Chapter 1

Emma's POV

Big drops were falling down from the deep grey clouds above my head. All around me were people in black clothes with black umbrella's that caught the rain. We were all focused on a coffin with arrows laid on top of it. My eyes were glossy and my sight was blurry from the tears.

We just lost a friend by a brutal death and I kind of feel like I'm responsible. If I had never dragged my family to the underworld, this never would have happened. Then we never would have met Hades and then he never would have killed Robin. We only got misery out of that trip. We had lost too many souls for nothing. Not only did we lose Robin, but we also couldn't get back Killian, my love. He died because of me and I couldn't bear living without him, so I decided to bring him back from the underworld and in the process Robin died too. Unfortunately there wasn't a way to save Killian, so Robin's death was for nothing. Now we had two funerals at the same day. I am never going to forgive myself for that.

I don't think Regina is ever going to forgive me for the death of her true love. I mean, after so many years she was finally able to love someone again. She fought so hard for that love. And when her relationship finally became stable with him it was all ripped away from her again. Robin meant so much to her. I saw how happy he made her.

I couldn't imagine what she was feeling right now. I looked at her from behind. She seemed so completely lost and broken. I couldn't bear to see her that heartbroken. I looked at her once again. She stood there all alone under one of the umbrella's with no one to comfort her. I wanted to go to her and wrap my arms around her for some support, because that's what best friends do for each other when they are upset. But I didn't, because I didn't know how she would react to me.

Some tears rolled down my cheeks and Henry, who stood next to me, grabbed my arm and squeezed it gently. I turned my head towards him and gave him a weak smile. His eyes were red and puffy from the tears that rolled down his face. I signaled him with my head to go to his mom and comfort her. He was the only one who can't make a bad move towards her. But in the moment he wanted to walk to her, Zelena got between them and went standing next to Regina with her daughter in her arms.

The baby was crying and Zelena tried to shush her by rocking her back and forth. Regina looked to the side at the baby with a slight bit of comfort showing in her eyes.

"He never even got to name his daughter." She said with a cracked voice and instantly stared back to the coffin where the baby's father was lying peacefully.

"There is only one name I can think of that's fitting." Zelena stated with a sweet soft voice. The sisters turned their heads to look each other in the eyes. The chocolate brown eyes of Regina met the ice blue ones of Zelena "Robyn" Zelena smiled slightly for just a brief moment.

"Robyn" Regina repeated whispering and the corner of her lips turned a slight bit up. She looked at the baby again with even more tears in her eyes. Some love shimmered through their sad faces. "Of course" she looked back at the coffin with trembling eyes with no idea where to look. Zelena laid her hand on her back with a gentle touch. Henry went to join them and hooked his arm into Regina's. Together they left the graveyard leaving me alone with my mother.

I stared at the coffin with my puffy eyes and sniffed a bit. My mother grabbed me by my arm. "I hope we never again have a day like today." She said softly with her eyes locked on the coffin as well.

"Me too, mom." I said with no hope in my voice left. She looked at me with a serious but hopeful look.

"I know what you're thinking… and this is not your fault." She said by shaking her head trying to speak hope into my mind. But that didn't really empower me.

"I just want to say goodbye… alone… if that's okay." I conclude with my cracked voice. She hugs me and nods slightly.

"See you at Granny's" she said and walks away.

My mother said that it wasn't my fault, but it certainly didn't feel like it. Robin was a good man and he didn't deserve this terrible death. He died in sacrifice for Regina and that made him such an honorable man. But it didn't have to be this way.

Even though me and Robin weren't very close, he was Regina's true love, so he was family. He also became a sort of father figure for Henry too. Henry didn't see him as a father, but he was happy for his mom to see her happy with Robin. Henry couldn't imagine someone who made his mom more happy. I also liked to see how happy Regina became when she was with him. For example in Camelot when they danced together, she smiled all night long and Regina smiling is a rare occasion. But now he died because of me. Because I couldn't let go of Killian so soon.

Killian was my true love, I loved him very much. Just moments before I had to let go of him forever we did a test to proof our true love and we passed it. He loved me more than everything. He had given up everything multiple times to only be with me. He was known for being a very selfish pirate that only cared about himself for centuries, but for me he changed his life, and that charmed me.

I am the savior and my destiny is to protect and save everybody. But when I was busy trying to protect everyone else, I forgot to protect the one closest to me. Tears now ran freely over my face and I barely couldn't breathe through my nose anymore as I sniffed. For a long time things were a bit rough between Killian and me. He wanted me very much, but I couldn't say the same, I didn't want him at all. I didn't want to get disappointed again, like what happened with Neal. I got hurt many times in my past, because I loved someone and I didn't want that to happen again. Killian always tried his way into my life, but my walls weren't easy to break. Sometimes I let my wall slip away and let him kiss me. I kissed him back, but back then it was just a way to escape reality. Over time he kind of won me over. In Camelot I started to actually accept him, he stood by me when I was at my worst and I really appreciated that. That's was the time I really believed that he could be my happy ending.

Yet here I was again crying about another loved one who died. I once told him I was afraid to lose him, because everyone I had ever been with was dead. He told me that he was a survivor and that he had survived already for some 300 years, so I didn't need to fear losing him. But now he died as well.

After some more moments alone I decided that I was sort of ready to head to Granny's where my family was. I only felt sadness and didn't feel like going to Granny's was going to make it any better. But I couldn't just stand there and wait until the impossible became possible and Killian just came back to life, so I needed to go to Granny's.

I slowly walked through the door of Granny's diner and heard the fuzzy jingle of the bells somewhere far away. My mind wasn't on the planet where it used to be. I felt like a ghost.

Next to the door to the right I spotted my parents sitting with Merida around a tiny table. Before me on the left was Henry sitting with Regina and Zelena in a booth. Henry sat in the corner and Regina leaned into him with her head on his shoulder and Zelena with Robyn across the table. I felt a little flush in my stomach as I saw how Regina was buried in Henry's arms. It looked like Regina was the kid instead of Henry and Henry was comforting her. He had grown into a tall young man by now, so he could easily enfold himself around his mother.

I couldn't decide where to go. I could sit with my parents, but then I probably would get a hope speech about that one day the pain will fade away…bla…bla…bla. I wasn't really looking forward to that. And I could also sit with Henry, but that also means with Regina who would probably be mad at me. And I really didn't want her to get mad.

After standing in front of the door as a lost brainless zombie, Henry gestured at me to come sit with him. Everything was fuzzy, my hearing, my sight, my thought. I heard a male and a female voice murmuring through my right ear. Apparently my parents were talking to me in that moment, but I didn't understand a word of it.

I looked both ways with no emotion to be seen on my face. I just wanted to be with my son even if that meant getting fired at by his other mother. When I started walking towards them, dad stood up desperately from his chair. My mom also lifted from her chair, but grabbed my father's arm and held him back from coming after me.

When I arrived at the table where Henry was sitting, Regina quickly went to sit straight and she smoothed out her dress. I looked at her and I totally forgot the sadness inside of me for a brief moment. Her hair was worked back into a braided knot. A strand of hair had escaped and was hanging over her cheek. She had very long eyelashes that brightened her eyes. Although she had black marks under her eyes from the mascara that had leaked from her tears. She wore a black blazer with big buttons on each side. The dark blue dress she had underneath it had a zipper on the top that constrained the swell of her breasts just enough to keep them in place. My body felt like it burned from the heat that flooded through my veins.

"Mom, are you okay?" I looked up as I met my sons concerned face. I woke up from the trance I was situated in and everything came in clear again. Everywhere were people talking and I realized there were much more people in the room than I had first noticed.

Regina stared at the table in front of her with no emotion on her face except the tears of her cries. "Regina?" I asked softly to get her attention. She looked at me with a cold face.

"Swan. I've already had enough people feeling sorry for me today." she said annoyed with a cracked voice. Her eyes wandered over the table not once looking at anything else. She made it sound like she was the only one who had lost someone.

"I know-I only want to ask if… you mind that I sit on the other side of our son." She balled her fist and looked a couple times up and down the table. I got ready to get backfired, but it was utterly silent on her end. Then she relaxed her fist and sighed. I looked at Henry with a nervous face.

"Okay, fine!" she said with her low voice and she rolled her eyes slightly.

She and Henry moved away from the booth so I could let myself slide into the corner. They went to sit back right away. Now Henry had his heartbroken mothers on both sides of him. I crawled in Henry's arms, but Regina stayed sitting straight with her hands nervously resting on the table. Henry saw how uncomfortable Regina was and just placed his hand on her lap. Her eyes were trembling and swiftly looking all over the place. I just leaned against my kid and tried not to bother about everything that was in the room, I just focused on myself.

"Zelena? Can I maybe hold my niece?" Regina asked in a monotone way. Zelena nodded and I saw the sympathy on her face. Regina's gaze didn't make contact with her.

"Of course you can hold her." Zelena said with all sweetness. It wasn't quite common to hear such a soft tone come from Zelena's mouth. She let the baby cross the table to her sister. Regina's whole body instantly relaxed a bit and a small loving smile even showed on her face.

"She has his nose." She stated while she looked all over baby Robyn. Henry let his eyes flow over the baby's face and the corner of his lips lifted a bit.

"Yes, she certainly does, mom!" he now moved his hand from her lap to her shoulder and rubbed over it a bit. I saw how more tears built up in her eyes and how her lip began to tremble a bit. A tear made its way from her eyes onto the baby blanket. She sniffed and wiped away her tear with a weak smile.

"Someday she will look just like him, sis." Zelena said.

I loved to see the two sisters getting along so well now. Maybe there was still one thing that was good about the trip to the underworld. Before the trip the two could literally kill each other. But now they found a way to love each other. Zelena was always so jealous of her little sister for growing up with their mother and becoming queen.

But in the underworld they both got to see their mother for the last time before she went to heaven. Their mother had wiped away their memories of each other when they were younger. Back then they loved one another like the sisters they are. When Cora gave them back their memories, that love came back too.

And yesterday Zelena chose her sister over her lover Hades. She could have killed Regina instead of Hades, but she didn't. She let the love she had for her sister conquer the love for Hades, that was already meant to end up miserable. And that's what true love is, it's sacrifice for the person you love.

After a while of leaning in to Henry and holding him tight, I began to feel a little better. I still thought about Hook most of the time and it made me sad. But the lovely little family in front of me cheered me up a little. I went to sit up straight and kept myself quiet in the corner of the table just observing everything that was going on around me. I did that for another half hour or so.

"Mom? Are you still okay?" Henry asked me a little concerned.

"Yeah, Henry, I'm fine." I closed my eyes and nodded as a 'thank you' for the concern. I just adored how he kept track of his families feelings.

"Well if you're going to sit there and do nothing, you can better go, right?" Regina snapped at me with an irritated look. I was a little startled at her sudden outburst. Just when I thought she had calmed down. Henry looked at her with the exact same irritated look.

"Do I need to do something then?" I snapped back not letting her walk right over me.

"We are all here because of you, so you could at least apologize for it!" she raised her voice sounding cold and some people began looking at us.

I felt anger raising in me. I knew it was partially responsible for Robin's death, but I wasn't prepared to have Regina rubbing it in even more. She acted as if she was the only one who was hurt, but I also felt an immense feeling of grief. Somewhere in the corner of the diner I heard someone shout-whispering 'bitchfight…bitchfight'. That only made me even angrier so I stood up from my seat and slammed the table. "Okay, I'm sorry for not being able to save Robin when I was already grieving about someone I loved! I may be the savior, but I'm not God! So calm down and try to slowly process everything like all of us without bothering anyone else, your majesty!" I yelled at her with the sass that she deserved.

But I actually was sorry. I could have stopped Hades before he killed Robin, but I didn't and felt very sorry about it. I wanted to kill Hades so badly for keeping Killian in the underworld, but I didn't have any plan to do so. So I waited and went to find a way. But that took too long, because before I could do something the damage was already done, he had killed Robin.

Regina squeezed her fist until her knuckles turned white and the evilness was spread all over her face, but she said nothing. She quickly handed the baby back to Zelena and stood up from her seat giving the table a little raged push. She looked into my eyes with an outraged evil face, her head barely inches away from me. That face hadn't I seen in very long time and it scared me. Her wide stare pierced right through my head and I swear if she used some magic she could make my skull explode. I just froze in place, not even moving my chest up and down to breathe. She groaned and she quickly walked away out of the diner.

"Ok, that went well, didn't it?" I said sarcastically trying to cover my true feelings. I felt even more upset now, as if the day couldn't get any worse. My eyes became wet again so I looked down to hide it.

"It's okay ma, mom will come by her senses. She didn't mean what she said and you know that right?" I looked at him with my glossy eyes. I felt really grateful for such a caring son.

"Did you see how she looked at me? I haven't seen that look since you were like… eleven years old. I don't know if she will ever forgive me. And she has all the right not to." He laid his hand on my shoulder.

"It's all gonna be okay, I'm gonna make sure of that. It's definitely not your fault that Hades killed Robin. It was Hades' fault and he is dead now, so you don't need to feel sorry for that mom." I smiled weakly at my son who was always full of hope.

"I think I just need to go home, kid. It has been enough for the day."