SONIC
I knock on his door on this rainy Saturday afternoon. The sun was barely visible, so it was darker in our house more than usual. I turn to look out the window from afar and the rain fell silently.
Just how our home was. It was silent ever since yesterday and I wanted to get Jules away from it for a while.
I was about to knock on it again, but he opens it with a fire truck in his hands. He looked off once again and I bend down and bring his face back to me.
I hug him strongly and kiss his head. His small body moved closer to me, and he nuzzled into my shirt. I pull back and he was looking at me now and I smile at him.
My smile was true but it hurt because I was tired mentally still, but I had to put on a mask for him. I didn't want him to feel like I was ever mad at him.
I wasn't mad at him anymore because I think he understood what he did was wrong and there was no need to talk about that anymore.
"Let's get you to your grandma's house. Your cousins are waiting for you." I say and he nods his head and doesn't speak which was unlike him because he always had something to say, so I tickle him a little bit, making him laugh and he smiles at me. "Okay? You excited?"
"Y-yeah! Can I bring my t-rex?" he runs back and grabs it before I can even answer that and I laugh as he comes back and shows me it.
"Yes, you can. Come on. You were supposed to be there by now and your grandma is going to get on to me for being late."
Arriving at… my mom's house.
"SONIC! HONEY! AND MY GRANDBABY!" My mom hugs me tightly and then hugs Jules.
"Now Jules! I heard about your behavior! You are going to have to explain yourself mister!" she says and he blushes, but my mom picks him up and goes back to being happy that another one of her grandchildren were here.
"You are also getting so big!" she kisses him on the cheek, and he laughs as she places him in the house and then he runs in towards the bedroom they stay in and I listen to more of my nieces and nephews greet him.
"Hey Ma." I say and she turns to me and looks around me.
"Hi, how are you.?" She asks and I think about yesterday quickly and I try to hide it, so I shrug my shoulders. "I see. Same thing?"
"Yeah." I mutter and place my hands in pockets. "Jules heard us this time. He has been acting kind of weird so… just- "
"Don't worry." She says and rubs my shoulder. "I'll explain it to him."
"Thanks, ma." I say and I could barely look at her in the face.
I felt sad. I didn't want to burden her, but she knows me too well.
"Do you want to come and chat for a moment? See your nieces and nephews?" she asks and I was about to decline but going back home wasn't somewhere I wanted to be anyway.
"Sure- "
"UNCLE SONIC!" A green haired hedgehog runs towards me and then more, pink and a mix of blue and green hair.
"Hi- " I get tackled on bombarded with hugs and pinches from my brothers kids because they were so playful but more on my sister side at least they didn't try to bully me.
Seeing them did make me happier and after a long time of greeting them and bullying my nephews back, I walk into the kitchen and see my mom pouring tea in two cups and once I open the door, she smiled at me and fanned me over to sit down.
"I made it just how you liked it as a kid! Well, my only child that liked to drink tea. I'm so glad you were at least somewhat like me. Your other siblings act wild just like your father." She jokes and I laugh sit down with her.
"Where is he anyway?" I drink my tea and it brings back memories of when I was a child.
"Saying something about making a campfire for the grandkids. I dunno. You know him, always trying to build something and then have a lesson behind it." She says and I smile and stare at my ice cubes. "Since you are wondering where my husband is…where is your wife?"
My smile drops and stare harder at the cubes of ice floating in my tea.
"Not sure."
A humid wind runs by as we are protected by the rain from her roof, and I drink my tea slowly.
"I told her I wanted a divorce yesterday." I say and my mom leans in. "She said she didn't want that."
"Wow, that was her reaction. I thought she would have been more than happy to split from this marriage!" She says and throws her hands in the air.
I had nothing to say after that, but she touches my arm and I look at her.
"Good to know she still wants to be with you? Hm? That's better progress than it has ever been. You told me she never talked to you about everything and now she is. How does that make you feel?"
"I feel tired."
"Your situation is tiring. I'm not even sure how you have stayed with her that long besides loving her and Jules. Which I asure you still love her since you didn't leave." She says and I don't respond to that.
"Unless something else is getting you by for you to be this calm about it- "
"Nothing else is going on." I say quickly and she takes in my quick response, and I blush.
"Sorry, Ma. Hearing that… sometimes triggers me. I wasn't trying to raise my voice."
"Were you trying to lie to me too?" she says, and the rain became more vibrant as it peck on the roof and I look at her. "Now, Sonic you were completely verbal last time you came here, and we talked about this and now you are completely silent. What's going on? What changed? What got added?"
"I…" I couldn't tell her. Why would anyone tell their mother their sins or wrongdoings?
"Come on, baby. I know you. What are you going to do after leaving here? What helps you get by when Jules isn't around?" she asks, and I shrug my shoulders.
"Hm. Well whatever it is… keep doing it." She says and I look at her in shock and she stands up. " I have to get the cookies from the oven-"
"Wait, ma. Keep doing what? I'm not doing anything?"
I say and she laughs and shrugs her shoulders.
"If you don't know then I don't know. Right? If it's nothing." she says and enters the kitchen.
The rain was louder and it was starting to mist on me so I went inside too and watched my family surround my mom as she placed the cookies on the stove for them to cool. My niece picked up Jules since he was the youngest and shortest and showed him the cookies.
They each got one as time went over and I wanted to talk to my mom again about what she meant by that but she was busy so I said my goodbyes and told Jules to behave because I couldn't take another phone call of him doing something.
As I got in my car and I back out of the driveway, I had no idea where to go.
Home was draining me, and I tried not to spend my time at work so much.
I watch the rain slide down my window and I see a couple walk in the rain. They held hands and seemed happy as the woman held the umbrella and stayed close to the other woman who was trying to get in the rain as the partner seemed to laugh locked her around her and pulled her in close.
I look off as they walk closer, and I start to drive down the road. I stop at the lonely stop sign being rained on and then I see a grocery store nearby.
"Soup on a rainy day doesn't sound bad."
I shop in small local grocery store and buy food to make some warm soup and bread to go with it as well. I pay for all my groceries and get back in my car. I turn it on and drive off.
I drive blankly into the road until I arrive at my destination once again. I step out with bags of food in the rain and my shoes splosh on some puddles and I make it to the door.
I…click the doorbell and blush at not giving her a notice about me coming but it didn't seem like it would be a big problem.
The door opens and it felt like a ray of sunshine on my face as she looked at me, standing in the rain with a hoodie on and paper bags in my hand.
She didn't say anything, so I did.
"Hey- "
"HI!" she chirps and grabs my arm, pulling me in. I stumble slightly as she pulls me in. "I… I didn't know you were coming- Food?"
She looked at my hands and then to me as she waited for me to speak.
"I… uh." I tilted the bag for her to see and she still just looked at me. "I- first sorry for showing up without telling you- "
"It's fine!" she says and closed the door behind me and I turned around to watch her.
"It was raining, and I bought groceries to make some soup. I didn't want to eat it alone so I thought you wouldn't mind having some with me."
Her eyes widen and she looks at the bag again.
"Eat with… me?"
"Yeah… if you want-"
"Sure! Uh-" she looks at herself and I noticed she had on a oversized shirt, some baggy sweatpants and green fuzzy socks. Her hairy was also frizzy like she had been laying on it and she smooths it down as she notices where my eyes were.
"Don't stare at my hair. I've been lazy all day." She turns around and walks to her kitchen and I follow in.
"You look fine." I say and she takes out a pot and a cutting board.
"No, I don't! Look at my hair." She walks up to me closer, and I look at her hair for a moment and then to her face.
She blushes and takes the bag from me and places it on the counter.
"Um- h-how are you cooking this or... what do you need to do this?" She asks and I laugh, and she watches me.
"You don't know how to cook and its so cute." I say and she gasps as I walk around and search for a pot in her kitchen.
"I… I do know how to cook!" she says and pushes me out the way and I snicker and watch her take out a soup pot that was slightly too small and I see a bigger one and switch them out.
"You might but let me show you the correct way how to cook." I say and she blushes again and stands back to watch me cook.
I show her many ways how to cut and that cleaning and cooking is important to do that way after we finished cooking that it wouldn't take that long to eat afterwards. I wash the cooking board and Amy stands near the pot and watches it simmer and then I walk over and turn it off.
"Is it done?" she asks and I hand her a black soup spoon to take it.
"Try it and see."
She takes the spoon from me slowly and grabs some. She blows on it carefully and takes a tiny sip and her eyes open quickly.
"So?" I lean on the counter and wait for her reaction.
"It's amazing…how did you do make this?" she asks and I smile and took the spoon from her and poured her some into a bowl.
"I have a family. I cook for them. That's it." I say and hand her a bowl and she takes it. "Plus, you know how I make it now so you can easily take my recipe."
I make myself a bowl and turn around to her and I watch her observe me and she smiles.
"Let's sit in my living room and eat."
We did so and it was nice. We ate then we watched a random show on Netflix. As we watch the show Amy, suddenly scooted closer and then leaned on my arm.
My brain froze then I snap out of it as she turns her head to me.
"Let's lay down." She says and I nod my head and lay down first and she lays infront of me.
I spooned her back and she got comfortable on the couch and I did as well.
"Can you throw that blanket over us? It's kind of cold." She asks.
"Yeah." I grab it and place it around us and she moves closer to me and I notice a small smile on her face.
"Heh. Why is she so cute." I think I move closer and kiss her cheek.
Her eyes move towards me, and she turns around with the cover still on her and her arm comes out and touches my face. She brings me closer and kisses me softly and release it.
She smiles and rubs my face and this time I move towards her and kisses her lips. She kisses me back and feel my heart flip.
We kiss once.
Twice.
Three times.
And then we continued to kiss. Her hand moved down to my shirt and gripped it slightly as I sucked on her lip and she moaned softly. I lean up from her and climb over her body without disconnecting our lips and I move in deeper. Her legs spread apart, and I lay right in between as we make out quietly but passionately.
Every time she would grip my shirt, it was pause me and I then I went back to kissing her the same. My hand moves down from her body, and it slides down her side and I touch her thighs through her sweatpants. Her hand slide into my hair and I let her pull me back in closer.
She released my hair and then I lean up slightly and placed my hands under her oversized shirt. Feeling on her warm skin.
I took her shirt off and her eyes melted into my face after her shirt came off.
"Take me. Please."
Her sweet voice leaked into my ears, and I lifted her from the couch and she wrapped arms around my back as I carried her up to her room. I open the room and this time her LED lights were blue.
She had a small candle lit in the corner as I laid her down on the bed and I climb back over her. I took my shirt off too and pressed my lips along her neck.
She breathed in pleasure as I sucked on a spot, I knew she liked to be kissed on and then I place my hand on her sweatpants. I took them off and I look at her purple underwear blocking her flower. I rub on the outside of her underwear, and she melted into my touch, which made me touch it even more.
I undress myself first and then I took her panties off slowly. She was wet already, and I climb back over her. Her eyes moved to mine as I became eye to eye with her and then she laughs.
"What's so funny." I ask and she touches my face and shrugs her shoulders.
"The look in your eyes confuses me." She says and spreads her legs but what she said to me made me want to ask more.
"Hehe, and now you are thinking. Ask what I mean by that afterwards." She says and pulls me in close and kisses me.
I let it go for now and I spread her legs out. I move to her neck and bite into it, and I feel her tense up as I push into her.
"Chaos…" she sighs as I enter her, and she grips my shoulder.
"Sorry, was that too fast?" I whisper.
"No… you are very big. I thought I would be used to it by now but… I-I-I guess not." She says and I blush and look down towards her legs and she brings my head back.
"It's fine. Just take your time with me. So, I can get used to you."
I push in slow and steady and grunt as she was amazing as always. I place my hands on the bed and I grind into her. She let out another moan and I do too.
Her hands touch my lower back and I lean down on my elbows and grip the back of her hair. I push in a little faster and her bed starts to rock.
"Ohh… Sonic…" she say grabs my arms and I look at her face as she squints. "Ohh… faster…"
I pause and move in quicker. Our bodies move in sync. Her legs rise up to the sides of me and she moves her hands to grip the bed. She balls her lips up, trying to continue to take me but seems like I was still overwhelming.
I move in closer and grab her hand and slow down she unclenches the bed and squeezes my hand slightly.
"I'll go slower. It's okay." I say and she blushes and moans, enjoying it once again.
Her gasps and moans sounded so great. I enhaled heavily buried my face into her neck. "Ugh… fuck." I say under my breath and I felt her insides tighten, reminding me that she loves when I talk and moan.
"Ughh… Amy." I say and she moans too and squirms slightly. "You feel so good Amy. You want me to cum inside you?"
She exhales shakily and I lean up to see her flustered completely and I reach behind her to take her bra off and her pink nipples bounce up and down slowly.
"Y-yes. Please. Ahh… I'm all for you Sonic."
"I know you are. My tight little girl." I say and I stop and turn her around on her stomach and she grips the bed. I kiss her back and start thrusting from this position and she twitches and her bottom moves closer to my dick.
"You get tighter and tighter as I talk to you." I whisper in her ear and on cue she twitches and buries her face in the bed. Moaning loudly. "You said you love it when I talk and fuck you the other day. Seems like its true-"
"Ahh!" she interrupts me, and I laugh and fuck her a little harder.
"Shhh… Let me talk so you can get your orgasm first before mine. I'm already leaking inside you probably." I say and she leans her head up and reaches and grabs the sheets even harder.
She takes a gasp of air as I fuck her quicker and blushes heavily. I slow down and stop, and I watch her blush and contain herself with her eyes closed.
"Mmm…please come soon. I don't know how long I can wait." I say and start again and she picks her head up again and drops her jaw.
She grasps the sheets even more and I move harder.
"Yeah, grab those sheets. Let me fuck you a little harder." I whisper and she moans and lifts her bottom again.
"Chaos!" she says, and her head starts to bob back and forth, and I slam into her a couple of times and I had to pull out because I was about to come too but not yet.
I turn her back around and she watches me as I lean down between her legs and eat her out. Her leg rises and she moans loudly as I taste her.
"S-Sonic… oh-" her head turns and she grips the cover. "I'm… I'm coming!"
She cums and I rise up as she still has it and her legs shake and twitch as I push back and place my hands on the back of her thighs as I spread them apart.
Amy now, opens her eyes and watches me thrust in her and she moans and smiles.
"Mmphmm. Please come in me." she asks.
Amy looks down at me stroke in her slowly and I moan, and her eyes move to my face.
She did love the sound of me moaning.
I close my eyes and I feel my orgasm catch up to me and start gripping her legs harder and I come inside her. She gasps in satisfaction, and I pull out and let some of cum splash on her stomach and she bites her lips as she looks at me squirt on her and then I push right back in. Her eyes rolled to the back of her head and then she opened them back and smiled as I finished the rest of my load in her. I pull out slowly and drop her thighs, breathing and she does the same.
Amy moved over to get cleaned up and I laid down in her bed slowly. Rubbing my face and waiting for her to come back.
"I'm back." She plops back into the bed and crawls close to me.
I wrap my arm around her, and she laid on my chest. We both listened to the rain tap on the window until Amy cleared her throat and I looked at her.
"Do you have feelings for me?"
My face heated up and I lean up and she does the same.
"W-w-what? I- "
Amy starts laughing loudly and I watch her laugh until she stopped.
"Why did you react like that?" she tilted her head and wanted me to answer.
"I don't know… I wasn't expecting that." I say and she folds her arms and smiles at me.
"What was you expecting then?"
"Maybe for you to go to sleep like you do most of the time after we have sex." I say and she giggles and then lays in the bed and I watch her get comfortable.
"Okay. I'll sleep."
I watch her and then I… I become curious why she asked that.
"Wait. Why did you ask me that?"
She turns over and opens her eyes. "I wanted to know your feelings about me."
"My feelings?"
She grabs my hand and places it on her head and laughs as she moves closer, laying her head on my lap.
"Ask me something else." She says and I watch her green eyes shine from the outside.
Ask her something? Anything… She is right. I have yet to ask anything about her. Her family… her goals… her thoughts…"
"Okay…uh" I felt really nervous from the look in her calm eyes, but I think about my first question.
"Where… are you from?"
"Nebraska." She says and I realize she wasn't even from our current state.
"You… you aren't from here- "
"No. I moved. I was born in Nebraska, and I moved to Colorado when I was… 17."
I nod my head and waits for another question from me.
"Seventeen is young. Why seventeen- "
"I fell in love with someone who was twenty." She sighs and closes her eyes. "We were high schoolers at the time, and we met when I was a freshman… which means 14 and he was…well 17 too… he was a junior."
She stops talking but I wanted to know of that story.
"How did you meet him?"
Amy opens her eyes and looks at me.
"Chruch. My dad was pastor there and we went to the same school. I wasn't very much the talkative type until he transferred to my school and then the church. I started to see him a lot more and then during a youth session, he talked to me and then it went from there ever since." She looked off and sank into deep thought.
"He intrigued me. I had at least two friends at school, and I went there my entire life, but he showed up and was friends with all the popular kids and teachers. I was jealous of him at first until he spoke to me and then I slowly got to see why everyone liked him. He was kind. Kinder than most students there and I think that is what the school needed."
"I was also bullied a little bit so when he talked to me that day. The popularist kid in school talking to me at church felt good… and he talked to me at school too. Once he did that the bullying stopped and I made a couple of more friends. Maybe he put in a special word for me or something, but my life was more durable from my home life at the moment. School was starting to be more of a relief for me."
Amy stopped talking and I rub her head softly making her laugh.
"How was your home life?"
She at first didn't answer but then she shrugs her shoulders which wasn't a normal thing for her to do but she opened her mouth anyway and answered.
"I have three brothers and two sisters. Rich dad, stay at home mom. The life." She says and sighs. "But there were favorite siblings. My sister was in cheer. Brothers in sports and my other sister was in band. All skilled in something and then there was me. The runt. The child no one had to check on because I had my older siblings. Most of them had already graduated was still getting more attention than me." She says and her eyes lowered. "I always wondered why they had me. If they were going to be so focused on my siblings, then why have one more? I asked myself a lot why I was there. Why I existed. But I knew that I wanted to be… perfect."
"Like my sisters. Like my brothers. Like… Shadow who is the reason why I moved." I say and she closes her eyes again.
"That's your ex's name?"
"Yep. Shadow. You would have liked him. He is perfect in all ways." She says and then leans her head back. "That's also why I might seem like a perfectionist all the time. I was trained to be one as I grew up."
"Well, I can see that a little." I say and she smiles and looks back forward.
"I strived to be perfect for so long. Since I had friends now and bullying stopped. I wanted to change my life even more. It wasn't easy though. Even though I was putting the effort, it's not like anyone cared or gave me any attention. I was alone." She says and shrugs herself.
"I had been alone my entire life with people surrounding me. Everyday. I hated it. I hated myself. And I felt like a robot." Amy says and then I frown slightly at hearing her say that.
"But every time I would start to think like that, Shadow would just appear… I didn't pay that much attention to Shadow after we talked for a moment when he first arrived and then he found his group of friends and I found mine and we both minded our business until I caught him smoking weed outside the church."
"Is he why you smoke weed?"
"Yeah, haha. Relationships will create small addictions for you." She says and shrugs her shoulders. "But I caught him smoking behind the church and he was just about to light it until he saw me. Usually, the first thing someone says when they get caught doing something is 'please don't tell." But he invited me to smoke with him… I had never smoked before in my life, but he invited me."
"I was thinking of saying 'no' but… it was something about him they made me say 'yes'. Maybe it's because he talked to me or… I wanted to be like him… or I was simply lonely once again…. I took a hit. A lot and I didn't let him know that that was my first time because I knew how to fit in, and I regretted it. I was so high. I couldn't even function after church, but Shadow tried to hold me together and I ended up telling him that I lied about saying that I was a smoker, and I wasn't." Amy laughs and grasps her hands together.
"He thought it was so funny. He said I was funny. No one had laughed to me in a while, so I laughed too, and it felt great. I was high and he was high, and we laughed and hung out for the rest of the church day. We had stolen some food from the kitchen too to make our high go down and then once it was time to leave… the feeling of being alone came quickly. But soon it stopped because he said… 'We should do that again' and he gave me his number and left.'"
She blinks softly and closes her eyes. "He was probably the first person to ever want me near them."
"Those dark thoughts stopped. Imagine finally not being alone. Finally getting out of the same thought process everyday… I felt so relived… So with him, it was so easy to fall in love."
She stopped talking again and I watch her face closely.
"Then you two dated?"
"We dated. My parents found out I smoked with him. I got grounded until I could graduate. I still snuck out and met with him. He took my virginity. We had sex all the time. He kissed me everywhere in high school. I got my tattoo on my back with him and then my parents kicked me out about time I graduated, and he took me in, and we moved out to Colorado." She finishes and then I had another question about that.
"You two seemed so perfect. Where is he now?" I ask.
"He cheated."
Her voice was dry, but her smile still formed. "He had sex with a girl in our apartment while I was going to college and my classed got canceled and caught him. He blamed it on me and said I made him feel alone because I never spent time with him. And then he kicked me out and I had nowhere to go. I had some money saved but that didn't do me well. I was a sophomore in college, so I luckily got a dorm and then I got some jobs here and there and graduated and then… I flirted with classmates, co-workers here and there. Just so I wouldn't feel lonely. Trying to make sure I don't fall back into the rut I was in. At least I promised myself never to sink that low again when I was in high school. And I think I am doing fine. Feels like I am gluing myself together each day." She says and I stopped patting her head and she looks at me.
"So… since I am here. You aren't lonely."
"Yep."
"And your… infertility ? When did that start?" I ask and her smile dropped.
"Um… when I was broke and at college. I didn't have the money to get my fibrosis checked out until it caused me to pass out, due to the tumor and to save me they had to take all of my reproductive organs out." She looked at her lower body and then her smile came back.
"Seems like I was meant to be alone. Hm?"
"You aren't."
"Hehe, I know."
The room is silent again and she watches me.
"Have you ever been alone?" she asks.
"No… I've never felt that." I respond.
"That's good. You probably wouldn't last." She says and leans up from me and turns around towards me.
"I'm sure I could. And it won't ever happen because I have Jules- "
"Of course. But I mean like… a significant other, alone. "she explains.
"No… I've been with Sally for so long. I never really was single."
"Lucky you. You are a sweet heart and deserve that." She says rubs my arm. "That reminds me… are you still going to be with her? Or am I looking like a better option?"
My heart pounds as she brings that up again and I wait and think.
"You do like me, right? Like have feelings for me?" Amy asks and I look off.
"W-what- "
"I have feelings for you. If you wanted to know." She says and I look at her and then she moves in closer to me and hugs my neck.
"For a while now. And then when you showed up randomly… I knew I really…really liked you. And you seemed stressed once you walked in like she had done something again and I thought that, bringing up that I want you more than she does, would put your mind at ease… so we don't have to hide… and you don't have to cheat." She says and I listen to her speak.
"You can't deny the fact that you like me. I know you do…" she motions back in front of my face and looks into my eyes. "Hm? Answer me that? I answered you truthfully so I would like to hear the same."
"Do I like her?..."
I think for a moment and she giggles and licks my nose lightly. "Unless I have to do something for you to like me more… Ya know. A lil tweaking-"
"I think I do like you." I say and she brings me closer to her face.
"Then let's be together. Just you and me." She was serious.
"Be together…" I say back.
"Yes… I could free you from that marriage. It is tiring and I know. Imagine all I can do for and what I have already done. You won't ever get stressed nor tired from me. I just want to care for you. All the way."
"You probably could…" I lay down and she sits on my lap. " What makes you want to be with me? I am a cheater. You want to be with a cheater?"
"Ha. I don't see you as a cheater. I see you as someone who doesn't want to be alone . Like me." She says rubs my face.
"Alone? You keep saying that, but it isn't true. I don't have a problem with being alone." I respond back and she laughs and lays down on her side.
"If you aren't then tell me why you cheated on her the first time. It was either you were horny…or felt alone."
"It's a really long story..." I yawn and close my eyes and she clears throat again.
"I'm waiting. And if its long then just make it short."
This conversation was more sensitive than she knew.
I was tired of this conversation but since she is opening to me… I guess I'll share.
"Me and Sally dated in high school. We went to the same college together and our first year, I gave her a promise ring because I…loved her- I still do. I just…" I confused myself after saying that and I look off from Amy, but she gently brings my face back.
"Go on." She tells me and I felt my thoughts sink backwards.
"…I went to parties. I want Sally to come but she didn't come because she would be studying. She stopped being as social as she was when we were in high school and in college, she never wanted to do anything… I know I am selfish but… I- I- didn't even know I was cheating on her until I woke up with some girl's number in my phone from the night before-" I was starting lie and I rub my face and lay on my back.
"I got drunk and had sex with a girl. And her number was in my phone." I tell her the truth and she watches me closely.
"That's why I told you that you probably would not want to be with me because I did the same thing your ex did." I say and talking about this made me so uncomfortable.
"Then she found out from some pictures circulating around from having sex with her and she found out the next morning before I could even explain it to her. She was mad and broke up with me instantly and everyday I was trying to explain myself to her, but she had me blocked on everything…until about month later she called…crying about her being pregnant and That's when…everything I did vanished." I remember.
"I told her 'we could do it and I would be there for her. We would get married. My business was going to take off. She wouldn't have to worry about anything.' I kept that promise and then I promised her that I would marry her. Right after college and I did. We got married and she had Jules…then what I did came back to surface, and it's gotten worse because we never talked about it. We never had time to talk about it. Sally was still that sophomore I broke while I had moved on from it, but she didn't."
"That's it." I stop explaining it because of what was happening now and, in the past, and Amy leans over my face.
"So… were you alone or horny?" she asks again, and I frown and turn away from her but she crawls over me and lays in front of my face.
"Did I hit a button?"
"No… I really hate talking about this." I say and turn away and she laughs.
"Don't be like that." She says and I glare at her headboard and then suddenly bodyweight slams into me and turns me on my back.
"Stop being a Cancer." She teases and I groan try to move back on my side.
"I'm not-" Amy started to tickle me and I let out a laugh that spread joy through me and she stopped right after to laugh at me.
"You are ticklish? That's so funny!" she says, and I blush and try to move away and she slams my hands down.
"Ms. Rose- Amy-"
"Ms. Rose? I'm Ms. Rose now? Wow. All I did was ask about what happened." She says and let's go and starts to get off of me but I stop her.
"No. No. I said that accident. " I say and she rolls her eyes and giggles.
"It better be, boyfriend- oh! I mean Sonic! Oh my god looks like I am saying the wrong things too!" She sarcastically jokes and we both laugh, and I watch her smile in the dark blue lighting.
"Would you…really like to call me that?"
She stops laughing and looks at my face.
"I…I would. Truly."
We stare at each other, and she gently lays her bare chest on mine and lays on me. I held her close and imagined if I could have this all the time.
I could have this all the time.
I rub my hand up her smooth back and she sighed softly and then kissed my cheek again.
That's when I knew… if I could have this then maybe it wouldn't be so bad.
She closes her eyes, and my mind was full and I had to say it.
"Maybe we should." I whisper and her eyes open quickly, and she moves to my line vision to make sure I was the one who said that.
"Should…do what?"
"Date. I… I think I really like being with you too and I like you. You just… make me feel happy."
Her lips curved and then she kisses my lips and I kiss hers back. She rose up her deep green eyes reflected in the blue lighting.
"As soon as you want too. I'd be happy to date you. More than happy." She grabs my hands places them on her heart. "You can have all of me. I promise. I'll wait for you to divorce her, and we can go on from there."
"Divorcing her… she is right. I would have to do that…and I think I am ready to do so."
"I'll do it."
"Really?"
"I want too. I can't spend my life like this anymore… not when you can offer me something better."
Amy eyes shook and she touched me once more on my face. "I can and then… I wouldn't have to be alone. I'd have you."
"You have me anyway. Even if I'm not divorced now but… you do have me. So, there is no need for you to feel alone." I say and her lip quivered, and I lean up quickly. "Amy-"
"So… I'm not alone anymore?" she asks a tear slips out and I watch her in shock. "You won't leave me alone?"
"I… I won't. Wait. Don't cry." I hugged her as she shed some tears and she hugs me back.
"You won't leave me…? Please don't." Amy whimpers and her perfect personality started to break and she clenched my shirt. " I really hate being alone. It hurts. It's a constant thought running through my head. Day and night. Just hearing you say that brings so much ease on me."
I listen to her cries and her being this upset throws me off.
She was hurting so bad and that made me feel inconsiderate.
When was the last time I thought about her like she does me. Amy is always looking out for me but to her…I never asked.
But knowing this, it's her turn to feel cared for.
"Amy. I didn't know you were hurting this bad." I say and she cries even more, and I smile to myself. "Don't cry. Shh." I say and I pull her back and watch her wipe her tears.
"You want me to stay the night?"
Her sniffing stopped and looked at my face quickly with tears running down her face. She smiles sweetly and nods her head.
We laid correctly on the bed, and we laid together. Close and she fell asleep.
The rain tapped now, and I stare at the ceiling and then I look at her. Clinging to me close. Hating to be alone.
I wrap my arms around her back and bring her close and kiss her hair while closing my eyes.
"Sorry, I just didn't know."
Next morning
My eyes opened from the sunlight erupting from her curtains and I blink a couple of times. I felt her hair on my arm, and I saw her still sleeping under me. Based on how bright the sun was, we had slept past 9am and she was still knocked out.
I yawn quietly and watch her breathe slowly.
"She looks so peaceful."
I watched sleep for a couple of minutes, until she started talking.
"No... I don't want…cheese." She mutters and I laugh softly but enough for her to open her eyes.
Her eyes brightened because she just realized she wasn't alone again. She snuggled in close to my chest and her warm feet touched mine.
"Hi…" her sweet voice echoed in the bedroom.
"Good morning- "
She kissed me before I could even greet her back and laugh against her lips and kiss her back. She straddles onto my lap and the cover falls off her body and her slick hair shines in the morning sun.
"Let's fuck."
"What-"
"I'm horny." She says and our sweet moment halts as she places her hand on my chest reach behind her.
"You just woke up- " she covers my mouth and grabs my dick from under the cover and lifts herself. I close my eyes and feel myself slip all inside her and I exhale as she lets go of my mouth and places her other hand on my chest.
"Just shush and let's start the day off right."
Moments later
I plop on the bed after cumming twice and Amy walked around carefree, like she didn't just destroy me and was starting to clean up.
"I'm hungry! Are you? Maybe you can cook us something." She says and I noticed she had clothes on now and watched me stand up weakly.
"Y-Yeah. I have to leave soon to get Jules. His grandma is going on vacation around three, so I have to go get him." I say and she drops her happy face.
"…I'll see you at work-"
"No!" Amy face looked panicked, and she smiles forcedly. "It's fine! Sorry for my reaction. I…"
Her eyes moved around the floor. "I thought I would have more time with you."
"You will. I'm not leaving until about two-thirty. Until then you have my full attention." I tilt her chin up and she smiles as I pull her into a hug.
"She is really living off me now. She expressed her feelings and now I know that she really wants me here."
I kiss her forehead and put my clothes on. "What do you want to eat?"
"Eggs and vegetables." She requests and I laugh, and finish putting my clothes on and open the door.
"So… what about an omelet-"
"I didn't ask for an omelet. I want eggs and vegetables on the side." She repeats and I scoff and turn around to her as she smiled.
"That sounds like an omelet."
"But it isn't." she spits her tongue at me and tried to walk past me, but I grab her and pull out the kitchen.
"When we date you can't be this complicated." I joke and she rolls her eyes and I wait for a smart-ass comment to come out.
"Oh! Really?" Amy says and walks closer to me, and I start laughing.
"Yeah, why don't you just want an omelet?"
"Because I asked for eggs and vegetables. And also, when we start dating you better give me what I want when I ask for it…Sonic." She says and my jaw drops as I watch her walk away. "And when you don't give me what I want I get a little bratty. That's why you got fucked like that upstairs."
I didn't have comeback to that because she did fuck me up, upstairs.
"Whatever." Was my only comeback and I place my hands in my pockets as she laughs at the victory of getting me to shut up.
She kisses me on my cheek though and I smile at her, not trying to be mean.
"I'm kidding! Get to cooking though!" she yells, and I smile to myself as I take out stuff to cook for her and me.
After I cooked for her, she told me that I should leave early to get him anyway after telling her about the situation of the argument me and Sally had at the house.
Amy always wanted me to put Jules first and I knew to do that, but her reminders were helpful.
I picked him up and he was happy to see me as usual and the ride home felt normal. He talked loudly about his time over there and then after a while he fell asleep. Must have been a long night with him and his cousins.
I enter my home and carry him to his bed and tuck him in as he has his small nap. I knew he would be hungry after waking up, so I started to think about what to have for lunch as I traveled upstairs.
I open the door and I see Sally sitting on the bed and she stood up quickly as she saw me enter. I stop walking and watch her look over me and she balled her fist up.
"…Where did you go?" she asks, and I looked at her and shrug my shoulders.
"Why does it matter?" I say simply and I start walking and she stood in front of me.
"I waited for you to come back…" she says and I watch her stature shake and she blinked carefully. "I was worried… you didn't answer my phone call."
"You didn't answer mine either or tell me where you were going yesterday morning."
She looked off in shame and shook her head. "I was mad."
"Yeah, you mostly are." I try to move around but she stands in front of me again.
"And I was thinking about us."
This already.
I almost walked away until she grabbed my hand, and her voice shook.
"I really don't want u-us to end." She says and tears stream down her face. "I'm not ready. I'm sorry for… being so distant for so long. I was hurting. I was scared but I'm not scared of what we have for each other. What you have for me." She says and touches my chest, and she looks at it.
"You love me. And sometimes I'm afraid of that. I didn't know it was true. I didn't know what was true. I knew that I was mad and… embarrassed for what you did but I couldn't let you go because I... I-I love you too Sonic." She says and then she… she is hugging me.
My eyes widen as she gripped my shirt.
"I love you so much Sonic. I don't want to leave you. I need you so much. You complete me and hold me up higher than anyone ever has… and I'm not ready to lose that." She cries out and soaks her tears into my shirt.
"You didn't come home last night, and I thought it would be too late to tell you my feelings but… you came back. You always do for me, and I appreciate it. I'm complicated and I appreciate it, Sonic. Please… let's just talk. Like we should have." She says and touches my face and I step back, and she follows me.
"Don't Sonic- "
"Sally… what?" I ask her and she watches me talk. "Why now?"
"I love you. That's why. I couldn't think or focus. Knowing that you wanted to leave me hurt to hear. And its irony for me because I threated you with the same words… but you started to not care, and I felt so scared. I didn't want to lose this. Us."
"Who am I even talking too…This can't be real."
She wipes her face and calms down.
"I had an idea." She says and I watch her speak.
"What if we… got away for a little bit. Me and you. Jules. We take a vacation you wanted to take for so long. And heal us. That's all I am asking."
…
Heart just say 'no'
She doesn't mean this… no way. She does mean it. She is crying in front of me and even… even her ring is on her finger. When was the last time I have seen that…?
"Please… " she begs. "Please Son-"
"You have to show me." I say and remove my hands from her. "Show me that you want this."
…
"What am I saying. Why am I always so easily convinced?"
"Okay. I will." She says and hugs me again and I frown and hug her too.
Why am I doing this… nothing makes sense anymore…
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