I do not own these characters. All used people are J.K. Rowling's property.

The next morning, I woke up to the sound of Ginny's voice, yelling at someone from outside our dorm. I already knew that she was screaming at Fred.

"Just let me talk to her, Ginny." Fred begged her.

"No Fred, you screwed up and I will not let you talk to her, because this will only hurt her more and I will not let her get hurt ever again." Ginny yelled at him.

I remembered what had happened yesterday and I was feeling bad again. I got out of the bed and walked over to our bathroom to take a shower.

After my shower Ginny was back in our room.

"Selina, do you wanna talk?" Ginny asked me. She knew exactly that I didn't want her to say that she was sorry, because I didn't want anyone to feel sorry for me ever.

"I just wanna sleep again." I responded.

Ginny came over and sat at the edge of my bed, she held my hand. That was how she showed me that she felt bad for me.

Some days went by and I decided to go eat in the great hall again. The past days I was eating in my room with Ginny, who never left my side.

"Are you sure you want to eat there?" She asked kind of scared.

"Yeah, I have to live my life normal again, even if that means that I have to face him."

We walked into the great hall and sat at the Gryffindor table. I took some food off of the golden plates which came from the kitchen under the great hall. I took some bites of my sandwich when I saw Fred sitting next to Angelina, joking around and holding her hand.

"I guess they deserve each other. I'm finished." I stood up and walked out of the great hall. Seamus and Dean looked after me. Ginny wanted to follow me. But I heard that someone was right behind me.

"Selina, wait!"

It was his voice. This familiar voice of Fred Weasley. I stood still, but I did not turn around. He walked in front of me.

"Selina, you know I am sorry. I did never want to hurt your feelings." He said.

"Well, you did and you obviously didn't care about my feelings when you did that."

"You know that I love you."

"I know, but I guess you love Angelina more." I said.

"I am in love with her, yes. But I should have told you instead of doing something so stupid, that could hurt you." Fred said.

"Fuck off Fred."

"Selina, please just forgive me. I-"

"Fred, I told you to stay away from her, you already fucked up and there is definitely nothing that will excuse your actions. Just go away and don't talk to her again!" Ginny yelled and walked angry towards us.

"Ginny, can't you see that we are talking like normal human beings. Just stop being such a child and let us just talk." He said to Ginny in an angry tone.

"No Fred, I will not. You see, you hurt her and you will again and I can't let that happen."

Ginny took my hand and wanted to walk away with me when Fred suddenly grabbed my arm.

"Selina, don't walk away now, I am talking to you." Fred spoke angrily.

I suddenly trembled, because I wasn't prepared for Fred to grab my arm like that and my eyes started to fill up with fear. That was when Fred realized that he was scaring me. He let go off my arm and his face turned red.

"I am so sorry Selina." Fred said and he really meant it.

"I have to go." I said and I ran away as fast as I could.

"Well done, Fred." Ginny said annoyed.

"I didn't mean to…" Fred said and he was really sorry.

I ran away into the next empty classroom I could find and I closed the door behind me. I cried my fucking eyes out. I could not stop to shake. I saw it in front of my eyes. I could do nothing to make that memory go away. Fred didn't mean to wake up this memory in my head, but he still did.

*I saw how he grabbed my arm. He was hurting me with that but he didn't care. He told me that he didn't like it if I talked like that to him and then he hit me. He hit me and told me that I should never talk like that again to him. This wasn't the first time he had hit me. He hit me lots of times. I also saw how he grabbed my neck and pushed me against a wall, telling me that I deserved this and that if I didn't give him what he wanted he won't stop. I got some bad bruises from this. I always had to hide them, so nobody would see them and nobody ever did.*

I was in the middle of a panic attack with bad flashbacks when I heard someone opening the door and running towards me. It was Ginny, followed by Dean.

"Selina, hey, are you good, what's wrong?" Ginny asked really worried about what was happening to me.

"Selina, listen to me. We are here." Dean tried to calm me. It didn't really help; I was still shaking and in the middle of the flashbacks.

"Please! Please stop!" I screamed. I started grabbing my neck as if someone was holding it and I reached out for air.

"Selina, we are here, do you hear me?!" Ginny said, still scared.

She took my hand in hers and I was finally getting out of this horrible flashback. I looked her in the eyes and saw that she was scared. I was too. I still sat there looking down at our hands and then I started to cry really bad. I leaned against Ginny who was holding me now.

Dean looked also really worried and he didn't know what to do. Ginny saw that and she whispered to him:

"Dean, thank you, I got this now."

With that he held my hand for some seconds and left the room.

Ginny tried to calm me with stroking my hair off my face and holding my hand. After I calmed down a little she looked into my eyes and I could see that she still was scared and worried.

"Selina?" she asked curiously.

"Yeah…" I said embarrassed.

"What happened?" She asked.

"Nothing. I guess just a bad moment." I responded.

She looked at me and made that thing with her eyes. That thing she does when she knows exactly that someone is telling her a lie.

"I hate to ask that… did Fred ever hurt you?"

"No, he would never." I responded. Her face looked kind of relieved now, but she was still worried about me.

"What was it then? I saw how you touched your neck and you gasped for air…" she asked.

"That happens a lot when I have panic attacks." I told her. This was a lie, but I could tell her. I didn't want to get reminded of these things and I definitely didn't want her to look at me as if I was a victim.

"You sure it was just that?" She asked.

"I'm sure." I answered.

I am pretty sure that she knew it was a lie, but she also understood that I didn't want to talk about it, so she left this topic. She held me a little longer, until I totally calmed down. I felt safe. I definitely felt safe in Ginny's arms. She gave me this weird feeling of home.