JENNIE
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"Where have you been?" Rosé asked me as I walked out of the restaurant.
"You don't want to know." I made a face. "Where were you?"
"You don't want to know either." Rosé made a face and we just stared at each other for a few seconds.
"Oh Chaeng. I'm so dead."
"What did you do?"
"I was in the restr—"
"There you are." Jisoo rushed out of the restaurant. "I've been looking for you." She gave me a disapproving look.
"I'm here. What do you want?" I asked her and looked at the side of her head. I was too embarrassed to look into her eyes. I didn't want her to see my shame.
"I wanted to say sorry." She bit down on her lower lip and I looked up at her in shock. Say what?
"Huh?" I looked at Rosé who also looked like she was in disbelief.
"I wanted to apologize to both of you." She sighed. "I've been a bitch and been rude to both of you." She looked into my eyes and I was surprised to see a look of sincerity as she gazed at me. "I guess I've always been jealous of your friendship and I lashed out this morning. I shouldn't have."
"What?" I said and swallowed hard. Why did she have to choose today to change into a loving and changed big sister? Why did she have to choose the moment right after I'd betrayed her? Why oh why?
"I've been rude and mean." She grabbed my hand. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said those things this morning or the other day."
"I, uh, what brought this about?"
"I had a talk with Kai." She said softly. "He knew about the baby before. And he knows it's not Lisas." She bit down on her lower lip. "I'm in a really lucky position to have found a woman like Lisa."
"Oh?" I smiled weakly. Please do not say that you're in love with her now. Please, please, please.
"She didn't have to take on me and a baby that wasn't hers." She nodded. "I know that, but I'm so grateful that she is—"
"I'm so excited for you." Rosé interrupted her and I was never more grateful to her than I was in that moment. I wasn't sure I could stand there and listen to Jisoo go on and on about Lisa any more without throwing up. "You must be so excited to plan the wedding."
"Yeah, I am." Jisoo nodded and sighed.
"Must feel nice to know that a girl like Lisa wants to date someone like you?"
"What the fuck does that mean?" Jisoo snapped and I froze at her tone. Rosé and I looked at each other for a few seconds and I knew we were both thinking the same thing. Had Jisoo really had a change of heart or had someone put her up to this?
"There you are." Lisa and Haruto walked out of the restaurant and I avoided her glance as she looked my way. "Did you speak to your sister, Jisoo?" Lisa asked and I knew that she had put her up to her apology.
"Yes." Jisoo snapped and Rosé and I smiled at each other.
"Good." Lisa walked over to me and tapped me on the shoulder. "You had us all worried."
"What? Why?"
"You just disappeared." Her eyes burned into mine.
"Disappeared."
"Yes." She gave me a small smile. "I was worried you had disappeared or fell into a hole or something."
"Yeah, I'm sure you were."
"She's fine." Rosé stepped forward with a frown and glared at Lisa. "There's no need to worry."
"Okay." Lisa looked at Rosé and back at me and I knew she was wondering why Rosé was being so cold. To be honest, I was surprised as well. I'd never seen Rosé look at someone like that before.
"Let's go and wait by the car." Rosé grabbed my arm and we walked away from Lisa. I could feel her watching us as we walked away.
"What was all that about?" I asked her with a side look.
"I don't like her." She made a face. "She shouldn't be playing you and your sister. She's a dick. I don't like her trying to rile you up."
"Yeah, I don't know what game she's playing at." I nodded.
"Just stay away from her." She looked at me as we reached the car. "She thinks she can have her cake and eat it too, I think not. I mean she was cool for a wedding hookup, but you deserve more than the crap she's dishing out right now."
"Yeah, I can't believe I just had sex with her again."
"You what?" Rosé's jaw dropped.
"Yup." I nodded with a red face.
"Where?" She shook her head and looked around.
"In the restroom." I whispered.
"I'm not even going to ask." She giggled. "Oh Jen."
"What?" I groaned and buried my face in my hands. "I suck, don't I?"
"I don't know. Did you?" She giggled again and wiggled her eyebrows.
"No, I did not suck her off in the bathroom." I laughed. "And no she didn't get a chance to use her miracle tongue either."
"Just her miracle dick?"
"Rosé." I bit my lower lip and groaned again. "Shit, it was so hot. So hot and so bad."
"That's because bad is always hot." She looked around before speaking again. "Was it as good as last time?"
"It was even better." I wailed. "Why, why, why? Why did this have to happen to me?"
"It's not your fault."
"I always meet the shitty guys."
"Yeah, but at least this one is shitty and good in bed."
"Or in the public restroom." I laughed.
"I don't understand why we can't meet good guys." She sighed. "What's wrong with us? We're good women. We're pretty. Honest. Fun loving. Shit, if I was a lesbian I'd date both of us."
"You'd date yourself?"
"Hell ya." She grinned. "I'm pretty awesome."
"That is true."
"I just wish someone other than the two of us knew that." She sighed and leaned back against the car. "What's wrong with us Jen? Why do we always find ourselves in these messes?"
"What happened with you?" I asked softly. "I told you about me and Lisa, but what happened with you just now?"
"I was flirting with the waiter to try and make Hanbin jealous and well the waiter tried to kiss me and Hanbin saw and gave me a look that made me feel like a tramp."
"Oh Rosé." I sighed, glad that she hadn't been flirting with Tae. Imagine if she had caused some sort of fist fight between them. That would have made my family a sideshow circus. Not that we weren't already half way there.
"I know. I'm a mess."
"We're both messes." I laughed.
"What are we going to do?"
"We need to forget about all of them. Let's go out tonight and meet some new guys and have some fun."
"You want to?" Rosé didn't look enthused about the idea.
"Yes! We don't need them! We're two hot girls. We need two hot men that will appreciate us."
"I don't know." She made a face. "When we went out in college, we never had much luck."
"That's because we were nerds." I giggled. "And we didn't know how to play the game. We both played it safe and settled for losers. You dated Mino and now he's married to Irene, our ex-roommate. And I dated Justin and Evan and well, we both know how great they were."
"Evan was addicted to his PlayStation." Rosé giggled.
"And my panties." I shuddered. "And not in the sexy way either."
"There's a sexy way?" Rosé looked at me curiously.
"Yeah, the steal and sniff sexy way." I made a face. "Okay, that sounds perverted when I say it out loud, but that's kinda sexy because you know you turn your man on. I mean, if you're going to steal my panties, do it because you're sniffing them or whacking off into them. Don't do it because you want to wear them."
"I wish I would have seen his face when you caught him in your black thong and red lipstick."
"He ruined the lipstick as well. It was the Chanel tube as well. I spent 42 dollars on that lipstick and he didn't even replace it."
"I dare say he stretched out the thong as well." Rosé giggled.
"He did." I giggled as well. "I gave it to him as a parting gift when we broke up."
"Oh Evan, I thought he was a weirdo from the beginning." Rosé said. "I mean what guy brings over his PlayStation and games every time he's staying at his girlfriends' house?"
"A loser guy, that's who!" I groaned. "Not that Justin was any better."
"True." Rosé agreed with me. "What was up with his hair?"
"His hair was the least of his problems." I giggled as I remembered my other ex. "Remember when we caught him using your concealer to cover up his acne."
"I know." She groaned. "I caught him using my toothbrush once as well. He was so gross."
"Ugh, I always seem to pick the worst guys."
"Don't look now, but the posse is headed towards us." Rosé said softly.
"Ugh, I don't even want to see Lisa or Jisoo's face. Please say we can go out tonight."
"Fine." She grinned. "Let's see how much more trouble we can get ourselves into.
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"Let's play scrabble tonight." Tae popped his head into my room later that afternoon.
"Sorry, we're going out." I looked up at him from my vanity.
"Going out where?" He frowned. "That's no fair."
"Rosé and I are going out to meet some men as we don't want to end up as old maids."
"It's too late for that." He grinned and I poked him in the abdomen. "Ouch, that hurt."
"Good." I made a face at him. "Now scram, Rosé and I are trying out my different eye shadows."
"You both look like clowns." Tae said with a straight face as he looked at me and then at Rosé. "Clowns that should stay home and play scrabble tonight."
"Nope." I shook my head and stood up. "Not going to happen."
"Hey guys, we're playing scrabble tonight." Hanbin walked into the bedroom and I groaned loudly.
"Rosé and I are going out tonight. We will not be partaking in the family scrabble tournament."
"What do you mean, you and Chaeng are going out?" Hanbin looked at Rosé and frowned. "This is meant to be a family weekend."
"I've had enough family for the day." I walked to my closet and opened the doors. "Tonight I need to forget about family."
"Jen," He started and I turned around to look at him with fire in my eyes. If he dared to try and tell me I couldn't go, I was going to hit him. "Fine, have fun." He said simply and my jaw dropped open in shock.
"What, that's it?"
"You're an adult. You can do what you want."
"Oh my God, it's the end of the world." I looked at Rosé with a smile. "Hanbin is not trying to tell me what I can and can't do."
"I guess miracles do happen." She said softly and I watched as Hanbin laughed.
"I guess so." I pulled out a black slinky dress that I'd worn in college and showed it to her. "Should I wear this tonight?"
"That's hot." Rosé nodded. "Definitely wear that dress."
"Okay, this is my cue to leave." Tae hurried out of the bedroom and Hanbin, Rosé and I all looked at each other.
"So where are you two going?" Hanbin asked softly and I gave him a weird look. Why was he still in the room? Why did he care where we were going? Men are so difficult to understand. I had no clue what Hanbin was up to and he's my brother.
"Not sure yet. That's all Jen's decision."
"Oh okay, you trust her?" Hanbin joked and my jaw opened even wider. Was that my brother teasing Rosé?
"Yeah, I trust her." Rosé smiled and blushed.
"What sort of place are you guys looking for?" Hanbin asked again.
"We're looking for a place with hot men that will devour us." I said with a laugh.
"Hmmm." Hanbin looked at me with a disapproving look. "I know a nice wine bar if you guys are interested in that?"
"No, we're going to dirty dance and grind. Maybe we'll drink some wine as well, but we want loud music and fast men." I danced around and started moving my body back and forth. "I want a man that knows how to move to some hip hop, baby."
"Okay." Hanbin frowned. "That sounds like fun."
"It will be." I smiled at him sweetly.
"Maybe I'll come as well."
"What?" My smile left my face. "No, you can't come."
"Come where?" Lisa walked into my room.
"What is going on in here?" I turned away from her. "Why does everyone think they can just walk into my room?"
"Maybe because you have an open door policy?" Lisa answered with a smirk and I just rolled my eyes. What had I ever seen in this insufferable woman?
"It's not open to you."
"What do you want Lisa?" Rosé glared at her and a surge of happiness washed through me. This was why Rosé was my best friend. This was why I trusted her with my life. She always had my back.
"Girls." Hanbin frowned as he looked at us. "Why are you being so hostile to Lisa?"
"I don't think we're being hostile." I said sweetly and turned to Lisa. "Do you think we're being hostile?"
"No," She stared into my eyes. "I don't."
"So how can I help you, Lisa? Did you get lost? Do you need me to help you find Jisoo's room?" I turned back to my closet and picked up a red dress. "Or this one?" I showed it to Rosé and she nodded enthusiastically.
"Maybe try them both on and let me see what they look like."
"You're wearing a dress to play scrabble tonight?" Lisa looked confused. "A bright red dress with a long slit. What kind of scrabble game is this?" She grinned and looked at Hanbin.
"They're going out dancing." Hanbin shook his head as if to say typical girls.
"Dancing?" Lisa looked at me. "I didn't know we were going dancing tonight."
"We're not going anywhere. Rosé and I are going."
"Just you and Rosé?" Lisa looked at Hanbin. "Is that safe?"
"What do you mean is that safe? We're women, not little girls." I growled at her.
"I wanted to go with them as well, but they said no." Hanbin said softly and I saw him looking at Rosé.
"Well I suppose you guys can come." Rosé said weakly and I gave her a death glare.
"Sorry guys, you're not coming. It's a girls night out." I put my hands on my hips. "Rosé and I need to meet some hot guys."
"What?" Lisa frowned again. And this time her green eyes looked at me furiously. "Is that a good idea?"
"Yes, why wouldn't it be?" I asked her with a sass I never knew I possessed before.
"I just don't think it's a good idea." Her lips thinned.
"And you thought I was overprotective." Hanbin laughed then. "Looks like you have another big sister who is going to boss you around, Jen."
"Oh yay, another annoying big sister." I groaned and then walked over and gave Lisa a quick hug and a kiss on the cheek. "Welcome to the family, big sis."
"Thanks." Lisa looked at me with a weird expression on her face. I could see that I'd knocked her off of her feet slightly. I didn't know what she was thinking, but I did know that she wasn't acting as cocky and confident as she had before.
"Now scram, I want to try on my dresses."
"Yeah, I want to try on my dresses as well." Rosé said and looked at Hanbin. "Please vacate the room."
"We're out of here." Hanbin grinned at her and I felt like puking. It looked like it was really going to happen. Rosé was going to end up dating Hanbin and they were going to get married and I was going to have to be around him forever.
"Or we can help you both decide." Lisa said, not moving.
"Huh?" I looked at her with narrowed eyes, my heart racing "What do you mean?"
"We can tell you which dresses look best."
"This isn't Pretty Woman." I scoffed. "We don't need your help."
"Fine." She shrugged. "No hair off my back."
"See ya then."
"Let's go, Lisa." Hanbin walked out of the bedroom and Lisa followed behind him.
"He's a hard guy to figure out isn't he?" Rosé sighed.
"Yes, she is. I just don't get her at all."
"Is it sad that all I can think about is what it would be like to kiss him?" Rosé said wistfully and I froze.
"You want to kiss Lisa?"
"What? No. I'm talking about Hanbin."
"Oh, sorry. I was talking about Lisa."
"Ugh!" She shook her head and I made a face.
"I'm going to go to the study to read for a bit." I said. I needed to get out of the room and clear my thoughts as I felt confused and muddled about my feelings.
"Okay. Sounds good. We can try on the dresses in a couple of hours?"
"Yes! Let's do that."
"Okay, I'm going to have a nap now then." She yawned. "I'm still a bit exhausted."
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Jealousy is one of those emotions that I love to hate. I hate feeling jealous because it makes me feel inadequate, but I love it when someone is jealous over me. It's a weird thing, jealousy. There is such a fine line to walk without seeming crazy. I have to admit I was jealous over the relationship my sister had with Lisa, even though they had never had sex. Supposedly. I don't know any platonic friends that get engaged. It makes me burn inside. I mean, it's not like Lisa's mine, but I kinda had a thing for her. I wanted her to want me to be her fake fiancé. Why couldn't she have asked me to marry her? Though that could be more complicated for us. Seeing as we had sex and all. And seeing as I had real emotions for her. I just didn't know why they were getting married; especially because she was pregnant with another mans' baby.
"What you reading?" Her deep voice interrupted my thoughts as she walked into the study and sat next to me on the couch.
"Hemingway." I said the first name that came into my head. "Ernest Hemingway. For Whom The Bell Tolls." I continued, not sure where the lies were coming from as I hid the cover of my Fifty Shades of Grey book. I didn't need her thinking I was a nymphomaniac. I didn't know what ideas she might get into her mind if she knew I was reading a book about BDSM. I did not need her tying me up on my father's desk and fucking me with my ass in the air as she spanked me for being a naughty girl. I didn't need her doing that at all, though I had to admit that the thought of that happening was quite exciting. Maybe we could role play: she could be Christian Grey and I could be Ana. Only I didn't want to do any of the hardcore stuff like being whipped. I wasn't sure I'd enjoy being whipped. Though I wouldn't mind being spanked with her hot sexy firm hands.
"Oh really?" Her eyes looked impressed as she gazed at me and I wondered if she looked at my sister like that as well.
"Oh really what?" I said distracted by her gaze.
"Oh really, you're reading Hemingway." She grinned. "Which book again?"
"The Old Man and The Sea." I said quickly and then swore under my breath. "I mean For Whom The Bell Tolls." I blushed and looked down. That was why I wasn't going to let her tie me up and have sex with me in the study. When I was around her, my brain went to shit. Who knew what would happen if we got really down and dirty?
"Oh what's it about?"
"What's what about?" I asked her blankly as I imagined her spanking me lightly and then a little harder. I wondered how into the spanking she would get. Would my ass sting from her touch or would it merely tingle.
"The book." Her eyes teased me as she sat there.
"Oh it's about a man waiting by a church." I said weakly. "He goes to the church every day and waits for the bell to ring."
"He goes to wait for the bell to ring?" Lisa's lips twitched.
"Yeah." I nodded. "It's a magical book and it only rings for wizards. Like Harry Potter, you know?"
"Hmm, I see." She grinned and then grabbed the book from my hand. "Fifty Shades of Grey?" She said as she looked at the cover. "Is this a new one by Hemingway then? One I haven't heard of before?"
"Give it back." I snatched it back from her, my face a deep, dark red. "What are you doing in here anyway? Haven't you bothered me enough for the day?"
"I didn't know you'd be in here. I thought you were doing your fashion show with Rosé."
"Ha ha, fashion show indeed. We're just trying on outfits and deciding what we both look best in."
"If you say so." She opened the book. "Now tell me what this book is about."
"It's just a romance book." I blushed and reached over for the book. "Give it back to me."
"I have a question." She hands me the book, her eyes sparkling.
"What?" I snapped, embarrassed that she'd called me out.
"What's a Christian Grey-flavored popsicle?" She asked with light eyes.
"What?" I frowned at her and then hit her on the shoulder with the book. "You're a pervert."
"I'm the pervert?" She grinned. "I'm not the one reading porn in the middle of the day."
"I'm not reading porn." I growled at her.
"I mean if you're feeling horny, I can help you out."
"Help me out?"
"With my miracle tongue." She grinned and then flicked her tongue back and forth at me. I have to admit that the sight of her long pink tongue moving sensually across her mouth did turn me on. A lot. I could feel it in my panties and in the heaviness in my breasts.
"Lisa." I shook my head. "Have you no shame?"
"No." She leaned forward and I felt her tongue in my ear. "I have no shame at all." She whispered and then sucked on my earlobe. "Let me make you come, Jen. Let me take your panties off with my teeth and let me take you to the top of the cliff and back down with my tongue. It wants to be inside of you as much as you want it inside of you."
"Actually." I jumped up off of the couch and dropped the book into her lap. "I don't care about your tongue at all. I don't need your tongue inside of me. And I certainly don't need to be taken up and down a cliff, thank you very much."
"Are you sure about that?" Her fingers ran across my trembling lips. "Climbing cliffs is very enjoyable."
"Yeah well, I've been down that road and have no need to go back." I pushed her hand away and quickly walked out of the study, my heart racing at her touch. Why oh why did Lisa affect me so badly. She was like a drug my body desperately craved that I knew was very bad for me. She was slowly, but surely making me an addict and I knew that my addiction was leading me nowhere good. I knew I had to wean myself off of her before it was too late. I was not going to let Lisa and her miracle tongue bring me down, any further than I already was.
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