It had been an interesting day. She saw him and it made her long for him just a little more. After an afternoon where she saw way too much of Provenza, she also had the chance to spend some time with Andy, feel him close for a few hours, inhale his scent just this once to make sure she never forgets it. Sharon knew she had to forget him but she couldn't wrap herself around it.
A lot of different thoughts were spinning around in her head, all of them about him. The moment she stepped into her house, they all faded because after all she was stuck here, just like behind bars.
- Honey, I'm home!
- Oh Mrs Raydor! Mr Raydor is not home yet… the children are in the kitchen, we were about to have dinner. Come join us!
- Thank you Karen.
God, he was still out there drinking and gambling… she had to work late and almost missed eating with her children and tucking them into bed. Sometimes, it felt impossible to make this work… but was it only an impression.
- Oh my babies! You're here!
- Hey momma! they shouted, running towards her to hug her tight.
Somehow, they made it all okay even after a big and tiring day.
- Where's daddy?
- You two know mummy and daddy are working a lot… he's probably had to work late… Come on let's have dinner!
After dinner, Karen left and Sharon finally had the chance to spend short minutes alone with her kids. She liked Karen, she was a very good nanny but she felt guilty for not being able to spend the days and nights with her babies. They were growing so fast and she was scared to miss these moments.
Sharon tucked her children into bed, read them a story and they were asleep before she knew it. She saw in the look of her children that, despite all her efforts, they were sad because they missed their dad. He had probably promised something he couldn't hold… once again.
She was exhausted and right after doing the dishes, she dived into bed, happy and content to be alone. Her mind started to wonder and think about the day she had. Of course, she couldn't stop thinking of Andy. So much so, that she started wanting him, craving for him so bad she was definitely glad to be alone.
She had a very powerful imagination when it came to that. She could almost feel him close to her, his body on top of hers, his warm arms around her waist, his hands on her hips. She wanted his lips so bad, his kisses slowly reaching down to her chest, working on her boobs, making her whisper his name more and more. It was bliss just to imagine him looking at her with his eyes full of love and desire. She would have done anything to feel his groin hard between her center. She needed to feel the pressure of his body against hers, her clit reaching more and more contact by wrapping him around with her legs and rubbing herself hardly. She knew how efficient he could be and how he could make her come in just a few seconds. He knew how to make her long for his length but then reaching a pace that could make her go crazy in a split second.
God, she needed him. She needed to feel their bodies rocking together, she craved for his long and deep strokes because she realized only him could make her scream with pleasure. She never felt so aroused by someone. He had this special thing that she couldn't forget, ever.
Now she was laying there, fully wet with arousal for this man who wasn't even close to be hers. Despite everything, she could only think of him, his scent, his strong body. His fingers caressing the inside of her thigh, tickling her and slowly going upwards until he could reach her center, working himself into her, feeling her desire and the need of having him inside was delirious. She wanted him so bad she could almost feel his fingers inside of her. Unfortunately, that night, she released herself with her own, her mind fully absorbed by the idea of a hot session with mister impossible.
Was it so impossible? In this precise moment, with the climax she had just reached, she wanted to believe that someday she was meant to be reunited with the love of her life.
After this unexpected day and dreamy evening, she was slowing letting herself be taken away by sleep when a loud noise pulled her out of her sleepy thoughts.
All of a sudden, her heart skipped a beat and anxiety rose. She had to protect her babies. She grabbed the gun she had hidden in her nightstand and started walking carefully towards the noise she heard. The arousal was now totally gone and replaced by fear and panic. She had to handle this, she had no choice. Another noise blasted out and she could clearly hear it coming from downstairs. Reaching the kitchen, she almost pressed the trigger when she recognized the figure.
- Jack! You scared the hell out of me! she whispered to avoid waking up the kids.
- Oh honey bunny! You there! he mumbled.
She knew this behavior only too well. He had been drinking… and probably gambling away their money too.
- Jack… you've been drinking again… whispered Sharon full of sadness and disappointment. You have to stop this before it kills you, kills us!
- You've been with another man! he rumbled, rising his voice.
- What are you talking about? I haven't and you know it! You're talking nonsense because you are drunk. Now come to bed, it's late. answered Sharon completely taken aback by what she had just heard. He was the one drinking and gambling their money, letting her raise the kids by herself and he still had the nerve to accuse her of cheating on him.
- You smell the male, Sharon, you have a lover!
She wanted anything but to make a scene at 3 am when her kids were peacefully asleep a few steps away.
- I've been working and in case you don't remember, the Police Departments are majorly composed of men. Today I worked all afternoon with Lieutenants Flynn and Provenza. That must be what you're smelling. But I repeat: I have no lover and I'm not that kind of person, now stop it and come to bed.
- You're a liar and a slut, I know you! he was dashing into furniture, loosing balance.
- Stop saying that! You are the liar! You promised me a dream life, you said I'd have the opportunity to study the law myself and be a lawyer. You said you'd afford a great life for us and that I would be happy with you… well guess what? I'm not! I'm alone most of the time, I have to afford our life and our children's because you can't pull yourself together and stop drinking and throwing away our money. YOU are the one who's been lying since the beginning. I can't bear you anymore, we are at a dead end and I don't think we can work this out because you will never change.
She was crossing the line and she knew he would make a scene, but she couldn't let him say shamelessly that she was a slut and a liar. It was more than she could take. She tried so hard to make their relationship work that it hurt to see that he was not even a bit thankful.
- You wish! That's easy to blame me for everything when you're the one being distant. You're not a woman to love, Sharon.
- You disgust me, Jack. I can't believe I fell for you…
She turned on her heels and reached for the handrail to go back upstairs. She had nothing else to say to that bastard. All of a sudden, she felt like suffocating. She was forced to live everyday with that man while he disgusted her. He stopped looking at her many years ago, back when she got pregnant for the first time. She thought he'd be such an amazing father at the time but the disappointment was huge. He was absent most of the time and he ruined their family life. It hit her how unhappy she had always been with him and how late she realized it.
- I forbid you to turn your back on me! You must be dreaming if you think you can leave so easily!
Jack was not longer that clumsy drunk man, he was angry. He chased her and was behind her in the stairs when he grabbed her upper arm, pulling her backwards.
- I don't allow you to talk to me like that! he was mad, she could hear it in his voice. She had pushed his buttons and she knew it only too well.
- I'll talk to you how I intend to and I'm not gonna wait for your approval to tell you the truth.
- Oh really? Let me show you how it's gonna be from now on…
He tightened his grip on her arm. He was willing to show her his authority in a manly way, unfortunately Sharon was not scared a bit because he had never been so. That's when he understood that he had to go much further to be convincing. For a split second, she caught his look and it froze her blood.
- Jack! Let me go! You're hurting me! This isn't gonna make it any better! she felt panic rising inside her.
She was having a hard time keeping her balance. It was now obvious in his eyes that he would go as far as needed. Tears were forming in the corner of Sharon's eyes, because she was scared but also because she was deeply sad that things were turning out this way for her and her family.
She tried to release herself from his grip but he caught her second arm faster than she could think. She had no idea what he intended to do by hurting her but her gut was screaming to run away from him. The next thing she knew, she was rolling down the stairs after he punched her in the temple. She felt her body tired to fight and let darkness take her.