexa's hand, I shift and cup her cheek while her finger gently traces my jawline in return. Steel-blue irises give way to dark grey, almost black ones, and the heat between us rises to a slow boil through a series of deep, slow kisses, each one spurring our need to feel the other's flesh. Eager hands roamed, grasping blindly for any free edge of clothing to slip under in search of skin.
Lexa
When my hands finally find the hot pool of desire at the apex of Clarke's thighs, I groan and take her bottom lip between my teeth. Releasing her lip, I whisper, "I've been dying to touch you again."
"I've been dying for you to touch me!"
"You're so wet. Can I-I…"
"Yes," Clarke blurts out, unwilling to wait for the rest of the question. She grinds her hips onto my fingers and releases a heavenly groan. I say, "God, you feel so good. Can we get out of these clothes?" She was panting heavily now, and all I want to do is feel Clarke's naked body against mine, and judging by the look in her eyes, the feeling was more than mutual.
"Please."
We quickly start, yanking and pulling at one another's garments, both of us passed the point of enjoying a slow reveal. I rip open my button-up shirt sending buttons flying across the room. Clarke hastily pulls her dress off in one quicky movement, all the while we are moving towards the bed. Bras were gone in a flash. Pants and panties unceremoniously dropped to the floor. The flurry of arms and legs stopped when the last of the clothing had been dispersed.
"So beautiful," I whisper, full of awe as my eyes rake down Clarke's long, lean body. Lightly tanned skin with a light dusting of freckles lay bare for me to explore. I lay down, bringing her on top of me, our eyes locked as we revel in the feel of finally having skin on skin.
Clarke settles one thigh between my muscled legs, pressing hard against my soaked core. A relieved groan fell from her lips when I afford her the same pleasure. Then, a simultaneous slow grind began, each matching the other's pace. The friction served as a delicious tease yet doesn't provide the pressure needed to achieve my goal.
What I desperately want is her long, slender fingers, but that would have to wait. I was already too far gone. There would be time to map one another's bodies later. Right now, I need a release, and I would bet money from the way Clarke was moaning and thrusting into me that she had the exact same idea.
Clarke nipped and sucked her way up to my neck to my ear and was rewarded with a soft whimper when she took me supple ear lobe between her teeth. She then continued on until she found my mouth. Gone were the slow, deep kisses. Instead, I took control, my tongue searching and finding a willing partner in a heated duel. Mouths were devoured. Our rhythms synced. Hips and tongues thrust in unison…both of us gasping and moaning until we came together in a symphony of passion.
Clarke
Safe in one another's embrace, we came down from our high together. I was elated, relieved, energized. Lexa's touch, the feel of her body against my own…it had been everything I have dreamed of since that first time and then some…but rather than quenching my thirst for her, my body only begged for more.
The bottle of pent-up sexual energy has been uncorked, and I want to drain it dry. So I waste no time following through with my vow, rolling Lexa over commencing with round two. I trail a finger down between two perfect breasts before teasing the hardening nipples. Lexa gasps and arches into my touch…her short breaths threatening to match the speedy pace of my heartbeat. It doesn't take much for me to get her going, and the roaming of agile fingers had my body ready to soar. Three hours and two showers later, we were both spent.
