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"You're sure?" Liv asked her kids for the 509th time as El buckled Teddy into his car seat.
"Momma!" Emma said sharply, giving her her best Captain Benson look.
"Gotta stop that," El said breathing out shiver that the boys agreed with.
She waved them off and nodded. "Momma we'll be fine. We have soccer all weekend and Dickie will let us do whatever when we're home," she said and Dickie threw his hands up behind them.
"Way to rat me out sis," he exclaimed.
"Like she doesn't know," Eli retorted and everyone snickered.
"Seriously mom we'll be okay," Noah nodded hugging her again.
"It's just two nights," Eli nodded, knowing they were most concerned for him.
"You sure you'll be okay?" She asked and he nodded. "Promise," he said hugging her tightly.
"Alright baby, let's go," El nodded, hugging the kids and taking Teddy's car seat.
The drove to the beach in much needed silence, holding hands and listening to the radio.
When they arrived, Liv took in a large breath of the fresh salt air took Ted from Elliot.
"He needs to eat… I'm gonna sit out back with him if you can bring bags in?"
"Of course, babe," he said, kissing her cheek.
She sat quietly out back with her baby, watching the ocean while he hungrily ate.
"If you didn't know you'd think we starved him," El said, coming up behind her with a laugh.
She smiled up at him and reached up for a kiss. "I love you."
"I love you," he said, pecking her lips. "And I love you my baby boy," he cooed, kissing his cheek.
He sat in the Adirondack beside her and reached to hold her free hand.
There was a nice breeze and the shade of the house covered them. Turning his head, he watched his son nurse and his wife look ahead, rubbing his little leg gently.
She had on no make up and her hair was thrown in a pony tail; she wore a simple white T-shirt with leggings and adidas.
"You look like a mom," he'd teased and she laughed, nodding towards his get up.
"Okay dad."
"Whatcha thinking," she asked him and he smiled small. "That I convinced the most beautiful woman in the whole damn world to marry me and have my baby."
She threw her head back in laughter and he grinned. "Too much of a suck up?" He asked and she nodded. "Always."
"I speak the truth," he shrugged.
"What else? I know you, Stabler."
"Eli," he answered honestly. He was done hiding his feelings from her, and she was thankful for that at least.
Giving his hand a soft squeeze, she nodded. "Me too… but he'll be okay."
"I know but… it's not that I… he was talking earlier about how he couldn't believe Jack could do that and yada yada…" he trailed off and Liv nodded slowly.
"Baby you gotta release the guilt," she whispered.
"I know he was just venting and upset and I don't even think he realized he said it but… you know he was like 'a girl needs her father from a young age, she needs that presence in her life and it's just not fair,'" he sighed, voice cracking.
"Elliot you didn't know," she whispered and his lip quivered. "I should have."
"Should have, could have, would have. You've been in our daughters life for four years, El… you're her everything. You gotta stop beating yourself up."
"You don't think she has issues? That we aren't seeing?"
Liv rolled her head to look at him dramatically, making him laugh.
"Emma Bernadette is the most mature and put together of all of our kids. Any issues she has are gonna be regular puberty things baby. Nothing to do with you."
He nodded thoughtfully and let out a breath.
"You've got a right to feel sad every once in a while, honey. Just don't let it consume you. You're an amazing daddy. And the first 9 years of her life? Nothing compared to the rest with you."
"She knows I love her right?"
"You're her favorite person," she said with a hint of a smile.
"No…"
"Oh yeah. Can you believe she's gonna be in middle school?"
"No, and that's what I'm afraid of. She's gonna be 13 soon. That's when the teen angst starts and I feel like I'm gonna be hearing it a lot… that I wasn't there."
"I don't think so," she shook her head. "She loves you so much. She's Lizzie's mini but they're also very different still."
"Maybe," he said softly.
"If you're nervous, talk to her?"
"You think?"
"Yeah, you two are due for a daddy daughter date anyways and mama needs some time with her boys," she winked.
"I love you," he said, leaning to kiss her.
"I love you baby," she said before his phone pinged.
He opened it and read the message with squinty eyes before setting his phone down with a chuckle and a tear escaping his eyes.
"What?"
He held up the phone to show her the message from their daughter.
Hi daddy!! I hope you are having fun. Scored 5 goals on Eli at camp this morning! Haha.
I miss you already and love you!! Can we hang out this week?
Liv laughed softly and kissed him again. "Mind reader like mommy."
"Seriously," he laughed, texting back.
E: Haha! Good job baby!!!! Miss you and love you so so so so much!!! Yes! Was just talking to mommy about how we are overdue for a daddy daughter date.
Em: Yay!!!! Love you daddy. Tell mommy I said hi and I love her too.
E: She says she loves you more. We'll call later.
He set his phone down and smiled.
"See, you have to worry about nothing," she teased him gently.
Teddy pulled away from her swollen breast and whimpered.
She chuckled and patted his back gently. "You hungry still?"
He whined softly and laid him against her other side and he latched on with no problem.
"He's getting so big," El said with a soft laugh.
"I know right," she chuckled, watching him move around to sit in front of her to he could look at their boy more closely.
"Starting to look more like you, too, just like Emma. I can't believe it."
"No I think he still looks like you," she laughed.
"It's the eyes."
"It is the eyes."
Their little baby's eyes were chocolate brown like his mommas, and were wide and sparkly, which took away from the fact that he shared all his other features with his dad.
Liv shivered a bit and he kissed her. "Let's go inside?"
"Mhm," she whispered, kissing him again.
He held her stand and they went into the brightly colored living room, shutting the door and sitting on the couch.
She got comfy and El squatted down between her kissing her inner thigh.
"God when is the last time we had loud and unhinged sex," she asked softly as he kissed closer to her core.
"Probably our honey moon," he laughed, the vibrations hitting her like a shock wave. "I wanna Bend you over tonight," he said, kissing her through her pants.
She shivered and nodded. "I want you to bend me over now, but our son is the worlds longest eater," she teased, tickling his little cheek.
"You gonna be able to keep feeding him if I eat too?" He asked, looking up at her with wide eyes.
"We can certainly try," she smirked, lifting her hips so he could pull down her leggings and underwear.
"Let me get something to put under you, you're already soaked," he growled, retreating and coming back with a blanket that she adjusted herself on.
"Hmmm…" she mused, relaxing back and getting comfortable with her legs spread wide on the footstool he'd just pushed over to lay across.
"Take your shirt off," he asked softly, palming his growing erection in his shorts.
She had one side lifted up to feed Ted already, and she nodded with a small laugh, motioning for him to help her.
Once she was completely nude with their baby still suckling, he took a step back to admire her.
"You… I mean Olivia Stabler you look unbelievable…"
She laughed softly as Teddy drew away from her breast, burying his face in the side of it and signaling he was finished.
"Perfect timing," she cooed, raising him over her shoulder to burp him lightly, conscious of and growing wetter as Elliots eyes raked over her.
He was asleep almost immediately after his burp, and she carefully passed him to his daddy who set him in the rocker cradle that was in the living room.
Crawling back on top of her, he kissed her slowly and smiled against her lips, tweaking a sensitive nipple and making her gasp.
"Watching you naked and feeding our baby is like… my favorite thing," he whispered against her lips.
She did it often, well- she did it it often because her husband had a knack for pulling her towel off of her when she fed their boy after a shower.
"This is pervey," she'd told him the first time he had done it, but he shook his head.
"No, it's awesome. You're feeding our miracle baby in your most natural state. It makes me want to cry."
"You're ridiculous," she teased him.
"I know it is," she mumbled, pulling him into her and sliding down so he could easily enter her.
"I wanna tease you," he said honestly and she smiled small. "I just want you to make love to me first?" She asked and he nodded, kneeling above her and stroking himself languidly.
"I can do that," he said, coaxing her legs wide and lining up with her entrance.
The pace he set at first was slow and loving and interrupted almost immediately by Teddy's whine.
They both laughed, heads connecting with soft kisses, and he knelt back, pulling out so she could stand.
"Knew you being done so fast was too good to be true," she cooed, lifting the little one and sinking back into the couch and then blanket El held open for her.
He covered them over and Ted latched again.
Elliot laid his head in his wife's lap, pulling a blanket over him and flipping on the TV, and Liv let out a soft breath.
"I'm really horny," she whispered and he laughed.
"Me too baby… why don't you let me warm a bottle for him and you just can relax a bit?"
"No it's okay," she nodded, gently brushing his head.
"Alright," he nodded, laughing when Teddy moved his face again.
"Oh no no… mama knows this game," she teased him.
He'd recently started smiling more, and gave her a toothless and sleepy one before nuzzling her breast gently.
Their little cluster feeder ended up nursing on and off for another hour, and El made his way to the kitchen to whip something for dinner.
He was just in his boxers and mixing a salad when he felt her gentle hands pull down his underwear.
"Well hello," he whispered to her and she smiled, resting her head on his shoulder.
"Baby is passed out and mama needs daddy," she purred, walking seductively away from him and leaning over the kitchen island.
"Fuck," he whined, setting down the bowl and moving behind her, giving her a firm smack on her ass.
The whimper that escaped her mouth at the contact of his hand on her ass made his cock bounce. Pushing into her without warning, she cried out, her breathing immediately going heavy and fast as he took her mercilessly.
Skin slapping and heavy panting was the only sound that filled the room until she pushed up on her hands and grasped his, sneaking it around to hold her throat.
She smirked proudly when the action caused his pace to falter and his cock to twitch deep inside of her, and he answered her with another hard slap on her ass that elicited a strangle cry from her constricted throat.
"No one's here," he grunted, pulling her body flush to his so that she was forced to stand on her tippy toes. With his free hand, he reached around to rub her clit furiously before continuing his sentence. "I wanna hear you."
On command, she let out a shrill moan and gasped for air. "Harder!! Harder harder!!!" She begged, and he obliged as she clenched around him and fell apart in his arms.
"Baby… baby yes Elliot oh fuck Elliot more please fuck yes," she gasped as he released her neck, kissing and sucking where his fingers had been, and pumping himself to release.
"Oh… oh fuck baby oh fuck…" he gasped as he spilled into her and she pushed his hand away from her throbbing and sensitive clit.
"God I love you," she gasped. "I love you, I love you."
"I love you," he said breathlessly, panting into her shoulder as he peppered kisses.
"R-remember… remember that time that we," she was panting wildly and he slipped out of her so she could lean against him, laughing softly.
"Remember that time we fought for like… a week straight and then you showed up at my door and fucked me all night?"
"Oh yes babe… for sure…" he growled, moving them to the couch and remembering back.
"Man they ever gonna stop this," Fin groaned to his partner who shrugged.
"I don't know but I think this is government warfare, sent to drive me insane," Munch sighed as they watched the pair go at it in the interrogation room.
"You're such a fucking prick!" She said to him, trying to get out.
"No, no. We aren't fucking leaving until we fix this!"
"There's nothing to fix! You're an asshole and I don't wanna have anything to do with you right now."
"I didn't do anything!" He groaned and she gave him a look.
"Let me out of here before this gets ugly Elliot."
He stepped from the door and scoffed. "I don't need your pussy anyways," he hissed as she walked away.
Stopping dead in her tracks, she turned back to him with fired in her eyes.
"That why you're being such a little asshole? Cause you aren't getting any?" She scoffed. "You can't live without it, and you know it," she hissed in his ear before storming out.
She returned home and sat on her couch, seething and drinking wine. It was almost 9 when he knocked before using his key to open the door.
"Get out!" She said, standing up as he rushed her and crashed their lips together. Melting into his embrace, she reached immediately for his belt while he worked on pulling her sweats down.
"I missed you," he mumbled and she nodded. "I missed you I hate fighting."
"Me too," she sighed into his mouth as he pushed her back on the couch and climbed into her, sliding into her tight heat with ease.
"Oh fuck El…"
"Liv, baby you're so tight," he grunted, thrusting quickly anyways and giving her no time to adjust.
"God a week was too long," she moaned, gripping his back and short hair while he devoured her neck.
"Mhm why do we fight," he groaned.
"Cause you're a stubborn son of a bitch," she cried out in ecstasy as he kissed back up to her mouth.
"Yeah and you're a pain in my ass," he grunted into her mouth.
"We're a good pair fuck Elliot!!! Right there!!!
"Right there… right there baby yes!!!" She gasped, scratching his bald head as he kissed her and thumbed her nipple.
"I'm so glad we don't fight anymore," he said as they approached their climaxes.
"Got it all out in oh baby…. Yes yes yes!"
"Our 30s and 40s? Mhm we did," he grunted. "I'm gonna cum," he muttered.
"I wanna taste!" She directed, opening her mouth wide and making him moan.
He pulled out quickly, moving up to her mouth and exploding all over her face while brought herself over the edge with her fingers.
"Fuck Olivia," he groaned, looking down at her ruined face right as Teddy whined again.
Liv laughed softly and he did too. "Got him.. go shower," he said, kissing her cum soaked lips softly. "I love you…"
"I love you baby," she sighed happily.
When she emerged from the shower, he was laying with Teddy on his chest and talking to Emma.
"Encanto sounds good," he smiled, watching Liv walk in wrapped in a bathrobe.
"Yeah we can hang in our room and momma and the boys can camp in the living room."
Liv cuddled up beside him and he put the phone on Teddy's back, putting it on speaker.
"Okay good, maybe we can make pizza!"
"Ohhh that'd be fun, baby," he smiled.
"Am I on speaker?"
"Yeah momma just came out of the shower."
"Hi momma!" She said cheerfully, "daddy and I Are planning our date night."
"Oh??" She smiled and El nodded.
"You have the best daddy, you're so lucky, girl."
"He's pretty awesome," she sighed happily. "Can we FaceTime?"
"Sure call us," he nodded, and she did, answering with a cheesy grin and all curled up in her bed.
"There's my gorgeous girl," he smiled and she playfully batted her eyes.
"Like my momma!"
"Just like your momma," he laughed.
"Where's your brothers?" Liv asked and Emma shrugged. "Their rooms I guess. Sammi came over tonight but Dickie made them keep his door open," she clarified and El snorted.
"You have a good big brother."
"That's what Sarah said, he's pretty great. Speaking of brothers, how's my favorite baby brother??"
"Hey!" They heard Noah call as he sprinted into his sisters room and jumped on her.
"I'm teasing," she said dramatically before shaking her head at her parents who laughed.
"I'm bored," he groaned laying against her. "Teddy isn't here and Eli is busy," he said. "You wanna watch a movie??!"
She giggled. "Fine fine okay. Momma, daddy we'll call you later. Bye!"
"Love you guys!"
"Love you two!"
She hung up and they laughed together.
"She just just so Lizzie."
"I know!" Liv exclaimed. "I love it."
"How do you feel about Eli having Sam over?"
She shrugged. "Worried but I'm his mom so… it's what I do."
"I wonder if he's sad that he's not the father? In a way you know?"
"I'm sure he is… he loves that girl so much. Maybe I should take him to the field one day to kick the ball around and we can chat."
She nodded, gently rubbing his bare cheek. "I think that would be good honey. Don't you?"
"Yeah for sure. Just means I gotta plan a dad date with Noah now," he laughed and she giggled. "You're the best Elliot."
They showed up at the soccer field on Sunday to surprise the kids. Teddy was strapped to Liv's chest in his carrier, wearing his little ball cap and they once again were dressed like total parents.
They'd barely sat on the bleachers when Noah spotted them and came sprinting over, curls bouncing wildly.
"Hey man!" El laughed, lifting him and spinning him.
"You came back early!"
"We missed you guys," Liv smiled, kissing his cheek.
"Missed you. Mostly missed you," he said, lifting his baby brothers hat and kissing his little head.
Emma hit El like a bus next and he laughed, putting Noah down and hugging her into him.
"Hi baby girl, oh I missed you!!"
"Dad I gotta show you this crazy trick I learned!" She said, dragging him to her field as Eli jogged over and high fived them as they passed, leaning in to kiss his baby brothers head when he got to his mom.
"Oh my gooosh I missed you, dude," he said as Ted looked up to him in awe.
Noah had run away and sprinted back over with Mike and Jacob to get waters and snacks they'd brought. "Mom this is Mike," he gave her a sly and knowing look.
"Hi Mike it's great to meet you, honey," she smiled warmly, shaking the timid boy's hand.
"N-nice to meet you too, C-Captain."
"Thanks for the snacks, Cap," Jacob said, giving her a side hug and gently patting Teddy's back.
"No problem guys, Jacob I texted your mom you're gonna come home with us."
"She told me, thanks Cap!" He smiled, running away and making googly eyes as he passed Emma.
"Mike take whatever you'd like," she smiled and he nodded nervously, taking a snack and water before thanking her and following Jacob.
"I'm trying," Noah said when he was out of earshot.
"My sweet boy," she cooed, pulling him in for a hug. "I'm so proud of you baby."
"Thanks mom," he smiled before running off, leaving Eli and Liv standing there.
"Nice man bun," she teased and he laughed.
"Emma did it. She was thrilled."
"I bet," she laughed.
"Hey I can't tell dad this cause his heart will explode but uh… you know Em's almost 13 and Jacob is 13…" he trailed off giving her a look. "Might wanna do a refresher on that conversation. He won't stop staring at her and of I didn't love the kid I'd kill him."
Liv couldn't help her laughter and nodded, nudging him. "Might be good to give the big brother talk huh?"
"Don't have to tell me twice," he laughed. "Sam is gonna come for a bit then go to lunch with us. That okay?"
"Of course honey," she smiled, trying to hide her nervousness.
"Mama," he said with a gentle smile.
"I know… I trust you I just worry. You're my baby," she smiled, getting a little misty.
"Always will be," he reminded her, kissing her cheek and sprinting off.
She was relaxed on the bleachers when Sammi walked up tentatively.
"Hi, Liv," she whispered.
"Hi baby," she smiled, patting the spot beside her. "How you feeling? Nose looks better," she gave a warm smile and Sam breathed out a sigh, holding her belly.
"I'm okay… arm hurts but… had a check up today and she's doing great so," she nodded
"Well that's good but how are you?"
She shrugged and looked down. "I'm dealing…"
Liv moved closer and wrapped her arm around her gently. Sam melted into her embrace.
"Jack texted me… saw on the news and…" she sighed. "What's to be in her life. Said it felt like a second chance…"
Liv took a deep breath. "What did you say?"
"I would think about it Um… Eli and I talked about it and… Jack wants uh to talk to him."
"Well…. It's your decision honey… not Eli's."
"I know, I know I just…." She trailed off when Eli came sprinting over.
"Hey," he smiled, sitting beside her and kissing her cheek.
"Nice bun," she cracked and he laughed.
"Emma," they said together.
"Alright well I gotta get back, some scouts here today," he said standing.
"I thought dad suddenly looked too nervous," Liv teased and he nodded running off with a laugh.
"I want him to be the star he's meant to be and he won't do it if I let him be anything to this baby," she confessed and Liv nodded slowly.
"He will if you set boundaries," she nodded.
"I…" she sighed softly and Liv kissed her head. "How about I chat with him?"
She nodded, putting a hand over her belly that seemingly popped overnight.
"Any names?" She asked her with a small smile and Sam nodded, tears forming. "I haven't told anyone yet…"
"You can tell me," she smiled, nudging her gently.
Sucking in a deep breath she nodded. "Jamie Olivia," she smiled small, "but gonna call her JoJo." Liv blinked away tears, kissing her head. "I love it."
Later that night, Liv knocked gently on Eli's door.
"Come in…"
"Hi," she smiled small, sitting on the edge of his bed.
He took a deep breath as tears filled his eyes.
"Baby…"
"Momma…" he whispered, sitting up and leaning into her.
Her arms wrapped tightly around him and she kissed his head repeatedly as he echoed the words she'd said about him to his father many times.
"She should have been mine…" he sobbed into her chest.