*Warning*
( talks of abuse and small hints of rape)
~1981, New York~
Joan Schmidt did not consider himself a cruel man, he considered himself a scientific one. So, when he got the dreadful news about his brothers demise; the first thing he promised himself was that he would take care of his niece, and what better way to do that then by giving her the opportunity to contribute her body to science! Her remarkable healing abilities could be his ticket to recreating the super solider serum, but for the next five years no matter how many blood samples he took from the now 10 year old he did he could not seem to perfect the original forum of the super soldier serum. However he was able to enhance his winter soldier's healing abilities which came very handy when he was sent on his secret missions. Don't get him wrong, while he was not an emotional nor sentimental person he did not treat his niece horribly, she lived with him, was home schooled and got the chance to play outside every now and then; this in itself was not a privilege Hydra did not give to many of their experiments. However, Schmidt was getting old and while his brain continued to live on through thousands of computer data bases, his physical body did not. As a result, the 10 year old's fate was in the hands of Hydra's superiors and no one else.
The next thing Y/N remembers after her uncle's death was the words of the handsome guy next to her with a metal arm who tried to assure her that everything was going to be okay before she felt extreme coldness consume her soul.
~Asgard~
The next 5 years felt kind of numb for Loki, he did his best to forget about his soul mate and what she was up to. He would not admit it to himself, but he had never felt worthy of love and despite the fact that he would always make fun of the concept of soul mates, he had caught himself hoping that maybe he would have been worthy of being loved some day. He still had hope that life would find a way to connect them somehow. Unfortunately, all of his dreams where crushed when he was sparring with his brother and suddenly he felt a deep painful coldness consume him and suddenly he no longer felt any presence from his arm on soul mate.. That is when he understood that she was dead. He would deny it ever happening, but that day he had cried and let his older brother hug him.
Another five years had passed by and Loki's had started to feel more like his Mischievous self, whether when it came to pranks or flirting with the many maidens of Asgard. Today however, he may have taken his pranks a little too far when he decided to cut off half of Siff's hair in her sleep and he may have underestimated her anger. Suddenly she was shouting at him and kicking him where the sun does not shine, tired from the beating he got she left him with a few words that would haunt him forever. " You are alone, and you always will be" , that is when it hit him again, that he really was forever alone and that he would never find someone who would truly accept him.
~ 1999, New York~
Y/N should have been 28 years old this year, she had wanted to grow up and become a teacher, but for some reason ever since she was five years old nothing had went to plan. It was the year of 1999 and Y/N was far from being her own age or doing her dream job. Despite being present for 28 years on earth, the constant freezing of her body led to her aging incredibly slowly; she no longer keep tracked of what her possible age could be, but she could guess no more than 15 years old. Her body was used to either project her healing abilities onto other people in Hydra or to experiment on. She had tried to run away many times but had failed and the the consequences of her action where extremely painful. The Hydra members where extremely in tolerant of her, they could never get her to comply like they did with others and they theorized it may have been due to my healing abilities. So, they used good old classical conditioning to build up fear within me; if they could not hurt me physically they hurt me mentally. They took everything from me, they used my body outside of the experiments and tortured me in ways that no human would survive, without my healing abilities. The only friend that I had was the un named winter soldier who did not even remember who I was half of the time. However, he seemed to remember me when I needed him most. I would never forget how he was able to break free from hydra's min control for the first time when he finally saw one of the members using my body. He had taken him of of me and used his metal arm to detach his head from his body. I was too lost in my own consciousness to focus on the bleeding body that was now beside me, but the winter soldier had taken me out of the room before I could see any more blood.
" I promise I will do my best to get us out of here" he had assured me.
However that did not happen any time soon.
( Author's note)
I see some readers starting to pull in; I am eagerly waiting for your opinion on this story.
Also I want to note that Bucky will never be a love interest both characters will have a brother and sister relationship and that is it.
Hope you liked today's chapter!