a/n

this is actually gonna be TOO angsty, adriens dream in this part is just… agh ion wanna give anything away sooo read on you lil beans, ive missed yall so so much and cant wait to bring you all the second book of this series!

ill be on hiatus from 6th september to the 13th due to exams and preparation for school (this only applies to those who i do beta reading for, not for updates of this book)

(a huge special thanks to my bae jade for giving me motivation to write this chapter, ily to pieces)

Adrien's POV:

The door creaks open. I glance to the side. A familiar figure in the doorway. My mind can't piece it together, she's someone I know but I can't remember from.

"m-mom?" I whisper, barely audible, as my brain clicks. It feels . She sits down next to me on my bed and gives me a warm smile. She feels like a stranger to me, just another nameless face in my mind. It's her. It's really her. My breath gets caught in my throat as I choke out one question.

"where did you go, father said you ran away..." She stares at me in confusion, I wait patiently for an answer to leave her mouth, to hear her voice for the first ever time in my life.

"I-I'm sorry my sunshine, your father lied, I didn't run away anywhere, I was put into a coma because of all this" she digs around in her cardigan pocket and pulls out a purple badge. Then it finally sunk in. She had the peacock miraculous which Ladybug and I had been searching unrelentlessly for years on end. She looks as if she is on the verge of tears as she whispers

"A-Adrien., I release you from reality"

Sweating and gasping for air I wake up and shoot bolt upright in my bed, fumbling around on my nightstand for my phone. My heart beating erratically in my chest, I check the time. 3:48am. I sigh, pull back the covers on my bed, suddenly realising that Marinette wasn't next to me, I stumble blearily out of the room and trudge to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I was currently staying in Marinette's new small apartment since her parents had finally come back and let her move into her own comfortable space. She seemed so happy that they were safe and home at last, she's so lucky to have them around her, if only I could relate.

I walked into the kitchen, almost jumping out of my skin as I saw a figure sitting in one of the chairs through the dim early morning light. I instantly flicked on the switch and realised that it was only Marinette drinking tea.

"You okay? You seem kinda shocked" she asks as I make my way to the sink to get some water, still in a complete daze. "Ye-yeah just thirsty" I tried to avoid meeting her gaze as I sat down opposite her, I didn't want to talk about what I had seen in my dream, or was it a nightmare? I had many questions that I wanted, no NEEDED to know the answer to. Was this giving me a message of my past? Is everything I saw in my dream true or just another one of those nighttime illusions?

I felt Marinette's eyes burning into my face, I drank my water and tried too hard to not make it obvious that I was overthinking everything I saw; maybe this was just a mere sight that wasn't true, but at the same time there's a possibility that my mom really was involved with the miraculous and that she really did use the power of the peacock to create a sentimonster, a sentimonster which she called her so-

"ADRIEN!" Marinette's voice rang through my ears and shook me out of my daze, scaring me to death "I've been calling your name for the past 10 minutes, what is wrong with you? What's on your mind?" She shifted uncomfortably in her chair, I had no choice but to just tell her everything I saw- she hates when people keep secrets from her, I've already been down that road before with when I had been in hospital for my self harm injuries.

I took a deep breath while she studied my face carefully, "L-look I don't wanna scare you or anything, it's just that I saw this thing in my dream. It was my mother, s-she had the peacock miraculous" She gasped and gripped the edge of the table, looking at me as if to say 'tell me more, let it all out'. I was debating whether I could tell her the part about where my mom released me from existence or not. "And well… just before I woke up and realised it was all a dream she released me from existence meaning t-that-"

"You're a sentimonster…" she cut me off and reached over the table to hold my shaking hands, the color draining from her face. I knew that this would cause loads of turbulence between us. Constant worry. Late night arguments over a missed phone call. The ability to go out on my own completely reduced. The scene in my head seemed so realistic- almost as if I were looking into the future- knowing Marinette being the overprotective girl she is. I looked her in the eyes, waiting for her to say something to drown out the deafening silence. She let go of my hands and drank from her cup slowly, not saying a word. I stood up to return back to our room, not being able to bear the silence anymore, when Mari suddenly grabbed my hand, startling me.

"Adrien look, I promise that what you saw was probably just another mere dream; a fantasy. Just try not to think too much about it. And even if it is true then… I'll do everything in my power to keep you safe." Her voice trembled on the last sentence, tears filling her eyes as we both realised that there was a possibility that could be true. I kissed her hand lightly so as to not worry her and walked off quietly to the bedroom.

My mind was so clouded with negative thoughts of that dream that I had just lost all hope in life during those very moments until I realised that I had Plagg who probably knew more about the miraculous then I did, I strolled over to the desk and opened the miracle box, waking Plagg up.

"What do you want, ion wanna talk unless you'll give me a decent piece of cheese" he whined and stared at me with his neon green beady eyes, I opened my mouth and hesitated before asking the question that could potentially answer every question I longed to have the answer to

"Where was the peacock miraculous last seen or felt. I'm sure it's power is strong when activated so you could probably tell its presence"

"I mean… when we were last with your father I did feel its aura, I'm sure I did" He paused, my eyes widening in alarm, had my father been keeping this miraculous a secret from me?

I braced myself for the worse and prayed that what Mari had thought about earlier was completely wrong, there's no way I could be a sentimonster.

Or could there…

a/n

i have had VERY little motivation recently but now im fully back on track with all my writing! These next few chapters are for my senti-adrien theorists so GET YOUR POPCORN READY, THIS IS GONNA BE A WONDERFULLY ANGSTY STORY

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