Is this how I die?

Is this...the end?

I've thought about how this scene would play out countless times in my mind. How would it happen? What would it feel like? Would it be fast? Would I scream? There must be at least a hundred different scenarios crammed into the depths of my brain.

In my mind though, it always happens slower; I have time to reach for my blades, time to shoot out another grapple hook, time to look back at the faces of my teammates as they scream in horror. But as my body jerks backwards from the titan grabbing hold of my cable, I can only stare, petrified. As the titan pulls be towards his mouth, like an unsuspecting fish being reeled out of the water, all I have time to do is stare into the depths of its cavernous mouth. My blades lie limp at my side. This is happening too quickly. I don't have time. I can't move—can't even breathe.

In the distance, I think I hear the yells of my teammates as they realize I'm no longer following the formation. Just run, I want to yell back. Leave me. My vision blurs as the effects of an earlier concussion start to take hold.

This is how it ends.

I had things I still wanted to do, promises I made, hopes I wanted to see through. As the putrid scent of the titan's breath hits me, I realize how stupid I've been. How naive. To have wanted, to have promised, to have hoped in a time of war. Silly, silly girl.

My eyelids start to feel heavy. I'm tired. It feels like I've been tired for years. And as my consciousness fades, my delirious mind almost feels relieved that I'll finally be able to rest when this is over.

I hear the whooshing of maneuver gear close by and feel movement above me. The familiar sound of sharp steel coming into contact with hard titan flesh almost rouses me, but I've forgotten how to open my eyes. Dense, hot steam envelopes my body and then I'm free falling.

Notes:

I had this scenario randomly stuck in my mind and decided that I wanted to turn it into a story. I'm going to try my best to keep Levi as true to character as possible. Please read and review if you think I should continue!