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A/N:
this one-shot was made in honor of todoroki's birthday. it starts off in the chatfic format, but these one-shots will primarily be third-person or first-person one-shots.
additionally, the second part of this one-shot is where it gets angsty. the first part not so much.
Bakugou
It's your birthday tomorrow, right?
Todoroki
yup
Bakugou
Doing anything special?
Todoroki
i guess? there's one thing i want more than anything else, and i'm hoping to get it by tomorrow. maybe that sounds selfish
Bakugou
Nah, I get it. What do you want? And hey, I wanna take you out on a date tomorrow.
Todoroki
i'll tell you what it is soon. but you don't have to spend your money on me. it would kind of be a waste
Bakugou
A waste? Babe, you're worth every penny. This would make me happy, and I bet it'd make you happy too.
Bakugou
You there?
20 minutes later
Todoroki
sorry. i just has skemthing i needed to do
Bakugou
Hey. You seem kinda off today. Is everything okay?
Todoroki
yeah. i'm just half-alseep
Bakugou
You know you can always talk to me about anything, right?
Todoroki
of course
Bakugou
I've noticed a pattern… Whenever you abruptly leave for at least ten or fifteen minutes, you come back and start making typos all over the place.
Todoroki
i sometimes get the urge to run or exercise if i'm on my phone for a while
Bakugou
I see. Well, get some sleep. I'm gonna text you happy birthday at midnight, though.
Todoroki
you don't have to stay up to do that
Bakugou
Well too bad, damn extra.
12:00 a.m.
Bakugou lifted up his phone to text Todoroki a happy birthday wish, but he had not anticipated that his lock screen would be lined with a myriad of email notifications.
The hell? pondered Bakugou as he promptly dove into his recent emails. Shouto sent these? Why the fuck is he emailing me in bulk?
Then, Bakugou read the first email out of ten that Todoroki had sent to him:
i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you
Utterly bemused by the eerie string of words, Bakugou bit his lower lip. He was unsure if he felt more perturbed or flustered, but he was unable to ignore the itch of apprehension swimming hot through his blood.
Eighteen of these for his eighteenth birthday? Bakugou thought in an endeavor to still the vicious tramp of his heartbeat. The hell, Shouto? He advanced to the next email in the series:
katsuki, i'm sorry
A scalding torrent of muddled emotions beleaguered Bakugou's chest as his quaking digits scrolled to the next email:
this year, i have only one wish
Unable to hear anything but the beat of his livid heart and the silence reverberating through his ears, Bakugou continued scrolling through his chain of emails:
it's how i'll make it up to you for fucking up your life. no matter how many things i fucked up, you always forgave me. why? i didn't deserve second chances
now i'm just wasting your time. i'm sorry. i won't bother you with my life story. i don't even know how to say this… i don't know how to put this all into words. i can't even do that. i just want to be selfish one last time for my birthday, which is nothing but selfishness and a mistake in general… all i've ever been is selfish. this is the most selfish thing i could possibly do to anyone. but is it selfish when i know that, deep down, no one needs me or could truly care about something like me? maybe i've just wanted to believe the lies everyone has told me in my final efforts to look for a reason to stay
my one wish…is to die
all i am is a burden. i know that. you don't have to keep lying to me about it. surely, this will make you and everyone else happy, right? that's what i want from this. i can't live with myself, knowing that all i do is hurt the people i love
i sent these as emails so i could set a time for them to be sent. if you're reading these, katsuki, then i'm gone. i love you. find someone you deserve, and show them what your genuine smile looks like. i'm sure it's beautiful… i wish i could've seen it. but i hope you're happy now…because i think that, for the first time in a long time, i'm happy. knowing how much better off you all are without me, and finally giving you all what i'm sure you've wanted but were too kind to say to me… i couldn't be happier
i love you, katsuki
Happy birthday to Us.