Yess….. Amy pov finally lmao
AMY
I unlock my townhouse and burst through.
"Fuck…. Finally." I take my shoes off and connect to my Bluetooth.
I play some smooth r&b and I take clothes off, dropping them to the floor and then changing into more comfy ones. I slide into my living room while lighting an incense.
"So glad. Today over. Working on a holiday should be illegal." I say and then I open my window near my bookshelf to let some air in as I grab a small container with a flashy design on it and then I place my ash tray perfectly.
"Roll up time! Hehe…" I rip out my rillo's and get rid of the nasty tobacco in it and then I place the good stuff inside it carefully and roll it back up.
I grab my lighter and walk to my window as I light it and then the thunder startles me and I halt before lighting it fully.
"Where did this rain even come from?" I whisper and then my phone rings and I pick up to see that it was my bestest friend.
"Hey Rouge!"
"Hey girl! Oh my god, are you smoking? Me too!" she shows me her pipe and I laugh.
"I haven't smoked yet because I keep on getting distracted by beautiful women." I say and I place my phone on the window sill as I smoke and then she rolls her eyes.
"You LOVE WHEN I CALL YOU! STOP BEING HARD TO GET" she yells and I laugh and then she gasps. "AND WHAT WOMEN? You and your questioning."
"No one…. But a girl at the stop light did say I was cute before it started to rain so there is someone."
"Psh… Just go ahead and join the dark side, Amy…." Rouge was fully bi-sexual and I was questioning because of her stories she would tell me she had with other women but I don't know if that was me yet…. But it was interesting.
"I know why you can't decide because you are still fucking your boss." She says fast and I smile.
"I don't fuck him anymore. We broke up about two weeks ago."
"Two weeks?! No, what happened? I thought he was going to divorce her for you and you guys were going to be happily ever after."
"Nope. He chose her over me." I take a hit and sigh as it exhales from me. "Which is under stable. She is a teacher, his first love, the mother to his kid, and pretty. While I am mentally unstable with a fat ass."
Rouge laughs loudly and I chuckle softly as I think about it and then her laugh stops and she takes a hit.
"Is it still bothering you?"
"Sometimes. Today he said he was thankful for everything I did for him and that felt nice but… I was looking at him and all I could think was- "
"The Sex! Oh my god! Your sex life with a man who has no sex but wanted it was so hot!" Rouge fangirls and giggle and take another hit. "I know you miss it! You haven't even told me all the times you two had sex."
"It was like every day I would work. I don't know what else you want me to tell you. It felt great. His hands are huge. Um… I think he is slightly submissive but when I started to catch attitudes then he has been a lot more dominant which is…very intense. It's like he cares about me but then he would slap me in the face. I love that." I think about Rouge sighs.
"I need that!"
"You don't even like to be hit or spit on!" I joke and turn away from my window and look at the screen.
"You don't know that…. I am starting to become a bit kinkier like you."
"Oh really!" I say and I wait for her to tell me something and then she thinks.
"This one time this guy ate my ass!" she says and I scoff.
"Okay? My boss did that on the daily."
"WHAT?! You are lying." She says and I laugh and shrug my shoulders.
"Sometimes he would! I told you he wanted affection so he would do absolutely everything." I place my blunt on the ash tray because I didn't want to be too high and order a lot of food because I have not eaten.
"Whatever." She says and I smile at the screen. "Are you okay after that? You said you two had a moment. I really thought you guys were going to be together.
I look off from the camera and I look around the room. Thinking about what it could have been.
"No. It still hurts because… he started to act like my boyfriend. For a moment and it felt nice to have that but soon that ended and I still miss it. Sometimes… All the time." I say softly and Rouge sighs.
"Well, I am sorry that it ended that way. But just know that there are a lot more men who would want you and maybe not fuck you like Sonic did but definitely treat you well."
"Thanks babe." I say to her and her words did make me happy again and then I hear my doorbell ring.
"Was that a doorbell I heard? You are sad but your hoes are already showing up!" she jokes and I roll my eyes.
"No, I don't have hoes anymore."
"Sure. Sure." She says and I open the door and then it thunders loudly as I stare at his wet face.
It wasn't wet from the rain but it was wet from his eyes.
He cried and sniffed his stopped-up nose and didn't make eye contact with me…. He was even still dressed in the clothes I last saw him in when we sat on the bench.
My eyes scan over all of him. He had a bag in his hand and his shirt was soaked like he had been standing out here for a while before he could work the courage to ring on my doorbell.
And his face…. He looked so devasted- but what is with the bag-
Sonic moved his lips like he wanted to talk but he was afraid.
So spoke before him.
"Sonic… what are you doing- "
"Sally cheated on me."
I start to drop my arm with my phone in it and I stare at the broken man before me.
"She cheated on me and kicked me out… I have nowhere to go."
…
I take a step back from his words and my mind rambles.
"No…. No…. don't you say it. Sonic."
"I'm… I'm sorry to bother you… But I could really…. Really need someone." He says while trembling and crying and I stand my ground as he cracks more and more with his depressed feelings.
"I don't want…. To be alone. You were right. I… I hate being alone and I am barely making it." Sonic sobs in front of me and I clench my fist.
"Can I please just… come in- "
"No." I say fast.
I knew that question was coming up and that infuriated me.
"I…. I… don't have anywhere else to go."
"Go to your mother's house." I say fast and strong.
"Jules is there. I can't let him see me… not like this." It thunders once more and the wind was starting to get cooler and he shivered in front me and took a step again.
"Please Amy- "
"Get a hotel."
I refused…. I refuse to have this man in my house ever again.
"Amy-"
"That's Ms. Rose!" I yell and he flinches and steps back and I watch him keep his eyes to the floor.
"This isn't fair Sonic… I… I told you that she wasn't good for you. Now look at you?" I say and his lip shakes.
"Am I really… just a second choice to you?" I say and he looks at me and shakes his head, approaching but I try to close the door before he could get in but he stops it from closing. "Like… You don't waste a single second in your life to remind that you chose me second!"
"I'm sorry. Don't leave me alone, Amy."
"Let go of the door! This was your choice!" I push the door but it doesn't budge. "What makes you think that I would just let you back in with me so easy!? I gave you your chances!"
I push the door more and it starts to close.
"You had your chance! Now you are going to see what it is like to be alone!"
"But I don't want to be!" he says back and I frown and keep pushing the door.
"Well, that is your fault! Not mine! You need to see what it feels like!"
"I'm afraid of what I might do if I were to be alone!" he yells and that stops me from push the door.
"I'm afraid… I don't care…. About anything. But I don't want to be alone. Please don't let me. I know I am asking you a lot but… If I am alone… any longer then….I….I would- "
I open the door and he look at me and I stare at his broken face.
I grab his wet arm and push him forward. I lock the door and he stand there and I grab his arm place a pillow on the couch and aggressively throwing a blanket onto it.
"You sleep here! You don't make any sounds or say shit to me!" I yell and that last sentence I didn't mean but he nodded his head and stared at me.
I felt tears build in my eyes and I march away and stomp upstairs and slam my door closed. Locking myself in it and then I sink to the floor.
"Oh, my chaos…" I say and look around on the floor for answers and then I listen to thunder rumble again and I move my hair from my face.
"Sally cheated? Why would she do that? Perhaps she was lying all this time? Cheated on him with who? Sonic, never brought up someone else in her life… maybe he really did just find out." I think and I lean my head back to the door. "More importantly… I let him into my house. After he obviously loves someone more than me… what was I thinking. I know these games. Ugh… but he is genuinely sad… but I was too- "
I stop thinking as I remember when I closed the door when I broke up with him… I was alone too. And sad.
I didn't show it because I did not want him to worry but just seeing him come here after his wife cheats on him bothers me.
"I should kick him out."
"NO!"Rouge yells and I remember that I didn't hang up and I look at her.
"You…. You heard all of that- wait what do you mean no?"
"…This is your chance to get him back!" she yells and my ears fall and I bring my legs to my chest.
"Rouge… It's not that simple. He literally chose someone over me… and sometimes I think if I was even an option." I say and I felt sad again from what happened before and then I freeze.
"Shit… I let him know that him, breaking up with me bothered me too with what I said." I cringe as I let my feelings show to someone.
"Don't kick him out!" Rouge yells again and I look at my phone to see her close to the screen.
"Why not…"
"Don't you love him?"
I held my phone in my hand as she said that and my lip trembles.
"Amy… you told me yourself you thought you did. I honestly thought you were crazy for falling in love with someone so fast- "
"I don't!" I yell at her but really… I was yelling at myself.
"I don't… he loves someone else so I don't love him."
"Amy… you need to see yourself right now. You are lying to yourself and for what?" Rouge talks to me and I stop looking at her. "You let him go because you love him, right?"
"I did but I don't want to admit it because I already feel like a fool."
"He is back now. Even after you letting him go. He is back so it must be fate or something."
"Fate? Fate has never been on my side. He is just going to use me again. He is already using me again so… my feelings are the last thing on his mind since he showed up here after being cheated on."
"Amy? Come on. Talk to me- "
"Rouge…. I think I am going to bed." I say and she sighs.
"… You never say your feelings, Amy. I am trying to be your friend but when you shut off like this it hurts me too…. You know that right?"
I don't say much after that because I had already resulted into my head to figure out this situation myself.
"Okay… I'll talk to you later."
Rouge hangs up and I am left in my dim room.
I walk to my bed and then lay down softly. I close my eyes…. Inhaling and exhaling myself into this situation I was in deeply…
…
"Sonic is here. After me being his second choice and him breaking up with me. And finally clearing the awkwardness of our past relationship. He is back here. In my life. My personal space."
"He said Sally cheated on him. She probably did it at their house since he hadn't changed clothes but he has a bag with him… clothes maybe… Where is Jules? His mother's house. Right."
"But why did he choose to come here? He has other friends. Knuckles. Cream. Cream's boyfriend… uh Tails?... I heard they were close but why here… why would he come here?"
I open my eyes and stare at the ceiling.
"Probably because I am his second choice."
"Or he is trying to find someone who still gives him that type of affection… Tails, Cream, Knuckles or his mom couldn't do that for him."
I listen to footsteps downstairs and I watch the light shut off from the bottom of the door and I sigh again.
"Only I can give him that feeling… so he is trying to get it from me." I talk to myself and then roll over on my side.
"Well, I'm not too easily… manipulated." I say and then go back to my thoughts.
"Or do I just want to be manipulated… then I could have him back again." I whisper and think of my options but I knew the truth.
"We are just friends…. Maybe instead of… trying to kick him out then I should… help him."
Those feelings made me feel like I had more power over this situation but I was still worried about him using me again.
"As long as you don't let him get close to you Amy then you should be fine." I think but my heart says different.
"Love him….. "
I start feeling excited but I couldn't get over the fact that he chose her over me.
I crushed after I told him I was done.
Because I wasn't done.
Flashback
"Amy… no." Sonic says and even his voice almost made me want to tell cry in front of him.
But I wasn't going too. I didn't want to see me cry.
"I know…" I rub his face and even touching it caused my heart to crack more. "It sucks. Yeah. I thought that too while I was on my lunch break. I actually kind of cried but you really do deserve everything. You are very sweet and loving. I needed that but now. I think you should focus that all on one person… That was your first choice."
I'm sure I looked completely fine with this decision but in the inside… I was suffering.
This for the best-
Sonic hand grabbed mine and I felt my soul jerk towards the feeling of someone l loved holding my hand.
He was still trying.
Haha. Expected of him… this is why I don't deserve him.
"What can I do? To make you be able to stay with me? Maybe we can get a place together? I'll visit on the weekends a-and be with each other…Anything. You know I will do it."
"I know you would but Sonic. I'm not the one. You showed me that today- "
"Then let me show you the other way that you are!" He walks closer and I look off. "I'm serious about you. You aren't my side piece or something. I really want to be with you. That's why I took you too that nature place and bought you flowers. I… I wanted you to know that."
"That's why I have to let you go Sonic. What we have isn't… right." I thought to myself but I move past it.
"Or… did you do that because you know that you were about to lose me." I say and his face looked confused.
"What? Amy, I still can't think about losing you even though you are completely done with me. I'm still not."
"… After that night we had sex together and you had to leave…. I was sad. Serious. I'm pretty sure I cried some of that night because I was never your number one and I could never even compete with Sally. It made me mad but I couldn't be mad. We were never planned to have feelings for each other."
"But now we do! I am still trying to figure out the best way for us to be together but-…. I don't know but I still want to try." he says and we both looked at each other.
"Please- "
"Sonic, I am done."
…
I move my hand from his and stepping backwards into my home. "I'm not mad at you. I don't hate you. But I am letting you go because you don't need me anymore. I'm second to Sally. And you choose her over me. I probably couldn't take a hint the first time after the vacation you went on but now, I know. And it's okay." I reach behind my neck and take off something that felt like diamonds and gold and passed it right to him.
I grab his hand one more… trying to hold in my tears and I give back the necklace he gave me today.
"Be happy with your family. I still will keep my promise and never tell." She speaks.
He looks at the necklace in his hand and then I look at it too and my heart hurts but I suck in my feelings as he looks back at me and force a smile.
A smile I had been faking since this conversation started.
"It was fun. I might be mad that you choose me over her forever but that's fine!" I say and laugh and then I wave at him because I was close to tears.
"I will see you at work!"
I close the door and I wait near it as my lips fall and I watch him walk away from the peephole of my door.
He walked away and got his car but I hoping that he would have just stood there and asked me to come back. I didn't even lock the door so he could have but he didn't … this was for the best.
Right?
I turn around and sink to the floor as I listen to his car walk away and my heart… burns for him.
The tears were finally allowed out and my lip quivered as I look around at me starting over at stage one of my loneliness.
"Fuck." I say and the tears stain into my shirt and I bawl up.
"FUCK!" I yell louder and I let my emotions leave me.
I held it in for a good while but I deserved to let it go. I held on for that long but now that I did… I deserved to cry.
Because truly…. I loved him but I let him go. Because I didn't want to block him his true love.
Which wasn't me.
I was the second choice.
Back to present
My eyes open and I yawn and reach over for my nightstand to grab my blunt I never finished but I remember that it was downstairs.
I get out of bed and don't turn on my lights so I step on something that I don't think about checking but then I open the door and walk downstairs.
"I should probably make some food." I think as go into the living room and I freeze hard.
Everything that happened yesterday hits me as I stare at the blue hedgehog who was still laying on my couch. Not making a noise.
"Is he awake?"
I creep slowly to him and look around at my living room.
His wet clothes were folded neatly in the corner of my room… he was probably too embarrassed to ask me to use my dryer but he did change into more comfier clothes.
I approach him carefully and I lean over to look at his face since he his back was faced towards me.
His eyes were open and he looked really tired.
"Did this idiot not even sleep?"
"Hey." I say and it scares him slightly and he leans up fast and I do as well.
He doesn't look at me and that slightly hurts my feelings and I start becoming worried but also, I thought about how annoying it was that he had to be here anyway.
"Did you even sleep?"
Sonic started at his hands and kept his face away.
"… I couldn't." he murmurs and his voice was low and painful.
I stood there for a moment, watching him be completely sad. It infuriated me that he was even being sad over his wife I told him to break up with.
And then even be sad about an ex while being here.
"Sonic. I swear to chaos. Get up."
Sonic looked at me in fear and he stumbled over his words.
"Why… I- "
"Go upstairs and go to sleep. If you are going to be here then don't lay here and be depressed on my new couch." I say and he looks at me confused.
"I'm fine down here- "
"You aren't. You didn't sleep at all! "I point out and I throw my blanket off of him and I see his bare legs since he was wearing shorts and I start at the muscles in them but then I evert my eyes away by grabbing my pillow and threating him with it.
" Go to sleep…. UPSTAIRS!"
Sonic finally stood up but it was slow and he became taller than me.
I swallow hard as he passes me and I follow him upstairs. Sonic opens my door and then walks to my bed and turns around and looks at me.
"I don't have too… uh- "Sonic stops talking from my annoyed face and he gets in.
He lays down and gets under the cover but then he stops and reaches for something in the cover.
"did I leave something in there- what if it's my vibrator?!"
I curse myself for being horny all the time, with masturbating and then falling to sleep right after.
Sonic just pulls out my phone and hands it too me.
I take it and grab it but he didn't let go.
My eyes go to his and my heart thumps loudly.
"Can we talk… after I wake up?"
My heart was screaming at me to jump on this man and hug him… kiss him even but I was still trying to hold myself back. He had already hurt me once… but I would take the chance to hurt by Sonic again.
Since he is slightly selfish then I should be selfish too with him. That was our thing after all.
"I don't care."
"Lie."
Sonic lets go of my phone slowly and I walk away with his eyes piercing in my back and my ears were eagerly waiting to hear him run after me or say my name… to make me stop and face the truth about how I actually feel about him but I close the door before that could even happen.
I have a great mentally stability. I am able to realize my hearts feelings and my brains feelings at the same time. Making hard for me to get confused into gabble, unless… it benefits me in a certain way then I would not care but as for now… I am listening to my brain.
For now…
"Ugh… he is so hot!" I scream in my head as I go down stairs and angrily light my blunt.
"Just imagine the sweet make up sex we could have… OR ANGRY SEX. I want anything right now…"
My insides were screaming for pleasure and I light my blunt even faster to try to stop my heart and brain for agreeing but geez… I really could just… have him back… but no! NOT RIGHT NOW!
I plop on my couch and I suddenly a smell crowds me.
I fling up and trip over my rug on my floor as this entire room smells like him.
"Just get high and go back upstairs… comfort him by kissing him… and then see where it goes…"
I was simping easily for Sonic now. All he would have to do next is say my name and I think I would just fall for him all over again.
I hit my blunt and then I walk off to the kitchen as I start list off everything, I could do with him.
Get back with him.
Have sex… a lot of sex.
I can make him apologize to me.
… or I could be a decent friend so he wouldn't have to be sad. He probably is really is down.
"… Then I will make us both some breakfast… I'm sure he has not eaten so food is the least on his mind." I open my fridge and notice that I had nothing.
"Right… I don't cook." I stare at my fridge and then I walk out of it and head upstairs again.
I open my door to my bedroom slowly and I see Sonic…. Knocked out.
He was snoring loudly too... curled into a ball with my sheets.
I start blush at his peaceful face and I carefully walk to my closet and grab some sweat pants that I slip over my shorts and then I put a hoodie on and some rainboots.
It was still raining as I heard it thump on the ceiling and then I walk out to Sonic again and he had not made a noise.
He was really tired.
I grab a sticky note from my drawer and stick it to the inside of the door so that he would know that I was going to the store to make something and then I leave.
I get in my car and turn it on and then I look at myself and my face was still red.
"Why am I being so nice to him… he still did me so wrong…"
I drive to the store anyway in the rain and I realize I haven't been to a grocery store in a moment. I stand there and listen to the music played from a store until a random person tries to get by.
"Oh- Sorry. "I shuffle out the way and I run into a basket and I look down at it.
I grab it and start walking towards the vegetable section. Watching the normal people get groceries to cook at for home for their families or themselves and walk off.
"What am I even going to make? It's almost lunch so maybe I could do… uh- what do people have for lunch…"
Another person passes me and then they sort of stop and look at me.
"You, okay?" he asks and I blush.
"Y-yeah! I'm deciding." I say quickly and he laughs at me.
"Me too." He says and this time he smiles he shows his teeth and then… I feel the urge to speak more.
"Cooking for someone?" I ask and then I secretly curse myself in my head.
"Why am I flirting with him?! I have Sonic at house-"I stop my thoughts and then walk closer to the stranger wolf that was a dark blue and way taller than me.
"No? Should I be?" he starts to smile even more, taking interest into my quick witty conversation and then I start to laugh awkwardly.
"I… uh… I don't know? I'm cooking for someone and I don't really cook that much." I try to ease in that I already had someone.
"Lucky guy?" he says and I freeze.
"Lucky guy? Sonic isn't even my boyfriend! What am I thinking?! Why am I trying to be obedient for him?"
"Haha, not like that. He is my friend that's all. He is having a bad day so I thought I might cook something."
"That's sweet of you. But sadly, I am not cooking anyone, just myself." He says and I nod head and look into his eyes as he looks into mine.
"haha… it's like that sometimes. But it seems like you can cook! You have a lot of ingredients in your cart." I point at and he looks at it and then moves it closer to me and he starts to approach me… getting taller by the second.
"I am a simp for tall people."
"Want to try to guess what I am making?" he says and I lean in.
I see heavy cream… cheese… a lot more cheese… and then macaroni noodles and then other ingredients for it too.
"Mac and cheese?"
"A slow cook mac and cheese." He says proudly and my mouth waters at the sound of the food and then this guy's friendly personality.
"Ahh, that's sounds amazing. I wish I could cook like that."
"Well, you don't have to wish if you have someone who can do it for you." He says. "You could even have it today if wanted."
"Okay. I want this man to destroy me."
"Haha, and what else is coming with the mac and cheese." He started to blush this time and then that's when I knew I had this dude wrapped around finger.
"Um, whatever else you want."
"Whatever else? You know whatever could be anything right?"
"It could. J-just depending what you want."
I smile and he smiles too… he was super cute and I could tell he was kind too.
"How about your name first."
"Right!" HE blushed and realized that he has invited to cook for me but didn't even get my name too.
"Tai."
Oh Tai…
"I'm Amy. Nice to meet you."
"It's nice to meet you too… um could I get your number? If that's okay?"
"Sure!" I smile I approach him more and he smiles at my acceptance and then we exchange numbers.
"You are very pretty by the way." He says and he was still blushing.
"Thank you, Tai. And you are very nice. You have to cook for me now."
"I promise I will! "he says and I laugh and he does too. "Uh… do need help with deciding on what to make for your friend? I already got my groceries but I do need to head to the meat section."
I look around the store before answering and then I look back to Tai.
"Okay."
My tiny grocery store date later.
"Ah… you don't have to help me put my groceries in."
"What? I made you buy all of this so you can have food in your house. I can not believe you don't grocery shop." He says and closes my trunk for me.
"Haha, my family never took me with them to the grocery store so… I stayed home." I say and cocks his eyebrow at my statement.
"Really? Why not?"
"I was the youngest! My sister watched over me." I say and he smiles.
"Ah… that probably makes sense to why you don't cook. Spoiled little Amy. Gets her sister to do everything for her." He teases and that actually makes me laugh.
"Okay 'Cool Tai' Did you go to the grocery store a lot as a kid? I bet you were so cool!" I tease back and he holds his umbrella out for us but mostly me since I did just walk out in the rain with a hoodie and rainboots.
"I played baseball and I had a very strict home so of course I went to the grocery store." He cheeses.
"Well, I definitely see the jockey baseball boy." I grin and he laughs once more.
"Do I seem Jocky to you? I was actually fairly quiet." He says.
"A little… no not at all." I give up and he laughs louder and I smile at him.
"I can see the spoiled-ness in you though." He says and I roll my eyes but then smiles at that too. "But I like that. It's very very cute. A woman who loves to be spoiled… very attractive to me."
Now that threw me off and I was starting to feel nervous how he was looking at me. He was suddenly very confident with his words and I was not.
"Sorry, was that weird?" he laughed.
"No, no. Haha. You are just… very easy to talk too. I find that different."
"I think so too." He says and he looked at me almost like he wanted to kiss me right there and then.
"That would be too easy if I just let him kiss me though… That's too fast Tai. Greedy."
The sky thunders and I look towards the sky and then back to Tai who opened his mouth suddenly.
"Uh… when could I cook for you?" he asks.
"I'd have to see when I am free. But when I know I will text you." I say and smile and he does too.
"Okay. Okay. Let me walk you to your car." He walks me and I unlock my door and he even opens it for me… Still confusing me to why he was acting so nice but I'm sure it's because he likes me.
"I'll text you!" I chirp and he smiles and waves at me, standing back so I could close the door and then he walks off to put his stuff away.
I smile to myself and then I put it in reverse and drive home, carefully through the rain.
I make it home and I take in all the groceries but once I got in, the lights were still off how I left them.
"Sonic?" I say out loud and I look around my house and then go upstairs.
I open my door and I see Sonic sprayed out on the bed… still snoring.
"How long is he going to sleep?" I think I walk up closer to him and he was snoring even louder.
I leave him be and go down stairs and then I start to put the groceries up and leaving some things out for what I was going to make.
Spaghetti.
Tai said it was super easy to make, filling and it taste good the next day if you add some cheese or some seasoning on it.
I wash my hands and before I started cooking my phone vibrated. Twice.
I look at it and I see that it was Tai.
"Hey! Send me a picture of how your spaghetti goes. I want to see how my pupil does."
"I will. If it looks bad then don't call me out pls. lol"
"I would never… maybe lol but don't forget to wash your hands and have fun. Cooking should never be stressful."
I take his advice and start cooking.
An hour and a half later.
I gently sprinkle it with cheese and then I stand back and look at my creations.
"Per…fection." I notice that I was out of breath cooking did feel different to make your own food. I felt accomplished and my kitchen smelled great.
I look towards the stairs and I start to wonder if Sonic could smell the greatness in the air but I had heard nothing.
"I should go check on him- "
I see my phone and grab it, remembering that I was supposed to send Tai a picture.
"Right after I send him a picture." I say quietly and then after I sent the picture, I walked upstairs and slowly opened the door.
Still sleeping-
Sonic started to frown in his, showing discomfort and he balled his hand up that was over his head while he slept on his back.
"No… Don't…" he whispers and then his eyes curve up. "…I…I'm- "
I shake his arm and he thrashes awake, scaring me as I stumbled back.
"Hey! Hey! You are awake…" I watch him carefully as he looked the room and then to me.
"Are… are you okay?" I ask and he looks at his hands and then slowly lays back down not saying a word.
I walk slightly closer and his eyes were closed. I watch a tear slide out of them. Which makes me groan so I grab my covers and throw it off of him and he opens his eyes and turns over on his side so I wouldn't see him.
"What did I say!" I walk on the other side and Sonic laid on his chest. "Sonic, I swear! You cannot be sad here! Get up!"
"But it hurts." He complains and I slow down.
"Right… I keep on forgetting that… I forget it because he hurt me too so I'm not exactly putting his feelings first but I am trying."
Instead of grabbing his hair and throwing him out of my bed. I sit down on it and look at him.
"… I know it hurts but I cooked something for you and you need to eat. Then we can… talk about it if you want." I say since I didn't really feel like listening about his wife.
I was jealous of her.
Sonic didn't budge so I reach out to touch his face but then I stop…
"He wants affection but I shouldn't give it too him."
"I'm okay. I am not hungry."
"You haven't eaten anything since I gave you those strawberries. You need to eat." I say and he still doesn't move.
"Sonic." I say in a warning tone and then sighs heavily.
"Fine. You cannot be at my house if you aren't going to take care of yourself. So, if you aren't going to eat or pull yourself together then you cannot be here. I'm not being your affection support, lover, or anything." I state and then I get up and walk to my door.
"You can either walk out of my house or walk into the kitchen. Your choice." I leave him in the room to think to himself and I go into the kitchen and I start eating myself.
I place Sonic's bowl in front of mine on my table and I stare at his bowl of food while thinking once again.
"I think what I said was perfectly fine. He is a grown man and has made worst decisions before so if he is smart then he would come sit right in front of me. Which I am sure he is but I don't know… he actually looked like it was in a lot of pain."
Soon, I hear light footsteps on the stairs and he makes his way down. He looks at the door but then held his arm and walked away from it quickly into the kitchen since being alone was something he never wanted.
"Great choice!" I yell out and he stops because I had been observing him.
But then even my words are something I felt like taking back because he was still… crying.
Sonic carefully walked towards me but sat down in front of me. I watch his afraid movements, grab the fork and then putting food in his mouth. Eating quickly while tears fell into it.
"Oh… wow. He really really is hurting."
It didn't take long for him to finish eating but when he did, he stood.
"Thanks… f-for cooking Amy." He says and then starts to walk and I grab his hand.
"Where are you going?" I ask and he turns to me.
"Upstairs."
I look into his red eyes and wet face and I stand up.
"I'm going to regret this."
I hug him.
I hugged him tightly, feeling his slightly wet shirt caused by tears and I rub my hands on his back.
I felt Sonic take a painfully gasp of air as I held him and then his hands finally come around mine.
"I'm sorry." He first says and I look ahead as the apology meant nothing to me because I knew where he was going with this.
"I completely used you… I didn't really. I liked you but I knew at one point I was just using you because you could give me this. This comfort when… she wasn't here. I'm so sorry." He says and then he falls to his knees, sliding out of my grip.
"I'm so sorry! All I do is use people to make me feel better! This… what you are doing for me isn't fair. I don't deserve it."
I stare at him as he wipes his face and weeps.
"Can we talk about that? You said I made a second choice. I did. I didn't realize it but I did and I want to apologize because that isn't- "
"Sonic." I cut him off and he stopped talking immediately.
"First. I am going to need you to be more realistic for yourself."
"I'm t-trying- "
"You aren't. You keep on saying that you made me a second choice but you didn't. You keep on saying you are sorry but are you really? You are a hypocrite. And I am too but at least I am realizing it instead of trying to make something it isn't. That's your problem is that you lie yourself into comfort until when that lie can't help you out anymore, you lose all since of care in yourself. Bring that selfish Sonic back and put it to use."
Sonic stayed quiet but then he looked at me.
"I cheated on Sally. Twice. I didn't let her know about the second time so me… crying over her… makes me a hypocrite. She had every reason to break up with me."
"Listening to this was making me angry quickly… because now this is showing that he was lying to me all this time. Even when I knew he was lying about divorcing her. He was showing his true feelings about her and knowing that I came nowhere near that was aggravating."
"My brain feels so scattered…" he says softly and then he looks at me.
"I loved her."
…
"I know."
…
"A lot and knowing that… she doesn't love me anymore hurts. A lot." He says and I clench my fist.
"I think I will always love her- "
I grab his shirt and panics as I held in my grip.
"I…!" I stop speaking and I feel my face warm up this time. Because I loved him way more than Sally did.
"You should have left her!" I drop him on the floor and he watches me in shock.
"I told you that! That I could be everything you wanted needed! Didn't I?!"
Sonic looks at me and he starts to tear up too.
"Didn't I?"
"Yeah…" he starts to cry again and I let a tear fall out.
"Then why didn't you choose me!"
"Because I was still in love with Sally!"
I had made Sonic cry all over again.
"I'm still so in love with her!" Sonic balls and I watch him break down in front of me. His wailing made me look off and more tears fell out my face.
"I'm sorry to say it but I am…" he says as I stare at him.
We stand in silence with tears on our faces and then he wipes his face and stands up.
"But I… I liked you too so that's why I couldn't just let you go at that moment. I really wanted to be with you. And to say if I want to be with you right now would sound selfish but my feelings for you are still there. "he looks at me this time and then he walked to me and I stepped back.
"I'm sorry Amy."
"Okay." I say and he slightly looks around me and then he offered out his hand to me.
"It must hurt too." He says and that makes me look into his eyes that were not crying any more. "When you let me go."
"I…um." I didn't want to show my feelings but my tears were showing it all.
"I felt so bad. You opened up to me and everything and I just left- "
"Shut up!" I say and his lips fell.
"Just leave me alone- "
Sonic grabbed my body and I swept into comfort and warmth. It felt so nice… wow.
Tears pour from my eyes as I laid my face into his shirt and then let him bring me in more.
This is why I loved Sonic. Because he knew so much about me and was the support I needed too. But a more of a reason of why I was crying so much in my kitchen is because I loved him.
And all he did was like me because he was in love with someone who was not.
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