Chapter 7 - The Beginning IV
As I remembered clearly on the day I was born, what was the thing I needed the most was my love of my life alone? As I remained inside my heart, why must he be within distance as I remained inside my hometown as we say no more and no less than a goodbye when he left to see England? Why must he leave me as I remained in tears as I remained sadly to myself about my life that will be endanger as I go forward? As I remained inside my heart alone, why must he be alone without my heart and soul as I remained at home in the dark part of my room, rocking back and forth? As I remained alone, why must things happened to me as I go fading away? As I remained inside my home, what use is it to be around as I remained in solitude about my heart as well? As I remained at home alone, why must he remained in life as always along with his heart disappeared from my sight? Why must he be able to see forth that I was alone without him in lifetime as well?
Could I survive or just die in the hands of death of my approach? As I remained in a life so sadly, why must he remained by himself crying for me to save his heart from dying as well about I? Why must he be alone without me as I remained offline without his gaze into my eyes as we say no more and split into our ways apart?
As I remembered when we were just young at heart, why am I old since I was born firsthand? Why am I that old as we grown up to be adults as we say goodbye to the things we knew from each other, thus splitting us apart as well? Why am I pressured to be the one to save the days of my lives and theirs as well? What good use am I as I sadly took some milk to ease my stillness in my flat like home alone? Why must he be within my heart as I drank more milk into a drowsy attitude that wasn't saying I was at happiness at all? Why must he be the one disappeared from sight as I remained to see the daylight as I go onward the next day? As I was watching television next day, what was point that there was a time to settle matters into my own hands at will for others on the line? What is this as I remained in life as I left sadly to go onward home again after grocery shopping and cooking dinner every night at approximate ten hours?
As I remained so out of purity rights as I sweep the dust out of the dirty like flooring, what use was it for me that we were apart as I said, which is the love of my life? What was the deal with ne that we were apart as we say goodbye into the saddest way to go forward into our lives ahead? As I remained alone, what is the case why it was that heard to see him gone away from my sight that he will be in the cost of being in pain and in hurt of himself that he was not with me? Why must he be within my heart as I sweep in anger about my heart being in pain about the things I used to do and the friends I tried tried being with? Why all the matters should I care about the things I love to do on my spare time when they just ruined my lifetime in a twist that wasn't meant to be as such? As I remained alone without him, why must he be within my heart without another goodbye as we say no more and less than a farewell for a long time as promised it would be like? Why in all caring should I remained at home to die in this life over and over again? Why?!
[To be continued...]