TW: Mentions of rape and infertility

Short A/N: I don't like the fact that Regina never really got to tell Robin she can't have children so that's why I fixed it

Takes place at 4x21 at the bar in the cafe in New York. It's from Robin's POV because I think the writers really needed tot show us how he felt about this situation as well.

You're tied together in a way... in a way we'll never be.'

Regina spat out these words. I was confused what she was talking about, so I looked at her and I saw nothing but pain in her eyes. I thought about how much I'd hurt her and was angry with myself because I should've noticed Marian wasn't really Marian. God, how could I've been such a fool!

I thought about what regina had just said again and I finally understood what she was trying to tell me, she can't have children. 'Regina, I'm so sorry, I-I.' I tried to say something to comfort her but it seemed like the more I said, the worse it got. At that moment, I wanted nothing more than to pull her in my arms and tell her that everything would be okay, but I wasn't so sure that it actually would be.

'It's not your fault, I did this to myself, so I have to bear the consquenses of it. I was such a fool thinking live wouldn't kick me in the face again.' I saw a tear running down her face. I felt the urge to cry as well, I did not only hurt by getting her wicked sister pregnant (which makes me feel disgusting), but also the fact that her sister is carrying my child and she would never be able do that. 'I understand if you want to move on with her you know'. What did she just say, did she really think I would choose that witch above her?! God, how much had I hurt her?

'Don't ever think she can replace you Regina, you may not be able to give birth to a child but we already have Henry and Roland and you're an amazing mom to them. Just as long as we're together, I'm happy, really.' I saw a watery but genuine smile appearing on her face. Oh just how much I missed that face.

Even though I said I had moved on with 'Marian' that wasn't true. All I could think of was Regina and wondering if I would ever be able to see her again. When she knocked on that door and I saw her, I was so happy but I also knew I couldn't leave 'Marian' because she was carrying our child. I was so wrong, even if had been really Marian, I said I chose Regina and that was true, but I still had sex with Marian two weeks after we left Storybrooke. It was because I thought I would never see her again and that thought was too much too bear, so I thought if I would try to move on with Marian and have a another child, it was possible for me to forget about Regina. But it only made things worse. I felt so bad after I made 'love' to Marian, knowing that I had betrayed Regina. And when she told me she was pregnant, I could only think about how much I wished it was Regina telling me that.

But it was neither of them, no it was Regina's wicked sister Zelena. I felt disgusted knowing that I had sex with her, that she tricked me into thinking it was my wife.

But this is the situation right now and we have to make the best out of it. The best I could make out of this is that Regian would become the mother of my child, no our chid. But I think it's a little too early too ask her that, which I understand completely.

'Robin are you okay, you're zoning out.'

'Yes I'm fine' because I'm with you now (I only finished that sentence in my head). But I wanted to be with her forever so I asked her: 'Between us, are we together again?'.

'Only if you want to'.

'I would love that more than anything milady', I replied (and it was the truth). I saw a beautiful smile appearing on her face and there appeared one on mine as well.

And maybe it was only for this moment, but I got the feeling that maybe, just maybe everything really would be okay.