Chapter 101: Lexa

Ash comes in about an hour later with sandwiches, chips, and drinks for both of us. I look at her and say, "Are you kidding me! I haven't had a good meal in days, and you bring me a sandwich."

Clarke starts to laugh, and it is like music to my ears. I don't think Ash knew what to do or say because she just stood there. Clarke says, "It's okay, Ash, this is fine. Lexa, stop being an ass! Everyone has been worried sick about you, and this is how you treat her the first time you see her."

Ash smiles, "It's fine, Clarke. I'm glad she is feeling good enough to give me shit about the food. How are you feeling, Lex? Oh, and you need to get your new bodyguard under control before we have problems."

"I'll be feeling better when Abby takes out this damn chest tube and lets me out of here. I really would like a big juicy steak and baked potato. Where is Abby? She was supposed to find out about how quickly I can have the tests she wants to be run so that I can get fuck out of here. I'm ready to go home. Wait, what are you talking about, new bodyguard?"

Ash frowns a little and says, "She should be in here shortly. She was going to check on the DNA results. Unfortunately, we have to stop in DC before we can go home. We need to talk to Julian about the next steps, and Natalia needs a new identity. One of the new kids, Dakota, seems to have a problem with me."

"Damn it, Ash! I need to get home so that my fiancé and her mother can plan our wedding. Clarke is already fifteen weeks along, and she wants to get married before the babies get here."

Clarke takes my hand and says, "Babe, it's okay. We still have a little over five months."

"Yes, but we have a lot to do. We need to get married, figure out housing, set up a nursery, buy all things, baby, all while figuring out what is going on at Abby's lab with all of her new patients."

Ash and Clarke both start laughing, "What is so funny?" Abby says as she walks into the room, followed closely by Dakota, who gives Ash a dirty look.

Clarke leans in and gives me a quick kiss. Then she says, "My beautiful, wonderful, back from the dead fiancé was just stressing over everything she thinks needs to be done ASAP. Even though we still have just over five months before the twins get here."

"I'm glad everyone thinks that I am overreacting, but there is a lot that I need to get done. So, Abby, can you please take out this chest tube, do the dang tests so that we can get out of here?"

Abby smiles, "Now that your fever seems to have broken, we can see about the chest tube after the chest x-ray, CT scan, and MRI. First, though, I have some news about the DNA results. It looks like…well, it looks like Samiya is your biological mother and that Kalen and Zaria are your half-siblings."

Clarke squeezes my hand, "That's great! I knew that they had to be related somehow." She turns to me and says, "Well, how do you feel about finally knowing where you came from?"

I look at Abby, "Are all those tests vital?"

She is about to answer when Clarke cuts her off, "Cielo?"

"Yes, dear, I hear you. I just don't know what to think. Especially after hearing how I was conceived…plus I know it wasn't Samiya's fault what happened to me but…I just don't know. At least now I know why she gave me up."

Ash speaks up, "So, you know her story then?"

"I know the part where she was raped and considered a disgrace to her family. Then sent to the facility over there and then escaped only to be sent to another one."

"What about the part where she loved you enough to give you up for a better life because she knew she couldn't care for you. She was only fourteen." Says Clarke.

"Yeah, I know. But…I didn't get a better life!" I feel a tear run down my cheek.

Clarke wipes it away with her thumb, "Baby, she didn't know. She thought she was doing what was best for you. Besides, look at you know. You are going to be a mom and a wife." She takes my hand and places it on her stomach. It's the first time since I got back that I have felt her baby bump.

I look up at her and say, "They are getting big. Can you feel them yet?"

"Are you calling me fat, Alexandria Sahar?!"

Abby, Kota, and Ash start laughing, "What? No, ma'am! I'm only saying that they have grown since the last time I touched your beautiful, gorgeous baby bump. I love it, just like I love you!" I reach out and pull her in for a kiss. It was meant to be a quick peck, but it turned into a slow kiss. Her lips moved against mine in a soft and slow dance that had me gripping her neck and practically pulling her on top of me, feeling my body heating up. I went to lift my left hand to her hip when I heard a clearing of someone's throat. Clarke pulls away immediately and only then realizes that she has been pulled on top of me. Her cheeks turn crimson as she looks between Ash, Dakota, and her mom.

Clarke answers my question, "I think that I felt them move for the first time right after you got back. It felt like a bunch of butterflies in my stomach, and mom said it was them moving, but that you probably won't be able to feel them from the outside for a few more weeks."

I laugh, "That's amazing and unfair. I want to feel them. Sorry guys, I couldn't help myself. Abby, can we please get on with these tests. I have some urgent needs that I need Clarke to help me take care of."

Clarke gasps, "Alexandria Sahar!"

I smile, "Why do you keep calling me that?"

Clarke replies, "Because that is your name, you idiot!"

"I understand that, but you are leaving off my last name, Trikru."

Abby says, "Actually, Sahar is your last name, and Trikru is just a code for the type of DNA they used."

"Great, so I need to get my name changed on everything. I guess I don't have a middle name. Is Alexandria even my real name? What else do I not know about myself that you know?"

"Well, you could always ask Samiya. After all, she is your mother," Clarke says.

Abby saves me by saying, "Alright, Lexa, let's go get these tests taken care of so we can get you out of here."

"Clarke, is there any way you could get Kota an iPod and load it with some music for her?"

"I'll see what I can do."

Clarke

Ash, Dakota, and I leave the room after mom rolls Lexa out. The tests will take a couple of hours, so we decide to take everyone back to the house where we've been staying. It takes a lot of convincing to get Dakota to leave the hospital, but once I tell her that I am also going, she seems to agree to come so that she can watch out for me. Once back, I ask Ash, "Do you think it would be possible to get some steaks and grill them when Lexa gets here? She really seemed to want one earlier."

"I think that can be arranged. I'll get Bellamy to get everyone's preference and have him go to the store on base and pick them up. Why don't you show Samiya and the group to their rooms? I'm sure they would all like a hot shower and some clean clothes. I will see what I can round up in their sizes."

"Sure, that sounds good. I wanted to talk to Samiya about the results anyway."

I show everyone where they will be staying and then let them know where the bathrooms are to clean up. I also tell them that we will have a cookout tonight around seven to celebrate. "Samiya, can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Sure, Clarke. What is it?"

"Well, mom got the results of the DNA test, and it looks like you were right about Lexa. So you are her mother, which also means you are soon to be my mother-in-law." I say with a smile.

"I had a feeling that was the case, but at the same time, I was sort of hoping I was wrong."

"What? Why?"

"It's not that Lexa isn't a great person or anything like that…I was hoping that my baby girl got the life she deserved, you know. One that was normal and good. I always imagined her growing up in a nice family and going to school to become something great. I needed to think this way to make myself believe that I had done the right thing by giving her up, even though I didn't really have a choice."

"I understand, but at least now you can get to know her, and you will get to see us get married and the birth of your grandchildren. Lexa has overcome so much, and she did become something great. She is an amazing, caring, loyal, humble protector and survivor. Wait until you meet all of her friends and see the Untouchable."

"The Untouchable?"

"Yes, it is her mega yacht. It is where we live, and I would like it very much if you and Zaria and Kalen stay with us at least for a while."

"What does Lexa think about this? I don't want her to feel pressured to take care of us because…."

"Once you get to know her, you will realize that she loves to help people. It doesn't matter who or why. If she can help, she will, and right now, she has the means to help everyone that was able to escape the facility. She has made a name for herself fighting in the UFC, and she has a head for business. She created a company called AST for the sole purpose of finding and helping people like her, which is why she risked her life to rescue all of you."

"I know that she's a strong and caring person just from the short time I have known her. But…do you think she will want to get to know me? I'm worried that she will be upset with me because of all that she's been through."

"It may take some time for her to get her thoughts together, but I know she will want to get to know you. I have one more question, and then I will let you get cleaned up and rest. Lexa thought her name was Alexandria Sahar Trikru. Now she knows that isn't completely true. Were you the one that named her?"

"Yes, I named her Alexandria Nadira Sahar."

"Then how did she end up with Trikru if she wasn't born at one of the facilities?"

"The only thing that I can figure is the people at the orphanage saw the necklace and thought that was her last name. Once the doctors injected the DNA into the fetus. I was given a bracelet with the code name for the DNA to wear until the baby was born. So before I gave Lexa up, I put the bracelet around her tiny neck as a necklace so that she would have something from me. It was all I had at the time."

"What does Nadira mean?"

"It means precious and rare because that is what she was to me. She was the most precious thing I had ever seen, and I knew she was going to be different because of what they did to her, which would make her rare."

"That is a sweet name, and it does fit Lexa for sure. Thank you for telling me. I will let you rest until time for the cookout." I hug her and then leave the room. I really like her and hope that Lexa will give her a chance.

When I walk out of Samiya's room, I find Dakota standing across the hall watching everything. "You know that everyone here is like family to me, so you don't need to stand watch here. Go get a shower and some rest so that you can enjoy the cookout later. I promise I'm safe here."

She just shrugs her shoulders. I look at her, seeing her really for the first time. She seems to be around Lexa's height, which is six feet. She has straight jet-black hair pulled back into a ponytail, and silver, almond-shaped eyes. She has a cute face, with an exotic look to her features. Her skin is darkly tanned and smooth; it is impossible to guess exactly how old she is. She also has an impressive build of solid muscle. She's not overly bulky, but her highly toned shape was definitely hinted at by her ripped and dirty t-shirt. Her long, muscular legs could be glimpsed through the many holes in her kaki army pants. The way she watched over me, combined with her athletic body, reminds me so much of Lexa. I reach out my hand to her. She hesitates for a moment before taking it. I lead her down the hall to my room, "The bathroom is right there. Go get cleaned up, and I will be right here when you finish." She smiles and nods before walking into the bathroom. All I can do is shake my head and smile.

Lexa

I guess that I shouldn't be surprised that I am related to Samiya and Zaria but knowing that Samiya is my mother…I'm not sure what to feel. I look at Abby, who is rolling me down the hallway, and ask, "Abby, what should I do? How am I supposed to feel? Clarke seems happy and excited about Samiya…I just don't know what I'm supposed to do."

Abby gives me a smile, "Sweetie, no one can tell you how you are supposed to feel. That is just something that happens. What you feel is something that you can't control, like how you instantly fell in love with the 'gummy bear' when you first saw it on the ultrasound. It just happened. Even though Clarke didn't feel the same way, neither of your feelings were wrong. Simply different, understand?"

"I guess. Do you think Clarke is happy about the babies or only having them because I want them?"

"Honey, I think deep down she wants them as much as you do. But, she is scared, don't worry though she will love them and you both will be great mothers. Now quit changing the subject. How do you feel about knowing Samiya is your mother?"

"That's just it. I don't know how I feel. I've been on my own for so long…then I found a family with you, Blake, and Ash that grew exponentially when I got to America. So now I'm starting my own family with Clarke and the twins… I understand now why I was given up, but deep down, it still hurts that I was. I know that doesn't really make sense, but…."

"It makes perfect sense! All these years, you thought you weren't wanted by your mother, and that is why you had to grow up the way you did. You probably resented her because of it. So now that you know the truth about why. You don't know how to feel or what to think."

"Exactly!"

"Lexa, I think that you should spend time with her and get to know her and see what happens. No one will blame you if you don't want to have a relationship with her as long as you give her a chance first. I've talked to her and Zaria briefly, and they have also been through a lot. I think that you all could benefit from one another's experiences. Just give them a chance. There is something else you should be aware of, though."

"What?"

"I'm worried about Dakota. She seems to have formed an opinion of Ash, and it could become a problem. I'm not sure what went on between the two of you while you were gone, but…she didn't like the way Ash was calling you babe and kissing you in the rescue chopper. Then according to Samiya, while you were in surgery, whenever Clarke would become upset, she would comfort her."

"I will try and talk to her, but she doesn't really talk. She communicates mostly with hand gestures and head shakes, so it can be difficult."

"She has no problem speaking when something is important to her, from what I have seen."

"That's good to know because the entire time we were traipsing through the woods, she didn't say a word. It was like talking to a wall, but I tried to draw her out of her shell. I can see parts of the old me reflected in her. I know she has been through something; I just don't know what."

"Here we are. Let's get these tests over with so that we can head home and plan a wedding. What do you say?"

"I like the sound of that. Thanks, Abby, for always being there for me."

I spend the next two hours in one machine or another, but it gives me time to think. Abby has a point about the fact that Samiya hasn't exactly had an easy life either. When I think about it, really…hers has probably been worse than mine. Her own father wouldn't protect her. That goes against everything I've learned about family. Your family, whether biological or not, should always be there for you and protect you. That's what Ash, Blake, and I have done for one another since day one when we could. Sure, there are times when not even your family can protect you, but they should always try. Not send you away as a disgrace because you were forced to do something you didn't want to do.

What kind of person would I be if I turned my back on a part of my family now that I know I have a biological one? So I have to try to help, not only because they are family, but because it is the right thing to do, and I can. The whole reason I started AST was to help those that needed it because they didn't have a choice…just like I didn't. Then there is Kota. I need to spend time with her and see what I can find out about what they did to her. I also need to figure out what her problem with Ash is.

I need to talk to Clarke, but I want to ask Samiya, Zaria, Kalen, and Kota to stay on the Untouchable with us for a while. I want to get to know them and show them that they now have choices in how they live their lives. Also, I need to let Samiya know that I don't blame her for what happened to me.

Abby finally comes back into the room after all the tests are complete and says that everything looks good. "So, does that mean you are going to take out this damn tube, and I can get out of here?"

She laughs, "Yes, I'm going to take it out shortly, but you will still need to take antibiotics for the next ten days to make sure the infection is completely gone. Clarke is on her way with you some clothes to change into. Ash said that our private plane should be here in the morning so that we can leave around noon tomorrow for DC."

"Why aren't we taking my plane?"

"Because we sent it home with all of the women and children. Morrigan and Lincoln will meet us in DC to take us home, but Pav arranged for another private plane to take us to DC."