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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"So this is domestic married life? Huh, it feels familiar to how we were before, but I only think that's because we've been in our honeymoon phase for literal years now. But officially, or according to the state of Indiana, we've been married for a month already. I still can't believe it./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We decided to move that honeymoon from Sue to over the summer just because we are still students. Like we left Thursday night because that was the last class we had for the week, got married, and went back to class on Monday as wives. Like what? I'm just so unbelievably happy to be married to you. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I know there were a lot of people that said we are too young to get married, but I know that we're gonna prove them all wrong. You are everything to me. My best friend, my love, my life, my other half, my wife, my soulmate. I will choose you every day for the rest of our lives. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I remember when I started this, writing letters. I was six years old. My parents were still married, albeit not happily. I was in love with my best friend before I knew what love was. I thought I knew who I was and wanted to be. I wrote so many letters and diary entries. It started because it was what my therapist wanted, but 13 years later I still am writing, but so many things are different. This time, I'm the one who's married to my same best friend who knows for sure that I am in love with her. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I don't think I need to write so many letters anymore because now you're here all the time, not that it stopped me before. I think I may revert back to only writing when things are really important, but who knows. I also don't know why I have to tell this to my diary as if it's counting on a schedule. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Anyway, this is just a really long way of telling you I love you. So, I love you, wife. And I promise I always will./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We actually managed to complete our first whole year of college, even with the surprisingly high amount of classes we missed and considered getting the fact we literally got married in the middle of a semester. I'm so glad we decided to go back to school. I might even say I missed it. Maybe it's because I'm finally taking classes that I'm interested in. I got good grades and passed my exams and I made some really good friends and I think I'm totally crushing my internship. I even heard rumors that they may even be looking to hiring some people. New York has been so much better to me since you got here. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"This summer we have that honeymoon that Sue planned for us and that means just a month of me admiring you in a bikini (again). I don't have to be anything besides your wife. And if that's all I ever do, that's fine with me./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"For all the shit Sue put us through, at least we got a honeymoon out of it. There really just is something about waking up next to you naked in our own little hut as we gallivant from beach to beach across the world. We've done the whole tropical getaway thing before, but this time it's not on our own money. And let me tell you, there are worse things than getting wine-drunk with you and taking midnight walks on the water and having sweet lady sex and exploring towns and watching you get excited over the sea turtles and wow I love you. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We do have to eventually get back to our real lives soon. We go back to New York next week but I will cherish these last few days we have here because I do not want to think about anything else but you right now. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"As nice and relaxing as this summer was, I think I needed to go back to classes right about now or else I was going to lose my mind. Just Type A things, am I right? Year 2 at NYU, here we come. I think this year I want to get more involved in more college things, you know? Last year there was a lot going on (see getting married!) and I don't know if I got the quintessential college experience yet. I saw there were some music clubs and groups maybe I'll check out. Speaking of music, my internship is no longer an internship. Your girl is employed at a major recording studio and record label! I'm really excited, and not only because that means we will have a more reliable source of income, but because I really enjoy working there. I told you I think that something good will come out of it, and you said that you knew that I was going to do big things, and that's all the encouragement I need./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Merry Christmas, B. It's our first Christmas as wives. You love Christmas, so of course we went all out. Or at least as much as we could it in our little apartment. We did the decorations and the lights and even the perfect tree. Christmas in New York is really magical. Decorating the tree in matching pajamas while watching span style="font-style: italic;"Home Alone /span(which is not actually a Christmas movie and I will die on that hill) is so cliche, but there is nothing else I'd rather be doing nor is there anyone else I'd rather be cliche with. We did Christmas here, just us, and that's what we wanted, it's not because we don't have any friends. I love the new record player you got me and you did say you like the new camera I got you, so success if I do say so myself. We're going back to Lima to visit your parents and my mom tomorrow and we'll stay until just after New Year's. I'm sure if we stay any longer we'll get roped into some Glee reunion even though we all still talk to each other like every other day. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"This was an amazing Christmas so far, B, so thank you. I also am looking forward to our first full year as being married. 2015 will be good to us, I feel it. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Another year down and just like that we're halfway to college degrees. That's actually amazing. I never really thought I'd ever get there. Or here, really. Married at this age to a woman no less? That woman is the most incredible woman I've ever met and she just turned 21 last month, so now she can buy her wife alcohol legally. :) /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"It's funny how you can legally drink in every state and most counties, yet our beautiful, beautiful marriage is illegal in a lot of places. Just thinking. Although, I have heard some rumors that there has been a more recent effort to bring the issue to the Supreme Court. Hopefully that will pass soon, but knowing this government, I'd be thankful if it passes in a few years. Then I promise I will marry you again and again and again. Until then, I'll just be the second best wife ever, because I'll never be able to top you. ;)/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Mark the date. Mark the fucking date. June 26, 2015. Remember that date forever. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Love wins and I can breathe again./p
p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Love wins and I get to marry you all over again./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, Tana/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We did it. We got married. Again. Actually, technically it was more of a vow-renewal type ceremony, but that's not the important part. The important part is that our marriage is legal in all 50 of the United States of America. On this day, July 18th, 2015, I, Santana Diabla Lopez-Pierce, am legally wed to my wife, you, Brittany Susan Lopez-Pierce. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"It was a nice little ceremony. Being in your backyard was so special. There are so many memories there. We got to pick the people there. Quinn actually could show up and give the Maid of Honor speeches she was holding out on us for. Your sister was in the wedding and she was so happy for us. And our real friends got to stand up for us without it feeling like a Glee Club reunion. You know, Kurt and Mercedes and Mike and the others. My mom, your parents, the rest of your family. Not my abuela, though. Her showing up for the first wedding was more than I could ever ask for. Plus, I don't need her negative energy anymore. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"On a more positive note, we are going on another small trip. We can't keep calling them honeymoons, it makes us sound rich, while in reality, we are simply two almost-not-broke college students. It's just a quick weekend trip to upstate New York because it is summer, one of us is 21, and we did just kind of get married again. It was your idea. You love the romantic idea of a cabin in the woods, but all I can think of is a horror movie gone wrong. But I trust you, and I would follow you to every corner of the Earth./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"It's been a while. Well, it's been a while writing to you here. Don't worry, our marriage is everything I ever could have wanted and more. It's actually crazy the difference between senior year of high school and senior year of college. That alone is crazy, the fact that we'll be college graduates in a few months. NYU class of 2017, baby. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Is it too soon to say that I called it? Like I know our marriage is stable even though we got married at 19, but like I've known you since I was 5. Or maybe we're just built different. "Than whom?" you may be asking. Klaine. #KlaineDivorce2016. I don't want to be mean, but didn't we all see it coming? Kurt is so much better off without his Warbler Boy Toy. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Um, what else is new? I con't think of anything right now, but I know where you'll be if I do think of anything./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Today was the first day of my new job. I mean, technically, it's the same job I've had for the last few years, you know, the one I've been interning for at the recording studio. I officially got hired and today was the first day! I haven't been this excited for anything in a while. I was taken on as a songwriter and I know I'm not gonna get any major demos anytime soon, but just being here is incredible. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"The last couple months, I've really felt like an actual adult. I have a college degree from NYU and a job that I love and an apartment that we bought and a wife that is the best part of my life. And you? You also have a college degree, plus the special graduate research degree from MIT, and you have 1,000,000 subscribers on Fondue for Two, and you're working with that media firm. And obviously, you also have a pretty good wife if I do say so myself. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I never thought I would ever be allowed to be this happy. And you make me so happy./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Happy Grammys! I can't even believe that I got nominated. That alone is a huge accomplishment. To be so young and only working as an employed songwriter for like 19 months? Like what? I know it wouldn't be my Grammy, technically, but kind of, it would be. It's for Song of the Year, I'm not singing it, but I did write it. I always dreamed of winning a huge award like this. Plus, you'll be my Grammy date. I can't wait to see you in that dress, and even more, I can't wait to see you out of it. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Anyway, I'll be sure to let you know how it goes. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"PG (Post Grammy): Winning a Grammy was good, but the sex after? Award-winning/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear B,/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I want to write here first before I talk to you out loud because if I say it out loud, it makes it real. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"What do you think about a baby?/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Like, us having a baby./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Crazy, right? /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"But is it?/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I never would have imagined me as a mother, but I don't know, I can picture you, us, with a baby. I know you are going to be an amazing mother. You have so much love and so much love to give, and if we ever have a baby, it will be the most-loved child in the world. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We've been married for almost six years. And don't get me wrong, it has been the six of the absolute best years of my life. Isn't a baby the next step, naturally. And I don't just want a baby with you because it's the "next thing" in our relationship, but because I want to have a baby with you. I want us to grow our family. I want us to share our lives with another human. I want to raise a person who is the best parts of you and and the best parts of me. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"It's just an idea. A crazy one, but sometimes crazy is good, right?/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Tell me I'm crazy./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Or don't. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, Tan/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt,/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Either we're both crazy or this is the best idea we've ever had. Probably a bit of both. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We're gonna have a baby. Or at least we're gonna try. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We went to the doctor today. She gave us a couple places and clinics to look at and she said you are in perfect health to carry a child. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"That was a debate we had. Either one of us could carry a baby, but you really wanted to, and I'm not opposed to it. I'll take the next one. And also, you growing the child means there's a much better chance it'll come out looking like you. But honestly, I will love our child no matter what. I promise. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"So we're gonna do it. Let's make a baby. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Look, I know we're gonna need a donor or something, but we can try it the natural way first, right?/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt,/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Today's the day. I feel it. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"And now we wait three minutes. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"These may be the longest three minutes of my life. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"You're watching me write this and you're looking at me kinda funny so I think I'm gonna stop now. I'll finish this after those three minutes are up./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We're back. And I know it's only been three minutes, but a lot has changed. For example, we're both three minutes older and the weather looks better and there's a baby inside you. My baby, specifically. Well, technically, it's a donor's sperm. But, I'm the baby's other parent and we did make sure the anonymous donor looks like me enough. He's probably not as hot as me, but that's where I'm hoping your genes take over. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Well baby Lopez-Pierce, we've been trying a long time to meet you, and I'll finally see you in nine months. I love you. You and your amazing mommy both. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Being in a worldwide pandemic? Weird. Going back yet again to a high school that we graduated like 8 years ago while I'm married to my pregnant wife? Even weirder. I get it's for the renaming of the auditorium, but I don't know why we all have to be here. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"It'll be nice to see everyone I guess. I think we have a number to do, so we should learn our parts soon, even though the performance is tomorrow or something. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"OH. And we're not telling anyone about the baby yet, right? Like, we're not supposed to tell anyone until a certain point, but I personally can not have the WMHS Glee Club breathing down our throats about this for the next 8 months. I love them, but that's a bit too much./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Back in Ohio we are, but this time, literally everything is different. And I love every part of it./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"So actually literally everything is different. Well, for starters, it's been four years since I last wrote. Things got hectic and, I don't know, it's hard to forget something that's been in your life for 25 years (the journal, that is, definitely not you), but I guess I just haven't written. I actually found the journal again when we were packing. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I guess I can catch you (now talking about the journal) up on the last four years. We did have a baby. He's three years old now, and we love him so, so much. His name is Joseph Quinn Lopez-Pierce, but we call him Joey, and he's a Scorpio. He loves music and math and football and I know that's a lot for a three year old, but can you really doubt he's our son? He's the sweetest boy and he's so kind and he gets along so well with Lord Tubbington, who just will not ever die, apparently. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Speaking of people that have been in your life for a long time, Ashley. Your sister managed to graduate high school in the middle of a pandemic. Good for her honestly. Now she just finished her third year of college, and I can't believe she's out east doing her thing and trying to get into med school. I heard from your mother that she's dating that kid she met at orientation week and your mom says that Ashley says "it's serious" and "she sees herself marrying him." But you're just mad that your mom doesn't tell you the gossip first. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"If we're checking off things that happened, we might as well include me releasing my debut album. And you know me to be an extremely humble woman, so as it is, I will say it did not do too bad. Some may even say it is a three-time Grammy nominated, one-time Grammy winning album that did pretty well. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Also Quinn got married sometime during this time. Finally. I know she's only 27, but we've been married for like a decade, and her love life has lived like 10 lived. But her being married means that it is no longer impossible to keep up with which man is defining her life now. It's just the one. Okay, it was a nice ceremony and we were both in the bridal party and Joey was the ring bearer as he should be, seeing that she is his godmother. He was adorable in that suit, even though he can barely walk. I'm just thankful she wasn't up there marrying Puck. Her husband's nice enough. He's a man, surprisingly, but I can see the appeal for Quinn. They met in law school and now they're living in Boston. I already told her I swore her I would not let her end up as America's white-bread poster family with a couple prep school kids and a golden retriever and a picket fence. And she's doing good. She's a mother again. But this time, she's actually gonna be a mom. She and her husband adopted this adorable baby girl and her godmothers love her to death. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"But more about everyone, we saw everyone at the 10 year WMHS reunion, which turned into just the kind-of annual Glee Club reunion. I'll spare you the fine details, but I'll give you the quick rundown in case anyone was wondering what the National Championship winning Glee club kids were doing 10 years later./p
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li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Kurt: After he divorced Blaine, his Vogue career really took off. I think he was just overwhelmed by bowties and it was holding him back. Right now Kurt's living in New York, but he's married to this guy he met in Paris who was from Columbus. He loves saying "it's such a small world" and "it's crazy that we traveled thousands of miles to meet, but we came from the same place" or whatever. They have a baby girl, too, and it is near impossible to gift clothes to in fear of her fathers. /li
li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Rachel: Still in New York, still married to Jesse St. James (though, you didn't hear it from me, but I swear they're both beard), finally in Broadway. I still don't love her, but she did make it, just like she said she would. I think she has a child now, and I pray for it like once a week when I remember to./li
li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Mercedes: Living he best life in LA. She's released her own album and it was so good. She's single, still, though I have no idea how, but she says it "helps with her songwriting." I don't know. But she is one of the few that we do actually stay in touch with, so nothing in her life is shockingly new to me. /li
li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Artie: He graduated film school and I think he's working as a director in California, trying to work his way up to the big leagues in Hollywood. I don't know, it's Artie. His name might end up on some huge movies someday, but to me, he's always gonna be just Artie./li
li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Tina: I actually have no idea how Tina is. I know she graduated from Brown and we saw her at the reunion. She posts on Instagram occasionally, and I think she might be living in New England somewhere. I would warn her though, that they did at some point hunt witches up there. Yeah, Tina Cohen-Chang. I should find out what's up with her. It should be noted that she did take the Blaine side in the divorce. /li
li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Puck: He was in the Air Force for a while, stationed in Texas, all before, during, and after he was dating Quinn (again). Something happened, both with Quinn and the Air Force. Quinn broke up with him and then a few months later he got discharged. I think he's doing okay, though, and he finally got his own pool cleaning business. I do think the pool cleaning business is more bountiful in Texas than in Lima, so good on him. /li
li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Sam (Trouty): He never got out of Lima, but I think he's okay with that. He coaches some football, teaches some glee club, on weekends, I think he plays guitar. In the Klaine divorce, he was an interesting asset. There may have even been a custody battle for him and like Blaine gets him on every-other weekend in every-other month or something. Kurt sees him like three times a year. They all have a weird relationship, I can't keep up. /li
li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Blaine: Blaine's a mess. Or so I've heard. I don't really talk to him anymore. He's "freelance."He kind of does whatever, whenever, wherever. Last I heard, he was in New Mexico. I don't know if it's like he's Holly Holiday or something, but I hope he's doing okay. Maybe he still talks to Tina./li
li style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Mike: Finally Mike. He was in Chicago for a bit after he finished school and he met his wife and he has a couple of kids. They're cute. Recently, they moved to Los Angeles for his wife's job. But actually, Mike was offered a dance studio. Like he started teaching there and then the owner wanted to sell it to him because he was getting old or something. Britt knows, she talks to him a lot still, and that brings us back to why I'm writing in the first place. /li
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We're moving to California. Mike asked Britt if she would teach and run this studio with him. And of course she said yes. I know this has been a dream for her for a long time. Without Britt's job, there's nothing else really tying us to New York. I can write songs from anywhere and Joey's not really in school yet. California was always a dream when we could finally get there, and we finally are. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"The only thing is that we were actually planning to have another baby, which is a whole other topic, but the deed hasn't been done yet, so we're ready to move across the country, and I guess I'll just find somewhere to get pregnant in California. There are probably more blond-hair, blue-eyed prospects there anyway./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"The studio's set to reopen in a couple months, so we'll have enough time to get settled in our new place, which is beautiful, by the way, before Britt has to start teaching. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"But for the journal, I guess I'll write when I write. Maybe it'll be another four years, maybe more, maybe less. Who knows?/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Just my luck that when it's my turn to get pregnant I get to have not only one, but two babies. But I would simply die for them. Our twins are two beautiful baby boys. Oliver Leo and Elliot Tyler. They're cancers, so we really have some of the best combinations of zodiac signs. Aires, Leo, Scorpio, and now two new Cancers. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I'm rambling. This has always been my safe space to talk about whatever. I guess I felt it with Joey, but I'm feeling it more with the twins. I don't know if I can be a good mother, especially to three boys. I never had a good father-figure, or man even, in my life. How can I teach these boys how to be good men. I'm not prepared for that. But is anyone, ever? It's gonna be okay. I'm Santana and you're Brittany and together we can figure out anything. We'll teach them how to be good people. How to live, how to laugh, how to love. How to get the girl (Taylor's Version)./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"In other news, RHYTHM Dance Studio has been open over a year, and it is surely becoming the place to be and to learn dance. You and Mike have been doing a great job. Something I absolutely love about RHYTHM is that it is really for everyone. All your staff being LGBT and/or non-white is incredible. I love watching you dance. You look so happy there, so much happier than your old job in New York. You're doing great, I'm doing great, the boys are doing great. California is really great for us. And I can really see it now. Our future. It's real and it's here and I know it's only gonna get better. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Everyone's doing good. Everyone's happy and healthy. Joey's going into middle school this year and Ollie and Eli are gonna be in third grade. They really do grow up too fast. Your studio's thriving and I'm doing a lot of writing and some of my songs have landed pretty big artists. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I never would have thought my life could be this happy. My wife, my kids, a job that I love. Sometimes I look back and wish that I could tell a 15 year old Santana that it gets so much better and that her life would be filled with so much more love than she would ever know what to do with. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"And again, it's been a while. Ollie and Eli graduated high school yesterday. Does that make us old? We're not even 50, but now we have three college-aged kids. I know they'll be great. I hope we taught them well enough. We survived those three boys without anything terrible happening to them or us. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I liked it a couple weeks ago when Elliot sat us down. That boy was so nervous. "Mothers, I'm gay." The only reason I was surprised was that he is literally the only one in our household that exclusively likes men. But, you know, it took that and 18 years to finally remember Starchild's name. It's Elliot. Am I a little mad? Yes. I can't believe our son is unknowingly named the same as someone who I spent a considerable about of time around. But, to be fair, we weren't really friends and he did go by the ridiculous stage name. Also come to think of it, I've never met a straight Elliot, so I don't think it's a real shock. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I don't want to think about it too much, but in a couple months, we'll officially be empty nesters. Ew. But if that's what it takes to get more alone time with you, I'll take it./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I do kind of feel bad for Oliver's wife. She's got two mothers-in-law plus the overly concerned big brother and the gay twin as the newest members of her family. She's nice though, I really like her. They met in college and they're moving out of California to the Midwest. It's funny we got out of the Midwest as fast as we could, and that's the first place Oliver wants to be. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Joey's only a bit peeved that his little brother got married before him, but I suspect that wedding announcement is coming within the next two years. He and his girlfriend don't seem to be in any rush, but I think it's something they both want. Elliot, on the other hand, is living his, and I quote, "his best single life as a eligible gay bachelor in Southern California." Bot they're both good. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"A question, though, for you. How many cats can we get before we become the old lesbian cat ladies of the block. We're at two now, but I see you eyeing that black and white kitten in the window of the shelter every time we walk past it. Fifty-something years later, and you can still get me to fold into whatever you want with just that look. But I wouldn't change it for the world. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"We buried my mother today. It's weird. How old is too old before you're no longer an orphan. My mother was my only family for so long. I know I haven't full processed it yet, I'm just in a state of shock. When my abuela died, I was ready. She was old and hadn't really been family for a while. But my mom? She was young and had a life and she seemed okay. You've been so good, even when you can't completely understand what I'm feeling, and I'm so thankful and a bit jealous that you don't. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"My mom was so important to me. I don't even know how to explain it. I think I'll write a letter to her next and I'll bring them to the cemetery. That's a grieving thing, right? /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"It's going to be okay. I'll be okay. Just be patient with me, please./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Going on a road trip with you was one of the best ideas we've had in a little bit. We went to like 6 states in two weeks. Those national parks and small towns and quiet roads and the open deserts, it all just makes me feel so small and insignificant, but it's so amazing. Also, lesbian bed death cannot be real because my back says otherwise. You're just as good as you were 30 years ago. It must be all that dancing. Actually, both of us, in my humble opinion, are doing great for our age. I'd be okay if we just went on like this forever. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I think we officially qualify as old now. We're grandparents. And our son is a father. That's crazy to me. Who would have ever thought that boy would have a kid of his own? Now we just have another baby to spoil. Joey's already warned us that we cannot go overboard on gifts right away, so we'll give him a break. Lord knows he'll need them. After the first month, though? Free reign. We're grandmothers. And that's what grandma's do is spoil their grandchildren./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Maybe this will start something with the other two. Oliver's been married a while and I know he and his wife were starting to think about that. And Elliot and his partner just got a puppy, so that's almost the same. But I thought we raised him better than that. This is clearly a cat household. Someone's got to be the black sheep, I guess. We love him for who he is anyway. Even if he does have a dog./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Can you believe we've been married for 50 years? That's something crazy. I ask myself everyday what I did to get to wake up next to you. I really am the luckiest person in the world. Everyday I fall in love with you more. I've been writing forever: in here, in my music, and still, I've never found the exact words to describe how deeply and truly I love you. But that doesn't stop me from trying. My life is amazing. I still get to write music. And for you, after over 20 years, you and Mike passed down the mantle of your dance studio to the next generation. I love our family. We have three amazing and accomplished kids, and two daughter-in-law and a son-in-law, and four grandchildren. There's nothing else I could ask for except another 50 years of this. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"Dear Britt, /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I've never lived in a world without you, Brittany S Pierce. I was born second, and I'm going to die first. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"No, don't say I'm being cynical. I'm being real. I can feel it. I haven't been feeing fully myself for a while. I feel like I'm halfway out the door. Every part of me wants to go, but you're the only thing holding me back. And I can't tell you that because you would say it's okay for me to let go. But I don't want to. I've only just turned 87. That's still young if I'm with you. There's so much still I want to do with you, say to you. I just want to be with you. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I loved my life. I say it a lot, but I really mean it. Every moment was worth it. You were worth all of it and more. You saved my life more times that I can count and in ways you'll never know. Even now, I can't find the perfect words for you. I've written thousands, millions of them, but none of them say everything. So I'll just keep it simple. I love you, Britt. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I'm getting tired now. My dreams will forever be filled with you, my love. Heaven will never be as good as this, because you're not there. I'll be waiting. But, please, take all your time. I have a lifetime of memories to keep me occupied. Plus, there's some people there I need to check up on first. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"My name is Santana Diabla Lopez-Pierce and I'm 87 years old and I think this has been the best thing that's ever been mine./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"With love, San/p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"It's been one month, six days, six hours, and eight minutes. That's the longest we have ever gone without speaking in the 81 years I've known you. It's like you knew. I was going through your things (I hope that's okay), and I came upon this box of letters and diaries and journals. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"So this is what you were doing all that time. Well, I read them all. I laughed and I cried. You have a way with words. This is the closest I'll get to hearing your voice again, so I'll take it./p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I miss you. So much. Everyday. You are everything to me. My best friend and my wife and the love of my life. It's hard. I won't lie. It's hard to go on without you being here. I can only imagine the trouble you'd be able to get into all the way up there. I think about it and I smile. I smile really anytime I think of you, so very often. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I guess it's not fair to say that we haven't been speaking. I talk to you all the time, but it's less weird if I do it in front of you at the cemetery. That's where I am now, writing this. I'm hoping you're able to read it. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"It doesn't feel real that you're gone. In some ways you're not. I see you in Joey's smile and Oliver's voice and Elliot's wit and in the butterflies that are in our garden and your music on the radio and in your words. Your words are everywhere. I still find the notes you've left around our house, even the one's I'm sure you've long forgot about by now. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"You already know everything I could ever want to tell you. It feels redundant to write it all down. Being your everything was the greatest gift and accomplishment of my life. I love you so much. More than you'll ever know. I told you I'll love you until infinity. I'll love you even past that. It's impossible for me not to love you. /p
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p style="margin: 0px; font-stretch: normal; font-size: 11px; line-height: normal; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue';"I know you'd want me to keep on living, I just needed a quick break. I will live the rest of my life for both of us. And one day, I'll see you again. I can't wait to see you again. You'll reach out your pinky, and I'll take it in mine, so proudly so. I can see it now. /p
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