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I really hope this doesn't go horribly horribly wrong.

I could use some feed back if you guys don't mind.

Honestly, anything will help...

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Hisoka was the first one to rise. He came from the shower, fresh and clean. Water dripping from his naked form as he stood next to the bed watching his lovers sleep curled up into each other. Hisoka was never one to strive for happiness... power definitely, thrills for certain... but happiness was something he never thought he would need, or maybe he just didn't think he deserved it. Then again, standing here, watching these younger men sleep peacefully after the night they had... he wasn't sure, but it seemed to him happiness was just within reach. Hisoka turned to dress himself all the while contemplating every possible way things could go wrong with Illumi tonight. The sleek elegant assassin was definitely a force to be reckoned with... and he wasn't positive he could defeat him in a battle. Then again, he wasn't sure he wanted to. Illumi was Hisoka's only friend... he still remembered the day they met, they had been small children, and Hisoka had been starving and cold after being abandoned by his family, shunned from his home town.. cursed, that's what Hisoka thought he was. Perverse and sick and twisted.. unlovable. Until Illumi found him, freezing and deathly thin from hunger.

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The 10 year old Illumi approached him first, his gaze cold and calculated as it would always be. "What happened to you?" He had questioned... Hisoka remembers just staring at the boy. No one had spoken to him in almost a year.. then here comes this boy pretty as can be, with dead eyes, concerned for him.

It was the first and last time he spoke of his past.. it was the last time he was pitiful. After he met Illumi, he would never be weak again.

Illumi offered him food and money for the bathhouse. When Hisoka accepted, Illumi had agreed to accompany him, that way they would have plenty of time to talk. So as they walked, Hisoka began his story.. recounting his tragedies as honestly as he could.

"My father took my sisters in the middle of the night... they left and never came back." Hisoka began watching This strange emotionless boy for any kind of reaction. He remembers how he admired Illumi for his mysterious nature, the way he gave no sign of emotions, they way he couldn't tell what he was thinking no matter how hard he tried. "I lost my temper...I guess it was an accident.. but maybe not.. maybe I did it on purpose..." Hisoka spoke slowly, dragging the story out as they arrived at the bath house, not sure he wanted to tell this strange boy. It was a crime after all. One that would have him locked away for likely his entire life. So instead of continuing he stripped down and sank into the bath while this boy sat unmoved against the wall watching him bathe. It wasn't until they were sitting down to eat that either of them spoke again. Strange how comfortable he was in the presence of this boy who appeared to be his age, dispute the void of nothingness he found when he looked into his eyes.

"Will you tell me what happened or not?" Was all the black haired boy said as their food was placed in front of them.

Waiting for the sever to walk out of earshot he continued his story "I ripped my Mothers heart from her chest...she was having a baby soon, and I just couldn't stop myself." Hisoka said without breaking eye contact.

"You don't seem to have any remorse for what you did.." Illumi stared blankly while he began to eat his food.

"I do.." Hisoka deadpanned still watching the strange boy across from him. Illumi looked back to Hisoka, and he swore he saw disappointment in the cold black eyes, before finishing. "I feel terrible about it you see... I should have killed my father and sisters too.." Hisoka said looking dreamily out the window of the restaurant they sat in. "I regret not being able to feel each of their hearts cease to beat... I wanted to watch the blood drain from their necks.. but I was not fast enough."

Illumi just looked up and gave him a small smile. "I can help you... if you want to be faster, and deadlier." He said as his eyes lit up for a moment at the thought of it.

Hisoka readily agreed.

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Hisoka now sat on the couch, not wanting to wake Killua or Gon, contemplating the idea of ending Illumis life.. while he was excited at the thought of it thrilled even.. he was conflicted. He loved Illumi, before he ever loved another. Illumi had found him, and helped shape him into the rugged searing man he was today.

"Ahhhhh..." Hisoka moaned out his frustration, as he doubled over placing his head between his knees and pulling on his hair hard, until the throbbing of his scalp could help to ground him.

Exasperated Hisoka sat up and slumped back against the couch. "Might as well make breakfast" he said to himself as he stood and trudged into the kitchen, his vexation clear in his body language.

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Killua was next to wake up, but Gon soon followed as Killua had to climb over the other boy to get out of the bed.

Gon sat up grabbing Killua as he attempted to step off the bed, pulling him back down and pining him to the bed as Gon rolled on top of him. "Good morning Kil.lu.a" Gon said sleepily dragging out the other boys name. Bringing his face over the ex-assassins. Gon then ground himself down into killua, so he could feel his arousal without breaking eye contact.

"Uhhhh g.good morning Gon" Killua moaned out, unable to stop himself. "Do you want to take a bath?" Killua asked after regaining his composure. Gons luminous smile the only answer he needed as they stood and headed to the bathroom hand in hand. "Gon, where is Hisoka?" Killua asked while turning the bath water to heat up. Gon turned around and sniffed the air, "He's making breakfast, so we should hurry." Gon said jumping into the tub splashing water all around the roomand causing Killua to laugh loudly and joyously. The young hunters took turns washing each other's hair and bodies until they were clean. Gon went out to find clothes for the both of them, while Killua stood facing the mirror just now realizing that his chest and neck and shoulders were covered in bite marks and bruises from their shared night together. Just remembering he had agreed to meet Illumi tonight.

How am I suppose to hide these, Killua thought panicking as he ran his hand over the darkest of the bite marks directly over his jugular. "None of my turtle necks come up this high, and it's summer so I can't wear a scarf" he said aloud as. The images of Illumi standing over Gon and Hisoka's bloody corpses ran through his mind... unable to calm himself he began to hyperventilate. Falling to his knees, trying his hardest to drag in a breath of air but failing miserably every time. Tears streaming down his face. What have I done, he thought to himself, I've gotten them both killed, because I couldn't control myself, he thought.

Hisoka had chosen this exact moment to come and wake up his lovers for breakfast, having just gotten himself under control. He walked in to find Gon already dressed and digging through his drawer in the hopes of finding something that would fit Killua. "Breakfast is ready Gon." Hisoka said walking up and wrapping his arms around the dark haired boy from behind. Placing a chaste kiss on his cheek, followed by a slow lick along his neck. Releasing him to find Killua, Hisoka entered the bathroom seeing Killua on his knees clutching at his throat with tears running down his face, Hisoka rushed forward grabbing Killua by his shoulders. Gon came ran in after the magician, landing on the ground directly in front of the silver haired hunter grabbing his face and bringing it up to his.

"KILLUA! KILLUA WHATS WRONG!" Gon yelled into his face panic taking over every inch of his body. "Killua please! What happened!!" He pleaded again.

Killua was gasping for air, slowly regaining his ability to breath. "I... Ill... he... he's gonna... k.k.kill all of us." He finally managed to get out between strangled sobs. Gon looked up to Hisoka confusion clear on his face.

'Of course, Gon was asleep when he got the text.' Hisoka thought to himself. "Kill... I already told you, I will protect you, and Gon." Hisoka said hurriedly trying to console the sobbing young man in his arms, while Gon tried to piece everything together on his own.

"N.no..." Killua sobbed "please, I.. can't... breath" Killua gasped out. Wishing he could stop himself. Wondering how he could let himself show such a weakness.

Gon still not understanding what was happening did the only thing he could think of... he reared back and slapped Killua clean across his face as hard as he could. Shocking all three of them.. as Killua gasped and looked up to Gon suddenly able to breath. Blue eyes wide with fear and shock, Hisoka picked them both up and walked into the bedroom setting them both on the bed. Grabbing the clothes Gon had picked out for him Killua, Hisoka set about dressing him as though he were only a child. He made not be good at comforting him, but at least he can do this. After all, if he were naked and exposed emotionally as well as physically that might be fine for himself or Gon, but Killua was far to reserved. He probably wished he could disappear after that little display. Then he turned and grabbed Killua's phone opening it to the messages from Illumi, he handed it off to Gon to read, knowing it was taking him a great deal of effort to contain his questions for the sake of Killua.

Gon took the phone from Hisoka, clearly not understanding why he was being handed the thing, but after all just telling him would be to easy, he loved watching Gon struggle with his frustration. Hisoka finished pulling down Killua's shirt and said "breakfast is ready...I made chocolate pancakes." Killua looked up to Hisoka's face, "chocolate?" He said frown cracking into a grin. "I love chocolate!"

"I remember kil." Hisoka said softly, surprising even himself "come now." He said More demanding as he led the way to the kitchen.

All three took their seats at the table as Hisoka had already set it and served stacks for each of them onto plates prior to all the hysterics. Hisoka and Killua dug in, while Gon only sat there looking at his stack of pancakes.

"Gooooon aren't you going to eat?" Hisoka whined "I made them with looove"

"Are we going to have to fight Illumi?" Gon asked blankly not looking up from his plate. There was a nervous silence while everyone thought about a suitable answer..

"No." Hisoka deadpanned "Neither yourself nor Killua will fight Illumi, my little Apple." Hands gripping the table so hard his knuckles turned white.

"What do you mean? Clearly Illumi is going to be mad that we have taken his brother from him.." Gon said angrily not understanding how Hisoka didn't see what a big deal this was.

"Gon." This time it was Killua who spoke up. "Hisoka means that if it comes down to it we need to let him fight this one...alone.." sadness evident in his eyes.

"What! Obviously I'm not going to just stand back and watch! What if you don't win!?" Gon exclaimed loudly, slamming his hands onto the table.

"Gon please... I need you to understand, Illumi and I have a history, I will fight him should it come to it, you will not intervene. No matter what happens. You and Killua will leave, you will run, and you will hide." The magician said with a tone that let Gon there was no room for arguments here. "Illumi is deadly, he is quick, and smart, there is no way for you or Killua to beat him... i however will have a fighting chance.. but I won't take him on if you two are helping me..." Hisoka seems to drift in the middle of his sentence, forgetting where he was and what he was doing for just a moment. "Therefore, should it come to a fight.. you must run... while I try to kill my best friend." He sounded unsure about the last part, but Gon decided it was best to just let it go.

"Mhm.. if you say so hisoka." Gon said digging into his food.

The three of them spent the rest of the day lounging around Hisoka's floor watching movies, waiting for dinner time to arrive. When suddenly Killua had an idea. "Hisoka! Can you use your texture surprise to cover the bite marks and bruises? Maybe Illumi won't question it if there are no marks..."Killua asked hopefully

"Good idea Killu!" Gon said proudly, as Hisoka set about covering Killua's neck jaw and shoulders in texture surprise. The three sat there finishing up the last movie, the clock said 6pm, they still had two hours to kill before dinner with Illumi when suddenly there were three sharp knocks at the door. Killua's heart sank as he had heard those knocks on his bedroom door night after night during his time at home. "Illumi." Killua said as the three of them just stared at the door to the elevator. Hisoka stood and walked slowly over to the entrance and only exit as he punched in the code to open the doors.

The shiny metal doors slid open slower than Gon ever remembered them being. Illumi stepped out of the elevator looking to Hisoka. "I'm in town to meet with kil... and I thought I would pay my favorite magician a visit first." He said with zero emotion in his voice.

"What an honor, but it seems you aren't the only one who fancied paying me a visit today." Hisoka replied dryly

"Hm." Illumi hummed as he turned to see just what Hisoka was talking about. Almost looking shocked to see his little brother and best friend sitting comfortably on Hisoka Morrows couch of all places. Illumi narrowed his eyes and shot a glance back to Hisoka as if in warning to say 'this had better not be some elaborate trap' before he glided across the room to Killua. "Well. Well..little brother, why would you be here of all places? Are these the guests you intended to bring to dinner?" Illumi questioned blankly.

"Uh. Yeah they are. Gon has been dating your bestie." Killua stated snidely hoping to have convinced his brother nothing more was going on here.

Illumi looked to Hisoka shocked by this news. Hisoka played along, "mmmm.. now my surprise is ruined." He said with false gloom in his voice. "I had hoped a baby assassin would be better at secret keeping than that." He finished while spinning flamboyantly around Illumi.

"So big bro, you wanna get dinner early since we're all here?" Killua asked earnestly as his stomach growled, forgetting for a moment that if anything goes wrong they would all be dead and Killua drug back home and chained to the basement wall.

"Mm... very well little brother, just let me go to the bathroom first." Illumi responded heading back to where hisokas bedroom was.

Gon and Killua visibly relaxed as Illumi left the room, looking happily up to Hisoka seeing the worry more prominent than ever on his face.

"We left the room a mess." Hisoka whispered so that Illumi wouldn't hear him.

"Maybe he won't notice anything weird.." Gon said hopefully

"No...my clothes are on the floor... right next to the bed..."Killua deadpanned watching the doorway for Illumi. Waiting for him to come out with his hair fanned out by how powerful his aura is when he gets angry. Killua took a step forward, unconsciously taking a defensive stance. "He won't miss that." He finished as Hisoka pulled Gon to stand behind him just in case Illumi came out with his needles at the ready.

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Illumi walked into Hisoka's bedroom, muttering in disgust at the mess he saw all around the room. 'Honestly, Hisoka should have better cleaning habits with how particular he is." He thought to himself and he made his way into the bathroom. It wasn't until he was almost to the doorway leaving Hisoka's room that Illumi noticed something off, stopping he turned sniffing the air as his eyes came to rest on a deep purple turtle neck laying on the ground halfway under the bed where Hisoka sleeps... Illumi would recognize that top anywhere, Killua had been wearing the same one his entire life. It happened slowly, first his eyes darkened... his bloodlust slowly leaked from him in every direction as his mind went over all the things that could have led to his dear brothers clothes littering the floor of his only friends bedroom. 'No, he was certain, this would either be the last day of his life or Hisoka's, but first I'll make him pay.' he thought to himself as he glided down the hall to see the other three already in defensive stances. That was all the confirmation he needed.

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Killua felt his brothers bloodlust before he saw him coming. He knew he promised Hisoka he would run, but there was no way he could do that now. The room got darker the closer Illumi got.

"Illu..." Killua said pleadingly.

Illumi looked up immediately meeting Killua's eyes as he heard his name leave his brothers lips. Those lips that should have remained innocent until he took over the family business.

"Killua." Illumi said Darkly daring him to continue his plea for mercy.

"Illu... you had better calm yourself before things get out of hand." Hisoka warned the assassin allowing his blood lust out as well. As soon as Hisoka finished his sentence Illumi launched himself in the direction of the magician. Hisoka prepared himself for the attack ready to block and counter immediately, but as soon as he was within reach he disappeared. Hisoka turned to look around seeing Illumi had jumped over him and had taken Gon by the throat lifting him off the ground. Illumi's face splitting into the most sadistic grin any of them had ever seen. Gons face was turning purple Hisoka could see the blood leaking from his neck where Illumi had pierced him with his nails as he stood there seconds from ripping gons head clean off his body. Hisoka lunged forward when he saw a flash of blue, followed by a spray of red blood littering the floor of his dining room. Hisoka's heart jumped into his throat and he fell to his knees allowing strangled sobs to leave his body as gons form fell to the ground. The happiness he had seen for himself just this morning ripping from his core. Hisoka looked on in horror as blood continued to spray onto gons body. Realizing the blood should be coming from Gon, not falling onto him he looked up to Illumi in bewilderment. Illumi landed knees first as Gon sat up and slid back away from him, Gon was drenched in the assassins blood. It seemed to Hisoka that it took forever for his body to fall the rest of the way to the floor, but once it finally did, he realized Illumi no longer had a head. His shoulders hit the ground, but where did Illumi's head go, it was just jagged bits of flesh being swallowed up by the copious amounts of blood running from where his head should be. Hisoka looked on in confusion still not understanding what happened. Gon sat drenched in Illumi s blood, but Illumi was going to kill Gon. He wouldn't have messed up, Illumi was the perfect assassin, so where did his head go? Hisoka practically screamed in his own mind, looking around frantically to figure out what had happened.

"K.k.Killu..." Gon stuttered, causing Hisoka to look at his newest lover in fear only to be replaced with understanding and true admiration as his eyes landed on Killua's right hand covered in blood, then finally to where Illumi's head lay by the silver haired hunters feet...

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Well that's the end of this chapter...

Check back next week sometime to find out how Killua reacts to the fact that he just ripped illu's head off.

And what he tells his family...

How will the funeral go...

Can Killua live with himself...

Will Hisoka and Gon be able to help him cope???

Soooo many questions!!