Chapter 8 - The Time Ago

When I was a young person at heart, why must I lie within a stone like slab that wasn't meant as such to be as? Why must it be that we see all the same as always in life why? Why must he be in my heart without seeing the man of my dreams seeing him without a goodbye as well? As I remained in time without a fuss, to what was it that we see forth about ourselves? Why are we that sad to seek the ages of life and wonders as we figured as it should be as such? Why almost in time that we see forth the truth underneath the gaze of light and darkness within at night or daylight as we see nothing, but lies underneath the truth within? As I remained alone, why must he be within my heart as always alone? Why must he always wondered why I am nothing much, but just a neighbor that walks only passed by?

As I remained alone, why must he... be distanced from me?

As he was walking among the hall, why must he be distanced from me as we say no more and no less than a greeting of a laugh less? As we cannot turned back to where we are, why must he be in my way as always to see the future ahead of time as I figured in anger? Why must he be enraging me in hell as I remained in check of him everyday as I remained in solitude to his actions as I kept within the stance within the case why so? As I remembered the days when we were just young at heart, why must he break my feelings on the day he was within my heart as usual when we see each other every five weeks? Why must he regained himself as I remained in hell of myself as I remained alone without him in life why? Why couldn't I remembered the days when he was my feelings alone to be in peace and harmony? Why must he break my heart as we say no more as we went away to our separate lives? As we say goodbye, why must he regained his life as tears went down his face as he leaves to his friends and family like on his own?

Why must he be within the days when I was young at heart to see the days went by as promised it would be like in the days of my youth? Why must he be within my heart as I remained alone without a skip beat why so in the end of why? Why couldn't he let me be in the end to see me go away as I... remained in solitude towards another branch like tree that wasn't existing until the next night? Why though must I bother mentioning as such because of the journal's directions at will at me? As I remained at home, why must he be within the days that wasn't meant to be as I... left to see a friend that wasn't meant to be as well... Why must it had to be him as always after our game of Monster World RPG? In the recent note to see the outcome, why, why must he always see the difference between me and him as always in lifetime why? Why must he see the fitting of the days when I was first told to be at grace when it was the days alone as always for hell?

Why must I bothered about some journal that says these words aloud as I... hated it for its procrastination? As I remained at home, why must he... be within the standards as we say no more as always to seek the days of our lives ahead? As we say no more, why are we that sad to seek the days that wasn't meant as such as we cannot say why so in the end why? Why are we that sad to see the picture at lasted long as I confirmed it would be like in the days left at home without a trace of lifetimes? Why are we that sad to see the days that we were young at heart as we taken over the lives of innocence and rights comparing to justice and civil rights alone? Why me exactly must I be enforced to say these things aloud as well?! As I remained at home without him, what good is it to care about my heart as well? Why must it hurts the most in life why so in the end of this content within?

Why must I... kept myself at will to write this down as I cried in tears of my own like way? Can't this ended the way it should be? Why though must it break my heart as well?

I cannot stand as well to see the daylight as always...

Maybe I should get someone for help at least... at the same moment in time why. Why couldn't I asked for help as I... wrote this in anger that I... cannot turned away from it? Why couldn't I remained at home without such lies as always as we cannot see the facts straight on my lifetimes ahead? As we cannot say anymore, why must it be enforced to seek the facts straight onward upon this tale towards a bad conclusion why so? Why must it ended so sooner in my prediction as I... fainted in horror to see the days of darkness and how it became to be as such? Why must it ended this way at the least at home as I... cannot say another word about it? As we say goodbye to this chapter, it was no surprise why. Why am I a victim of unknown proportions in the end of this all? I must be strong... and figured it out in the end sooner...

[To be continued...]