After a lot of weeks (maybe month? Not really sure, days blend when you're not doing anything) I began to feel comfortable enough to start "playing" with the restrictive seals on my ankles.
Being only nine or ten month old (no birthday party yet, so I guess it's not been that long) I had trouble even touching them at first.
So, I started to try to get a 'feel' with the burgeoning Chakra the seals let me have.
Chakra is weird. It's like having warm water in your veins. Fluid but also physical. Somehow.
Like having an extra arm or maybe a tail but not the required muscles to use it.
It's just there.
And I will use my tail, I will show it to the world!
…
Wait, that sounded better in my head.
I will use my third arm and…
…
You know what? Fuck metaphors.
But doing something about those bindings is easier said than done.
Currently I feel the 'warm water' (this metaphor is good, I'll keep it) around my stomach, swirling and resting like a cat in a blanket.
I should try to push it to my feet, like in the story.
Maybe it'll do something and It's not like I have anything better to do...
Or maybe it will drain everything and I'll be dying again while everyone sleeps.
Yeah, bad plan, now that I think of it.
Well, there goes my only credible option to do something about it. Not that I can realistically move my feet, since I can't even feel them yet.
So, for the future days (month?) after this, I played with my Chakra (notice the absence of metaphors).
I tried to make it swirl faster inside me, faster and faster. Then further away from whatever the fuck a "hara" is.
Wait, is it even called hara? Or hana? Fuck I have no clue about how the thing I'm trying to use is even NAMED!
But still it felt… liberating to use this weird power.
But then, drunk on this new feeling, even before I realized what I had done, a tiny bit of the swirl of energy inside me grazed the protective band on my ankle. The seal inside it was suddenly weakened.
I stopped immediately but it was too late.
Like so many months before the feeling of drowning came again with a vengeance.
It was lesser, somehow, so I did my best to use what little control I had to stop it from concentrating in my lungs.
I tried to redirect this flood of feelings everywhere that weren't my lungs. My arms, my ears, my nose, even my brain.
Fortunately, the seal was only slightly touched and resumed working after a few seconds that felt like an hour.
It left me panting like crazy, but alive. While I was catching my breath, I thought about what I just felt.
Then I heard a nurse turning a page of her book in the hall next to me. Her regular breathing was only perturbed by the occasional yawn or sips of her coffee.
Someone was snoring in his bed, above me.
The beating of my heart was normal. Loud, but normal And then… Every feeling started to flood me again.
I heard civilians working during the night. The smell of a neighboring bakery preparing their bread came to my nose.
So many things.
I heard a cart loaded with something move close to the hospital. His driver was almost sleeping and reeked of sweat.
So… many… things…
I heard the footsteps of ninjas using the hospital roof as stepping stones.
Too… much… things… AT ONCE….
The EKG close to me started to beep even louder and faster.
Make it stop!
The deafening noise of that fucking machine was only dwarfed by the smell of the burnt coffee in the resting room. I heard the sound of the nurse's chair, she almost trashed it against the wall while running toward my room.
"MAKE IT STOP! PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!"
I screamed with the omnipotent power of my tiny lungs while the nurse barged into my room, almost falling against the visitor's chair and rushed to me.
I recognized her immediately, Akari again. Please don't start talking about your husband, please.
I saw her checking my pulse and temperature at the same time so quickly her hands were a blur.
I saw her eyes open with terror when she noticed the faulty seal on my ankle and starts to channel Chakra through it.
No! No Chakra! Not so close to me!
I tried to scream and brace for the inevitable flood of sensations but it never came.
Instead, her right hands started to glow green while her left became white.
She put her left hand on the seal on my ankle and the sound around me began to recede.
But then she put her green hand on my head, trying to calm me and… screamed.
"WHAT IS THIS!? WHAT IS THIS! MAKE IT STOP! DOCTOR! MAKE IT STOP! "
She put her hands on her ears and dropped to their knees. Fortunately what she did to my seals made the noise much more manageable.
I heard a commotion above me and I heard the person that was snoring in the chamber above me rise up then… vanish?
"What's going on here! Akari!? What's wrong!? "
"DOCTOR! MAKE IT STOOOOOP!"
Akari was still holding her ears in her hands, her elbows trying to hide her eyes, trashing on the floor.
Without hesitation the doctor, who body-flickered in my room, went into motion, with nothing more than a finger on the nurse's forehead he stunned her cold.
Then he turned his attention to me and put his hand above my head.
The sound stopped.
Everything stopped as I happily passed the fuck out.